"Lying in my bed, I hear the clock tick
And think of you"
(Cyndi Lauper)

May First

"Talking"

'Thinking'

Memories

Stressed

The door softly shut and the boy with garnet eyes frowned. It felt as if the door had been slammed even thought it was a soft action. He shivered at the sorrow he felt coming off the girl. His eyes traveled to the girl named Saki Hanajima. Her black hair hung over her left shoulder in a braid. Garnet eyes watched as she appeared to be filled with even more regret. His gaze turned to his cousin that was still involved in his book. The door slammed shut once more and his eyes caught sight of blonde hair leaving the room. Kyou growled as he propped his elbow on the desk and rested his chin on his palm.

"What's wrong with you?" Yuki asked with slight annoyance.

"If you're so annoyed…don't talk to me!" Kyou growled at his cousin.

"Your very existence is distracting me from my book, now tell before I kick you out the window," Yuki plainly said in one breath.

"That girl…she seems familiar," Kyou whispered as the teacher glared at him.

"Who?" Yuki asked with no interest.

"That Tohru girl," Kyou answered with a growl.

"Of course she's familiar," Yuki began.

"Really?" Kyou asked.

"We've only gone to school with her for two years," Yuki dryly finished.

Kyou scoffed and turned to face the door once more. His cousin had no clue what he was talking about. Kyou sighed; he had no clue what he was talking about. There was something familiar about the girl. He growled in annoyance, he hated being confused. His garnet eyes locked with Hana's purple orbs and she calmly stared at him. Kyou's hair stood up as he froze under her stare. Hana continued to stare at him until he jumped up and ran out of the room.

'Stupid Kyou,' Yuki thought as Kyou knocked the book from his hands and ran out.

'His waves are being blocked,' Hana thought as she turned to stare at the teacher.

Tohru sighed as she pushed away from the brick wall. She had to get herself together or else she would end up insane. Tohru began her way to the cemetery to visit her mom. She walked halfway across town in her own silent world. The graveyard was silent and she knew the attendant must have been gone. She pushed past the gate and made her way to her mom's grave. A soft cough interrupted her thoughts and she turned to find her other friend watching her.

"I knew you'd come her," she roughly said to Tohru.

"Uo-chan," Tohru whispered.

Uo's blonde hair softly lifted in the wind as she walked towards Tohru. Her gray eyes were filled with the sadness she felt for the girl. Tohru looked away from Uo's gaze, she didn't want pity. Truth was, she didn't want any of this if this was the price. Tohru's eyes began to water as she thought that. She fell to her knees and began to sob as Uo ran to her. Uo reached out to embrace the girl and Tohru pushed her away. Tohru's back was now against the grave marker. Uo had an expression of pure pain. They looked into each other's orbs and both saw anguish.

"Why do you push me away?" Uo questioned.

"Uo-chan…I can't hug anyone," Tohru whispered.

"You've been this way for a year," Uo softly said.

"It's not you…it's me," Tohru whispered to her with an ironic chuckle.

"You make it sound like were breaking apart," Uo softly said as she sat on the ground.

"I just can't hug…anyone," Tohru seriously whispered.

"I want to help you, why won't you let anyone in?" Uo angrily questioned.

"Do remember what happened a year ago?" Tohru questioned in thought.

"Yeah…we found you here…sobbing like the world ended," Uo answered.

"I'll promise you something," Tohru whispered to Uo. "I promise that one day I will tell you everything."

"You would tell me if someone hurt you…right?" Uo questioned. Tohru could see the hurt and it pained her. All that ever came and followed her was pain.

"No one hurt me," Tohru assured.

Uo sighed and ran a hand through her blonde hair. Tohru offered her a small smile as she pushed away from the grave marker. Uo stood up and brushed her school uniform clean of dirt.

"Are you coming back to school?" Uo questioned Tohru.

"No…I need to talk to mom," Tohru solemnly answered.

"I'll tell them you got sick," Uo said as she walked away.

"Thanks," Tohru whispered as she vanished from the cemetery.

Kyou ran a hand through his orange hair as his garnet eyes followed the Yankee. She was following that Tohru girl. Kyou frowned as he began to walk after them without a second thought. He didn't know why he was following them, but he was.

'I'm just bored,' Kyou assured himself.

His curiosity was peaked when he watched the two girls enter the cemetery. Kyou crouched behind a grave as he watched them talk. Uo went to embrace Tohru and she pushed her far away. Kyou was shocked by this action. He knew that the two girls were like sisters. Kyou began to wonder why she couldn't hug anyone as she vaguely explained and answered to Uo. Kyou sat back on his heels in thought as he tried to remember what happened a year ago. His head began to throb as he thought harder about a year ago. He eventually gave up as he watched Uo leave Tohru alone. Tohru kneeled before the grave and wiped the dry tears off her cheeks.

"Hey mom," Tohru whispered as he tensed in shock. "Today is the day of the anniversary of me losing everything."

