Mob had been able to color inside the lines since she had been little.
She remembered being little, very little, and mom told her to color inside the lines. It had been her Hello Kitty coloring book, the one where she had winter adventures, and she had been coloring in the Christmas tree. She had been scribbling colors onto the page because she had been little, three, and mom had taken the green crayon from her hand and told her to color more like Sho. It had been the part of the year when they had been the same age, both three, and he had been able to color inside the lines already, and Mob had tried her best…and mom had said that she had done a good job…but maybe that part had come later. Mob wasn't sure, her memories from back then were hazy, but she had remembered that she had eventually learned how to color inside of the lines.
Mostly.
Mob could color inside the lines with a pencil or a crayon or a marker just fine. That was because the paper was flat and also sat still. Nails were not flat and also the feet attached to them were ticklish. Mob was doing her best, though, it wasn't her fault that Minori had ticklish feet. Mob was doing her best not to make a mess even though Minori kept on moving. She usually used her powers when she did toes, Minegishi had ticklish feet too, but she didn't want to use her powers around Minori. She didn't have any powers and she might have been sad or jealous about that. So Mob used her hands…even though it was sort of hard with Minori moving all the time…
And also her sheets were white.
Her sheets were white and Mob was using bright pink nail polish. She knew that the nail polish would show and then there would be a mess…and she was doing her best to be careful…she just wasn't used to doing this without her powers. She wasn't going to use them, though, and she could figure out how to do this by hand. She would do this for her friend, and they were friends, even if Minori could sort of be mean sometimes.
That was ok, though, because she was going through a lot.
"Suzuki, if you get nail polish on my sheets then you're going to be the one to wash them." Said Minori. She kicked Mob a little, too, when she said that. But that was ok. She was going through a lot. Her dad wasn't going to take her back to Japan because her friends had all turned on her and that was why she had to be mean to them. Too many people complained and her school told her to leave so now she was going to go to school in America. That must have been terrible, being kicked out of school for something that wasn't even your fault, and Mob could forgive Minori for being just a little bit mean.
She had a lot going on.
More than Mob did, anyway. At least Mob hadn't been kicked out of anywhere. She had a lot to do, well she'd had a lot to do before, and that was just…not as bad as being kicked out. Being told that you weren't wanted. Sure she had to get Sho into the bath tonight, he hadn't actually GONE into the tub in a while, and also she had to scrape burnt caramel off of a plate when she got home but at least she hadn't been kicked out of anywhere. She just…had stuff to do…but not that much. She was all caught up on the laundry and Sho knew to have Shibata feed him if he got home before her, and dad hadn't said or done anything mean to Sho in a few days so…so she was alright. Sho hadn't said anything else about smoking, too, so that was good. Things were…they were good. Things were good at home and she needed to stop thinking about, worrying about, things at home because they were fine and she was hanging out with her friend and she was having fun so she just had to…stop worrying.
She had to think about her friend, now, and not things she had to deal with at home.
"I'm sorry….it's just that you keep on moving…that's all." said Mob. She knew that she had said the wrong thing the minute Minori pulled her foot back. She knew how Minori didn't like being criticized, and she hadn't meant to be mean, she had just wanted Minori to make this a little easier…but Mob just hadn't been trying hard enough.
"So everything's my fault?" asked Minori. Mob shook her head. She wasn't lying, not everything in the world was her fault, and also Mob just…needed to practice doing things by hand. She was too used to using her powers. She wasn't always going to be around espers. The world was made up of normal people, not espers, and she had already made one normal person friend…and maybe she could make more…though she knows not to think about that sort of thing. Things that aren't going to happen, probably, because she doesn't meet a lot of people….
But having more friends her own age….
Sometimes she liked the idea of it and sometimes she didn't. Being Minori's friend was already complicated enough. Being friends with someone else….that could be fun…or she could mess it up. Being friends with other people, with normal people, and with people her own age…seemed hard. So many things could go wrong….like what had happened to Minori. Mob was glad, sometimes, that she only had to worry about her family and friends and Claw. At least people were nice to her and she didn't have to worry about anyone betraying her or anything like that. She knew her friends and she knew that they would never betray her or be mean to her…
Well everyone but Fukuda…but they weren't friends so he didn't count…so she could at least trust all of her friends.
