A Forbidden Love
Chapter 3
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AN: Thanks for all your reviews and I would just like to know whether anyone wants
more fluff in my fic if so please tell me in your reviews and I am REALLY sorry that I haven't been updating but I swear I had like LOADS of hw.
Sakura's p.o.v
Trust, such a fragile thing. So easily broken. So easily corrupted. It's a corrupted world
out there where you can't trust anything. You can only ever lie in the world you're in.
There's no truth. The only ever most perfect truth is the darkest and most corrupted lie.
So beautiful. The darkness which consume everything. Hatred had consumed me since
the day of Tomoyo's second months anniversary.
FLASHBACK
I couldn't stop thinking about Tomoyo and Syaoran and their relationship after their
Second anniversary but I didn't say anything. I could tell that Syaoran have been
avoiding Tomoyo ever since their anniversary. I couldn't blame him I mean after all the
poor guy just had his heart shattered brutally by his girlfriend but he was strong. No one
caught on anything. His act was perfect. Although he avoided Tomoyo like a plague nobody could see it because it was so natural. Their relationship slowly drifted apart…
…and it was all because of me…
FLASHBACK
Tomoyo's p.o.v.
No one might have noticed, in fact even I didn't notice it in the beginning but after a certain couple of weeks I realized that he avoided me. He avoided me like a plague.
It was strange. Just weeks ago he would be seen around me all the time. Giving me flowers, chocolates…all the attention I want.
I didn't realise we could drift apart so easily. I didn't realise it would turn out like this. I didn't realise I had to bind him to me. I didn't realise that true love blinds all.
I walked over to my normal table where Syaoran's friends were. I was always with them ever since Syaoran and I started going out.
I went to Syaoran to give him a kiss but he turned away.
My lips were met with his cheek. I flushed bright red. I wasn't used to such a thing. Being ignored by my own boyfriend and hell he was my first boyfriend even.
I took a seat next to him but he stood up and waved to some unknown to me but I had a hunch. It was surprising to say in the least all the guys who normally sit with us were here and it was rare that Syaoran himself waved to someone other than that of our group.
A glimpse of auburn hair and the scent of cherry blossom confirmed my assumption. It was Sakura.
The name now sounded so foreign to me now. How long haven't we seen each other? Sometimes I wondered if Syaoran and I were really meant for each other. If I knew that getting into a relationship would ruin our friendship would I really sacrifice my love life for her? Them? Naoko, Rita, Sakura?
No.
Love was everything to me and yet I longed for friendship, support. Friendship, it could offer me as much as love has to offer and more but why is it so hard to find friends, true friends.
I'll win him back from whoever stole him away from me. I'll never forgive whoever she is for taking away my first love. If I suffer then they suffer with me.
Sakura. You'll always be at my side right? You'll always be there for me. That's what friends do. That's what you're created to do.
A sudden lack of warmth implied that Syaoran had moved aside from me again. He's been doing that for so many times now and it really pains me to see that we aren't as close as we were meant to be.
Sakura slid into the seat beside me shyly and all my worries dissimilated. She always gave off an aura of serenity that calms me down.
I never wondered why Syaoran called Sakura over. All I knew was that Sakura my all time best friend was here with me. Here was a friend I could share secrets with. A friend I could trust.
"Saku-chan!"
I gave her a hug.
She was still the same as before. Nothing really changed. I was still her friend and we're still as close as ever can be.
Sakura's p.o.v
I really didn't know the reason why Syaoran called me over. I was surprise to say in the least. I was just about to walk to my normal table with Naoko and Rika and all when He called my name.
My heartbeat quickened as I walked over to their table. I could feel all eyes on me. It was nerve-racking but then Tomoyo came to rescue. It was like she was the my guardian angel, my saviour. She was a familiar face in the crowd of strangers.
Syaoran offered his seat, which was next to Tomoyo for me and I slid in.
