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A/N – sorry guys, this one is really short, but I've been working on a one-shot that is turning into a story (I think) and school stuff. So yeah, I'm sorry. I'll post as often as possible; I just don't know what type of quality they will be
LadyDragonWolfKnight – yes…it was overly fluffy, but I was in an overly fluffy (happy) mood. :p No, he's going to write another letter.
AtadObsessive46 – thanks…hope you're enjoying.
Dezra – yeah, I thought I'd attempt something that's not as overdone.
Chapter 6
Hedwig flew into the Great Hall at breakfast time with Harry's letter. She flew down to where Harry was, and, when he didn't notice her, she nipped him gently on the ear.
"Oh, Hedwig. Here, have some bacon." He said with a smile, taking the pro-offered letter from her leg. Breaking the seal he found Remus' letter.
Dear Harry
I have been alright lately, still not really adjusted to the fact that Siri is gone, but it's slowly getting easier. Its really good having Tonks here for me. I don't how I would cope without her. How have you been?
I'm glad that you feel like you can talk to me. I know how hard it is not to have anyone you can talk to, so please remember that I will always be here for you. Trust me, you aren't taking advantage of me. I'm here for you to talk to me, not questions asked.
Well yes, I did know you were gay. Tonks told me a while ago. But, I had started to think along those lines – just a feeling I had. I'm not surprised about Ron and Hermione's reaction though, I must say. The muggle world is extremely prejudiced against anything they consider abnormal, as you already know. Although they have become more open-minded and accepting over the years, there is still a lot of hate and disgust. The wizarding world, despite its progression in many other areas is very close-minded about sexuality. I'm glad that they're starting to accept it though. Having close, understanding friends can make the disapproval of others less of an issue.
Draco Malfoy hmm? Well Harry, you do go for the best. And, much as I hate to admit it, Draco would suit you perfectly. I know you are considered by some to be the "Prince of Light" and him the "Prince of Dark" but, if you think about it, the two of you are like polar opposites – even in appearance. If you get to know him though, you may very well find that, ideologically, he is quite similar to you. Don't judge him because of his family, or what you think his intentions are. Try getting to know him. After all, you wouldn't want him to judge you by the muggles you live with, would you? And beside, you mention that the only reason you continue to taunt and yell at him is because that's the only time the two of you communicate. Maybe that's the same for him.
Harry, as hard as it is to conceive, when you're in love you stop caring what other people think. The happiness that you find makes up for all the hardships you will endure. As long as the two of you communicate properly, nothing should be able to stop your happiness. I know that you might not believe me about this, but it's true.
I hope that what I've said helps you, and please, feel free to continue writing to me about your "problem" and anything else you wish to talk about but feel you can't.
Moony
I hope he really meant that, because…right now I don't really know what to do. With a sigh, Harry stood up and left the Great Hall. Hermione went to go after him, but Ron suggested that he needed some alone time.
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Bloody hell. Everyone's in love. How bloody PEACHY. But…I guess it's good for Remus. In fact, I know it's good, but…why do I have to be in love with Malfoy? It's not like we're ever going to get together.
With a sigh, Harry moved to his desk and pulled out a blank piece of parchment, meaning to start his potions essay that Snape had given them yesterday – 15 inches on the use of Dragon's blood in healing potions – even though it was due in tomorrow, he needed to get it done. Without thinking, Harry put quill to parchment and wrote whatever first came into his head.
'love hate life death greed money Gringotts fighting war death emotions numbness scream sing reliefshadow wind sweepingbroom flying FREEDOM always constant forever pain memories feelings talking communication Remus help problem Draco loveopinions ostracised society choice pure happy content
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Draco was in the Slytherin common room, attempting to start his Transfiguration homework. So far, he had written…
Transfiguration is a stupid subject and I don't know why people insist on me doing it. I would rather be doing Potter. How unfortunate for me. Isn't like just awful? I wanted to drop it (Transfiguration, not Harry), but then they went and announced that that we would have a double class with the Gryffindors. I wasn't exactly going to quit after that, was I? And do you know why that is? It's because I'm in love with Harry sodding Potter. DO YOU KNOW HOW DIFFICULT THAT MAKES MY LIFE?
I'm going to assume that you don't know…because I haven't told you. But…you should know. Despite the fact that you're just a piece of parchment. Hm…maybe I should write in a diary. That might be a good idea. Hm…maybe I could transfigure one of the old banners that we have saying 'WEASLEY IS OUR KING' into 'POTTER IS MY KING'. I could hang it in the common room and see if anyone works out that it was me…I'm SO BORED! Argh, I don't know how Granger does it. Father told me I should be coming first in this bloody class…but it's getting to hard to care. It says in the Malfoy Clauses that I have to find my life mate by the end of this year. And…I honestly believe that my mate is Harry. But I can't even talk to him. For Merlin's sake, I don't even know if he likes me. Bloody hell…I don't know if he even knows if I'm gay. YIPEE that was a SARCASTIC exclamation of joy. Not that I do joy. Joy is NOT a Malfoy trait…someone once suggested that the gene for emotion is removed from the Malfoy children at birth. But…Malfoys love. And, when they do love, they love hard. When we've found our mate, we become rather…over protective of them. Which is why I am the only one permitted to insult Potter now…only I am permitted to hurt him. Weird logic, I know…but hey, it's Malfoy logic. What can I say?
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Malfoy,
Yes, what you said rang bells. But, why get my hopes up? I'm positive that they will just be dashed. Again. Well yes, I'm in a rather bitter mood at the moment, so I'm sorry. But, I did take what you said into consideration.
No, I haven't told Ron and Hermione about my "family". I am quite happy with them only knowing the image I present to them and the rest of the world. Why make life any more complicated? It really isn't worth the effort. Maybe one day I'll find someone who I can trust. Maybe I've already found that person. But…I'm sure it will happen. Until then, I am willing to hide. It's funny. Being in the "public eye" makes my feelings so much easier to ignore. It will all end one day. So it doesn't really matter.
See Malfoy…Draco? I know you have assured me that you have no ulterior motive, but…how am I meant to trust you? For the past six years, you have been hurling curses, hexes, and insults at my back. Why would your feelings of changed? Despite your admition to having a heart, wouldn't it be better to spend you're your time on the person who has captured your heart? I'm sure no-one would appreciate playing second fiddle to me.
So. My family. My friends know what has happened – on the surface. Ron and the twins have helped me out a few times, and they know the basics of how I was treated. But…I can never tell them or anyone what really happened.
But…enough about me. Why are you interested? I honestly don't understand your motivation. I'm sorry if I am confirming your feelings that I am completely dense, but if your enemy started writing to you, what would you think? Idon't even know why I'm writing this to you…I guess I just needed to bitch about it to someone, and no-one would expect me to talk to you. SO yes. But…feel free to write back to me I guess.
Harry
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Hey guys, I decided that I didn't like the end of chapter 6, so I rewrote it (as you can tell). Chapter 7 should be up soon…but I'm not sure when, cos I have a bunch of stuff to do for English. dances Isn't it exciting? I have to write 12000 words on homophobia and coping with suicide. My teacher told me not to be so angsty…oh well :)