"No, not at all. I just meant that I'm not used to painting other people's nails like this. That's all. I'll work harder from now on." Said Mob. That was the thing to say when you messed up. It worked on other people, not just dad, and she was glad. She didn't know what she would have done if Minori got mad at her. She wasn't nice to people who made her mad because they weren't real and true friends. Mob wasn't going to make her mad, though, because they were real and true friends. Mob considered herself to be a very good friend.
"I thought you and your non binary friend did this all the time." Said Minori
"Not toes, only fingers." Said Mob. She didn't mention that she used her powers to do toes because feet were ticklish. That would have been bragging. You weren't supposed to tell people when you were more fortunate than them, mom had said so, and she had been talking about not telling people how much money they had but Mob figured that the lesson applied to her powers too.
"God, I have to teach you everything, don't I?" asked Minori. She rolled her eyes when she said that…and Mob got the feeling that she had made Minori mad. She hated that, making people mad, especially her friends…and also she didn't want to make Minori think that she was a b-word. Mob had never been called a b-word before but she knew that she did not like to be called names…and also she didn't want to not be friends with Minori. They may not have been best friends like she and Minegishi were but that didn't mean that she wanted to lose Minori's friendship or anything like that. Once you were someone's friend then you were their friend for life. That was just how it worked….for Mob at a least.
"You're a very good teacher." Said Mob. Maybe a compliment would help. Minori liked to be complimented…even if she followed up the compliments by saying stuff like 'I know' Mob could tell that she still liked that.
"Well then if I' such a good teacher then why don't you listen?" asked Minori
"I listen to everything you tell me." Said Mob
"Yeah, uh-huh, sure. Then why are you still in blue?" asked Minori. She waved her hand at Mob. She looked down. She knew that she wasn't supposed to wear blue but…maybe an exception could be made? This sweater had been a present after all, a birthday present, and birthday presents were very important.
"Because…I like blue…and this is my biggest sweater." Said Mob
"Why are you even wearing a giant sweater in the middle of June? I know it's not as hot as Japan here but it's pretty damn hot." Said Minori
"…because I want to." Said Mob. She knew that she and Minori were friends and friends could talk about things…but she didn't want to talk about what had happened. About how she had gross feelings whenever she took off the sweater and saw herself, mostly her breasts, not that they were anything other than bumps…and also she wanted them to grow at the same time that she wanted them to go away…and she didn't want to talk about this with Minori since she would just get made fun of for making no sense at all.
"Why? You look stupid." Said Minori. Mob looked down. She hated it when Minori was mean…but she was just trying to help. Mob knew she looked stupid in this. It was too big and also Minori was right, it was hot out, and it was stupid to wear a sweater when it was hot out. It got all sweaty…and that was why it was called a sweater….but maybe not because she was the only person in a sweater.
"I know. I just want to wear it. I like blue and…and I like my sweater. My friend made me this, he knitted it for me for my birthday, and….and I'm sorry if you're mad at me for wearing blue. I can go home if you want me to. I don't want to make you mad." Said Mob
"What? You'd go? We didn't even smoke yet." Said Minori. Mob didn't get why she wanted to smoke so badly. She hadn't even had a bad day or anything like that. Also Mob hadn't even been planning on smoking today….any more than she had. Moderation was important and stuff and she was making more of an effort to use moderation since she had to set a good example for Sho…and stuff.
"If my sweater bothers you then I can go. I know you said not to wear blue anymore but I like blue and…and I don't want you to be mad at me or to think that I'm being a b-word so…so I can go if you want me to." Said Mob. She didn't much want to go but she also didn't want to make Minori mad….and she also didn't like the rule about them only being able to wear pinks and purples, either, because she liked blue. She liked blue and she liked Frozen and…and she didn't like how Minori made her feel bad for liking the things she liked…even though Minori was just trying to help her be less of a little kid all the time.
