"Caught up in circles
Confusion is nothing new"
(Cyndi Lauper)


Stolen Secrets

"Talking"

'Thinking'

Memories/Writing

Stressed

She stared up at him as their fingers became entwined. He rested his forehead on her head and smiled. It was beautiful sight, which she wished to last forever. His hair brushed her cheek as she began to cry. He looked at her in confusion before he wiped her tears away. She gently put her hands against his chest and held him back. He was still cursed and they both knew it. His face softened in silent sorrow as a tear escaped her eye once more.

"Why do you cry?" He softly whispered to her.

"I am so happy…yet upset," she answered him.

"Do you regret it…do you regret being with me?" He questioned with hurt.

"I love you…however long I stay I will always love you!" She proclaimed her love and he cried.

"You make me feel like I'm truly free," he whispered to her as he started to pull her to his chest.

"I'd do anything for you," she whispered as she began to cry.

"You don't make me feel like the monster I am, I feel so clean when I'm with you," he confided in her.

"You'll be free…one day I will set you free," she firmly announced.

He pulled her to his chest and a cloud of smoke covered them. She held in her arms an orange cat with garnet eyes. The cat purred as she continued to embrace him. Her tears had stopped physically, but inside she wept for him. She didn't want him to be locked up in that awful room. He reached up and licked her tears away as she softly smiled.

"What are you writing?" Kyou asked as he looked over at the laptop screen.

"It's a story," Tohru softly answered.

"You a novelist?" Kyou asked with a grin.

"No, I just write what I feel," Tohru answered as she reread what she wrote.

Kyou turned the laptop to him as he began to scan the lines. His cheeks tinted pink as he scoffed and looked away. Tohru sighed and rolled her eyes at him. Shigure would be proud of her if he remembered.

"You know that's depressing," Kyou announced as he leaned against the wall.

"It's not a happy story," Tohru firmly said.

"Why write something unhappy?" Kyou inquired.

Tohru stood up and closed the laptop. She walked to her fridge and pulled out a milk carton. Tohru placed the carton in front of Kyou and smiled at him.

"Not everything is happy," Tohru answered.

"Just because something's are sad doesn't mean you have to make more sadness," Kyou explained as he picked up the carton and drank from it.

"I'm just recording stolen secrets. The story ends happily for the boy," Tohru whispered.

"What happens to the girl?" Kyou asked, he wondered if she was talking about herself.

"She frees the boy and he forgets her. She then lives on, taunted in her bittersweet memories," Tohru explained somewhat dryly.

"Then what?" Kyou asked in sudden interest.

"She lives forever cursed," Tohru finished.

Kyou shook his head at the sadness before he sighed. This girl seemed more depressing then her friend Hana.

Tohru walked into her classroom with no smile or shining eyes. Her dark green eyes landed on the teacher who was frowning at her. She walked over to him knowing that he would want to lecture and punish her. His gazed lingered on her as one more student walked into the room. Her eyes traveled to the second student in the room, Yuki.

"Ms. Honda, I'm very disappointed in you," the teacher spoke.

"I'm sorry, but I've had some rough times," Tohru confided. The teacher thought of this with a sigh.

"Are you having family problems? Trouble at home?" The teacher asked with some concern.

"My families are dead and I live alone," Tohru dryly said as she scowled.

"I can understand the change in your moods then," the teacher sympathized.

"I don't want your sympathy, all I want is to be treated like a normal student," Tohru firmly explained.

"I respect that, but this time I won't punish you. Just try to pay attention more," the teacher stated.

"Thank you Yukio-sensei," Tohru thankfully said.

She turned around to take her seat and noticed that Yuki was staring at her. It hurt her so much, to see them and not have them see her. She sighed and looked away from him.

'It's better this way,' Tohru thought.

"Ms. Honda," Yuki softly said as she glanced at him.

"What?" Tohru asked. She needed to push them away so they wouldn't find out about her. Yuki was taken aback by her coldness and attitude.

"That's great!" Kyou laughed as he sat in between Yuki and Tohru. "I wish I could see people snap on the 'prince' more often."

"Stupid cousin," Yuki coldly said.

"What did you want Sohma-san?" Tohru interrupted them.

"I was wondering if you were feeling well," Yuki quickly said. Kyou raised an eyebrow and Tohru sighed.

"I'm fine…I'm always fine," Tohru softly said to him.

"I know that I don't pay attention to people, but I would like to be a friend," Yuki offered with a smile.

Tohru tensed as she fought back the tears. She stood from her seat and knew that there was no choice but to push them away. Tohru had to keep them safe from the vengeful spirits and her growing bitterness. She calmly faced Yuki and gave a soft bow, knowing that he wanted to still be accepted by people. Kyou watched this and tensed when he noticed the look in her eyes become dull once more.

"Listen Yuki," Tohru began, "I don't need you for a friend."

"I—I meant it in honesty," Yuki protested, he was alarmed at her behavior.

"I know, but I don't need friend…I have everything I need," Tohru assured as she walked out of the classroom.

Yuki and Kyou followed her with their eyes. Yuki then to Kyou and frowned as the boy shrugged.

"How did you survive with her for the night?" Yuki asked.

"There's something about her," Kyou simply said.

"I know," Yuki softly agreed.

