Author's Note: Sorry about the delay I was pretty depressed and my muse died for a little so sorry about the wait.

Disclaimer: I want them I want them!... But I don't own them. (Tear)

WARNING: This chapter has man sex…. Towards the end if you are reading for plot then you may skip it. Also know that there will be more talk of rape…. Oh and of course just cause I want to say it one more time YAOI!

Chapter9) Tell me

The morning had gone by so slowly and the slight tension was starting to get at both Lu Xun and Zhang He. So Zhang He had gone out to the garden thinking on what he should do. He couldn't turn Lu Xun over to Sima Yi that was final but if Pang De came back and saw Lu Xun or knew he had him then they both would pay. Yet he couldn't just let Lu Xun go part of it was selfish reasoning but the other reason was that they sat in the middle Wei territory there were no other Wu officers…. Or were there? How could he ask the other with out raising suspicion?... Zhang He smiled to himself he just how to get the answers he wanted, though normally he'd go to Zhen Ji she was to close to their emperor for his taste right now, so he'd just have to talk to Xu Huang. Yet he could talk with him later. Zhang he rested his head against the tree he was leaning against letting his mind drift away from his troubles. He smiled softly to himself he knew, Xu Huang would help him after all he had in the past, even when he was being stupid. Zhang He jumped a little surprised by the sound of foot steps Lu Xun come out into the garden obviously looking for him but didn't want to be found.

Lu Xun up till this point had been arguing with himself, for part of him was really taking to Zhang He. He was crushing on him hard, his enemy and yet right now his protector. It amazed him that Zhang He was choosing him over the Lord he had served for the war, the side he was on.

"What can I do for you Lu Xun?" Zhang He smiled almost seeing the blush that probably crossed Lu Xun's face.

"What makes you think I came out here looking for you!" Lu Xun said walking out from his stop and closer to Zhang He. Zhang He chuckled to himself Lu Xun was being absolutely adorable in the way he denied what he was doing.

"If that's what you say." Zhang He said.

"Well it's true!" Lu Xun argued pouting a little. Lu Xun looked over at Zhang He wanting so badly to ask why the hell he was so bothered by his past… But it wasn't his place that's what someone close to you would do and he wasn't close to Zhang he or was he?... NO! Definitely not close with Zhang He. But he wanted to be close… What! Where the hell did that come from no he didn't' want to be close! Lu Xun closed his eyes hoping his cheeks weren't red as he battled with himself trying to tell himself he didn't like Zhang He.

"Lu Xun I have an idea if you're up for it." Zhang He smiled and Lu Xun looked petrified again. "I was wondering if you wanted to spar." Zhang He said shaking his head why did Lu Xun always have to get the wrong idea?

"Sparring?" Lu Xun looked over at Zhang He in interest.

"Yes sparring." Zhang He smile. "No weapons though, just hand to hand combat."

"Fine." Lu Xun smiled.

"Then come on." Zhang He smiled taking Lu Xun down to a place with a large clearing. Once down there Zhang He walked to the opposite side of Lu Xun. Zhang He and Lu Xun began to circle each other carefully getting closer, Zhang He was first to lung throwing a quick punch Lu Xun's way which was easily blocked.

"Hey! Be serious! I thought you respected me." Lu Xun spat, for the first time he thought he might have fun but Zhang He wasn't even trying with that first pathetic attempt.

"Alright." Zhang He laughed in all honesty he had meant the only thing to be a game a joke but if Lu Xun seriously wanted to spar then fine. It was almost like a well practiced dance once they began. Dodging, blocking, and trying to land a blow on the other to take them down and claim victory. Smiles rose to both their faces, this was one thing both of them could agree on that was fun, for now at least. Lu Xun was loving it, the challenge was nice and he'd be able to beat Zhang he and rub it in his face when this was down. An opening appeared and it was taken. Lu Xun and Zhang He hit the ground, with Lu Xun on top pinning his hands up by his head. Zhang He's eyes went wide and out of instinct he rough fully threw Lu Xun off him and pinned his hands above his head squeezing his wrist hard.

"OW! Zhang He stop!" Lu Xun yelled and Zhang He snapped back letting go of Lu Xun's wrist.

"Lu Xun… I'm sorry…." Zhang He said shaking a little as he backed off Lu Xun and disappeared back into his home.