"No. Fine. Stay. You can wear blue, I was wrong, it's a good color on you. Yeah, sort of like you're going for a moe look but like….like you're sick or something." Said Minori. Mob looked over at herself in the wall mirror. She looked….sweaty….and maybe that was why it looked like she was sick. She didn't know. All she knew was that she was not going to take off that sweater.
"Oh. I'm…sorry?" asked Mob. She didn't know what moe was or what it had to do with being sick but she got the feeling that she should just say sorry. Even when you didn't know what you were apologizing for sometimes it was best just to say sorry and get onto the next thing.
"Don't be sorry. It's good that you realize that you'll never be hot like me. That's fine. I'll be the hot one and you can be moe one. Some guys like moe, I'm not into those kinds of guys, so you can have them." Said Minori
"Um….you can have all the boys. I don't think that boys like me very much." Said Mob. Sometimes boys talked to her when she was out and stuff but they didn't like her. They were just being nice. Boys didn't like her like she liked them…and she wasn't even sure if she wanted a boy to like her like that. She liked…she had been kissed once and she had liked that a lot…and she wanted to be kissed again…and also touched…and maybe even that felt up thing that Minori had told her about…but when she thought about all of that she just felt so gross…gross like how Fukuda had thought that she and Shimazaki had been doing…the stuff that adults did…and she knew that thinking about stuff like….like being kissed or a boy touching her through her clothes, in her mind she had always been wearing a sweater and a shirt and a undershirt…when she had let her mind wander there, was very close to adult stuff…and that adult stuff made her feel gross…so maybe she just never wanted a boy to like her then because she would just end up feeling gross then.
"Well some boy is going to have to like you. You can't be my friend if I get a boyfriend and you don't have one." said Minori
"I-I can't?" asked Mob. She didn't know that there was a rule that said that only single girls could be friends with other single girls. She was so glad to be Minori's friend, she knew all the rules, and Mob was grateful because she knew almost none of the rules.
"No way. It would look so bad. I mean, you're my friend and I can't be friends with someone with no boyfriend. We'd be at totally different life stages and whatever. So when I get a boyfriend then you have to get one." said Minori
"But…the only boy my age that I know is my brother….and he's my brother." Said Mob
"What about that other guy that you're into? The yakuza guy with all the tattoos?" asked Minori
"What? Shimazaki? Gross. No, not him. He's trying to be boyfriend and theyfriend with my friend Minegishi…and even if he wasn't best friends don't try and go out with boys that their best friends are kissing and…other stuff." Said Mob. She must have said the right thing because Minori smiled and got really close…and that was good. Right? She was smiling and it was always good when your friend smiled…and that was good…even though she knew that Minori wanted to talk about Shimazaki….because she thought that he was attractive. He was...he could be…but Mob did not think about him like that.
"Wait, so they're friends with benefits? Like, for real?" asked Minori. Mob…she didn't get it. All friends could reap the benefits of friendship. She got the feeling that she was missing something….because Minori was making the face that she made when Mob didn't get something.
"Um….every friend benefits from friendship…because you get to have someone to hang out with and be together with and you learn things from each other and….stuff…" said Mob. Yup. She was definitely missing something. She knew that face….and now she looked away. She pulled her sweater in closer. She messed up again.
"Suzuki…you are such a virgin." Said Minori. Mob wanted to ask her what else she would be since she was eleven and she didn't even know any boys her own age. She knew what that word meant, someone who had never done anything, and Mob…she had never even had the chance to do anything but kiss….and she had never wanted to do anything but kiss…
"You can call me Mob, or Shigeko if you want to…and I don't know any boys our age….so of course I haven't done anything." Said Mob. She didn't know why Minori kept on calling her Suzuki. They were given name friends…or maybe that only went one way. She didn't know. She didn't know a lot of things…like why it was bad to be a virgin.