'That's right, her mom died two years ago,' Kyou thought as he listened.

"I have something important that I'm hiding," Tohru began as she closed her eyes and rested her head on the grave's steps.

'I shouldn't be listening to this,' Kyou thought with little shame.

"I've been avoiding Hana and Uo-chan because I'm afraid."

'What is she afraid of?' Kyou questioned.

"Mom…it hurts so much," Tohru cried as she began to weep. "I just want the pain to end…but I know you'd be sad if I joined you so soon."

'Is this girl crazy?' Kyou wondered with concern.

"I know I did the right thing…I know I helped them so much…but it hurts me to much," Tohru explained.

'What happened to Tohru?' Kyou remembered the question that one of the students asked earlier.

"Mom…would it hurt so much if I hadn't…if I hadn't of…" Tohru broke down in sobs as her nails scratched at the steps.

Kyou leaned in closer to her hear mumbling something.

"I loved him so much…I loved them all and now they don't even know me. I'm alone mom, even with my two friends I am still alone," Tohru muttered with a hiccup.

'Why does she seem so familiar?' Kyou wondered with frustration.

"I took their curse and gave them the chance to live. I left my wonderland and ended up with everything bad."

'Curse?' Kyou wondered.

"I'm a monster…I'm alone…I'm jealous and bitter!" Tohru cried as she hit the steps. The stone cracked under her fist.

'How is she so strong?' Kyou thought as he stood up to make himself known.

"Mom, I wish I could just hug them…anyone again," Tohru whimpered.

"Hey," Kyou gruffly said as she quickly sat up and looked up at him. Her eyes watered with pain before they hardened again.

"What do you want?" Tohru softly demanded as she wiped her tears.

"You don't have to bite my head off!" Kyou shouted at her.

"You don't have to stalk me!" Tohru shouted back.

Kyou's cheeks turned pink before he held his fist up at her. His left eye twitched before he stuffed his hands in his pockets and scoffed. Tohru took a deep breath and emptily gazed at Kyou.

"Aren't you supposed to be in school?" Tohru softly asked.

"Aren't you?" Kyou snapped back without thinking.

"I don't have to take your harassment," Tohru growled as she turned to walk away.

"I'm sorry," Kyou mumbled as she turned to face him again.

"Whatever," Tohru mumbled as she started to walk away.

"Is that anyway to treat a person who apologizes?" Kyou shouted at her back.

Tohru turned to fully face him and she gave him a blank stare. Kyou shuddered under her dead gaze as he watched her eyes darken and pupils narrow. She walked over to him and pushed him. Kyou stumbled back before growling at her. Tohru laughed as she glared at him. Kyou tensed, something about the look in her eyes triggered a warning bell in his head. Tohru took a step towards him as he took a step back. It continued this way until he was backed against the tree. Tohru cracked her knuckles and grinned at him.

"So," Tohru began as her voice became smoother, "you think you can pick on a girl?"

"What the hell?" Kyou shouted as she approached him.

'She must be crazy! Why did I have to follow her?' Kyou questioned.

"You wanna fight? Let's go!" Tohru shouted as she put her fists up.

"I won't fight a girl!" Kyou shouted as he dodged a messy swing of hers.

"Your one of those sexist bastards!" Tohru growled as she charged him.

'She's another person,' Kyou shouted as he jumped out of her attack.

"Listen…calm down," Kyou spoke as she growled.

"Fightme!" Tohru yelled as she punched him. His head snapped to the side and she froze.

Kyou stumbled backwards as he touched the corner of his mouth. He stared at his blood before he looked back to the girl. Her eyes were wide and she was staring at him in horror. Tohru began to cry as she ran up to him and grabbed by the shirt. She began to shake him back and forth, as she cried.

"I'M SO SORRY!" Tohru cried.

"Chill—"

"I didn't mean to hurt you! I shall apologize to the universe for my obscene behavior!" Tohru exclaimed as she pushed Kyou below her and began to shout.

"It's okay—"

"I APOLOGIZE TO THE UNIVERSE FOR MY OBSCENE BEHAVIOR! PLEASE FORGIVE THIS UNWORTHY ONE OF HER CRIMES! I DIDN'T MEAN TO BE SO AGGRESSIVE AND OBSCENE!" Tohru shouted as people began to look towards the cemetery.

She went to shout again, but Kyou put his hand over her mouth. Tohru froze as he panted. She didn't know if it was from rage or out of breath. He removed his hand and she watched as he scratched the back of his head.

"You know you're crazy." Kyou stated as she began to cry.

"I'm…so sorry!" Tohru cried as she began to sob a river.

"Hey! Stop that!" Kyou shouted as he began to panic.

Tohru sniffled as she nodded and took a deep breath. She sighed and looked to the grave. Today had made her lose control of everything she worked so hard to keep hidden. She ran a hand through her hair and reverted to her uncaring look. Kyou blinked in surprise as she stood up and bowed to him.

