Searching For A Better Life

by Danally

After Viktor's death Selene left Michael with the Lycans but he didn't want to stay with them so he searched for her, they decided to go in the search of a renegades group that could help them to bring the peace in the Underworld.

12. Emotional Intimacy

RATED R FOR SEXUAL CONTENT AND STRONG LANGUAGE.

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CHAP 12: EMOTIONAL INTIMACY.

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Selene slowly awakes and the first thing she sees is the unknown roof, immediately she remembers what she did, not that she could forget it, she knew she would regret it even before of doing it but she didn't care and just lived the moment. She turns her face just to find Michael's inches away from hers, for a moment she looks at his mouth but then she avoids it and stares at his closed eyes. He knew she was awake even before of her turning her face, he had felt when she tensed by a moment and then relaxed and now he feels how she stares at him as she slightly and maybe without knowing caresses his arm with her cold fingers, although he is dying to open his eyes and kiss her he knows this is not the moment to let her know he is awake, after all, he doesn't know how is her stance now, although he suspects that nothing has changed.

Suddenly she notes that she is fondling his arm so she stops and then uncomfortable by her position she tries to move but the same arm stretched across her stomach and pinning her to the bed stops her, she looks at him again and careful to not to wake him removes his arm, she sees that he doesn't notices it so she tightens the white blanket around her body and sits in the bed. Michael opens his eyes just as she collects her Death Dealer suit of the floor and stands up of the bed, at every step she takes he hears the sound of the wood under her foot, she directs towards the bathroom without even give a back glance to him, well, he now knows her stance.

Selene leans against the closed door, she had feel his eyes on her as she crossed the room and now the only thing she can think is in how things got that far.

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Flashback:

"Selene! Selene!" Michael yells as he sees her car parked and hidden a few meters away of the construction, for now, he with every second that passes feels his hopes decrease, he knows that as more time passes less are the probabilities to find her alive. Seeing she is not in the car he runs towards the structure, after a couple of seconds he smells her scent and the ones of lycans, immediately he directs towards it and without thinking he opens the door and sees seven lycans aiming at him.

"Well, well, well her fuck toy is here." Kraven says at see Michael by a monitor and knowing Michael is listening him for the walkie-talkie the lycans have.

Michael doesn't know with who is he talking but he suspects it, that voice he had heard it when he was agonizing five months ago, he tries to find Kraven but the only scent of vampire in the room belongs to Selene, he tries to find her too but he can't see her, "Where is she?"

Kraven chuckles "Do you think I'm so stupid to tell you that?" Michael doesn't answer, he is not for games, he stares at the camera for a moment and then sees a room in a corner, his guts tells him Selene is inside there, he is going to move but one lycan shots at him "Do you think you can endure several modified bullets and tranquilizers?"

"I fucking don't care!"

Kraven is angry, their plan didn't consisted in Michael be there, now the outcome of this may not be the one expected "Why are you ready to endanger your live for her? She is nothing more than-"

"I don't care your opinion about her!" Michael interrupts him as he studies how he is going to pass that lycans and get out with Selene, with the lesser injuries possible.

"We had an interesting chat and I'm sure she hadn't told you her real position about you and the lycans." For now Kraven is going to try to taunt Michael, he had tried to get information out of her but she didn't say even a word, instead she killed a couple of his dealers and lycans and put up with all the harm they had done to her. Nothing weird there, "I'm sure you two are pretty close but did she trust in you? Did she tell you what she does in her 'missions'?" He doesn't know why but he can't avoid to feel jealous, he had thought that his obsession with her had finished sometime ago, "I think not! She can't change and she is not going to do it, you must know it by now."

Why is he putting with all Kraven's shit instead of pass those lycans and find Selene? His reason is telling him to not be impulsive but his soul that he has to get her out of there. "I'm not in the mood for this shit."

Kraven smirks "I'm sure you are not."

"Tell me has she changed? Or is she still arrogant and cold? Reserved? Sad by the death of her family? Not letting her feelings get in the way? Denying or ignoring things she doesn't like? Prideful? …By your face I see she is the same person I knew, so apparently nothing has changed." Michael it's not hearing the only he thinks is that he has to kill those lycans in front of him because if he doesn't do it he knows they will shot at Selene with those bullets and then she will not make it. Hadn't they done that already? He asks himself alarmed. "Is she still a cold blooded murderer? Lycan hater? …Or has she been a hypocrite for the last months? No one can change in so little time, not even her …Is she still so wild in bed?" he asks acidly and chuckling, although of course she never had showed that to him.

"You are a coward, why aren't you here instead of this lycans?" Michael asks as he begins to transform.

Why put himself in danger? "Easy, don't do anything you will regret." He already has given orders to the lycans to kill the hybrid so there is nothing he can do now, the only thing he regrets its not have brought Selene with him to watch it, if she is not dead by now, he thinks darkly.

"Fuck you!" Michael says as he runs towards the lycans and he hears several shots and feels how they embed in him, but he is not going to let that stop him. Quickly he punches, scratches and fights with the lycans, he knows he is powerful than them. When he is killing the last lycan standing he hears two shots coming from the room he supposes Selene is, not knowing what had happened he runs towards it and kicks the door open.

She knew something unexpected had happened when a cell phone rang and the lycans that were torturing her let her in the room with a Death Dealer, she was to weak to think what it was, the only thing she knew was that this was the last opportunity to escape, although that would be equal of fatal, outside the sun would burn her alive. Making an effort she forgets the pain in her wrists, torso and head and begins to struggle against the chain that is tying her up to the chair, she had hours doing that and finally one of the components of the chain broke loose.

Seeing the distraction of the Death Dealer at hear the shots she approaches for his rifle that it is over a table but she is too weak and he turns around as he hears when she falls with the rifle, immediately he directs towards her and doing a last effort she aims and shots at him as at the same time he punches her several times.

Looking around his eyes land in Selene, she is on the floor with a gun in her hand and at her side a death Death Dealer. Immediately he runs towards her and crouches as he turns her, his heart skips a beat when he sees her very injured and bleeding badly, looking around again he searches for Kraven or someone else on the room but they are alone.

Selene feels when she is turned around, she had recognized Michael scent even before he had destroyed the door, there's no need to open her eyes to be sure that it's him but she does it and sees him looking around and then looking at her, "Selene…" immediately she recognizes the intense anguish in his voice and eyes. Why she doesn't say anything? He begins to lightly brush the blood stained hair off her face but when he sees her flinching he stops, the last thing he wants is hurt her even more.

She stares at him for a moment, what's he doing here? She thinks letting the gun on the floor, he was the last person she expected to see… "Let's get out of here…" She says blocking the emotions she is feeling just of see him.

He stares at her bleary eyes and helps her to sit. "I thought you never would say that…" he feigns a smile and knows she is trying to not let him see how weak she really is. He also knows he shouldn't move her but stay there is out of question because he knows in any moment more lycans can enter again.

He helps her to stand and then she shrugs him off and walks towards a wall in which she leans. "…The sun is on." She states knowing he already knows that.

Michael nods and doubting of separate of her goes for her coat, he sees her putting some gloves in her hands so he knows she will have to put the coat over her head. He gets close to her again but not too close, the close enough to not annoy her and to catch her if she falls "Ok let's go."

Selene nodes and begins to walk slowly again, knowing that it will take her a while to get to the door of the other room she orders "Go for the car and bring it here."

He shakes his head, "No way, I'm not going to let you alone." He sees the glare she sends him but he ignores her.

Selene breaths deeply ignoring the pain "If you don't do it I will burn in the way, the car is not close."

Michael doesn't want to accept but that's true, there's not other way, he looks around and makes sure that there is no one else in the surroundings "Stay here."

If she wouldn't be so tired she would had frowned and said something at him by that order, but seeing it since other point it's better to stay in this room, after all if someone else enters it will be for that door, and it will be easier to shot just at it than at an entire group dispersed by all the room. "Bring me the guns."

Michael recognizes in her voice that she is going to stay here, quickly he goes for the guns and then looks at the chair, at least he should try, he gets close to it and yanks it of the floor, and then he carries it with him. Selene doesn't have energies to look behind her to see what he is doing and what all that noise is, when he stands at her side she sees the metal chair and the guns. "I will not delay." It's the only thing he says before of get out of the room.

Kraven was anxious to know what had happened, he will have to wait to kill the hybrid but by the anguish in Michael's face as he gets out of the room he assumes Selene is death, at least he is making suffer someone… Where is the hybrid going? To find him? That's impossible. Kraven thinks amused, he is too far now to be found that easily. "Too hard for you seeing her like that…" He jokes but Michael doesn't even seem like he has heard it.

Michael runs out, why he had to come in that damn motorbike! And it doesn't help that Selene's polarized and armed window has received some shoots. At least it's not broken. Just for security he is going to put his jacket and shirt over it, he hopes that block the sun rays. He is not going to put her in the truck again, he prefers be attentive at what happens with her, he thinks as he gets in the car and drives it to the construction then he parks it the closest possible to the entrance.

