A/N – ho hum. Sorry I haven't updated for a while…been away with friends then family. So yes. I blame this on Queer as Folk (GOOD SHOW) and A Perfect Circle (GOOD MUSIC) so yes…good stuff 

Disclaimer – I don't own anything. J.K Rowling does. Its all quite devastating I assure you.

Chapter 5

Remus opened his window to let Hedwig in and walked with her on his arm to the kitchen, where he found her some OwlTreats. He opened the kitchen window for her and watched as she flew out into the night sky after he took the letter from her leg. Settling himself on what muggles would call a bar stool, he broke the seal on the letter and started reading:

Dear Remus,

How have you been? I know that you told me I could talk to you if I have any problems, but it just feels so awkward talking about stuff. Its not just you, but its talking to people in general. I feel like I'm taking advantage of them. So, I'm sorry if my letters are kind of stilted.

I think I have a problem. I call it a problem for want of a better word, because I don't consider it a problem. But I know other people will. I haven't told you this, but Tonks might have told you, because I told her a while ago. Its funny to just be able to say it, but…I'm gay. That's not the problem though. I've told Ron and Hermione, and they COMPLETELY freaked out. I kind of expected that though. But I think that they're starting to accept it. Sadly, my problem is slightly more complicated.

It goes something like…I think I'm in love with Draco Malfoy, and the thought of that SCARES THE SHIT OUT OF ME. I mean, Draco Malfoy. It's like…the "Prince of Light" and the "Prince of Dark". Just a little bit weird.

And…what will people think? I mean, they consider me the freaking saviour of the freaking wizarding world. How will people react if they find out that their stupid hero is gay? I'm not sure if I want to know.

But it's just so…so aggravating. I don't WANT to like Malfoy. That's not exactly something I'd planned for. But it was just like…one day when we were fighting I realised that I didn't hate him. But then, the only way I could ever talk to him was when we were screaming insults or hexes at each other. So I just continued with it.

I'm sorry to burden you with my troubles, but your help would be greatly appreciated.

Best wishes

Harry Potter.

Remus sighed. He already knew Harry was gay, Tonks had told him a few weeks ago when they were talking about how Harry would be adjusting to life without Sirius. But falling for a Malfoy? That was an event that he hadn't really thought about. All the same, if Draco made Harry happy, then who was he to condemn them? As Tonks had shown him, love doesn't particularly care when or where it strikes, as long as it bring the people who are right for each other together. And so, with another sigh, Remus walked to his study, sat at his desk, and began is reply to Harry.

Dear Harry

I have been alright lately, still not really adjusted to the fact that Siri is gone, but it's slowly getting easier. Its really good having Tonks here for me. I don't how I would cope without her. How have you been?

I'm glad that you feel like you can talk to me. I know how hard it is not to have anyone you can talk to, so please remember that I will always be here for you. Trust me, you aren't taking advantage of me. I'm here for you to talk to me, not questions asked.

Well yes, I did know you were gay. Tonks told me a while ago. But, I had started to think along those lines – just a feeling I had. I'm not surprised about Ron and Hermione's reaction though, I must say. The muggle world is extremely prejudiced against anything they consider abnormal, as you already know. Although they have become more open-minded and accepting over the years, there is still a lot of hate and disgust. The wizarding world, despite its progression in many other areas is very close-minded about sexuality. I'm glad that they're starting to accept it though. Having close, understanding friends can make the disapproval of others less of an issue.

Draco Malfoy hmm? Well Harry, you do go for the best. And, much as I hate to admit it, Draco would suit you perfectly. I know you are considered by some to be the "Prince of Light" and him the "Prince of Dark" but, if you think about it, the two of you are like polar opposites – even in appearance. If you get to know him though, you may very well find that, ideologically, he is quite similar to you. Don't judge him because of his family, or what you think his intentions are. Try getting to know him. After all, you wouldn't want him to judge you by the muggles you live with, would you? And beside, you mention that the only reason you continue to taunt and yell at him is because that's the only time the two of you communicate. Maybe that's the same for him.

Harry, as hard as it is to conceive, when you're in love you stop caring what other people think. The happiness that you find makes up for all the hardships you will endure. As long as the two of you communicate properly, nothing should be able to stop your happiness. I know that you might not believe me about this, but it's true.

I hope that what I've said helps you, and please, feel free to continue writing to me about your "problem" and anything else you wish to talk about but feel you can't.

Moony

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Tonks was walking through the house she shared with Remus when she found him in his study.

"Hey hon," she said from the door, "who are you writing ti?"

Remus turned from his desk and motioned for her to come over to him.

"Harry. He wrote me a letter. Poor boy. Although, if you think about it, he's not really a boy. He hasn't been for a long time."

Tonks moved behind Remus and began to rub his neck.

"You worry to much my love. You should feel some of these knots. But, even if he hasn't been a boy for a long time, he needs to know it's ok to be one. Even is he doesn't have much innocence left, we can't take it away from him. What did he write to you about?"

"He believes that he has a problem. He told me he's gay. I'm proud of him – he doesn't seem to be hiding his feelings. So that's good. But, he's in love with Draco Malfoy – who is, as we all know, Lucius' son."

Tonks sighed happily.

"Our little boy is growing up." Remus shot her an amused glance, "Don't look at me like that Remy. I'm well aware that he is neither our child, nor small. He is taller than me." here Tonks crossed her arms over her chest.

"Aw, is my baby feeling a bit short?" Remus grinned. "At least you won't go 'round telling tall tales!"

And, before Tonks could react to what he said, he jumped out of his chair and ran away from the angry witch.

"Remus Lupin! You get your good looking arse back here right this second, or there will be HELL to pay!" she yelled, chasing after him.

"Nymphadora Lupin, there will only be hell if you can catch me!" Remus yelled back. But then suddenly, he stopped in the middle of a hallway. Tonks ran straight into him, her eyes open wide in shock.

"Did you mean it? Or was it a Freudian slip?"

Remus took her hands in his, and led her to a room she hadn't been into before. As Remus opened the door, she gasped. The floor was covered in rose petals, and the fire in the fireplace was roaring merrily. On a table were two champagne flutes and a bottle of champagne.

"Yes. I did mean it Tonks." Remus bent on one knee.

"Nymphadora Tonks, will you do me the honour of bonding with me and becoming my wife?"

"Oh dear Merlin Remus! OF course! Yes! I do!"
Remus stood up and kissed Tonks.

"Ever since I met you, you have improved my life for the better. You filled a hole in my heart that I didn't even know existed until it was gone. I love you, and I want to spend the rest of my life with you. You are the best thing to happen to me in a long time, and I never want to lose you."

"Remus, the first time I met you, I felt a connection with you. I always hoped that connection would never fade. I love you so much it hurts sometimes, and I can't imagine a future without you. You are my life, my heart, and my soul. I love you."

Tonks stood on tiptoes and pressed a gentle but passion filled kiss on Remus' lips. After they broke apart, the two of them sighed in contentment. Remus fumbled in one of his pockets,

"I have a ring. It was my mother's engagement ring. It's been in our family for over 100 years."

Tonks took the ring, and gasped at the delicate, hand crafted onyx ring. It had diamonds and rubies around the base and a scattering of diamonds through the body of it. It was spectacular.

"Oh Remus. It-It's gorgeous. I love it."