Kyou nodded as he turned to face the window. Tohru eventually came back into the classroom with her other two friends. They were softly talking to each other that caused Tohru to blush. Kyou ignored the teacher and decided to spy on their conversation.

"You're waves are different," Hana simply said as her purple eyes stared into Tohru's green eyes.

"Really?" Tohru asked.

"It seems like you have thirteen different waves," Hana explained.

"Maybe she has thirteen different people inside her!" Uo joked.

'If only they knew,' Tohru thought with sheepish grin.

"So Tohru," Uo slyly drawled.

"Eh," Tohru mumbled in confusion.

"I heard that Zinan was going to ask you out," Uo explained as Tohru blushed. Kyou scoffed at this as he listened to Tohru's response.

"I guess that's nice," Tohru muttered.

"You know he's as popular as the 'prince' and matches his looks," Uo advertised as Hana rolled her eyes.

"I don't care about popularity and looks," Tohru responded.

'She's still a good person no matter how she hides it,' Kyou thought.

"So are you saying that you would date an idiotic, jerk face, orange top?" Uo questioned with a grin. She could hear Kyou cursing her to a grave.

"If they were sweet to me…then yes," Tohru softly answered. Kyou went silent as he heard her answer.

"So what will you do about Zinan?" Hana asked as her gaze traveled to the boy.

"I'll just tell him no," Tohru answered.

Hana and Uo both frowned at this. They both could tell that Tohru desperately wanted someone special. Everyone was dating and she watched with a sad longing. Kyou gazed at Tohru still lost in his own thought.

Tohru had taken Zinan's note and met him by the lockers in the hallway. There was no crowd and the hallways were empty. Tohru sighed as she waited for him. Kyou walked by her and she didn't notice him hide behind the lockers. He wanted to see what would happen since this girl had a fear of touching. Zinan walked out of a classroom and smiled at her. His blue eyes lit up with glee and his cream colored skin reflected the light. His chestnut hair drowned out the light and gave him an angelic glow. Kyou looked around the corner and watched as Zinan stood a few feet from Tohru.

"Thank you for meeting me Honda-san," Zinan said.

"You can call me Tohru," Tohru said as she wished this to be over with.

"I was wondering if you wanted to go with me to the winter dance?" Zinan asked.

"I can't," Tohru softly said as she looked away.

"Why? You know that I like you very much!" Zinan protested with a passion.

"I know…but I don't want to date or anything," Tohru explained.

"It's just one dance," Zinan whispered as he stepped closer to embrace her.

Kyou watched as her eyes widened and she pushed him away. He stumbled back before their chests could touch. Tohru took a step back as she held her hands up for a barrier. Zinan looked hurt and Tohru looked plain confused and scared.

"I'm sorry," Tohru whispered. Zinan chuckled as he scratched the back of his head in thought.

"I should of known," Zinan began.

'Please…I don't more pain,' Tohru thought as her eyes began to water.

"All the boys told me that you were kind…to innocent…to beautiful for me," Zinan softly said.

"I'm not any of those things," Tohru whispered with anger and hurt.

"I know I'm not good enough for you…but you don't have to be so cruel," Zinan said as he glared at her.

Tohru let a tear fall and she squeezed her eyes shut. A crash made her eyes snap open. Her vision was filled with orange hair as she stared ahead of herself. Tohru wiped the tears away as Zinan stood up and glared at Kyou.

"You have no right to talk to her that way!" Kyou growled.

"You think you're special enough for her?" Zinan challenged.

"Kyou-kun," Tohru whispered.

"I may not be special enough…but I'm not a jerk!" Kyou growled.

"Fine, take the cold and uncaring Honda girl, you two will make a perfect match," Zinan scoffed as he walked away.

Tohru sighed as she watched Kyou relax. He turned to face her and she noticed his garnet eyes trained on her.

"Are you okay?" Kyou softly asked.

"Were you spying on me?" Tohru asked with a small grin. Kyou froze and his face went red. He looked away as Tohru smiled at him.

"I was just passing through…and I heard your voice," Kyou explained.

"Thanks Kyou-kun," Tohru whispered as she gazed at him.

"Eh, no problem," he mumbled.

Tohru tensed as he reached forward and brushed a strand of hair from her face.

Her cheeks turned pinked as he smiled at her, it was a small smile. His hand fell away from her and she wished she could embrace him. She longed to be hugged and touched by someone. Kyou put his hand behind his head and pulled his hair as he thought of something to say.

"If you're not busy…would you like to…I don't know…do something?" Kyou asked as he waited to be shot down.

"Are you offering to be a friend?" Tohru teased.

"Sure," Kyou whispered.

"I'd be happy to be a friend," Tohru answered.

'I shouldn't get close to them…it will only hurt me more,' Tohru thought.

Kyou smiled at her once more and she sighed.

'It's better to have something then nothing,' Tohru thought.

"You know that you will never be happy with me," the masculine voice reminded.

"Maybe," she answered with a sad smile.

"Then why come to me. Why not be normal?" He asked her.

"Because I already stole your secrets and now I want your heart," she answered with a smile.

"You already have all of me." He whispered as he rested his head on top of her head.

Author's Note:

Thanks to everybody for reviewing! Why she is like this will be explained in the next I think two chapters! Tell me what you think , I'm trying to go by what the Fruit's Baskets personality were and what the zodiac personalities are supposed to be.