"Ok then. Shige, you are such a virgin." Said Minori
"Shige is ok….and I'm sorry I don't always know what you mean…and stuff. I just never had anyone to learn this stuff from…and stuff." Said Mob
"No, it's fine. This is why you have me. Anyway friends with benefits are friends who kiss and feel each other up and mess around and have….sex…together." said Minori. She looked around before she whispered the last part. Mob was grateful. She didn't know any of Minori's guards or the staff but she didn't want people to know that they were talking about sex…and also she didn't really want to talk about sex. Sex was…weird and gross and embarrassing and only for adults. Besides, it wasn't like anyone would ever want to do that with her anyway…and it wasn't like she wanted to do that anyway. The thought of some boy kissing her and touching her all over…and her not wearing clothes and him not wearing clothes…
She felt gross.
She pulled her knees up under her sweater. She felt gross just thinking about that. She knew that it was supposed to feel good and stuff but…but she also just felt gross for even thinking about it. The whole thing was just gross and embarrassing. Being naked around a boy who was also naked and then he kissed you and then….well Mob wasn't sure, entirely, what happened next but she did know that it was not for her. Nope. Not her cup of tea at all.
Despite what Fukuda thought about her and Shimazaki.
"Oh….yeah. They do that. Anyway, um, did you ever end up getting that Alien pallet? Because if you did-" said Mob. She had seen that pallet and she didn't think that it was anything special but Minori had been excited and maybe if she had gotten it she would want to try it out and then they could forget about this whole conversation.
"It's still on it's way. Anyway so tell me what's going on with them? They do stuff? All of the stuff?" said Minori. Mob….didn't know how to answer that question. She assumed that they did everything but she had never asked….and why would she ever have asked. She knew that she was not the best at talking but she knew not to ask about THAT.
"Um…I think so. I never asked….because it seems sort of like it's none of my business…" said Mob. She had never even thought about asking Minegishi the specifics of what they did with Shimazaki. She knew that they kissed and that they cuddled and one time she had walked in on them naked in bed together and she knew, well at least she had some idea of, what went on when two adults were in bed together…and she did not want to think about this at all.
"Please. Everything is your business. God, you know the most interesting people. I've never been friends with anyone who's done all the stuff before. Not even my middle school friends have and they're first years. I mean, come on, who's still a virgin in middle school?" asked Minori
"Um…people who don't do….stuff?" asked Mob
"Exactly. Like, you're finally old enough to do more than kiss, not that I want to do more than kiss or anything like that, and you're just going to…not do more than kiss? That's so dumb. Like, what's even the point of having a guys around then?" asked Minori
"Um…..to fall in love with?" asked Mob. Love….she liked love. She liked thinking about love. She liked to lay awake in bed at night and think about love. About being kissed and held. About having a boy, usually Hatori, who wanted to kiss her and hold her…and that was all. Anything more would be too much…and also she shared a room with her little brother and she did not want to think about that sort of thing when she was in the room with her little brother…or at all.
"Oh, right, yeah. You need to fall in love with someone and then he'll be your boyfriend and shit. You're right. We need boyfriends, not friends with benefits, because then people won't talk about us…or is it cooler to have friends with benefits since that's what adults do?" asked Minori. Mob had no idea why Minori was asking her about this. She was the expert on this stuff. Mob had never even heard the term friends with benefits before today.
"Um….do adults care about what's cool?" asked Mob. She got the feeling that adults just did whatever they wanted to do. That was how her friends were, anyway, everyone just did whatever they liked and acted however they wanted to act…and stuff.
"You're right. We don't want to look like try-hards. We should get friends with benefits before boyfriends, I think, for practice….but only guys who can keep their mouths shut. There. That's a good plan. Thank you, Shige." Said Minori
"Um…you're welcome?" said Mob. She hadn't come up with any plan, Minori had been the one with the ideas, and also she couldn't remember the last time anyone had called her Shige….or if she had ever even been called Shige before. She had always been either Mob or Shigeko or Suzuki…or Daughter but dad was the only one who called her that.