When he enters again he hears Kraven giving orders of disappear the bodies. Quickly he enters in the room and sees Selene sited in the chair with her head bended but still looking at the door and aiming at it, under the chair there is a puddle of blood, looking at her eyes he recognizes that she is going to faint "Everything is ready". She had intended to walk out of the room, or at least try it but by the dizziness she had to sit in the chair, now as Michael approaches her she tries to stand again, she makes it but at every step she takes worst she feels, seeing this Michael hesitant puts a hand in her waist to help her, just as she had done for him, she puts her hand around his back and leans against him, they begin to walk again, after a couple of meters feeling her tiredness and her quick breathing he stops and looks at her, she knows what he is going to do but she doesn't stops him, instead she lets him put the coat over her head and then she puts her arms around his neck as he puts a hand under her legs and the other across her back and picks her up. He is very quick and at the same time careful of not let her burn and puts her in the back seat of the car, then he makes sure everything is fine but without looking at her that probably is glaring at him. "Are you going to be fine?" He asks worry at see the blood spot under her.

Selene stares at him and shrugs, "…I suppose." she says struggling to have her eyes open, then she looks at the 'fixed' window and then at him again, looking at his chest she sees several bullets holes "…You are bleeding too…" she says as she lies down.

"It's nothing…" He says for the first time realizing that he was injured too "You are worse than me…" Seeing her nodding he gets out of the car and enters by the copilot door. When he looks back he sees her passed out, he ignites the car and gets out of there.

After almost one hour he sees that he can't go too fast because the wind begins to unpin the cloths and several rays enter, so seeing several houses he makes a decision than in normal circumstances he wouldn't have done, he is going to break in one. After observe several houses he parks in front of one that has a sign of SELL, he gets out of the car and makes sure everything is fine inside, then he goes for her and carries her to the basement where he found a bed, a table, a couch and a shower, he carefully puts her in the bed and then goes to hide the car, when he comes in again he searches towels or something hygienic to clean her, when he finds it he directs towards the basement again, there he gets close to her and begins to wet the towel in a vessel and then he begins to clean the dry blood of her face and neck, he is going to check if she has others injuries but she begins to murmur something and he can see her eyes moving although she has them close, a nightmare, Michael decides to not check her more, the bed is not wet with blood which means that all her hemorrhages stopped.

Sighing he enters at the bathroom and begins to extract all the bullets and splinters out of his body, for some reason he hadn't healed maybe for the pills Charles had been given him, or because he hasn't drank blood, who knows? Then he cleans his shirt with holes and then enters in the shower. He furious begins to wash the blood off his body, hers, his and the lycan's, he can't believe he killed again, that was something he didn't want to do and he is beginning to see that he is loosing what he is, he doesn't feel regret even for kill them as brutally as he did, he is not going to try to convince himself that he did it for her or that he didn't have another option, his problem is that he did it. He can't say like Selene or Brianna that he is going to put it behind him, he can't do that even although he knows they weren't innocent, it was in self defense but an assassination is an assassination no matter the circumstances that took him to it. After a while of this he gets out of the bathroom and goes towards Selene to check her, he sees that everything is 'fine' so he directs towards the couch and takes his jacket and puts it on then he lies on the couch.

He was so afraid when he heard Joseph say that no one else had made it, he felt the same despair of years ago but this time there was something else, something he doesn't know what it is, maybe regret for not had told her what he really felt, he looks at her as shakes his head, he knows she would had just shrug him off and would had told him that that was going to change with time, maybe it was that he didn't want to lose her when she had done so many things for him and he basically none… He stares at her, if that was a trap he doesn't want to think how is going to be the war…

Selene recovers sense very slowly, she knows she is not in the car because there is not movement and sounds, her fingers brush against something soft and different at her sheets back on Gabriel's house, where did Michael bring her? She opens her eyes to see a wooden and unknown ceiling, she feels that all her injures are healed for what she deduces she has been here for a long while, she removes the sheet that is over her and as she sits in the bed she sees Michael asleep on the couch, she is grateful for what he did but she can't avoid to be annoyed at the fact that he saved her life… again, she stands up and directs towards a door she assumes is the bathroom, as she gets close she diverts her glance towards Michael and sees that by the expression on his face he was worried about something when he fell sleep, immediately she reminds his face when he found her, shaking her head she enters in the bathroom feeling all the sticky and dry blood in her body, looking at the mirror as she passes by it she sees she has not blood on her face or in her neck, instead of think about it she directs towards the shower.

At least she shot Kraven, she thinks as she sees that she lost a lot of blood, the price was worth it at see his face at the moment although she would had liked more to kill him but she will have to wait to their next meeting…

Michael awakes at hear the shower on, she is well by now, he can't avoid to smile relieved… After a while he doesn't hear the water running and several minutes later she gets out as if anything. "Hey…" he says as she passes by his side without notice that he is awake, she stops and turns around frowning, "You scare the shit out of me you know?" he says standing and approaching her at see that she doesn't say anything.

She doesn't know what to say at that, by his tone of voice she knows he is being very serious about it and the last thing she wants is another of their usual fights, she nodes "…Thanks."

Michael stares at her and nodes, he didn't expect that "Are you fine now?"

She nodes and begins to walk towards the bed, "…I need to rest…" she is not going to recognize that she still feels a little weak but she knows he will assume it, besides the sun is still up and if they are here is because something happened with the car. Knowing what this means he nods and sits in the couch again. Selene lies in the bed and closes her eyes feigning being sleep, she doesn't want to speak but neither wants to think, the last days hadn't been too good, what she did to Robert was a direct reminder of what she had done for the last two hundred years and to the few innocent lycans… few? She can't keep thinking like this, she knows that what she did was bad but also knows they are in a war and she did the necessary to protect herself. After a while she begins to hear Michael doing noises and then a door open "Where are you going?" she asks annoyed.

"Upstairs." it's his answer as he closes the door. Upstairs? She had thought they were in a hotel but it seems not, and a house? It certainly doesn't look as an abandoned house, where the hell did he bring her? She doesn't want to endanger herself for her curiosity so she will have to wait for him to explain her, opening her eyes and looking around again she sees her guns over the little table besides the bed, his jacket over the couch, a table that has several books on top and her clean coat at her side, sighing she stands and goes to sit on the couch.

Michael enters after several minutes and stares at her, "I went out to search for food but…" He stops when he sees her rolling her eyes "What?" he asks annoyed.

Why he had to remember her how hungry she is? She looks at the bottle in his hand, "You know you are not going to find blood at least if you don't go to hunt some animal." she really doubts he be capable of doing something like that, she thinks as she notices that he has put on the shirt she saw in the bathroom.

"Well… this is all I found." He says showing a bottle of orange juice. "If you want-"

"You know damn well that doesn't -"

He sighs tired of her attitude, "You're being rude!" He says irritated, he knows that the juice is not going to have an effect on her, but at least he did it with good intentions!

Selene stares at him and sighs, he really has changed on the last month, just last week he had gone with Sebastian without say anything to her and she had been told by Gabriel, she thought it had been suspicious but she didn't do anything, she wasn't tranquil until he called and she was in Gabriel's office and hear that he was fine "When did you come back?"

Michael sits at the other side of the couch "This morning…" he says staring at her, and for the first time realizes that he doesn't even know the reasons of what had happened, "Why did you go to a meeting with Kraven? …It was Kraven, right?"

Selene nods and tells him everything. Then a thought strikes her "I thought you were not going to come until next week…"

He sees the worry in her face "Why the suspicious tone?"

"Do you know who called to inform Sebastian about what had happened?"

Michael nodes, the same he had though moments ago "Marcus."

Selene sighs, there are so many things that don't have sense "For Marcus it wasn't convenient to call Sebastian so why he did it?"

Sebastian had spoke to him to go to his home for two weeks, he had thought that if he put distance between him and Selene he would forget about his feelings and her, at least for the moment, he had agreed. In the course of the week he had known all the integrants of Sebastian's group, the house, and the new lycans that had united believing in him, he had been comfortable until Sebastian told him everything that had happened with Charles and what it had been done to Robert and he couldn't believe they were capable to do something like that to one lycan and then keep living under the same roof as if anything had happened, he looks at her and then at the floor, no reason in ask, he already knows her position about this, so why waste his time… "Maybe he didn't think that I would come with Sebastian?"

Selene shakes her head "Marcus would have everything planned." He was after all a warrior and a Death Dealer, there's no way he could have 'forget' that 'little' detail.

And what he is about to say is even weirder "There is something else you don't know…"

She frowns worried "…What?"

"Marcus didn't want to tell me where you were, the one who said it was Fionna…" Seeing she doesn't say anything he continues "…So… they have a very good plan… or Fionna it's not in league with Marcus and she told me because she was worry for you…?"

Everything is so twisted that she doesn't know what to think, "If that's true she must be dead by now… or will be very soon." that's something she doesn't want to think.

At hear that he takes a sip of the juice, is Selene truly emotionless? After all, Fionna was someone very close to her and the way she just said that… as she didn't care… Or is she keeping her feelings to herself? Nothing weird there… just as Kraven had said… He shakes his head, why is he remembering what that asshole told him? "Why did Fionna have to tell you?" She asks interrupting his thoughts "You were capable of track me once…"

Michael stands and puts the bottle on top of the table and directs towards the bed "I didn't remember that I could do that…" He was not going to say to her that he was so afraid that the only thing he thought was find her death. Besides he also doesn't know if the distance and time had something to do there.

Selene nodes at see him lying down and giving her the back. She knows what it is to do things without thinking, Viktor was the first and only example in her mind. Se can't believe that after all he did she momentarily sometimes regrets had killed him, he had been very cruel and he deserved it, but at the same time he had been kind with her, she sighs, he had took everything from her… that was all.

