Chapter 4

Leaving Gambit behind to rest Wolverine immediately went to look for Jubilee, who was still out cold in another ward.

When he entered the ward Beast was still with her.

"Are ya sure she'll be okay again?" Wolverine asked worriedly when he saw her pale face.

"Yes I am. She'll just have to take it easy for a while though, but then she'll make a full recovery." Beast said.

"Can I…Can I stay with her fer a while?" he asked Beast.

"Sure you can, but don't wake her up, she needs her rest." Beast warned before leaving them alone to check up on Gambit again.

Wolverine softly walked over to her bed. It hurt him to see her like this, knowing it was his doing that she lay there, and the guilt was ripping him apart on the inside.

Carefully he sat down in a chair next to her bed, and for the first time in a very long time he felt tears burning in his eyes.

'How could I have ever hurt her like this…I almost killed her!'

"I'm so sorry kid…" he whispered softly.

After a few minutes she seemed to come round, and Wolverine silently got up from his chair in order to leave. He was afraid that his presence would only scare her and make her upset, and he knew that she was still too fragile for that now.

Jubilee heard him though and her head flew in the direction of the noise.

The fear on her face dissipated immediately and changed into relief when she recognised him.

"Oh. It's just you…Ya scared the shit out of me!" she said relieved.

Wolverine was completely clueless, 'How can she be relieved ta see me, while I'm the one that put her here!'

Jubilee didn't seem afraid of him at all though.

"I-I have ta go; I'll warn Beast…" he said in an attempt to leave.

He had come to the conclusion that she must have some sort of amnesia caused by the shock, and definitely didn't want to be there when she regained her memory. As he turned to leave and headed towards the door, Jubilee's voice stopped him in his tracks.

"Wolvie…please stay, please don't leave me alone here" she said softly, but he could hear the fear in her voice.

She had always been terrified of doctors or hospitals, and even strongly disliked the medical ward of the mansion.

'How can she be afraid to be alone, while it was me who…' Wolverine was completely clueless.

"Are ya sure?" he asked her unbelievingly.

She nodded and he sat back down.

"They didn't hurt ya did they!" she asked him worriedly.

Wolverine only felt guiltier. 'After all that I did ta her and the Cajun, she's still worried about me!' he thought incredulously.

He shook his head "Jubilee…I.." but this time it was Jubilee who interrupted him.

"Don't." she said in a hoarse whisper.

For fraction of a second Wolverine was reminded of Remy, who had reacted in a similar manner.

"I know what you want to say, but it's not true!" she said quickly.

Wolverine looked at her with a confused look upon his craggy features, and was about to enquire what she meant by her statement when Jubilee quickly continued.

"It wasn't your fault! It was that drug or something!" she said determinedly.

"Did Beast tell ya that?" he asked wearily. The day's events were taking their toll on him.

Beast had tried to explain it to her, but she hadn't understood half of it since she was still dazed from the blow to her head.

"No, I could see it in your eyes. That wasn't you back there." she continued resolutely.

Wolverine shook his head unbelievingly, "Jubes, I almost killed you guys…" he tried to explain it to her.

"No Wolvie, you're wrong. Someone did yes, but it wasn't you. I could see it in your eyes. Besides, you could never hurt me, I know you too well for that!" she continued trustingly.

"Jubes, it was me…" Wolverine started again.

"Can you look me in the eye and tell me that you could sincerely hurt me?" she said defiantly.

Wolverine looked defeated at the floor "No, I can't but still…"

"See! Then don't look so sad!" she said encouragingly.

Tired both from the drugs she had been given and from using up her most of her energy to convince Logan that it wasn't his fault, she closed her eyes, and Logan could see and smell that she was in pain.

"You okay kid? Yer want me ta get Beast?" he asked worriedly.

"NO!" Jubilee exclaimed, her eyes flying open. She quickly collected herself and continued hastily before Logan had a chance to question her. "I mean, I'm fine…it's just a headache s'all." She flashed a weak grin up at him before asking him if he would stay with her until she fell asleep. Her eyes had already begun to droop as she asked him.

"Sure kid…" he said softly, but she was already fast asleep.

Wolverine sat at her bedside for hours, simply looking at her. After a while Rogue silently came in. "They said you'd be here" she whispered softly as not to wake Jubilee.

She stood behind his chair and hugged him from behind.

"How is she?" she asked softly.

"She's gonna be okay accordin' ta Beast." he answered.

Rogue nodded.

"She's not even mad at me" he said more to himself than to Rogue.

"Had ya really expected she would? She's a smart gal ya know, she figured out ya weren't yerself sooner than we had!" Rogue said.

For a while they just looked at the sleeping girl.

"And how are you sugah?" Rogue asked worried.

"I don't know, I still can't grasp it…." He answered honestly.

"That'll come in time. We're here for ya." she said sincerely.

"I wonder what makes me deserve that?" he mumbled to himself.

But Rogue had heard him "More than once you saved our lives during missions, you saved mine…" she said softly.

"Come on Logan, time to get ya something ta eat." She said pulling him up.

A few days later everything was back to usual in the mansion, except for Gambit and Jubilee who still had to take it slow, and weren't allowed to go back to training yet.

Wolverine seemed the only one who couldn't put the whole thing behind him. Every time he closed his eyes he could still see the images of the security tape. And although Beast had repeatedly assured him that the drug was completely out of his system, he was still terrified that it might come back.

He could feel his restlessness rising and rising, and after a week he decided to leave the X-men.

"But, why? Don't give everything up Logan…You've built a new life here for yourself. Here with the X-men. Nothing will change that!" The Professor tried to convince him.

"Sorry Chuck, but I have ta go. God knows how much more damage I might cause!" Wolverine said desperately.

"I could help you..." the Professor started.

"I'm sorry Charles, but it's best fer everyone if I would jus' leave!" Wolverine interrupted the Professor.

"What about Rogue? She cares for you a lot…she trusts in you." The Professor tried in a last attempt to keep him from leaving.

"Rogue will be fine. She's found her way here. She ain't the scared little girl she was when I brought her in. Besides she'll always have the others." Wolverine replied logically.

"I made up my mind Chuck; this is the only way." Wolverine said resolutely.

The Professor knew him well enough to know that there was nothing that he could do to stop him or change his mind.

"I know I can't stop you Logan, but at least know that you'll always be welcome here."

Logan nodded his head in understanding and with a last look over his shoulder to the now dark X-Mansion he brought his Harley to life and rode off into the night...

AN thank you all for reading this chapter and especially for those who left me all these wonderful reviews! It really means the world to me!

Kyuu1317: Thank you so much! I tried to keep them as in character as I could!

Prexistence: thanks, and yeah I try to upload every week, but sometimes I just don't have the time :( Anyways, I hope this chapter answered some of your questions?

BJ2: Yeah me too! They just treat him like he's the bad guy (and okay, he does act like that most of the time) but I guess that's all it is, an act. And I tried to let that shine through in the story.

Shang: The accent's are all Beany's work! But I soooo agree with you, they really add up to the story:hugs Beany:

And also thanks to all the other nice people who gave me a review!