"I know I'm welcome. Anyway, so, like what's the story with them? Your yakuza friend and your non binary friend? Like how do non binary people even….do it?" asked Minori. Mob shook her head. She had no idea if this was even an ok question to ask. The whole thing was private and also…well people fi together like puzzle pieces…that was why there were boys and girls. Mom had said so. They just…fit together….and puzzle pieces only fit together one way…or that would have been a very confusing puzzle…and stuff…
"I have no idea. I've never asked….and I don't think that I should….because that seems like kind of a…private thing and…I mean they do stuff…I mean…the normal way, I guess? I mean I didn't even know that there were different ways to do stuff…or that….or how that stuff works. I mean I know that people fit together like puzzle pieces…and I guess they do that….but Minegishi would NOT like me asking about that." Said Mob. There was no universe in which Minegishi would have wanted to be asked about all of that. Nope. Mob had been friends with them for years before they had told her that they had been born a girl…and she had never asked because that would have been asking about someone else's privates…which were private…and asking someone what they did with their privates…..that was even more private….and stuff…
"Wait….you don't know about…the stuff people do? Seriously? What, does your dad check your phone or something?" asked Minori
"No, he doesn't, and….and what does that have to do with…things…and stuff?" asked Mob. Well now she was lost…and she had been lost for a while…so now she was extra lost…and this was great. Just great.
"Because that's the only reason I can think of for you not looking it up. I mean, you know that this stuff is on the internet, right?" asked Minori
"I know that there are naked people on the internet. My mom warned me and my brother about that and why we should never mess with the parental controls." Said Mob
"….so you've never turned off safe search?" asked Minori
"No, why would I? I don't want to look at naked people. That's weird." Said Mob
"You've never once wondered what a naked guy looked like? Seriously? Not even once in your life?" asked Minori
"I have a brother and we used to take baths together. I know that differences between boys and girls." Said Mob. She at least knew that much. She wasn't a total little kid…and stuff. That was enough for her to know, she decided, since she really didn't want to see anyone naked at all. She didn't even know why she would. She could understand wanting to see a specific person naked…not that she had ever wanted to see Hatori naked or anything. That would have been weird and gross and she felt gross for even thinking about it.
"I'm not talking about that. Brothers aren't guys, they don't count. I mean GUYS, you know what I mean?" asked Minori
"I…really don't. I don't get why anyone would want to see just….a stranger being all naked and stuff. I mean I understand wanting to see a specific person naked….but not that I want to see a specific person naked or anything." Said Mob. She got the feeling that she had said something right…and wrong at the same time…because now Minori was leaning in really close and she had that look on her face that she got when she was going to ask a question about something that Mob didn't much want to talk about…like naked people stuff….and she didn't want to talk about naked people stuff….
"Who are you trying to see naked? That yakuza guy you always hang out with and stuff?" asked Minori. Mob shook her head really fast. No way! Not Shimazaki….just…no. That would have been…wrong…and gross…and just….she would never do that to Minegishi. Ever.
"No, not him. I already said that I would never do anything like that to my best friend." Said Mob
"Why not? You totally could, probably, since guys are…well…guys. I mean you said it yourself, he's not going out with your non binary friend. He just caught feelings and catching feelings is not the same as going out with someone. Oh! And when we get friends with benefits we have to make a pact not to catch feelings for them. Those are just practice guys. Ok?" asked Minori
"Um….ok? But….what did I agree to? I mean I don't even know what catching feelings even means. I mean you can't catch feelings like you catch a cold…" said Mob. She wished that there was a book or an app or something that could translate all of this for her. Minori to Mob, like Japanese to English, on Google or something. It would have made her life a lot easier that was for sure…
"Shige, you need to look stuff up. Seriously. Catching feelings is what happens, sometimes, when people are friends with benefits. They fall in love with the person they're doing stuff with and it always makes the biggest mess. That's why we have to make a vow not to catch feelings when we're with the guys we're going to practice with. We have to be good about being on each other about that. Ok?" asked Minori. That made zero sense….but Mob would at least agree to help…even though she had no idea why Minori wouldn't want to fall in love….but Mob could agree to that. It wasn't like any boys liked her anyway.
"Ok Minori, I can do that….but…I don't get any of this. Just…falling in love is a good thing and…and how did you even hear about all of this?" asked Mob. She had been to school before and they had never talked about this stuff before…but that was because she had been in the first grade. She wasn't in the first grade anymore, even if Minori said that she still dressed like it, and she just….where did Minori even LEARN about these things?
