Special Thanks to ErthGrl9870 who did the proofreading of the chapter.

CHAP 9: CONVERSATIONS AND REALIZATIONS.

"So what happened with the lycans and vampires who did the test?" Michael asks concerned.

"Marcus looks at him interested, Michael indeed wasn't as he expected, "Don't worry about that." He says dismissively standing up from his chair."

Michael follows him with his eyes, "Where are they?" he asks now stubbornly.

"The few who survived our virus were killed, I couldn't permit them to keep living that way, if I let them live I'm sure they would have transformed other lycans and vampires or even humans."

Michael looks at him suspiciously, Marcus was giving him explanations and valid point of views but if he had learned anything in the past months it was not to trust anyone until you're really sure of their intentions, and somehow something about Marcus called his attention "What makes you think I will not do that?"

"Your background, Michael I know I'm not going to win your trust now but I want you to understand that I don't have anything against you," He says sincerely as he stands in front of Michael "besides the reasons I'm here is because I wanted to know you and what are you capable of, and if we have the same… characteristics."

"I am interested in that and in what I can and cannot do… I want to fully understand what I have become… but I'm not going to kill and hurt people to know it… I'm not like that."

"I know." He says as he smiles to Michael, "I referred more to our physic characteristics."

"I know I just wanted to make that clear."

"That was very clear since the beginning."

"…So you already gave the resumes of your research to Sophie and Charles?"

"Yes, I hope that my investigators can work with you, I know that for fault of money and time you didn't research somethings and we still have others to know."

"Others?"

"Yes, an example is why the majority of the lycans and vampires that we transformed died, we couldn't finish that." Seeing the face of Michael he decides to continue "Viktor's Death Dealers suspected of the things and secrecies I had and told it to the Council and from there on everything became more difficult, until one day almost everything was in danger so my Death Dealers erased all as I revealed to the Council that I was not going to continue in the war, that was when the first group left Ordoghaz, meanwhile the Council didn't take it well and accused me of heresy, after a long discussion everything became more violent and some of Viktor and Amelia's Death Dealers left Ordoghaz with me."

Michael nods as he thinks about it "No one suspected of your change? …I mean your scent is different from the vampires."

"I don't think they did, after all they hadn't been close to an hybrid to compare, but the day I woke up some lycans tried to attack Ordoghaz I gave the order to let them pass in and they did it amazed, I wasn't going to attack them and all Death Dealers had to obey me, somehow I think a few of them knew it because they looked at me as if they knew it and out of rage two threw themselves at me which is what made all Death Dealers attack, only three survived and they didn't know what I was, they were interrogated and they told that you were in the den but you had ran away…"

Well, he is such a lucky guy if he is saying the truth… How could he have changed without no one noticing it? When he was tracking lycans with the Death Dealers they didn't suspect he didn't transform… "Have you lost control?"

Marcus now was tired of the silence, so he was surprised with the question "No, why?" seeing Michael's attitude at his answer and question he knows it "…You did," he says as he sees how this conversation is affecting Michael "When did that happen?"

Michael looks at the floor and then again at Marcus "A couple of days after my transformation from lycan."

He nodes and thinks about it, almost always the new turned lost control that wasn't a new thing, "Well I suppose that you did because you had only two or three days of becoming lycan and then hybrid. You didn't know how to handle it." He sees Michael nodding and continues "I guess you know now."

He knew that was a question "Yes, but I'm afraid that in other circumstances I could do it again."

"You will not if you are concentrated." He says seriously.

Michael smiles, the same words had been said by Brianna and in the same tone of voice "…So… were you as strong as Viktor before you became a hybrid?" Marcus looks astonished at the change of conversation, "Well, I do want to know about you…"

Marcus nods and sits, this was going to be a long conversation "No one was as strong as Viktor, not Amelia and definitely not me." Michael nods understanding "We suppose that now his son and all the vampires he sired are the strongest left… we will have to wait to hear of someone as strong although we could be waiting for a long time."

"How did he get to be so powerful?"

"No one knows, he was and that's what matters." He says after drink a cup of blood with wine.

Michael nods and does the same, then he looks at his clock a few hours to sunrise that makes another question "Does the natural light hurt you?"

At that Marcus smiles and nods "I never had seen a real one… just paints or the ones show on this television… I saw the first one a couple of weeks after I woke up, I never thought that it was going to be so incredible, I, like the majority of the pure born had never gave a second thought about it we knew what it was and how is was suppose to look but then… the colors, the warmth, the landscape, the sky… In that moment I understood why it was so difficult for the turned to get used to the lack of light."