She knew that someone, probably Brianna, would send another group if they didn't comeback to the house but by then it would have been very late. Somehow she knows Michael didn't obey the rules and finished rescuing her. Why? Would have she done the same for him? These are the kind of things she doesn't like to think, why as more she thinks about it more anxious she becomes? If he hadn't come in that moment she would be dead by now… She had been rescued before and she had been grateful for that but when she felt him in the room… Why did she felt some kind of joy when she saw Michael? …It was joy? She really doesn't know and doesn't remember feeling that before… Why always he has to remember her that he is the only person in whom she can count? …Even when he is not there?

"Do you know if Gabriel and Joseph made it?" She asks several hours later and knowing that he is awake.

"Until the moment I let the house only they and another two had arrived." He says without show the jealous he feels for their relationship, "…Gabriel didn't look good…" he ads frowning.

Selene frowns, "If he arrived alive he is well now or recovering."

He stands up "He wasn't as bad as you so that's a good sign…" she nods and Michael continues although doubting "…It was true what Sebastian told me? …That the day you disappeared with Brianna, Joseph and Sophie …you were torturing Robert?"

She looks at the floor and then at him again, she definitely is not proud of that but she did it, "It's true." Why he cares about that? It's not like he helped them to torture Robert…

By her voice he knows something about that its bothering her but he also knows she never will tell something like that at him "…I think we should go back, now is safe…" Selene nods, that was the same thing she was going to say. Michael turns around and reaches for her coat and when he stands up and turns around she is standing at his side checking the guns, "What do you really think of me?" He asks without thinking. She sighs as she puts the guns in the table, so that's what is bothering him. Well, now that he did the question why not wait for an answer? But he knows there is not going to be one, 'the worst kind of animal of all' "…I'm part lycan too…"

Selene turns and stares at him, she hadn't noted how close they were, looking at his eyes she sees him waiting and reluctantly she answers "…I don't have anything against you…"

"I know that but-" He doesn't continue because he doesn't know what to say, having her this close is affecting him, nonetheless he gives another step towards her "Do you think I'm worst of a lycan as your kind does or-"

He must know that by now! He doesn't say that he knows her? "Why are you asking all that?" Selene is aware of their closeness, why she doesn't feel wary as before?

He touches his forehead and stares at her "Because I need to know..." She sighs, it's evidently what she thinks of him, even Brianna had noticed. And she thought he knew it, although her attitude towards him is not the best she had told him things she wouldn't tell to a lycan, and the kisses? She thinks as she looks at his mouth and then to his eyes again, he should know that she had never kissed another lycan. Seeing him expectant she doesn't know what to answer, that she is confused? That he is more than a lycan for her but that she is afraid of that? That she wants to ignore it but in occasions she can't? That she doesn't want to care for anyone? And certainly she doesn't want him caring for her? …This never had happened to her…

He sighs deeply at see her reaction, obviously there is something she doesn't want to tell him, habituated to this he nodes "…Okay."

At hear that the words just get out of her mouth "…I have never seen you as a lycan, I thought you knew that…" knowing that her comment wasn't the proper one and less proper was the tone of voice in which she said it she turns for her guns, why he has to do this? In any other moment she would had just shrugged him off but now… Things have changed. She looks back at him over her shoulder, somehow the annoyance in her voice was not reflected in her eyes. "Michael we have to hur-"

The way she said that and the way she stares at him makes him feel that she is not sure of what she said, "Selene…" he says interrupting her, at that she turns completely and before she can even say anything more he poses his lips over hers. She is surprised, that was the last thing she imagined he would do but as she is going to push away from him he does it first. He opens his eyes to see her frowning at him. The only thing Selene can think is in her heart beat, what is she waiting to move away? The short peck on the mouth wasn't enough for him and seeing that she is not moving away in a quick movement he kisses her again, this time putting his hands around her. As he kisses her he notes she is not doing anything, she is just standing there and letting him enjoy the kiss, she is like a statue… Sensing her uncomfortableness he pulls away and sighs. Selene is too confused she doesn't know what to do, kiss him back or push him away? Without noticing she closes her eyes and moves her lips against his as he separates from her, when she opens his eyes and stares back at him she can see the same confusion she supposes he can see, what's she doing, she thinks as she brings her mouth towards him again.

This time he is the surprised as he feels her soft kiss, for a couple of seconds he can't do anything but then he tightens his hold in her waist and deepens the kiss. The kiss they had shared in Gabriel's house had been intense for her because it had been different to the others, and she had just stayed there without touching at exception of their mouths but now she can't stop to want to feel him so she runs her hands towards his neck as the kiss becomes more passionate. This time when his tongue slips between her lips she meets it and then does the same.

Michael can't believe this is happening, somehow this doesn't seem real that's why he, after what it seems like forever, pulls away. He opens his eyes to see her with her eyes closed and as breathless as he is. Selene doesn't want to open her eyes, what is she going to say now? She thinks as she breaths deeply, after a couple of seconds she opens her eyes to stare back at him. He doesn't know what's happening but looking at her he sees her frowning. Just as she is going to take a step back and say that that was a mistake he brings his mouth to her forehead and places a soft kiss there then he brings his forehead against hers, "What's this?" he asks choosing well his words and hiding the emotion of his voice, he knows that if he asks her 'what are you doing?' she would not react well.

Selene can feel his heartbeat and the way he begins to stroke her hair, shy she can't move away? …What's she suppose to say? That it was an impulse? That she somehow had wanted that? His stare is so intense that she avoids his eyes, instead she looks at the bed that it is at his back immediately she regrets it and looks back at him, "I don't know." it was the truth.

Michael nods, he had noted where she had looked but somehow he knows that's not what she wants, does she? Selene slides her hands from his neck to his shoulders and not too unconsciously looks at the bed again. Does she really want that and with him? She slightly opens her mouth when she sees that Michael is going to kiss her again.

With every second he feels her growing less restrained, after a while he stops the intense kiss and slides his hand towards hers and the other he lets it in her waist, then doubting he takes the small step backwards that separates them from the bed and sits in it, he does this without break their stare, he can see her frowning more and there's no doubt in his mind that that was a bad move.

She is surprised, in other occasions she wouldn't have any problem in to know what to do but now it seems there is something that doesn't let her think straight or that she can't control. Or she wants to think that? She knows it was her that involuntarily gave him this idea but looking at his eyes she can't avoid to feel drawn even more to him and at the same time a sensation goes through her but suddenly he brakes their stare and looks away.

Michael didn't want to let his real feelings for her know that's why he looks at the floor and just as he is going to let her go and stand he feels her taking the step towards him and putting her free hand in his shoulder, immediately he looks at her shocked and can see the hesitation in her face as she straddles him.

Selene is surprised at her movements as she rests her weigh in his lap, but she knows she really wants to do this and maybe that's why she is so nervous, she sustains with difficult Michael's surprised long stare and then she feels him pulling her to his embrace and resting his chin in her shoulder, she can't avoid to feel uneasy for that gesture. He feels how she stiffens at the contact but after several seconds she begins to relax and he feels her moving her hand so he lets it free and immediately he feels her arms around his back, he takes his head of her shoulder and kisses her on the cheek then he drags his mouth to hers.

Selene answers his kisses and begins to play with his hair as she feels his hands gently roaming by her back and legs, he breaks their kiss and draws his lips towards her chin then she feels him brush them softly against her neck she immediately feels tickles as he breaths deeply and she has to resist the urge of sigh. Michael knows she is enjoying this for her movements and her barely audible sigh so he begins to gently lick and nibble her neck. His lips feel warm, soft and moist against her neck, she feels her body temperature raise slightly, a normal thing for her kind in this circumstances, is not the same than humans or lycans but is something pleasurable that not even the blood can do.

He loses his grip on her back and brings his hands to the cord of her corset and slowly he unties it and begins to pull of it, she looks at him when he takes it out, he waits for her to stop him but she doesn't do it so he tosses it to the floor. They stare at each other as he brings his hands towards her front and lowers the zipper of her suit, carefully and slowly he retires it with her help then without break their eye contact he places his hands in her cold shoulders and runs it to her hands then towards her shoulders again. This is just lust, she thinks as she stays like that until she leans into him and kisses him, she tries with this kiss take her mind of what is happening, or better, of what she is feeling, she suddenly feels his fingers lightly tracing different kind of patterns by her nude back, she can't avoid to shiver for the tickles and the warm of his fingers and how he leaves this warm along her.

"You are so soft…" he murmurs, the skin of his dreams… He is going to memorize all her curves, he thinks as Selene presses her body against his at every move he does, he brings his hands to her sides and lightly touches her then he slowly ascends towards her breasts. When she feels his hands she gasps into the kiss as pleasure rolls through her, she shudders as he keeps his ministrations but for short time. He stops and runs his hands through her legs until her boots there he unclasps them and puts them off, never breaking their kiss, he removes his shoes with his own feet and as he does this he for the first time feels Selene's hands roaming by his back and introducing by his shirt.

She feels as he re runs his hands by her legs as he moves his but instead to go to her breasts again he reaches to her lower back then she feels him lifting her easily, she puts herself even closer to him as he stands and turns them around then she feels the soft bed, continuing where she left it she slides her hands into his shirt and lightly begins to touch his abdomen and sides noting him tensing his muscles and his shivers.

