5
Peyton awoke to the suns rays shining on her face. She looked around a bit in surprise before she remembered where she was. She and Nathan had fallen asleep under a tree at the River Court. When she realized where she was, she closed her eyes and settled back down into Nathan's arms, enjoying that feeling. A feeling she had never felt before while she was with Nathan, the feeling that being in his arms could solve all her problems in the world.
Hours later she woke again as she felt Nathan stirring. When she breathed in she could smell the scent of him, a mixture of cologne and sweat and something else she couldn't quite place.
"Good morning beautiful," he said as he sat up. She giggled and wiped the sleep from her eyes.
"You too." she answered. She stood up and closed her eyes and stretched. Nathan stared at her, he could see her belly button peeking out from under her black tank top as she reached her arms over her head. "Did ya sleep good?" she asked.
"Uh, yeah," stammered Nathan as he gave his head a little shake, "except I had this bony little blonde jabbing me in the ribs with her elbows all night." he joked. "Kidding," he said when she shot him the look.
"I know," she laughed. It was so easy laugh in the morning sun she thought. "You know what?" she said. "That was the first time we've ever slept together, without actually sleeping together. Did that make any sense at all?" she giggled.
"Yeah, it did Peyton." Nathan replied. "Come on, let's go home and shower so we can get all this dirt off of us."
They walked along slowly, following the same route they'd taken to the River Court the night before. Passing the house that the party was at they both laughed and realized they'd left their glasses back at the court. When they got to Peyton's house they stopped in her driveway and talked for 10 more minutes until Peyton finally turned to go into her house. She waved goodbye and began to unlock her door.
"Peyton." Nathan called to her, she turned her head, "I wanted to say I'm sorry ... for everything." Suddenly feeling shy, she smiled and stepped through her door, closing it behind her. She leaned against the cool wood of her door and let out a sigh. I can't do this to myself again she thought. It hurt to much last time. Two at a time she bounded up the stairs to her room. Ignoring herself she flipped on her stereo.
Thinking back, thinking of you,
Summertime, think it was June.
Yeah, think it was June,
Laying back, head on the grass
Chewing gum, having some laughs.
Yeah having some laughs.
When he'd first asked her out it was June, right before school had ended sophomore year. It had been after the last basketball game of the season. They'd slipped away from a party, just like they'd done last night.
You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
They'd talked until the sun came up. About everything there was to talk about. He'd called her special and said he'd been thinking about her a lot lately. And then he'd asked her to be his girlfriend.
Drinking back, drinking for two
Drinking with you
And drinking was new
Sleeping in the back of my car
We never went far
Needed to go far
After a few weeks things changed. After she'd given herself up to him and they'd slept together things changed. Their relationship became about being the best. Being seen at all the right parties and impressing everyone else but themselves.
You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
I don't know where we are going now
I don't know where we are going now
Peyton soon became frustrated with this existence. When Nathan became a starter on the basketball team everything changed. He became arrogant and self-centered and their relationship became about sex. She wanted more. But when she thought of how special he had made her feel when he'd first asked her out, she held that in her heart and hoped that Nathan would come back to her.
Wake up cold coffee and juice
Remembering you
What happened to you?
I wonder if we'll meet again
Talk about us instead
Talk about why did it end
She remembered the day that she'd ended it with him. How after he'd walked out of that room and walked out of her life that she'd cried for hours for what she knew she was giving up. She knew he'd had a good heart under his new found arrogance. Except last night, she'd caught a glimpse of the old Nathan, the sweet boy she'd known when she was 15.
You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
I don't know where we are going now
I don't know where we are going now
After last night she didn't know what to think. Nathan made her feel so special about herself again. She knew she wanted him back, but she was scared of getting her heart broken again.
So take a look at me now
They were both different people now. And they'd both had their hearts broken once before. And it was difficult to let that guard down. The walls she'd carefully built around her heart since Jake had left were so high, and no one had tried hard enough to break them down.