As he speaks Michael can't help thinking of Selene and if she misses it too, although he now is not angry with her he is a little hurt by what she said. Michael nods as Marcus finishes talking "…So you are immune to it…"

"I never said that, I'm a little sensible to the light, we don't know if this is going to change of it is going to keep like that."

"Sensible? In what way" The doctor in Michael kicks in.

"I can't stand it for too much time, my eyes sting after a few minutes and the UV makes the skin go a little crispy, I guess that if I pass too much time in the open I eventually will die…"

"But I guess that that Death Dealer suit helps you…" Michael says seeing his attire, he never will use something like that, he had said it to Brianna after one of her jokes about it.

Marcus laughs at that "I don't know if take that as a joke or a simple commentary… The cloths of this time…" He says shaking his head "It protects me, it is made of a thick material but that doesn't make it comfortable."

Michael smirks and nodes "So…

As she makes her way for the house she sees Selene and doubts for a couple of seconds but she directs towards her anyway, that's why she had come to the house in the first place. The sooner she speaks with her the better. After the reunion Selene had sited in the wooden seat of a balcony to think about what had happened, although it had ended of drizzle several minutes ago the sky was full of stars, suddenly she hears steps coming towards her and it is not necessity to turn around to see who it is "You delayed."

"I know, I wasn't sure of coming towards you." Fionna decides to be sincere as she approaches her. "Why are you here?" she asks as she looks at the mountains that surround the house, then she remembers something and can't help to smirk "Don't tell me you still have low tolerance to alcohol?"

Selene looks at her frowning definitely that wasn't the kind of conversation or behavior she was waiting, seeing her smirk she knows what Fionna is remembering and this time she is not affected by the alcohol "What the hell did they put in that blood?" she asks looking at the cup Fionna has in her hands.

"That was wine with blood… and you drank like five cups…" she says looking at her and smirking evilly.

Selene notes this but doesn't comment, she waits but Fionna doesn't say anything "Where is James?" she had thought he was going to be here with Fionna but she hadn't seen him, maybe he stayed in Ordoghaz.

Fionna looks at her shocked and frowning "He died."

That was a surprise, she didn't know it, looking at Fionna she doesn't see emotion in her eyes or in her face "How?"

"Ten years ago, he was captured by a group of lycans." She says shrugging indifferently, she now was over it. "Do you want more?" she says knowing the answer and giving her the cup with wine and blood.

Selene shakes her head "Are you trying to kill me now that I'm a little affected?" she bluntly says.

At that Fionna raises an eyebrow and then smiles "You know that I wouldn't do that, I would wait for you to be in good state to do it." Selene looks at her studying her and sees how Fionna looks down at Brianna, Marcus and Michael that are entering in the house "Well… he certainly seems to have a little fan group going…" Fionna murmurs as she looks at Selene. Who? Marcus? Well that wasn't weird if the vampire or the lycan is very powerful he is more besiege for women that are greedy, "Actually I was referring to Michael although in a few time Marcus will be too…" Se says answering the question Selene didn't do, at that Selene nodes knowing its true and where Fionna is going, "So… have you been training him?" Obviously Brianna had told her that "I suppose you two already fought?" Selene nods and looks at her disinterested "Well who won?"

"He did," She says sighing "to be honest, he did it so easily that I felt a bit annoyed." Selene speaks without noticing and looks at Fionna that it's raising a brow amused to have heard that, Selene looks at the floor, and then at Fionna again defiantly, Fionna is here for revenge not to fraternize with her, "Why don't we quit the games and speak seriously?"

Fionna gives a nasty sneer as she sits at Selene side "Ok… That's why I'm here."

"No you are here to take revenge, you don't have another reason besides that, you don't fool me."

Fionna smirks and then drinks of the cup "Well, if you hadn't noticed I've changed, why-" she interrupts when she sees Selene rolling her eyes and standing "I already told you I'm on Marcus' side… he convinced me to join them."

"How'd that happen? I don't see why he would have the need for you join his team." She says showing her irritation, now she had certain doubts in Marcus but everything he had said and done didn't show he was lying but Fionna… she definitely didn't believe Fionna.

"Well, he didn't have it" She admits "but I was the one who discovered he was a hybrid and he couldn't permit me to reveal his secret…"

"So you are here for obligation towards him?"

She looks at Selene defensively "Don't twist my words, you know well what I meant."