Michael is supporting his weight, he wants to touch her so much, he wants to feel her but he is restrained himself to go slow, she tenses and gasps again when he softly brushes his thumbs over her nipples. Now she can't avoid some pants as he keeps with that, she can feel how her own caresses become more intense and she extracts her hands and puts them in the hem of his shirt then begins to lift it, all the way making sure of have her fingers in his skin. Michael never had imagined she would be this passive, he always had imagined and dreamed her being rude and dominant, she breaks the kiss and knowing what she wants he separates from her and lets her pull the shirt over his head. She throws the cloth to the floor and at difference of him that apparently hasn't look at her she does it, she notes that he is slightly out of breath and that he has won a little more of muscle, she licks her lips as she looks at his shoulders, chest and abdomen. Michael gets close to her again and gives her a short peck in the mouth then he kisses her chin, and neck. Although she is enjoying the little fires that his lips let in the way it is taking all her effort to not bring his mouth to hers again or to her neck, she doesn't know why but she just can't stop of kissing him.

Her skin is so soft, he thinks as he keeps descending towards her collarbone and kisses her tenderly, by the second he can feel as Selene becomes more exited. It is not surprise for her what he is going to do but nonetheless when she feels his lips, tongue and teeth nibbling and licking her breasts and nipples she instinctively pants and her back arches towards him as electrics shocks pass through her. After several minutes he separates and keeps his trail of kisses downward, he stops at her navel and plants several kisses in her belly button and flicks his tongue against it, he feels her squirm a little and he looks at her but she has her eyes closed. Selene is finding even harder to think in something else that not be the physical sensations he is making her feel, thing she is glad, she doesn't open her eyes although she knows he is staring at her, why she doesn't want to look at him? she thinks as she feels his hands in her waist and then in her suit, he begins to pull of it and she raises her hips, then he slides it by her legs, all the way he continues to kiss and flick his tongue against her hips and legs, he discards the suit it on the pile of cloths at the bed side.

After several seconds the only thing he can do is stare at her body, her white and cold skin, her long and soft legs, her curvy hips, delicate waist, her breasts and neck, her lips, when he looks at her eyes he can see her slightly annoy by this, "You are beautiful…" he whispers breathlessly as he begins to touch her feet, her ankles, her knees and smooth thighs. She upholds his look as he says and does this, suddenly he stops at her hips and then looks where he has his hands and back at her again, she doesn't say anything, he has not need to know that.

He should know it by now, he thinks as he sees in her glance that she is not going to explain it, but nonetheless he begins to do little circles against the little scar that she has since she was human. Beginning to feel uncomfortable by this she shrugs his hand off and sits. For her look he knows she doesn't want to become too intimate with him so he is sure that she is going to stop everything there, she can see his confusion when she sits and kisses him.

Now knowing that she is not going to change of decision he begins to lean against her but at the last moment she turns her body staying she over him. He puts his hands in her waist and looks at her as she stops. His strong glances and obvious tenderness and care should be a motive for her to push him away, but she doesn't, she thinks as she stares at him.

She wants to touch him but she is not going to say that, she leans her upper and cold body against his and she feels how he quivers slightly as she does it, she feels him raising his hand and then running his fingers through her hair, he had control for long enough, she thinks as she runs her fingers by his sides and begins to kiss him lightly, then she catches his bottom lip and begins to lick it and lightly bite him without break the skin. Michael let's her do whatever she wants, if she wants to tease him for him is fine, after a couple of minutes he feels her tongue darting between his lips caressing his, he happily corresponds her and begins to touch her back again. Lightly she touches his neck, after a moment she separates and directs towards his ear, she barely sucks his earlobe when she feels him putting her even closer, she groans feeling an electricity flow as he shudders against her letting her feel him poking her in her thighs, after the sensation passes she smirks and then continues towards his neck. He always has been very sensible and she doing that and then moaning in his ear was too much, he wants to make love to her now but he struggles against it. Michael arches his throat as she sensually trails her lips against it to his neck, she begins to softly nibble but after a while he feels her doing it a little more aggressive, 'Usually it's purely sexual, others do it like some kind of bond and rarely its to survive'.

Selene can feel his hot blood behind his skin, his jugular, his pulse, her mouth watering, "You can bite me if you want…" She hears him say and to her annoyance something flutters inside her, she wants to do it, she is excited and hungry but somehow she knows that if she does it he may take this as something else, as if her attitude hadn't done it by now, she thinks apprehensively as she takes a deep breath and keeps touching his shoulder and chest. He knows she is doubting of do it, he is going to raise her head to make her look at him when he feels the soft and cold touch of her lips planting a peck there and then continuing the same path her right hand had took.

His skin is so warm, she thinks as she kisses his shoulders and chest, as she does this her hands continue to trace his muscles. He stiffs at the tickles in his stomach and when she begins to outline softly his navel and then keeps its journey.

When she reaches his belt buckle in a moment of clarity she stops, what it is really happening? Is she acting by instincts or for something more? She looks at his green eyes that are looking at her intensely, rarely she doesn't want to think in that now. Michael leans against his elbows "We can-" he interrupts when she kisses the place where his heart is. Why is she really doing this? He thinks as he sees her kissing him, she is not acting like if this is just sex… Well, he doesn't know how she acts in these circumstances… For him it's not just sex but for her?

Her mind is in constant battle, one side it says that she should stop this there and the other side tells her to continue, as she hears what he is saying she without thinking kisses his chest. She wants him and she doesn't want to stop. As she keeps kissing him she pushes him back on the bed, not further denying herself with her other hand she undoes the buckle followed by the button of his pants then she pulls down his zipper, pulling away the sides she slides his pants and boxers down his legs, she takes a long look at his body and then sees his socks which she takes too. He feels her hands ascend by his legs and his breath quickens, seeing his reaction she continues and begins to kiss his stomach, chest, neck, his chin and mouth, she feels his arms around her putting her closer, she takes a deep breath when she feels him against her. Her cold body makes contrast with his warm one, he thinks as he breaks the kiss and pants when she begins to rub against him.

She squirms as he finds her mouth and kisses her again. Michael feels her shivering and that her hand goes downwards again, very slowly, his heartbeat and breathing quickens as she continues, both gasp when she finally and lightly touches him and strokes his erection and although her hand is cold this seems to stimulate him even more, he breaks the kiss to breathe and then looks at her as the pleasure begins to gain control of his body making him unable to move, it seems to him that she eludes him as she puts her head at his side and continues with the stroking.

He gently caresses her back and sides as she lies at his side, touching her spine vertebra by vertebra, she thinks that he surely is enjoying it when his hand closes sharply about her hip. Michael turns slightly his head to find her cheek, by the quick flows of air he feels in his neck he can say that she is panting as much as he is. He squeezes her buttocks when she begins to increase the speed of her stroke, anxiously he begins to touch her cheek with his nose. She raises her head and begins to trail her lips towards his mouth, but before she had even touch his cheek he captures her mouth and kisses her deeply as his hand keeps squeezing and caressing her lower back, first slowly and then more intensely.

The way she smells and tastes, the noises she makes and her touches are driving him wild as her caresses become more audacious, knowing that he is close he takes her wrist at first softly and then more firmly when she doesn't stop, "Stop…" he says breaking their kiss and gasping for air. She doesn't put attention at what he said and continues and before she knows it he pushes her off of him, she feels defensive when he turns their bodies around so that her back is resting in the bed. "If you keep with that…" He says seeing her glare, never had she looked at him like that, until now, that was the most intense and alluring look, pupils dilated, exited and irritated all at the same time, but there is something else he can't read.

She knows what he means so she tranquilizes again, above her she feels Michael shuddering trying to gain control over his body, he presses his forehead against hers and looks at her intensely as he lies at her side, she closes her eyes after a moment just when he is beginning to smirk at her, why are his glances bothering her? …Are they truly bothering her? If they are, so why she doesn't stop it? She asks herself. After few seconds he touches her stomach and lightly massages it as he gives her several pecks in her mouth, after a while he brings his hand towards her hips, legs and thighs and then upwards, just grazing. Her body involuntary pulls away and her breath catches in her throat, and as Michael stays still she takes a handful of the sheet, she waits for him to move again but he doesn't so she opens her eyes and sees him smirking at her. Instead he brings his mouth towards her earlobe and sucks lightly on it, he does it for awhile until she relaxes again and as he does it he can't avoid to grind against her leg, after a moment he brushes his hand against her again but more firmly than before. Automatically and against all her efforts her body jerks and she groans as he keeps caressing her gently and carefully. Michael has to admit that her movements are exciting him again, not that she had stopped of do that… he raises his head slightly to see her face, after a moment he stops again. Waiting she opens her eyes to see him smirking again, obvious at what he is doing and knowing she already is lost in her feelings of… desire she smirks back as she touches his nape and immediately raises her head slightly and catches his lips with hers. Michael notes she loses the last of her inhibitions, this kiss is dark, hot and powerful, her, he answers the kiss with all his being as he begins to move his hand faster and harder.

She knows she is in the edge, she can't stop to kiss him harder, grasp even harder the sheets and squirm against him. He knows it won't be much longer, her stomach is starting to tense up, her hips are moving faster, she pauses the kiss and takes a deep breath as she turns her face away from him, she closes her eyes tightly as her hips bucks and her body spasms.

After a moment he begins to slow and retires his hand and sees as she begins to relax and breathe deeply, she stays like that for awhile and when she turns her face and meets his eyes again they are blue.

She prefers to look at his neck instead of his eyes, they stay like that for a couple of minutes, she glad of the silence not knowing what would be her answer if he asks her something. "Your eyes…" she hears him say as he begins to touch her scar, for the first time she realizes she is transformed, she nods as she sees the little drops of sweat in his forehead, she has the impulse to clean it but she stops herself. He suspected even before of she turn her face that her eyes would be blue, he doesn't have a problem with that its just that he feels more drawn to her brown ones, she closes them for a moment and when she opens them again they are brown, he had wanted to see how they changed, he thinks as she removes his hand of her scar.