"I read about them and I see them on TV and stuff. Seriously. How have you never Googled any of this before. I mean, what, did you think that people just fell in love at first sight and then got married and then they laid down naked next to each other in bed, then the guy stuck it in, and then the girl had a baby?" asked Minori
"….yes." said Mob. That was how it happened….right? That was how mom said that it happened. She had seen dad at the train station and then they had fallen in love and they had been in such a hurry to become a family that they had made her before they had gotten married and then they had made Sho right after…and that was how it went…right? She didn't know. She got the feeling that there were a lot of things that she didn't know about.
"Shige….you are so lucky to have me. I mean, really, you're eleven and you've never even turned the safe search off. Well today is your lucky day." Said Minori. She rolled over and took her phone off of the charger…and Mob got the feeling that she was about to see something that she didn't want to see, like naked people, and she didn't even want to see any naked people. She could have lived her whole life without seeing any naked people. She didn't even like looking at HERSELF naked let alone internet strangers!
Friendship was hard sometimes.
Minori rolled back over and sat up. In the time that it took Minori to roll back over and sit up Mob had thought up at least ten other things that they could have been doing right now. They could have gone back to painting each other's nails. They could have watched more kpop music videos and Minori could have told her which boys were attractive. They could have played dolls, Mob had brought some over, and sometimes they played dolls together for ten minute stretches. They could have gone for a walk to burn off the calories from any food that they had eaten that day. They could have braided each other's hair. They could have tried on clothes. They could have played with makeup. They could have taken more pictures. They could have looked out the window and watched the clouds move by. They could have practiced their English since Minori's wasn't so good. They could have-
"See? This is how you turn the safe search off…and this is how you delete your history. You know, in case anyone goes through your phone." Said Minori as she sat way too close to Mob. She pulled her sweater tight around herself. She did NOT want to look at naked people. Ever. Who would? What was the point of seeing a stranger naked? What if you saw them in life and then you knew what they looked like naked? That could have been so embarrassing! Also it was pointless because….love was important. Mob got the feeling that love, or at least knowing the person, was important…and it wasn't like she would ever see Ha-
She felt gross.
"Um….I don't really want to look at naked people….um…can we do…something else?" asked Mob. She wondered if maybe she should just ask Minori which of her friends were b-words again. All of her friends were, and it was painful for Minori to talk about, and also she tended to go on and on…but Mob would gladly listen to Minori talk about every single b-wordy girl she had ever been friends with if it meant that she didn't have to see anyone naked. Ever.
"Um…I guess….wait. You like Frozen, right?" asked Minori. Mob nodded. Ok, now she felt better. She knew Frozen, she liked Frozen, and there were no naked people in Frozen. She also knew that Minori didn't like Frozen…but maybe she had come around. Maybe they could watch Frozen, and Frozen Fever, and also listen to the Let It Go remixes, and also watch the Elsa hair and makeup tutorials….and it could be a good time.
"I do. I love Frozen." Said Mob. She pulled her knees out from in her sweater and leaned in close to Minori's phone. She had a TV but if she didn't want to go through the trouble of logging in on her TV then that was ok, too. She hoped that Minori had come around to liking Frozen. Then they could play Frozen together and watch Frozen and listen to the soundtrack and do makeup tutorials…and it would be really fun.
"Do you know what rule thirty four is?" asked Minori. Mob shook her head. Now rules had numbers? Well numbers at least made it easier to remember them…unless there were thousands of rules…then that could be a little tricky to remember…unless there was a book that she could carry around or something.
"Do you like fan art?" asked Minori. Mob nodded. She loved fan art. She wished that she could draw like that. It was like seeing a whole different side to the characters. Like the ones where Elsa and Anna had borrowed each other's clothes. That one was cool. Or the one where all the princesses and queens and girl characters who weren't royalty but were lumped in, like Mulan and Alice, were all having a sleepover and hanging out. She hadn't known that Minori had liked fan art too. It was nice to see that this friendship had gone both ways. That was the mark of a good friendship, she thought, when each friend learned from the other.