"I don't believe you…" She has too many emotions now, confusion been the principal "You are like me!" Or as she was…

They were a like, but not anymore, "I'm not exactly like you!" how she dares to say that! "I killed lycans for pleasure not for vengeance," she waits several seconds to calm herself and then continues "I was loyal to Viktor but Marcus told me the same you did, he explained me the truth about the war and that's when I believed you, I couldn't, I still can't believe that he made of that 'personal offense' a war, that was ridiculous."

Selene sees the sincerity with she speaks but she is not going to trust her, she still is hurt for what Viktor did and she is not going to pass for that again "You can say anything you want but I don't believe you."

"Believe what you wish." Fionna isn't surprised by her attitude, it was like they had gone back in time to one hundred and twenty eight years ago, making time she extracts a cigarette.

Fionna offers one to Selene who looks at her frowning "No, thanks." she says angrily.

"Suit yourself… Some things change… but others don't." she says as she lights it, the cigarette flares up in the dark, Selene notes the indirect but doesn't says anything "That always has been your problem." Fionna says exhaling the smoke and thinking in how unhappy and lonely Selene really is "Not wanting to get too close to anyone or trust in them, you think that way you are going to be safe," she looks at Selene who has a disgruntled expression nonetheless she continues "but that doesn't work… you are alone…"

"Is that all you have to say?" Selene asks crossing her arms in irritation and remembering that that was the same Michael told her.

"No, you know I've done some thinking in the past four months…" She says unaffected as Selene glares at her, in moments like this she can't help to think about Selene's bitterness "I never broke that barrier with you, I was the closest to you after Viktor but we never offered real friendship to the other…"

Selene knows that that it's not entirely a lie, but the relationships and feelings for her were very different than when she was a human "We are not human anymore I don't see why you keep grasping that."

"Are you hearing what you are saying? You are so obsessed with not want to feel anything that you -" she stops and then continues again "we already had talked about it." She says dismissing it knowing that for Selene that has no importance.

Selene is angry by the truth of that statement, she had thought about it in the last days and the conclusion she arrived was the same she hadn't want to hear since she was turned "Why don't we finish with this now? Why don't we let to pretend that we still care, Why don't you try to kill me now or at least speak of what you really came to."

Fionna knows that Selene is speaking hurt, she really has changed "I didn't come to kill you or try anything against you- "

"I already told you I'm not believing that!"

She ignores Selene comment and continues "That was my principal intention at the beginning but then I saw things in another perspective."

"What other perspective? You always knew my family was the only thing I thought about it and as you had said several times you thought I should have forgotten about them sometime ago. That's the only perspective..."

"Look I'm never going to forgive you, I can't and I never will but-"

"All this is hypocrisy…" Selene murmurs.

Fionna stares at her "You are so selfish and arrogant the only thing you think about is you not about others or the harm you do with your actions. -"

She had never thought about it that way "That's true I don't care about anyone else." she says defensively.

"At least you don't deny it." Fionna interrupts standing. "That's why I -"

Selene bitterly chuckles, she had not right to say that "You are not much better than me, you don't care about anything you just want people to pay attention to your crap."

"Crap?" Fionna repeats angrily "Why are you bringing all the faults I did in the past?"

"You can do it but I can't?" Selene asks loosing control, for her Viktor now was in the past.

Oh, how is she of insolence! now the conversation has go out of their hands "The one who fucked it all up was you not me."

"I didn't fuck up anything!" Selene yells.

"Since your point of view…"

"Shit! What the hell do you want from me?" she asks now tired and standing in front of Fionna, she knew they were going to arrive to this point but somehow it is more difficult than what she thought "A fight? Let's go. Kill me? You can try… An apology? I'm not going to apologies because I didn't do anything wrong!"

Fionna smiles at her "Oh please, in your eyes I can see the indecision you have." Seeing how Selene's face changes she continues "You are not sure if what you did was correct, are you?" Hearing that was a shock for Selene because she sometimes thought about it but hadn't accepted it. "Answer me damn it!" Fionna spats coldly after a long pause.

Selene grits her teeth "Fuck you."

At that Fionna throws the cup at the floor that stains it red "You are angry? You are angry!" she yells. "I fucking trusted you! And you betrayed that trust!"

Selene just stares at her no sign of emotion in her attitude "Get over it!" she says giving her the back.

"You are so arrogant that you deny thinking about others or even giving importance to your own thoughts, I know you… I still do, and you are still the same as before it's just that I hadn't wanted it to see it."

The emotions she is feeling to heard al that doesn't like her, and although she tries to block them she can't, "Do you have a point there or you are just babbling?"