All his staring is making her feel uncomfortable, she knows he must be also but for a different reason, a chill runs through her body as she feels him against her leg, she suspects that he doesn't want to rush her, he slowly kisses her again and she answers him as she begins to touch his shoulder and arm after a while she begins to kiss him harder and roughly as she feels the desire begin to build slowly again.

Suddenly he begins to touch intensely her scar again, as the moments pass she brgins to feel uneasy and defensive, why he keeps doing it if he knows she doesn't like it? When he knows what that represents! She knows what he wants with that and that's something she knows she can't give him… Or did she already do it? She shakes her head lightly, there's not humanity in her! If he doesn't like what she is, because this is what she is, so why is he with her? Why he thinks he can bring her humanity back doing that? She is beginning to dislike this situation, this is not how sex is supposed to be, at least not for her… It had never been like this, all this emotions, confusions and thoughts… It supposes to be something fleeting and with not too much importance, she thinks trying to lie to herself… This is not good.

Michael is surprised when she harshly pushes him off and straddles him and when he looks back at her cold blue eyes that are looking at him with indifference, after a couple of seconds she avoids him, why he has that damn look in his eyes? She breaths deeply, now is his turn, she thinks as she puts a hand in his shoulder, why is this being so… different? She asks herself ignoring his stare, although still doubting she rises on her knees and feels him tense when she grasps his erection and a moment later lowers her self down letting him slide in slowly.

Why this change in her attitude? He thinks as she holds her breath and groans putting her other hand in his chest. She never thoug- she shakes her head, she never dreamed it would be so uncomfortable for his warmth, she thinks as his hips ground into hers. Seeing her face of discomfort he stays still just touching her thighs, the cold not new for him makes him feel a little uncomfortable but nonetheless very pleasurable and her tightness wasn't helping either, he suspects he is not going to be capable of hold back for too much time.

She looks at him, and then at his chest, that's the way she wants it, not soothing kisses and caresses, or uncomfortable glances, just sex, nothing more. Slowly she begins to move as she digs her fingers in his chest, just doing smooth and short movements.

As the uncomfortableness is replaced by pleasure she begins to increase her pace he puts his hands in her hips, he is letting himself go with his body feelings although he is conscious of the new aggressiveness in her moves and attitude, he looks at her as she raises and falls back, again and again, after a moment he brings his hand towards her face and as soon as he touches her she opens her eyes and then he sees how her eyes soften. Not knowing why Selene lets him pull her towards him but as she more stares at him more she becomes aware of what she is doing, she frowns as they are going to kiss and can see his confusion as she sits again and shrugs his hand off. What's she doing? Michael asks himself when her eyes harden and then she closes them, a moment later she begins to thrust down, hard and fast. She feels as he begins to pull her down harder as they moan, This is the way.

This is not the way he wants it, he thinks as she eludes his eyes and his caresses, for him that she be aggressive doesn't have importance what it's not liking him is that she wants to finish this as soon as she can and it seems that for her he is the last person she would like to be in this situation, she is totally ignoring him, she is being selfish, he knows he is far away from her… But at least he had the fucking hope that she wanted to do it for others reasons and not just to reach an orgasm, that she could do it with someone else, he thinks putting at a side the possessiveness he feels at that thought, he is just her fuck toy… little by little he begins to get disappointed and angry with her and thrusts more furiously, well, he also wants that… this is not love this is fuck. Now he has a single determination, he thinks as he listen his own growls.

She didn't suspect he would become aggressive too, better this way than the other, she assures herself, this is nothing for her and she was glad he had noticed it, she shuts her eyes tightly close, his thrusts and his hands in her hips are pressing so hard that it is hurting, at first she tries to ignore his growls and does successfully but as they moves become more violent she can't, in a moment trying to catch her breath she has the same eerie feeling of months ago, slowly she opens her eyes and immediately stops as she sees him staring back at her with black orbs and fangs.

Now what? He had done what she wanted …Is not this what she wants? He asks himself as he looks at her frown, what happened? Then suddenly it hits him, instantly he stops. She frowns even more and although her instincts are telling her to move away she knows he will not hurt her, but she is puzzled, she always thought he changed completely not by parts, or that he had learned to control it, no, he now knows how to control it, she is sure of that, she also notes how his eyes become unfocused and distant. He knows she is as surprised as he his and also knows that he has to calm himself to change back but he is finding it hard to do it, he knows this has nothing to do with lust, never had occurred him before… So it was for the anger he was feeling at the moment.

Why is she feeling…? She can see the emotions in his face and she knows she is guilty for that, as he turns his face away from her she lets her previous attitude towards him… What she should do? …Without notice or maybe more for worry she puts her hands in his forearms and begins to do little circles with her fingers, his change must have an explanation; she at least suspects he did it involuntarily as she had done it before, she begins to pull lightly of the little hairs in his forearms. Why is she feeling… different than moments ago? Why she can't keep with her previous attitude? She knows she is worry for him but… Why she can't keep… what? Lying and manipulating herself? Or being the way she always has been? ...Not always and just with him… She thinks feeling worse than ever, although she doesn't want to recognize it she knows that she was being aggressive because she was fearing what he is making her feel right now…

The second their eyes met he saw the expression in her eyes but he doesn't know what's happening with her, he turns his face as he feels her staring at him, how the roles changed so fast, he thinks sarcastically, he waits for her to move away but it seems she wants to keep going, he feels her fingers in his forearms and that she keeps staring at him. Can't she at least wait for him to change back! After a moment the only thing he feels is the hurt that her damn 'caresses' bring to him, not standing it anymore he rudely puts his arms away, right away he can see the hurt in her eyes but he closes his and breaths deeply, if he is hurting her is because he learned from her, he tries to ignore the intense glare he can feel she is throwing at him and he succeeds but when he feels that she begins to raise he abruptly sits and puts his hands in her hips again, stopping her.

She thought he had wanted to stop but it seems that not… And why she feels hurt when she was the one using him for her own satisfaction? She knows she doesn't have any right to feel that, the only thing she can think is that several minutes back she didn't want him too close and now as he roughly circles his arms around her she doesn't want to pull away, she frowns at the contradictory and irony of her thoughts. Michael already doesn't know what to think of her, he knows she is deeply confused and worry, that he maybe was taking advantage of that, although moments ago that didn't seem to be true… One moment she is gentle and the next she can't wait to this to be over… He opens his eyes when he feels her hands reach around his back, and he can't avoid to feel angrier. What's this crap! Why she keeps teasing him?

When he opens his eyes she sees that he has been unable to change back, remembering what she had done when he couldn't relax she puts her chin in his neck and with a tenderness she didn't know she had she begins to caress his back soft and slowly. What the hell is she doing? She asks herself worriedly as she feels him slightly trembling, which sends waves of tingles with every movement he does. He wants to push her away or finalize this for once but her touch doesn't let him move. He decides to go with it, he is going to enjoy this as it lasts, he begins to mimic her movements and after a moment he brings his face to her neck, they are going to finish with this and then he supposes they will do as if anything had happened, and to think that ironically maybe this has been the more intimate moment between them, he thinks as he breaths deeply and kisses her neck and immediately he feels her tense, so he pulls his head of her shoulder and looks at her "I wasn't going to bite you…" He says acidly and still feeling his fangs.

What is she thinking? Why is she going to do this worse for both of them? She nods and doing a movement she never thought she would do she places her forehead against his and opens her eyes "I know…" She murmurs as she keeps touching his back, when she felt his fangs in her neck she felt… Surprised but anxious and thrilled all at the same time, and to look at his black eyes… She doesn't know why but that also attracts her, after a couple of minutes she sees how his eyes turn back to green.

Michael notes the vulnerability which she said that and the way her eyes changed to her brown ones. What's really happening with her? He thinks as they keep staring at each other… Why it seems she regrets it? It was her idea… He changes when he finally relaxes and looses his anger, the look she had in her eyes as she stared at him… he knows that no one can feign that, in these moment is when he really comprehends that she does have feelings for him, if not she would have pushed him away since the beginning or when he transformed, that maybe her aggressiveness was as a method of protect herself from him, …her worry and gentleness… Maybe he is lying to himself or maybe she was doing it to herself before, anyway he knows that probably he never is going to find out. He stares at her for a short moment and still doubting brings his hand to her face and a second later his mouth towards hers. He knows that this kiss is the only way in which he can show her his real feelings…

She had thought that after all that she had done, his waiting, the hurt she had seen he would hurry to finish but instead he is kissing her tenderly… What is this she is feeling? Why she can't push him away? …Or she doesn't want? She surely should …Or should she stop thinking? Michael at feel her apprehension opens his eyes to see her looking back at him, more disappointed than before he sighs, he is going to let everything there, he is going to separate from her and finish all this shit but then he feels her hands in his nape and sees that she closes her eyes as she begins to kiss him back.

Selene keeps touching his nape and hair, this kiss is slow and soft not hurried or very passionate, after a couple of minutes she feels him move against her and pulling her even closer, closing the gap between their chests, she moans when there is not space between them and then continues the kiss as they begin to grind, she can't help to compare this and before and this is more pleasurable... And although she is afraid of admit it intimate.

