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If You Only Knew: Chapter 1
Stars glimmered in the night sky, and the full moon's light glinted off the golden eyes of a hanyou. His face was lost in semi-peaceful thought as he gazed upon the land, more specifically, his comrades sleeping soundly below his nightly perch. Inuyasha's ears twitched... yes, it was unmistakably his name. "Inuyasha..." He leaped soundlessly from his branch and walked over to the sleeping girl. "Please, Inuyasha..." 'She's surely asleep, but why does she call out for me?' The confused expression changed to one of concern as he noticed a tear slide down her face. He reached down and lightly wiped the single tear from her cheek. Kagome stirred slightly, and he jumped back into the shadows, afraid she would awake completely and see him standing there. Still, he watched her confused. 'Why the tear and my name? Do I make her cry even in her sleep?' Inuyasha continued to ponder, half wondering why he cared, the other knowing why. A sob brought him out of his thoughts, and he stood frozen.
Kagome awoke from her dream, and she just couldn't stop the tears from flowing. It was only a dream, but more like a memory. Inuyasha was holding Kikyo, promising her he would always protect her and then go to hell with her. She could feel the constricting of her heart when his lips claim those of the dead miko. All the while she watches, she's silently screaming for Inuyasha to notice her, to see her... to love her back. Her shoulders tremble with each heartbreaking sob, and she doesn't notice Inuyasha approaching her from the forest shadows.
She turns, slightly startled, but then relaxes to see it is only her hanyou, 'Inuyasha.' "I'm sorry, I must have woke you," Kagome says as she turns her face away and wipes her tear-streaked cheeks.
"Oi, wench, why are you crying in the middle of the night? Nothin's hurt you," he says in his all too familiar gruffness. That's the best way Inuyasha could show his concern for the sorrow that he glimpsed in her eyes before she turned away from him.
Kagome flinches at his tone as it reminds her of her dream, her memories, and her broken heart. 'Nothin's hurt you? If only you could understand my pain.'
All the while Inuyasha was secretly berating himself for not being able to show more sympathy to her. 'I just wish I could bring myself to hold you. I want to kiss all the tears away. If only to see that smile light up your face again.' Of course he could never do such a thing. She wouldn't want to be held by him, a lowly hanyou. She could never love him, or accept his comfort. But a something pulls at the strings of that thought, making him want to believe that she does accept him, that it's possible for her to love him. Only she has ever shown him the compassion he's ever dreamed of. 'Who am I fooling?'
She looked up at Inuyasha after such a long silence, half surprised to not hear more of a rant from him, and more surprised to see him lost in his own thoughts. 'Probably thinking of Kikyo and how I'm so much weaker than she is. I bet she never cried, although I wonder if she ever could.' Kagome shook her head to try and erase those thoughts and decided to break the silence.
"It was just a dream, I'm sorry. You can go back to your tree and sleep now."
Inuyasha started. 'Whoa, I've been standing here like an idiot.'
"Keh! I wouldn't be down here if you wouldn't have called out my name!" Sometimes he wished he could just bite his tongue.
"I called out your name?" She whispered almost to herself, but his keen hearing picked it up.
"Hai, and I came down here to find out you had some dumb dream, instead of something important like sensing a Shikon Shard. Weak humans, you cry over everything!"
"Sit!"
"Bitch! What was that for?" he growled. A voice inside his head nagged him, telling him he deserved it.
"For being a heartless jerk!" Kagome stood up, grabbed her bathing supplies, and stomped off towards the stream.
Inuyasha watched her form move steadily away, silhouetted in the rising sun's glow. His mind was reeling. 'A heartless jerk? Why can't I just tell her how I feel? Wait, do I even know how I feel?' Then he was abruptly brought into reality by a tugging on his ear.
"Hey Inuyasha! What did you do to Kagome this time?" Said a sleep weary Shippo while rubbing his eyes. He was promptly answered by a snarl and a bonk on the head. In a flash of red and white, Inuyasha was gone. Miroku, who was awakened by all the commotion, was preparing to head off towards the stream, until he was jerked back by his robe and turned to face an all but happy Sango.
"And where do you think you're going?" She inquired with promise of a few bumps on the head with hiraikotsu.
"Ah, Sango-chan, looking lovely this morning!" When all he got as a reaction was a glare, he quickly spit out, "I was merely going to go teach Inuyasha-sama a lesson on women's feelings and how to be sensitive to..." But he was interrupted by a knock on the head.
"Houshi-sama, how could you teach him anything when it seems all you know of women's feelings is their bottoms?" Satisfaction was hers at the puzzled look on his face.
"But my lady, a women's heart is in her chest, not her bottom." Sango sweatdropped. With an exaggerated "Ugh" she hurried to join Kagome. There was some serious girl time in store from the sounds of the argument that oh-so-happened to awaken them all.
(a/n) This is my first fanfic so bare with me. I'm sorry if the characters are too OOC and this was short. I know this chapter is vague on the plot of the story, but let me know what you all think and if I should continue. Please R&R!