"I'm sorry that you had to witness…that," Tohru spat with angrily look.

"Are you okay?" Kyou asked with uncertainty. Tohru softly chuckled as she shook her head.

"I will never be okay, but you shouldn't talk to me," Tohru warned with a sad smile. Kyou scoffed at her warning, he was offended and hurt. He tried to be a good citizen and ended up getting punched and threatened.

"I'll talk to whoever the hell I want to!" Kyou declared.

"I'm not very good with people…it was just a suggestion to save you face and time," Tohru softly said.

"Whatever…you just have to chill," Kyou awkwardly suggested as he blushed.

'He's changed,' Tohru thought. 'He's changed into a man.'

"I'll try," Tohru sighed as she began to leave the cemetery.

"Hey! Wait!" Kyou said as she turned to look at him again.

"What do you want now?" Tohru asked.

"I was wondering if I could walk you home?" Kyou asked as she frowned. "It's just to make sure you're safe."

"If it's your desire," Tohru whispered.

Kyou nodded and walked beside her. She led the way back to her home with little words. There was no need for words when you were cursed to loneliness. She wondered if she could say to Kyou or Yuki that she was happy they were happy. She couldn't express to them that she was happy that they were happy. They would think she were weird and truly mental. She reached a tiny apartment complex and Kyou raised an eyebrow at this. It had a ground floor and top floor.

"Do you live her with your dad?" Kyou questioned.

"I live alone," Tohru answered as she began to walk to the door.

"Alone?" Kyou questioned. There were times he wished he could live on his own.

"Alone, my families are dead," Tohru softly whispered.

"I'm sorry," Kyou whispered.

"There's nothing to be sorry about," Tohru assured as she opened the door.

Thunder clashed in the sky and the heaven's let loose. Tohru pulled Kyou inside the building before he could get wet. Kyou mumbled a thanks and Tohru leaned against the wall for support. Kyou reached out to grab her and she pushed away from him until she fell on the floor.

"Hey, I'm just trying to help," Kyou defended himself.

"I know…just don't touch me," Tohru softly said as she weakly stood up.

Kyou nodded and she motioned him to follow her to the apartment. It was on the second floor, the first door to the left. Tohru unlocked the door and they both stepped inside the small room. Kyou scanned the apartment with his garnet gaze before he smirked. The area was spotless and had only one room. He noticed a small kitchen and closet door. Tohru tossed her keys onto the table before she walked over to the window. She pulled apart the curtains and watched the rain pour down.

"I hate the rain," Tohru mumbled as she collapsed to her knees.

"Do you have a phone I could use?" Kyou asked.

"Sure, you should call your guardian," Tohru muttered as she rested her head against the window.

Kyou paused at the phone as he wondered why she said guardian. He shrugged and called Shigure's place. Shigure answered and sang his high school girl song when he mentioned Tohru. Kyou shouted at him and Tohru chuckled at the memories she had. She heard the phone click and then soft footsteps. Kyou stood behind her as she lazily glanced at him.

"I better get going," Kyou announced as she sighed. Both of their gazes fell on the downpour outside.

"You can wait until the storm ends," Tohru softly suggested.

"I don't want to be a bother…especially if it ends late tonight," Kyou explained as he became flustered.

"You can stay the night if it makes things easier," Tohru suggested.

"Do you invite strange men over all the time?" Kyou asked a bit annoyed at her naivety.

"I can take care of myself," Tohru assured as her fingers fiddled with her bracelet.

"If you're not careful a weirdo could take advantage of you!" Kyou explained.

"I know…but I'm more dangerous then any weirdo," Tohru strangely said as her gaze wandered to the rain.

"Then how do I know it's safe here?" Kyou challenged.

"Because…I would never hurt you," Tohru whispered.

'I promise to do anything! I won't let Akito hurt you!'

"Fine," Kyou agreed as his face turned red.

"Don't worry Mr. Sohma, I won't bite," Tohru playfully said as she grinned at him.

"Call me Kyou, that just makes me sound old," Kyou grumbled as he sat across from her.

"Kyou-kun," Tohru tested as she felt the pain again. Kyou's head throbbed as something fought its way to the surface.

"What?" Kyou asked.

"I was just testing it out," Tohru whispered knowing that he would snap.

"Whatever! Just don't say it just to say it!" Kyou growled as she began to sob. Kyou waved his hands in front of him in a panic as she made little whimpering noises.

"You can say my name whenever you want!" Kyou tried to calm her.

"I know," Tohru whispered as she wiped the tears away.

"Your strange," Kyou whispered as he smiled at her.

'I know that too," Tohru thought.

Author's Note:

I'm really happy that everyone enjoyed the first chapter. I hoped everyone enjoyed this chapter because I had a lot of fun writing it!
I know Tohru seems way out of character, but she's supposed to be that way for a reason! Please review and tell me what you thought!