He doesn't hurry his moves and neither she although he wants to do it but he is restricting himself, he still is processing everything, her aggressiveness, her glances and touches, the emotions she seems to be having, how things changed so quickly… He wants her to enjoy it and maybe by his possessiveness the thought that she never had truly been with someone that really cared for her passes by his mind and he wants to show her what it is to be with someone that ca- loves her and not just have sex. She feels as he slowly lies on his back bringing her with him as his pace increases slightly, she breaks the kiss and puts her head in the hollow of his neck as he slows and quickens. What's happening with her?

He can feel when she gets tired of that, she begins to quicken her pace when he slows it, slowly he stops and turns them. She knows he is supporting his weight on his knees and elbows to don't crush her, wanting to feel his weight upon her she slides her legs and arms around him, he lowers himself onto her body and both gasp again at full contact. He still is being careful to not to crush her and making sure that she be comfortable and she must know it because he feels how she pushes him even closer, after a moment he begins again a tender and soft rhythm and can't avoid being surprised at her whimper of frustration.

He bends his head at her side and looks at the pillow in which her head is leaned, after a while they begin to push against each other harder, Selene puts her mouth in his shoulder knowing that she puts it in his neck she will bite him, at first she just ran her hands by his back but as their pace increases she begins to dig her fingers in it and grasp his body tightly.

When he feels her kissing his ear he raises his head slightly and she searches his mouth and begins to lick his lips then introduces her tongue in his mouth, he kisses her back not hurriedly as she is but deeply and with tenderness and passion, to his surprise she does the same after a moment. She breaks the kiss when she can't breathe by her nose, immediately she notes how his body has begin to tense, knowing that he is close to release she begins to push even harder. Michael raises himself onto his arms as he feels her unsteady and fast breaths against his face, this breaks the little auto control he still had. Feeling his thrusts and pressure very strongly, her lower body tingling and a pressure in her abdomen she begins to moan.

Knowing he will not be capable to maintain this rhythm for too much time he puts a hand between them and begins to trace little circles in her nipple.

When at the same time he begins to kiss, lick and nibble her neck she feels goosebumps and an electrical current that makes her move her hips even harder and urgent against him sending immense quakes of pleasure and heat through her body, as he continues to move she feels the powerful spasms and she tries to breathe but it seems that the air doesn't come to her lungs. Feeling her clutching at him harder, how her back arches, the tighten and gripping of her intern muscles is too much for Michael, although he barely is capable of move he gives the last thrusts as he tenses, his hips convulse against hers and pleasure runs his whole body as he lets escape groans that are muffled in her neck.

As her body slowly relaxes she gradually becomes aware of the fact that he is panting as much as she is and his weight on her, she feels rarely warm as Michael is still trembling, she slowly takes deeps breaths trying to normalize her pulse again. She lightly quivers when he begins to suck and nibble in her neck. He notes that he must be crushing her and lifts slightly, she is so beautiful, he thinks as he looks at her. Seeing his sweaty hair falling above his face she brings her hand and softly brushes it away of his eyes and puts it behind his ear but some strands keep clinging over his face, why is she acting like this? Why it was different? She reaches up and caresses his face as she takes the strands too, what she sees in his eyes next doesn't like her, so she stops. It was all that a good idea? What are going to be the consequences?

As she does that he stares at her eyes and sees her eyes gleaming, at her caresses he can't avoid to smile at her and to think that he loves her, she stops her caresses and brings her hand to his side were she lightly keeps touching him, after a moment she begins to twist under him, understanding he pulls away and reaches for the blanket and then lies at her side pulling the sheet over the top of them. She doesn't move as he does that and accepts his arm around her and his kisses although now she is uncomfortable because she is comfortable, although she is kissing him she really hopes that what she saw in his eyes don't be what she imagines. After a couple of minutes he brakes the kiss and puts his head at her side, she looks at the ceiling before of close her eyes and minutes later feels him asleep, confused she stays there for what it seems forever, when she feels sleep coming to her she turns making his chest press against her back and shoulders, she is going to put a little space between them but he tightens his grip and lightly kisses the back of her neck. Why she really did it? Why is she still cuddling with him?

End Flashback.

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Now that she is more clear headed she can't avoid to keep thinking that she did it to reach a peace of mind, because she just wanted it, that it was just her impulses and instincts, that se was confused, but who is she deceiving? Not even her self believes that… So why then the regret? …Because now she might have given him hopes? Because by her attitude he may be assuming other things? Because she used him? Because she was a bitch when he was being gentle? Because she hurt him? …Does she truly regret it? ...Deeply she knows it is other thing…

She is indecisive at what happened, for a part she still wants to think, to keep lying to her self, that it no matter how good it was it didn't mean anything for her… But then why is she thinking about it? Is she capable to put space between them after that? Certainly she doesn't believe it… Does she want? She sighs as she shakes her head …And the other part, is convincing her, telling her that she never had felt that way and- she interrupts her thoughts believing she heard something outside but it is just her imagination.

Feelings. She has feelings for him, she has had them for a while now, she knows it is not love but it's something. And now she suspects that he feels more than care and lust for her, what has intimidated her even more… She felt miserable when she began to use him but she just ignored herself and him, that was better she had thought… but it wasn't… If he hadn't changed how things would have ended? It would be different than now? How is going to be their attitude towards each other now? She doesn't know the answers to that questions and it is not sure of want to know them, she thinks as she gets in the shower and feels the warm water.

…After had been turned she only had felt something like this for someone else, Gabriel, and she had accepted it but very quickly she ended running away from it, but that was nothing compared for what she feels for Michael… What has him that makes her so confused? Of all the people she has made at a side when they tried to be close, what did he do and does that she can't do the same to him? Why she can't put space between them? It seems that harder she tries closer they get…

When she was human she never conceived be intimate without love, if you were intimate with someone it was because you love him, not that she could experiment that back then, she was too young for that… That kind of thought abandoned her as soon as she became a vampire. With time she forgot about everything except one thing, her family and hence her revenge killing lycans… She didn't care for anything more… At first she assumed that when two vampires were together it was just sex and nothing more and that's why she always treated it like that and avoided it and she was successful but as the time passed she saw things with other eyes… She first experimented it apprehensively and verified that she was right, just sex, even though it was with someone she trusted… Always was with vampires she trusted and not with the libertines that inhabited Ordoghaz, to her comfort she never got feelings out of it… And knew she was not going to get them. But now…

Sex was something she didn't put too much thought, it was almost a non-existent part for her, until Michael, he is the first man she can say she has really desired, maybe not too unconsciously as she had wanted to believe it. She had dreamed with him but it never passed by her mind that she would have sex with him, she always stopped that kind of thoughts… At the beginning she was enjoying it, maybe too much, but when his glances became too intense and his caresses… too humans, she couldn't manage that and her conscience began to taunting her saying that she was acting like him… In a moment her worry for him changed her attitude, that same worry made her see her real feelings for him, her feelings, so good and so bad at the same time… she still doesn't know why she didn't ignore them instead she accepted them, and there is no doubt in her mind that he saw them, she has showed them with her actions…

She doesn't know why she did it but she does know it meant more than just sex, and she can't avoid to feel startle, it was the first time she combined the two, physical and emotional intimacy… She begins to dress, what it is bothering her is that she grasped her humanity a couple of hours ago and it seems that she keeps grasping it because she is accepting her feelings… Or she didn't lost it and just put it on the back of her being? …What would have been better bit him showing him her true nature or not doing it like she did? With all that thinking she is beginning to feel anxious …Although she doesn't like the prospect, it was human; it was as she had thought it would be when she was human… or at least the majority of it… Why is this bringing more turmoil to her? What is going to happen now? She asks as she is going to open the door. As she gets in the room again she sees it empty.

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Moments later of she had entered in the bathroom he stands up and gathers his clothes and directs upstairs, as he passes by the bathroom he doubts of enter inside but he shakes his head and continues his path.

He is deeply frustrated and at the same time confused… How is going to be her attitude now? A couple of hours ago he saw how really confused she was and how she tried to hide her emotions behind aggressiveness and then… Or she is a good actress or she showed him her true feelings… somehow he knows the last option is the correct, thing that makes quite happy but he also suspects she will not be too comfortable for had showed him that… Maybe she goes back to her distant self… He thinks as he enters to another bathroom and takes a shower.

Although he knows that love was not there, at least not for her, she showed since the beginning that it were another emotions care, worry, compression, trustiness… He still remembers the look in her eyes… She showed him two facets of her he hadn't see but the one he liked more was the human… Her final caresses and glances were… he can't even describe it… He likes to think they did it as humans not as their kinds. He knows she is intimidated by her emotions… and his, he knows she didn't bite him because she was afraid of what that could represent for both of them, anyways he doesn't blame her, who wouldn't be scared of trust and care for someone after all the things she has been through?

What if he is thinking too much about it? What if it didn't mean anything to her? How things are going to be? He doesn't know, the only thing he knows is no matter what this meant for her she will not be comfortable if he begins to demand explanations that will give her the impression that he is pushing her… So what is he going to do? Ignore it? Made as if anything had happened? Or try to… he shakes his head as he sighs, he will know in several minutes, he dresses and knowing Selene will delay in the bathroom goes for the car. Selene wasn't as he imagined she would be… Well, she was for an instant but she had ulterior motives.

He had this preconceived image of vampires and sex given to him by movies and books but he had found months ago that it wasn't true… Well, they had the biting and another things but it wasn't as exaggerated… He wasn't exactly in abstinence in the past months and he had found things that liked him and others that not… But he hadn't experienced what he experienced with Selene… With Brianna it was just sex, they have a friendship but don't let that to put in the way, in the moment they are together it is nothing more than a carnal thing, for both of them. …For Selene it was something more than carnal? He sighs. Maybe by his feelings he is giving false illusions to himself… In the obscurity of the house he makes his way to the basement.