"Zhang!" Lu Xun called after him. Frowning Lu Xun followed Zhang He inside. "Zhang He!... Zhang He?" LU Xun ran to catch up to Zhang He.

"Lu Xun I'm sorry, for that." Zhang He smiled weakly stopping when Lu Xun touched his shoulder.

"It's my fault."

"How! You didn't know wha…." Zhang He stopped. He didn't want to seem like a whiny little kid too Lu Xun nor did he want to talk about it.

"Know what?" Lu Xun asked eyeing Zhang He. "Tell me."

"I can't." Zhang He snapped, before apologizing quickly and tried to walk off again.

"Zhang He stop!" Lu Xun yelled catching Zhang He's arm. He wanted to know what was bugging Zhang He and…. Comfort him?... He did want to comfort Zhang He, he wanted to be closer. Zhang He was about to say something else but Lu Xun didn't want to hear it. Reaching up Lu Xun quickly and cautiously pressed his lips to Zhang He's but pulled back before he could react. Zhang He stood there mouth slightly opened staring at the flush and embarrassed Lu Xun. "Don't apologize again, or say anything stupid." Lu Xun smiled softly looking away from Zhang He. Zhang He slide one hand underneath Lu Xun's chin tilting his face up towards his own.

"I won't." Zhang He smiled pressing their lips together for a passionate kiss, even if it was out in the middle of the hall way. "Come I'm sure you're hungry." Zhang He smiled. Lu Xun didn't say anything but followed he was to caught up in trying to figure out why he had kissed Zhang He…Well he knew why but he was Zhang He's slave!... But Zhang He didn't want him to be a slave… He wanted Lu Xun as a companion, and more… He wanted it to be more. He wasn't sure when he came to this reasoning… but it's hard not to when the person looking out for you is placing a lot on the line just to protect you, they freak out when they realize they hurt you but you were sparring! Lu Xun had truly never looked into love in the past with the war taking up all his time, even if the other guys laughed and said he was missing out. Lu Xun frowned at the thought of his comrades. How many were dead who still lived, would he see them again?

"Lu Xun are you alright?" Zhang he asked surprising Lu Xun a bit.

"I'm fine." Lu Xun said. "Just hoping my comrades are alright." Lu Xun frowned. Zhang He wrapped an arm around him and pulling him close, hushing him and telling everything would be alright.

"Come on, now let's go eat." Zhang He smiled.

"Zhang He why are you choosing to protect me instead of siding with your side." Lu Xun asked, yet again.

"Lu Xun, it's because well frank I like you a lot more than several people on my side. Lu Xun I just don't want to see anything bad happen to you. That's the truth." Zhang He caressed Lu Xun's face. Lu Xun smiled ducking his head, so Zhang He hopefully wouldn't see it.

-------------------------------(Pacing of time. Well not to much just to dinner.)---------------------------------------------------

Zhang He took another sip off the wine smiling at Lu Xun who was giggling softly. They had been drinking the wine for awhile and Lu Xun was sure he was a bit drunk. Lu Xun was also sure that he was blushing under the stare Zhang He was giving him.

"Mmmm, you're so beautiful." Zhang He smiled, caressing Lu Xun's face.

"Stop it." Lu Xun blushed, in truth he didn't want Zhang He to stop but he was scare where this might take him. Zhang He didn't say anything he was cocked his head to the side studying Lu Xun for a second before the smile returned.

"Come on let's go back to my room. You're so tense." Zhang He smiled, pulling Lu Xun to his feet. Lu Xun's heart pounded against his chest, he was drunk to a degree and so was Zhang He. What if Zhang He broke his promise! There where to many what if…. "Why are you frowning?" Lu Xun's head snapped up to look at Zhang He.

"Uh… I-I.. Um…." He couldn't think of anything to say.

