My beloved Harry,
don't try to wake me up… cause I'll never wake up from this deep sleep again.
Don't cry for me… 'cause your tears are in vain.
All these emotions you're feeling now…
Let them pass.
Be as deaf to them as you've been to everything else.
My beloved Harry…
Despair? Helplessness? Fury?
Are these the things you're feeling at the moment?
So maybe now you're able too understand what I felt all these years.
I couldn't live without you,
…but not with you either.
Forget the memories appearing in you're mind.
Destroy every single little one.
Probably you'll hate me for doin' this, but don't you realize?
This damn powerlessness, not to be able or allowed to change fate.
I'm so sorry, I don't see any other way out.
Set fire to this letter…
Ignore my burial…
Don't try to remember anything…
Don't do anything that would weigh you down.
Just don't imagine that I was mad…
don't talk yourself into believing that you're innocent.
Because you aren't!
You never stayed with me, though I needed you to.
And on my last adventure you won't, either.
This last road I have to walk alone, without you.
Did you ever love anybody so much that you thought you can't take it anymore?
Did you ever love anybody so much that you hated this person at the same time?
I did… and this person is you.
My greatest hope is that every single of these foolish feelings will end now…
when I'm finally dead.
My most desperate wish is to feel like you did your whole lifetime.
Nothing…
In everlasting love and hate,
Ginny