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Selene is going to go upstairs when Michael enters fully dressed, he immediately sees her scowling, "I went for the car…" he explains not wanting her think that he abandoned her or something …Just like when she let him in the bed alone?

She can feel him looking at her, she had been assuming things when she saw the empty room, "…Let's go." She says as she puts her coat on. Michael nods and he feels her following him, she looks around as they ascend and at the rooms in their path "…Did you burst into a house?"

He looks at her and finds her looking at him, after a moment she looks away, nothing new there, "What would have say the receptionist of a hotel if I would had entered with a bleeding and fainted women in my arms?…" He asks feigning humor.

She nods feeling how he stares at her "I see your point…"

At least she is not being too cold with him or scolding him… yet. Thanks at the moon light he can see her perfect features outlined, in a second he remembers her kisses, her body, her gestures, gulping he looks away. Suddenly he has this sensation that he truly hurt her when they were being rude… This makes him slow his pace… He truly hurt her at least physically… Seeing the car in front of the house he directs towards it feeling distressed and don't even wait for her protest when he gets in the pilot seat. Selene can't avoid to feel uncomfortable, after all the things that happened she waited another kind attitude of his part, she is glad that he is not waiting anything from her and at the same time …disappointed? That he is doing as if anything… "I know I hurt you…" He says, without looking at her and feeling regret "I'm really sorry."

She suddenly hears him say as he accelerates, she shakes her head, well it seems he is not going to let that in the past, "…It's okay…" she says as she gives a furtive glance to him but he is looking away. Does she want to let that in the past? Is she secretly hopping he says something that gives her an excuse to put this behind them? "I'm sorry if I hurt you too…" She adds after several minutes.

Michael looks at her and nods and then looks back at the road again. He doesn't know with exactitude what's going to happen now but he hopes they go forward… "Forget about it…" That simple comment lets her thinking all the road.

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"We gave you by dead…" Fionna says surprised as she sees Michael and Selene entering in Gabriel's office.

Selene looks at her "I suppose your plan went wrong."

Fionna sighs and looks at Gabriel that it is healed by now, "We sent lycans to investigate but there was not indication of your whereabouts, everything was empty."

Selene nods "Why didn't you use the track device installed in my car?"

Gabriel notes the sarcastic tone in her voice "We lost our time doing that the last time…" Nonetheless they did it and they found the location of the car and went to investigate but the car was empty and stained in blood, they didn't know what had happened…

"What happened?" Marcus and Sebastian ask at the same time.

Before Michael can answer she does "I was hurt and Michael took me to a house, there I recovered…"

"Why the delay?" Brianna smirks as she looks at Selene.

Michael looks at Brianna, now he can't avoid to feel uncomfortable, "She was badly hurt…" he says looking at Brianna what makes her smirk wider as she looks at Selene.

Selene just stares at her, Marcus notes for the millionth time the hostility between Brianna and Selene "What happened there?"

Selene raises her chin "They killed a vampire and a lycan that were with us and-"

Sebastian interrupts her "And they didn't do anything to you?" he asks suspiciously.

Fionna, Gabriel and Marcus raise an eyebrow to that, it seems that now is everyone against everyone. Selene just ignores him and keeps looking at Marcus. As if Marcus doesn't know… "They interrogated me… Kraven was almost all the time there…" she looks at Gabriel "I didn't talk about anything…"

"That's hard to believe…" Marcus says as he sits in a chair.

Gabriel knows that Marcus is right with that comment, "Nothing else happened?" He asks seeing that Selene doesn't say anything, she shakes her head.

Sebastian looks at her "Did he tell you anything? What were his plans, who was helping him…"

"No he didn't say anything about that, he only confirmed me that he was allied with the lycans…"

"Why he did that?" Sebastian asks doubting of Selene.

Selene sighs, "Maybe he thought she hadn't deduced it…" Fionna says smirking.

Sebastian ignores her "Didn't he tell you anything more? A name or that he was going to attack us… what he is trying to do…"

Selene looks quickly at Michael and then at Sebastian "He said he was going to kill Michael… And he also said that the person I least expected was the one that was going to betray us all…"

Before Sebastian can say anything more Brianna speaks "What's new there? We already knew all that… Did he say something about Marcus?"

Selene shakes her head "Not even a word."

Gabriel nodes, "We have to be alert, Kraven will try to act before we do it… I think it is better to begin to get ready to attack them…"

Every one in the room nods, at least Gabriel didn't say when, Selene thinks looking at Marcus. "So… who is the person you least expect?" Brianna asks.

Michael of course, but she is not going to doubt about him she has not reasons, she looks at him and immediately can see the hurt in his eyes, then she looks at Brianna "Gabriel and you…"

Brianna smirks widely at Selene, she hadn't want to hurt Michael at ask that question she just had wanted that Selene said out loud what she just said, looking at Michael she can see him frowning what erases her smirk, she can't believe he is so dense! Is that he doesn't realize what this means! "I already knew that…"

"I'll go to tell everyone that we will have to redouble security here and then I will do some calls…" Sebastian says as he leaves the office.

Marcus looks at Gabriel "Do I speak with the Death Dealers?" Gabriel frowns but nodes, anyway they don't know when they are going to attack, it could be tomorrow or in one month…

"I want your resume for tomorrow…" Gabriel says to Selene as he gets out of the room Selene nods "And you are needed it the vigilance room." Selene looks at Brianna, she had told her about the cameras she had installed in the house did Brianna told them something? She looks at Brianna shrugging meaning that she didn't know why they needed her. Did they found the cameras she had installed? Somehow Sebastian never asked to them how they suspected of Robert but maybe he told them…

As Selene gets out of the room Brianna stares at Michael "Why are you so dense!" Michael stares at her knowing what she means, "She doesn't doubt about you, you should be sure of that!"

Now he knows that, he thinks a little content "I was… just amazed…"

"Yeah… I may believe that…" She sees his smile and how he stares at her "…You are a bad liar…"

He raises his eyebrows, ok he had felt hurt when Selene looked at him and knowing that she is a person who speaks what it is in her mind not mattering who she hurts he expected to hear his name pass by her lips but it didn't, that had put that emotion at a side "…You are not better than me…"

Brianna knows at what he is referring but prefers to play dumb "And what's that suppose to mean?"

Michael nodes at her as he sits in a couch "You didn't want to tell me where Selene was…"

Brianna looks at the floor then back at him, now taking it seriously "I didn't want to hurt you…"

Michael stares at her, "What if anything had happened to her?"

Brianna sighs "But nothing happened…" It's the only thing she can say, seeing him bothered with her answer she adds "…Look I just wanted to protect you is that a bad thing?"

Michael thinks about it as Brianna sits at his side "No, it's not, but as you wanted to protect me I wanted to protect Selene…"

Brianna raises an eyebrow, she knows he chose bad his words "No, that's not true…" Michael stares at her, just then he catches the meaning of what he said, he is going to correct himself but he sees Brianna smirking. "I'm not in love of you or anything like that…" she adds at see by the face he did what he really meant, as he nodes her smirk widens, for the first time he didn't denied his true feelings for Selene "…I know you want all the lady's attention for you but sometimes that can't be." She says as she shakes her head.

That was one of the things he liked the most of Brianna, she can transform everything from one second to other. At the beginning it bothered him that with all the things he was going through she dismissed all his preoccupations and began to make jokes but with time he has learned to appraise it, he smiles at her "…I tell you the same…"

"Please! I have all men's attention!" She says shrugging and sees how Michael's smile widens. "But you already knew that…" At that he nods. "…So how was it?" What! For the seriousness in her voice he doesn't know of what she is talking about although he suspects is one of her ways to make him talk about him and Selene, he is not going to say anything of course. Seeing his face she begins to suspect something happened but she knows he never will tell something like that, "How are you feeling after had killed again…" She says letting him know what she really wanted to know "I know you don't like that…"

Oh that, "You know…" He sighs as he passes a hand by his hair "…That's the problem… if I had killed someone six months back I know I would have been depressed and not feeling well… I would have had another kind of reaction…" He smiles sadly "but I'm not having it…"

Brianna doesn't know how he is feeling she suspects it by his voice and his eyes but she doesn't know that emotion, she puts her hand in his knee and he looks at her "…I haven't experienced what you are feeling…"

Michael nods knowing that "Do you know someone who can help me?" He asks joking.

Brianna smiles knowing what he is doing "No… but you are feeling regret… I guess that's a good thing…"

He sighs as he leans his head against the wall "That's the problem I'm not feeling it…"

She raises an eyebrow "…But still you are feeling something…"

"Not what I want… or should…"

She knows his fear to loss his humanity, she also knows that he is not losing it …or maybe a little "I don't want to be cruel…" she says and he looks at her.

"Then don't be…" Michael suspects what she is going to say but he knows no one can help him with that.

"I have to be realistic, don't I?" He sighs and nods not wanting to hear it really "There wasn't anything more you could do… It was you or them…" She doesn't doubt that he already had thought about everything she is saying but she continues "They wouldn't have show you piety and you knew it… that's why you acted like you acted." She sees he is not liking all this "Michael, you are a good …hybrid," she says smiling what makes him smirk bitterly at her then she continues "As long as you don't do it for pleasure I don't see anything bad about it…"

He is killing, how that doesn't have anything bad! He thinks restlessly "But-"

She interrupts him, "That's how is going to be from now on… you know it." seeing his face she knows this is not helping him "Stop the recriminations against yourself."