"You worry too much… You think to much stop thinking." Zhang He smiled pulling Lu Xun towards his bed. "Come here…. And trust me." Zhang He said motioning for Lu Xun to come to him. Lu Xun crawled across the bed over to Zhang He. "Turn around." Zhang He said in a soft whisper that made Lu Xun shudder. Lu Xun did as he was told a little nervous till Zhang He's hands gently landed on his shoulders and slowly began to massage him. A soft moan escaped Lu Xun's lips as Zhang He's hands moved over him relaxing him. Lu Xun's turned his head quickly when Zhang He pulled him to him. "It's alright, I won't do anything you don't want." Zhang He smiled. Lu Xun nodded not being able to pull his gaze from Zhang He's eye. He wasn't sure if it was the wine but he did want something to happen!... He just wasn't sure what. Zhang He rested his chin on top of Lu Xun's head wrapping his arms around Lu Xun and holding him close. Sliding a hand up to Lu Xun's shoulder Zhang He turned him around, and lightly pressed their lips together. Lu Xun tensed for a second as Zhang He ran his tongue over Lu Xun's lips, but slowly he opened his mouth. Lu Xun couldn't help but lean his body in towards Zhang He's as they kissed. Their tongues rubbed and tangled, tasting each other and the wine. Zhang He finally pulled away panting for air a faint smile on his lips. Zhang He placed a kiss on Lu Xun's check before trailing kisses down Lu Xun's jaw bone then down his neck.

"Zhang He?" Lu Xun's asked in a soft nervous shaky voice and Zhang He began nipping. Licking, and sucking on his neck in one spot. "Zhang He!" Lu Xun moaned, pushing him away.

"What's wrong?" Zhang He asked pouting slightly.

"We're drunk." Lu Xun said softly looking away.

"Yes… But it does mean I'll hurt you." Zhang He smiled reassuringly. "Beside if you want me to stop I will. Promise just tell me." Zhang He purred burying his nose in Lu Xun's hair.

"O-okay." Lu Xun said relaxing against Zhang He. He still wasn't sure about this but he didn't want Zhang He to let him go. Zhang He smiled bringing their mouths together for a quick kiss.

"I promise to go slow, and stop if you want me to." Zhang He murmured against Lu Xun's lips his hands wandering down to the edge of his shirt. Lifting it over Lu Xun's shirt over his head Zhang He discarded it onto the floor. Lu Xun didn't know what to do, for what felt like the first time in his life. He'd never done anything like this with anyone. It felt strange but good and he didn't want Zhang He to stop touching him. He watched as Zhang He's fingers ran and traced over his chest and stomach playing with the hem of his pants. "Now let's see what you like." Zhang He mumbled before pressing his lips to Lu Xun's cheek and started trailing kisses down his neck. Zhang He continued to travel down catching one of Lu Xun's nipples. Lu Xun arched back voices his surprise and pleasure. Lu Xun couldn't believe how good it felt, as Zhang He flicked his tongue out against his nipple. Zhang He smiled to himself as Lu Xun moaned. He sucked, and nipped lightly at Lu Xun's nipple, while teasing the other one with his fingers. He wanted to make sure Lu Xun felt only pleasure right now and wanted to show him that he only wanted to make him feel good. Finally Zhang He released the harden nub and resumed his trail of kisses downwards. Zhang He lapped at Lu Xun's navel enjoying the lushes sounds he was drawing from the smaller man. Finally Zhang He stopped with teasing the beauty below him and lowered his mouth close to Lu Xun's sex. Lu Xun whimpered as his hands clutched the blankets he should stop this now but he didn't want to. Everything felt so good and his body was definitely showing how much he enjoyed this. Lu Xun's eyes shot opened and he cried out his pleasure when Zhang He finally wrapped his mouth over his sex. Lu Xun tried to lift his hips as a reacts but Zhang He's hands held him in place.

"Zhang He… OH!" Lu Xun moaned, he didn't really know what to do. Not once had he ever done anything like this. Finally Lu Xun let go of the blankets and his shaky hand wove them selves into Zhang He's hair. Lu Xun could hold back the moans and gasps in response to Zhang He's warm mouth. Zhang He bobbed up and down Lu Xun's delicious sex, sucking on it harder trying to draw more sounds from the smaller man beneath him. "Ah Zhang He…..OOOHHH!" Lu Xun's cried in pleasure closing his eyes he was so close, so hard. "ARGH!" Lu Xun almost shot up when Zhang He's mouth left his sex. "YOU!" Zhang He pressed a finger to Lu Xun's lips silencing him.

"My wonderful Lu Xun, I wanted to do something else… But if you don't want to I'll finish you off." Zhang He said.

"What?" Lu Xun asked not quite getting what Zhang He was asking since all his mind could really grasp was the need for completion.

"I want to take you…" Zhang He said staring into Lu Xun's eyes, but Lu Xun only answered with a confused look. "I want to take you up the ass." Zhang He said be totally blunt and making Lu Xun's entire body tense. "If you don't want it I won't but it can be very enjoyable." Zhang He explained lightly caressing Lu Xun's face.