Fionna chuckles at that and then speaks in a matter of fact tone "You really need to fix the emotional issues you deny to have, and when you do it then we will talk." She turns and leaves Selene alone.

"You know you almost fooled me" Fionna says as she sees Brianna sited in front of a closed door.

"What are you talking about?" Brianna asks disconcerted.

"You told me she was not here and I almost believed you… don't tell me that you two already made the peace and you were trying to protect her." She says mockingly.

"…Very funny." Brianna says as she looks at the door again.

Fionna knows that Marcus and Michael are inside of that room "Oh you are interested in him aren't you?" she asks suspiciously "Man, history is repeating itself…" she says sarcastically.

Knowing that Fionna refers to Michael and her she rolls her eyes "I seriously doubt you know what truly happened back there, I didn't tell you anything and I doubt she neither."

"Well… you didn't deny it," she says chuckling "that's a beginning."

Brianna smirks "She surely did something to you because you are acting bitchy."

She shrugs "Well, you know her…" Brianna raises an eyebrow, but decides not to speak. "…He is not a threat" Fionna says knowing that the real person Brianna is expecting is Marcus.

"How would you know? You can be used by him." She murmurs.

"I prefer be used by him than by Kraven."

Brianna chuckles at that "I believe that, but still…"

"Look, you were a Death Dealer as I was, you left the house as I did, you… I don't know how you finished here with lycans, but why I couldn't have changed my mind as you did?" Brianna says seriously remembering the last four months.

"You don't do that from one day to the other, it took me decades before I felt comfortable with them…"

"…But a start is a start…" she says smiling.

She really hopes Fionna is being sincere "I know…"

After a long pause Fionna decides to speak again "You know you are an enigma…"

"A what?" she asks confused at where Brianna is going.

"You let Ordoghaz without say anything no one knew where you were and why you did it and then… you are here…"

"I couldn't live in that house anymore, I didn't feel comfortable" Fionna nodes knowing what she meant "Where were you all those years?"

Doing what she wanted to do when she was human "…Knowing the world."

"It seems you already made your dream truth." Brianna says smiling.

Fionna nodes and frowns "Yeah… but now I'm worried."

"About what?" Fionna asks confused.

"What are we going to do when this war finishes?"

It seemed that every Death Dealer and warrior had thought about that "Well, that we finish the war doesn't mean that it's going to be peace…" she says thoughtfully. Fionna looks at her shocked and then smirks. "Why are you smirking?" she asks feigning annoyance.

"You have changed." Fionna states.

"I guess I did." She says smiling, and suddenly Michael and Marcus get out of the room.

"Hey" Michael says as he sits at Selene's side and noticing she looks more sad than usual. "It seems that your talk with Fionna didn't go well."

Selene frowns at him, she thought he was still mad with her "That's a way to say it…"

Michael nods and sees the blood on the floor, he first thinks that Selene and Fiona had a fight but then he smells the scent of alcohol and remembers than Fionna wasn't harmed and Selene doesn't look harmed either, at least physically "What happened?"

"Nothing… just…" She doubts to continue but after a pause she does "…it involved verbal harm."

"I thought you would fight…" That was one of the things of better the thing that had him more worried during his talk with Marcus.

Selene shrugs, somehow physical harm would have been better for her. Looking at him she doesn't understand why Michael is here with her after what she said in that farm, is he an emotional masochist? "Why are you here?" her bad mood reflecting in the way she speaks.

He only had seen her like this once and it was after she killed Viktor seeing that her façade of thought person is low he tries to not make a mistake that makes her put it around her again although he knows this is almost impossible, minutes pass before Michael answers "I couldn't sleep, and you?" He asks feigning a smile he wasn't going to say that he was worried about her obviously she wouldn't take it well.

That's the better thing he can say? She thinks annoyed but somehow she knows that this pointless conversation is making her forget about Fionna and the things she said "I was thinking, I didn't have anything more to do to pass the time." Go to the training room or to the shutting room wasn't one of her options because she no doubts they are full of Death Dealers that would attack her with questions.

Without thinking he answers "I have better ideas to pass the time…" as he hears what he said he looks at the floor and immediately after he feels Selene eyes over him. At hearing that she rolls her eyes unconsciously making the same movement she did when Kraven said things like that to her, that wasn't a commentary she expected and seeing his reaction she knows it was an impulse, suddenly he looks back at her but doesn't says anything, what is he expecting she says? Go to hell is going to be her answer if he keeps staring at her like that. He smiles uncomfortable, why is he so pathetic? Not knowing what else to say "Sorry about that."