"I love fan art. I saw this one picture, you might have seen it too since you also like fan art, where Elsa and Anna switched clothes and-" said Mob. She held her hair down with her hands. She had to. She was so excited! Now they could watch Frozen and play dolls, since she had Frozen dolls with her, and also Minori might have liked the other princesses too. Like she might have liked Ariel because she was always trying to do the opposite of what her dad said even though her dad loved her and knew best, since people ate fish all the time, and also Ariel had red hair and Minori had pink which was sort of like red. This was so great. They could be fans together and stuff.
"Well this is better. Here." Said Minori. She handed Mob her phone…and Mob…well she was sorry to have dropped it….but…WHAT ELSE WAS SHE SUPPOSED TO DO?!
"What the f-word, Minori!? What the f-word...what…why….WHO DREW THAT!?" Mob was shouting, maybe, and also….well she was glad that she had smoked earlier that day or she definitely would have lost control. No. That was not right. Someone had taken the time to draw Anna and Elsa…and they were sisters…and sisters did not do that…and she had never imagined that people could do that….AND THAT WAS NOT WHAT FROZEN WAS ABOUT!
Frozen was about sisters and sister love!
And friendship and how an act of true love could thaw a frozen heart and that was not….that was not an act of true love! That was not….Mob would be seeing that inside of her brain for the rest of her life. She would be seeing that every time she closed her eyes…and she could never watch Frozen again. It was ruined. She could never watch her favorite movie…or listen to her favorite song again…because it was….that was….WHO DREW THAT?!
Someone had picked up a pencil and drawn that and…and WHY?! No. That was not ok and…and why would someone….Mob didn't know. She needed a drink. She needed a drink and a smoke and a cigarette and…and whatever else Shimazaki had in his desk drawer! He had said, before, that if you took too many pills and acid and stuff that you could end up with holed in your brain…and she wanted holes in her brain! She wanted all of the forgetting holes that she could manage!
Maybe if she hit her head hard enough she could forget what she had seen.
"What are you freaking out about? That's nothing. If you really dig-" said Minori
"Minori….I told you that I didn't want to see that and…and then you went and did that and….and that was…why would you show me that?" asked Mob. She had yelled at her friend and that was not nice and….and she felt bad about that…but mostly she felt bad about poor Elsa and Anna. She felt bad that people had drawn them naked…and she knew that they weren't real, but she still wanted nothing more than to go into her backpack and apologize to her dolls….and then to go home and apologize to the ones she had in her room…and then to go home and just…turn her phone off for a while and…and to go home and….
Mob was going home.
"Hey you said you liked fan art and-what are you doing?" asked Minori. She had started off laughing like she was happy, Mob had no idea what was so funny, but now she looked like she was scared…or maybe mad. Mob didn't know. She was going home. She had a car waiting for her, they always waited, and she was going to go home and….and take the rest of the day off from this friendship. She would feel better once she calmed down and then she and Minori could be friends again….somehow…and then she would smoke anything or drink anything or take anything to make her forget all of the….she didn't even want to call it art…the…stuff….that she had seen.
"Minori…I'm your friend and…and I still like you but…I need to go home now. I need…to take some time off…from this friendship….ok? I don't normally get mad at people and…and I'm not mad at you…I'm just…not happy. I said that I didn't want to see any naked people and you showed me-" said Mob
"Drawings don't count because they aren't people. Honestly, Shige, if you didn't want to see any naked DRAWINGS then you should have said so. I mean, come on. You needed to be more specific. This is on you." Said Minori. Mob…well she knew that Minori was making sense…but she also just…wanted to go home.