Michael stares at her "I can't."

He feels how she tightens her grip in his knee "Then learn to live with it…"

He knows she didn't say all this to hurt him is just her way, or the way of all, to handle things but nonetheless he appraises it "Thanks, I guess…"

Brianna nodes and they stay like that for a while "Something else you need to talk?" she asks when she looks at the clock as she stands.

Michael stares at her "Yeah…" Brianna sits again frowning, what else is bothering him? "Don't to that the next time… if there is a next time…" At see that she doesn't understand he continues "Don't tell me where she was…"

At that Brianna nodes "Don't worry about it…" Michael doesn't know if finish their conversation there, although he knows that Selene probably will not be with him again he can't avoid to hope that she changes of decision and if she does it then what? He knows he can't be with her and Brianna at the same time it's not fair for both of them and he also knows he neither will like that but at the same time he can't stay waiting for Selene for ever, what should he do? And if he is going to tell it something to Brianna then how to say it for her not know what happened with Selene and him?... "There is something else?" Brianna asks when she sees that he doesn't say anything.

"…That's all." Michael says without look at her.

Brianna smirks "And I thought you were going to tell me all the dirty details…" she says shaking her head. She didn't expect it really, she just said that to see his reaction.

Michael looks at her immediately "I don't know what-"

"Please!" She interrupts him.

Oh God, "I -"

"I was joking!" She says smirking "I don't want to hear it…"

Michael doesn't know what to say. One thing is that he trusts in her to tell her almost everything… But that was personal and it didn't implicate just him "Nothing happened." He says seriously and very uncomfortable.

Brianna feigns that she is considering it and then nods, "I believe you." she lies as she stands.

He doesn't believe her but nonetheless, "Good, because it is the true." he lies defensively.

Brianna looks at him and nods, "I believe you…" she suspects what happened there, she is not sure but she suspects it and also knows that if Selene discovers that she and Michael were sleeping together… She doesn't care for what Selene thinks but she does care for the implications this can bring to Michael if they have something close to a relationship… Having of example how Selene acted when she thought she had had sex with Gabriel definitely it doesn't look good for Michael, she really wish Selene has grown up… She takes an easy decision there, the last thing she wants is indirectly hurt him "I think we should finish our 'friends with benefits' agreement…"

Michael didn't see that coming, he thought that she was going to keep teasing him, he stares at her, at study her he knows that she is not lying or joking there, what's she thinking? "…Why?" he asks knowing that she just did everything easier for him.

She smiles at him mischievously "I don't want you to fall in love with me…"

Michael smiles at that "Who knows maybe I already am…"

"You are scaring me." She says feigning alarm.

Michael stares at her and smiles as she laughs. "So… Not hard feelings?" He asks standing.

She raises an eyebrow "This is not a history in which I will become an evil bitch that will try to separate you from… someone." she says winking at him.

He ignores the last part "…It isn't?"

She shakes her head "But if you want we can play it…" she says as she begins to walk away.

Michael stops her "Thanks… for everything" then he hugs her, he can feels how she tenses at that so he lets her go "Still not comfortable at that kind of show affection?"

That kind of affection is not usual for her, she thinks as she looks at him, "No, I was just regretting what I said…" she lies seriously and Michael smiles at her, "I will give you a tip before I go, though."

Michael's gets serious at see by her face that she is being it "…Which is?"

"Next time at least pretend that you are downcast!" She says as she makes her way towards the door, she looks over her shoulder and sees him nodding "You could have hurt me!" she turns and gets out of the office.

He sits in the chair again, why they did that? It is not like Selene is going to approach him and say all the things he wants to hear…

Selene had been worried about if they had found the cameras but luckily they just wanted some videos and information she had taken a couple of days ago. As she sees Gabriel entering in the room she approaches him "You didn't tell Marcus when we are going to attack do you?"

He stares at her, by the strange behavior of Sebastian, Selene and Brianna towards Marcus he had noted something had happened, something they didn't want he knew, suddenly he remembers Selene's words almost an hour ago "Do you think I have something to do with Kraven?" He asks incredulous.

She sighs, she really is not for this "I already don't know what to think…" she says dismissively. Seeing his face she continues "Look I just said that you two were the ones I distrusted the least…"

"Yeah but that meant another thing…" He says sighing.

"Yes it did." She says tired of the implications he is searching "…Did you say it to Marcus?" She chooses to ignore it, he can think whatever he wants.

Gabriel stares at her, "Is there something else I should know?"

She knows is not fair for him, he is Sebastian's right hand and they were hiding information from him… Did Sebastian tell to Gabriel what happened a week ago? By the way Gabriel has behaved in the last days with all the involved the answer was yes. But why Sebastian told him? Gabriel sometimes trusted in Marcus, that wasn't anything good… "Ask Sebastian about that…"

In the last hours he had done it and Sebastian hadn't say anything different of the other times he had asked… "Go to rest, you must be tired…" He orders as he looks at a monitor.

Selene stares at him, by his face she suspects that he didn't like what she just said, is Sebastian planning something? Tired of all her distrusts she nods.

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As Michael sits in bed he stares at the white envelop, now is a fact, he moved on… How hard is to admit that… After had been the person he loved the most now she is someone that belongs to his past, he can't avoid to feel sad about it, he remembers when she died, the hurt, guilt and hate, the promises he did to himself… Somehow in a way he feels that he betrayed her, he had not even think about her in the last days and definitely not in the last hours, he gets the pictures out of the envelope and stares at them, happiness and love was what they transmitted… He lies down as he looks at her, it seems like a long long time ago, but not really, not even four years. If someone, six months back, would had told him that he would forget her, he wouldn't had believed it, he didn't want to and he thought that with that it was enough… But apparently not. Since when he stopped to think in what might have been? Since when he blocked all his thoughts about her? How she passed to be almost the only person he thought to be the last? Suddenly he hears a nock in the door knowing what this mean he sits, "Yeah…" he will be down for the training in ten minutes, he thinks tiredly.

This time instead of go back to her things Selene opens the door but doesn't gets inside "There's not going to be training tonight…" She says staring at him and then at the pictures. Another new emotion she isn't accustomed. In the last hour she had felt it twice, first when she saw him with Brianna by a monitor in the vigilance room, she is not that blind and naïve to not know they are fucking each other, and why does that matter now? She knew it since several months back! …And now with his fiancée's pictures. …This is ridiculous!

"Why?" He asks as he sees her looking at the pictures with her emotionless face, but in the last hours he had learned to not trust anymore in her blank looks. Are the pictures somehow bothering her?

She can't believe what she is feeling, jealousy, she is being overwhelmed by it! She looks at him as he puts them inside the envelop, "Gabriel said it was better for us to rest."

Inside Michael's head there's still doubt of what she was thinking, he lets the envelop in the bed and stands up but he doesn't get close to her, "For the first time I agree heartily with him in something…" he says smiling.

Although she is trying to not think in it she can't stop it, maybe he was using her to fill the space that his fiancée had let? …She can't believe that just because she had sex with him now she is feeling possessive! And by his face it seems that she is not actually hiding that fact, she shrugs "Rest well." she says as she takes a step back, and begins to close the door.

"Wait…" he says as he puts his hands in his pocket, at see her frowning he continues "your keys" he gets them out and walks towards her, the next thing he knows is that he grasped her hand when she was going to take them. She feels defensively about it and tries to pull away her hand but he is holding her tightly although without hurt her, she knows she has to say something about what happened but what? "What really happened there?" he asks forgetting his thoughts of not push her. "Are we going to let things like that? She sighs. Why she can't repeat some answers she gave years back? 'We had a good moment, but so what? It doesn't mean anything, It was just something fleeting' …What did she let him do to her!

For her silence and the expression on her face he knows that certainly he idealized everything… "Aren't you going to say anything?" he asks loosing his grip. He imagined things as they weren't, the lust befogged his rational thinking and he accepted what he wanted to believe... He simply assumed without asking…

Why is he doing this! Is obvious he has not forgotten his fiancée, not that she cares that! Or does he simply want someone to be with him when Brianna can't? …Now she can't even lie to herself! "What are you expecting me to say?" she had intended to sound coldly but instead it had been a whisper that carried… hurt?

His heart leaps… "Just the true…" he says staring at her but she is looking at the wall, why if he loosed his grip in her hand she hasn't yanked it? "…You regret it?" Does she? Without noticing she shakes her head. Michael sighs relieved "Good" he says softly and smiling.

What? She looks at him and then is when it hits her, she had answered him and by his reaction it had been what he had wanted to hear …What is Michael to her? "Don't forget what I am…" she says raising her chin stubbornly and don't wanting to give him more hopes that the ones she suspects he already have.

Michael's smile fades, why he wasn't surprised to hear that? "Maybe you are the one who is forgetting it…" he whispers knowing what she was trying to do. Why she doesn't feel anger at that! …Maybe because it is true? She corrects herself, She knows it is true! He expected she would say something very nasty and cruel to him but instead she is giving him a look that says that he was right… Since when he loosed his grip and began to massage her hand? Since when and how the lust she felt for him became something more? She softly puts her hand away and takes a step backwards, she needs to be alone. Without say anything she turns around and walks the step that separates her from the bathroom's door. "Rest well…" Michael says softly as he still is looking her face through the reflection of a mirror.

She shakes her head "You too…" she mouths to herself softly as the door closes.

Michael had heard her, at least she didn't denied it or said that she regretted it…

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