Why didn't she see that coming? She asks herself sarcastically, certainly he doesn't look sorry, embarrassed a little but not sorry. She nodes and then looks at the sky "How was your talk with Marcus?" she says trying to forget what just happened.

Michael looks at her disconcerted "…Nothing new he just told me the same he did in the reunion, You trust him right?" He asks already knowing the answer.

"I don't trust anyone" she says remembering what he had told her once. Michael looks at her shocked, he knows she is not an emotional person but there is human emotion in her voice, what did really happen between her and Fionna? Whatever it was left her vulnerable. She stands up and walks to the fence of the balcony "…why are you really here? After what I said I thought you -"

"I know why you said that…" he says interrupting her, he had thought about it in all the way to Gabriel's house but now he was sure she did care a little for him, he could see it in the way she looked at him when Marcus said he wanted to talk alone with him and the uncertainty of leaving him alone, she was worried about him. She doesn't say anything just looks at him when he stands at her side "Do you think he is being sincere?" he murmurs.

Selene frowns at this "I don't know, I'm confused with all this… he seemed to be saying the truth but…" Michael nods understanding "…and Fionna…" she says shaking her head.

"If it makes you feel better almost everyone is distrusting of them." He says sighing.

He knows very well that her stance is different than even Gabriel's, Brianna and Sebastian "It doesn't makes me feel better."

"I know." He says seriously. After several minutes of silence he looks at her "Selene? Was it true?"

"What?" She supposes he is talking of the indifference for his feelings, she doesn't know what to answer she even doesn't know if what she said was true.

"You don't trust me?" He says and can see the surprise in her eyes. Did she truly trust him? Somehow she knows she does but recognizing it is another thing, she hadn't even admitted that to herself, she knows he is the only person she knows will not betray her and the only person in who she really can count on, since when did she became so indecisive? Maybe Fionna is right and she is too messed up… He knows that deal with her is difficult but her doubts and silence is making him feel hurt, sometimes it seems she does it just to hurt him and others because she has no idea of how to relate with others but he also knows he hasn't done anything to win her trust "Hmm… You don't know?"

She recognizes the hurt in his voice "I know…" she says and then takes a deep breath and looks directly to his striking green eyes that are expectant "…I do trust you." She lightly says and for a moment she thinks he didn't hear her but then she sees a big smile appear on his face.

"There's no need to say I trust you too..." he states seeing her looking at his mouth, slowly he approaches her and seeing that she doesn't apart he lightly presses his lips to hers, he sees how Selene's eyes widen from the shock but instead of withdrawing he shuts his eyes and begins to work his mouth against hers, rational thinking left Selene that instant and she closes her eyes as she feels Michael's lips exploring hers softly. He puts his arms around her waist as he kisses her lower lip and he feels her doing the same with his upper lip, tentatively he slips his tongue between her lips, Selene breaths deeply caught by surprise as Michael's tongue touches hers and then retires again.

"Don't…" she whispers after a couple of seconds.

"This is not ok…" Michael says at the same time as they break their kiss, he looks at her brown eyes and then notes their rapidly breathing, he takes a couple of steps backwards but still looking at her, she sighs and looks at the sky and he does the same seeing that soon is going to dawn. He can't believe he took advantage of her vulnerability he knows it was hard to refuse it but he had wanted to kiss her so badly and with that action he can see that he ruined everything they might have achieved…
Selene thoughts were in why she did that… Her emotions had been overwhelming her since she spoke with Fionna and now she sees that Fionna was right she is selfish, she wants to take but not to give, she was confused and didn't think about it and the first thing that came to her mind was how she was going to get out of this, now she knows that what she said in that farm was true she doesn't care about his feelings… so why is she feeling an oppression in her chest? For the first time she compares how she was when she was human, before of four months ago and now and comes to a conclusion: this is not how she wants to be but it is how she is. She looks at him and sees him avoiding her gaze.
He looks at her and sees her eyes filled with regret and more sadness than before "It's going to dawn soon…" He says and then turns and walks out.

Selene had seen the hurt and confusion in his eyes and supposing his feelings she makes better in advert him "I can't offer you more than a partnership…"

He stops and looks at her but she is giving her the back, he clears his throat trying to not show his emotions "I know…" and then keeps walking.
Selene stays there looking at the sky that its purple now instead to go to somewhere safe she goes to the seat and sits putting her elbows in her legs and leans her head in her hands trying to forget the horrible night she had… How things went from bad to worst in three fucking minutes…

At the same time Fionna is in her room looking at the wrinkled picture of Selene's family. Is she going to keep with their plan?

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