"I-I…. I-I can't." Lu Xun finally manage feeling really bad since Zhang He was doing so much for him and was well at least tell him what he wanted to do instead of just doing it. "I-I'm sorry but I…."

"Shhhh. It's alright. I understand." Zhang He cooed pulling Lu Xun close for a quick embrace before slowly shifting his eyes back down to Lu Xun's hard sex. "Now then I just can't leave you like this… Do you want me to go back to what I was doing?" Zhang He asked teasingly, running a finger along the bottom of Lu Xun's hard sex.

"Please!" Lu Xun gasped lifting his hips up, trying his hardest not to whimper. Zhang He answered him by flicking his tongue out against the tip of his sex. "AH! More!" Lu Xun cried very quickly losing the reasons why he should keep himself from begging. Zhang He sucked on the tip teasingly before taking the whole thing into his mouth again. It wasn't long before Lu Xun reached his climax, releasing into Zhang He's mouth. Zhang He swallowed it greedily before coming up for a kiss. Lu Xun responded immediately opening his mouth against Zhang He's welcoming his tongue. Their tongues tangled passionately and Lu Xun could taste himself mixed with Zhang He's taste. They finally broke apart gasping for air, but staying very close. Zhang He laid down and pulled Lu Xun to him holding him close to his chest.

"Go to sleep now. I know how tired you must be." Zhang he breathed into Lu Xun's ear and Lu Xun snuggled closer to Zhang He burying his head against Zhang He's chest.

"Tell me one thing and I'll go to sleep." Lu Xun said sleepily.

"Alright." Zhang He chuckled. "What?"

"What happened to you?... I mean what was it that happened to you that you don't want to happen to me and tell me the whole truth!" Lu Xun said looking up at Zhang He's face with a stubborn look.

"Well I've already told you that I wasn't always with Wei… Actually I fought against Cao Cao at one point but under Yuan Shao I lost… I was spared thanks to Xiahou Dun, he thought I could be useful if swayed to join sides. He left me with some soldiers and a few other generals as he went off to talk to Cao Cao. I was roughly tied up and beaten, and when I thought that the pain couldn't be worst I… They took my clothes from me." Zhang He paused and Lu Xun swallowed hard not want to believe this would end how he knew it would. "I thought that my defeat and the pleasure they got from my pain would have been enough to them but… several of them forced themselves upon me one right after the other. They humiliated me and raped me. And every time I thought I would slip into unconsciousness I was pulled back to them by some means even if it meant burning my skin which they did each time I started to slip. I honestly thought it was going to get worst when I heard some one yell but I couldn't make out what they said. When I woke I was in Xu Huang tent and Zhen Ji was with him. Zhen Ji was new to Wei and so was Xu Huang, but Zhen Ji had Cao Pi on her side. Xu Huang had asked if I was alright and then told me that if I decided to join Wei then I would not longer be treated as a prisoner but if I didn't declare my loyalty to Wei then they'd have to return me to the soldiers and well I would be submitted to their care till I was executed. So I had no choice. Join Wei or be raped again." Zhang He said shakily. "That's why I had to buy you, why I want to hide you. You don't deserved that." Zhang He smiled weakly caressing Lu Xun's face before embracing him tightly and protectively

"Why?... Why didn't you run away to Wu or Shu? You didn't deserved that and you shouldn't have stayed with them!" Lu Xun yelled, utterly discussed with Wei even more so then before.

"And risk the whole thing over again when I arrived in Wu or Shu?" Zhang He asked.

"Well Wu never would have done that! There's not a soldier in Wu that would have done that and any who tried I know their General would have stopped them!" LU Xun argued. "You should have come to Wu!"

"Even so I would be from Wei from your enemy." Zhang He said.

"But still Trade off some information or just wait out to prove your loyalty! You would've had a better life in Wu with me!" Lu Xun voice was muffled as he buried his head against Zhang He's chest. "It's not fair that you went through that!"

"Maybe… but hush now and go to sleep." Zhang He said running a hand up and down Lu Xun's back.

"I promise we'll go to Wu… and you won't have to worry… and I'll be there always next to you." Lu Xun yawned finally giving into sleep which had already over come Zhang He.

Author's note: So, so sorry this took so long but I've been on an emotional roller coaster recently but next chapter will come sooner I promise.