"Ok. That makes sense." Said Mob
"Good. Now come on, you can finish painting my-" said Minori
"But I still want to go home." Said Mob
"What?! Why!? Oh my God, we already decided that it was your fault! You can't just leave me and-" said Minori
"Minori…I feel really…not good…right now and I think that we need to….that I need to…take the rest of the day off from this friendship because….because I almost got mad at you…and I don't like to get mad at people…especially not my friends…and I really want to be your friend…and that's why I'm going home now." Said Mob
"You're such a bitch! You're a lying bitch! You don't want to be my friend, that's why you're being such a bitch! Well then fuck you! Fine! Go! See if I care!" shouted Minori
"Minori….we're still friends and….and yelling at me makes me want to go more and…and so does calling me names and…and I know that sometimes people say mean things when they're upset…and I'm sorry that I upset you but….but you upset me and…and I'm going home now." Said Mob. She took two steps away when she heard Minori sniffling. She turned around. She didn't need to read Minori's aura to know that she was upset and…and she wanted to make her feel better….but she also wanted to go home. She had her backpack on and…and she could have just kept on walking….
But that would not have been something that a good friend would do.
And she was a good friend. Even though Minori had been a bad friend before…but to be fair Mob hadn't been specific enough…and also sometimes people just…didn't understand each other. That was what that had been, a misunderstanding, because Mob…was just so weird and so bad at talking…and stuff. That was all. So Minori had just…well people did not go around showing each other naked pictures of Elsa and Anna and Mob knew that she would have noticed if they had…but…they had both made mistakes and…and maybe taking time off of their friendship had been too…mean.
Mob was many things but mean was not one of them.
She slid her backpack off of her shoulders and put it down on the floor. Minori's face was red, she could tell even through her makeup, and her eyes were watery….and now she had raccoon eyes from her eye stuff…and Mob…she had made someone cry….and she should not have done that. She sat own next to Minori on the bed and reached over to dry her tears with her sweater sleeve.
Her sleeve got dirty but she didn't care.
"What the fuck do you want? What, did you forget something? I thought that you were going to go back home. Go on, leave, just leave me alone…" Said Minori. Mob dried her tears some more. It was easier, it made it easier to forget, if she pretended that Minori was Sho after something upset him. That made it easier to forget what she had seen…and she would do anything to forget what she had seen.
"I'm sorry that I made you cry. I didn't mean to…and I just wanted to go because I felt….uncomfortable…and I still do….but you're my friend and friends don't let friends cry….and they don't make friends cry either. So I'm sorry that I made you cry and I'm sorry about…about how we had a misunderstanding…and stuff. Ok? I'll leave you alone if you want me to but….but if you still want me to stay then I'll stay…but no more naked people. That was….I like Frozen but…not like that." Said Mob. She had been a bad friend there…but now she could be better. She was a good friend and good friends dried their friend's tears with the sleeves of their favorite sweaters even though their friends had showed them naked people and…and Mob would forget that eventually. Like seeing a scary movie. The pain from being hurt by someone….that was harder to forget….and she couldn't believe that she had caused her friend that sort of pain.
"No…you can stay….and yeah, you were a bitch to try and leave…but I was a bitch to forget how much of a first grader you are. You've got to walk before you run or whatever. Anyway, come on. You wanted to be moe, right? I can help you style your sweater…thing…or whatever." Said Minori. Mob…she would take that. She didn't like being called a b-word or a first grader…and also she hated it when Minori called herself a b-word….but you had to accept an apology when it was offered to you. That was being a good friend, too.
"Ok. That sounds good, Minori. You can dress me up…or whatever…but no more naked people…or naked drawings." Said Mob. There, she had been specific and now they could get back to being friends. Even though she still wanted to go home and apologize to all of her dolls, even the ones that weren't from Frozen, and she still felt gross and…and stuff….but she knew that she would have felt even worse if she had left her friend when she was so sad.
And Mob was a very good friend like that.
So she let Minori dress her up. She let Minori pull her sweater so one of her shoulders was cold and she let Minori tie her hair up in a sparkly scrunchy, even though she liked ribbons, and she let Minori put makeup on her and paint her nails and turn her into 'moe 80's' which Mob figured was a good thing…even though it involved wearing leggings and she hated leggings….because they were friends and this was what they did. They got dressed up, put on makeup, took pictures, and painted nails.
And even if Minori wasn't that good at coloring inside the lines either Mob would gladly have let Minori paint her from head to toe in nail polish if that meant that she NEVER had to look at naked drawings again for as long as they both lived.