Tears seemed to have welled up in Tomoyo's eyes as she hugged me. I never thought she was so emotional. I had missed her, true, but it wasn't a yearning. During the time she was away I learned a way to survive. A way to live without her, without the friendship and acceptance she offered.
It felt so different now. The feeling was so unfamiliar. I don't recognise it anymore.
"Hey Tomo-chan," I whispered to her.
Everything was going to turn out all right. The feeling would return eventually…eventually.
Feelings and emotions. The beginning of weakness. Nothing could prevent it. Nothing could predict it.
LATER THAT DAY
"Oh My Gosh! Saku! We have got SO much to catch up on. I'll see you on Monday then! Call me!" and with that she left. So cheerful. I waved back at her, a bright smile lighting up across my face.
I turned and was about to go when…
"Sakura...?"
"Huh?" I turned and met familiar amber eyes staring at me, "oh! Syaoran!"
"um…" he tugged at his collar.
I cocked my head at him.
"yea…" I ventured out.
"well I was just wondering whether you want to go to the ski trip this weekend with me. You see my mum wanted me to go with a girl and I didn't want to ask Tomoyo because well…you know how things are with me and her…"
HE wanted me to go with him to the snow! OH MY GOSH! What should I say! Oh but his…his…his Tomoyo's boyfriend. Would I be betraying her? But he asked me…not her…
"um…" I mumbled smartly.
"Please?" he added with a little pout.
He is so CUTE like that.
"Well…ok…"
The tension in the atmosphere suddenly lightened.
"Great! You're the best! I'll pick you up at 5:00am sharp Saturday morning. See you then"
He waved.
I groaned. So early!
SATURDAY
"AHHHHHHH! What to wear?"
I flung open the wardrobe door and looked inside searching frantically for something to wear.
Clothes were sprawled across the floor. Skirts, dresses, tops and pants were littered everywhere. I buried my head deeper into that ridiculous wardrobe of mine in search for something that is remotely suitable for me to wear for the date.
I know I shouldn't go on a date with Syaoran. He was after Tomoyo's boyfriend but…he did ask me and…it'd be…impolite to refuse…wouldn't it?
"Arge!"
I frowned. Everything in this wardrobe either makes me look so sluttish. I needed some professional help. Tomoyo she'll help but…this is her boyfriend I'm going out with…I'll just not tell her whom I'm going out with…
I picked up the phone dialled her number. I waited for five rings before she picked up.
"Moshi moshi? This is Tomoyo speaking."
"Hi Tomoyo! I need some serious help for fashion."
"Really…this isn't something I hear everyday. Come on spill! What are you up to?"
I could almost see that mischievous grin on her face and that unnatural glint in her eyes.
"ehehehe well you see this boy asked me out and I can't find anything to wear! So I'm kind of freaking out over hear…"
"Well why can't you just wear the silver tank top with the black mini?"
"Tomoyo! That's way to sluttish and besides, its not really me"
"Hm…well where are you guys going?""The snow. I already packed."
"The snow eh? Interesting choice…well go with the pink mini, you know the one with fluffy edges, and the baby pink long sleeves with fluffy buttons…and …how about white stockings?"
"That outfit…?" Now that made me lift my eyebrows. "I suppose… so that's really the perfect outfit…"
"Yes of course Sakura! It's perfect. You'll look so CUTE in it!""Ok ok I trust your judgement. Thanks for the tip. Ja ne!"
I hung up. Thank goodness she didn't ask me who I was going out with.
I search once again in the pile of clothes scattered on the ground but this time my search was not in vain. I held up the outfit triumphantly and glanced at the clock hastily.
Shit. Shit. Shit. Shit. Shit. 4:45pm! Since when did time past so fast?
I rushed to the bathroom and flung off my clothes. The outfit was a bit small but I don't mind at least I fit into it and Tomoyo had said that it was the PERFECT outfit and it kept me warm. I was practically sweating through it by the time I finished putting on my makeup.
Ding dong (AN: lame bell I know but hey at least it got the message through ;)
I practically rip the door off its hinges. I was SO excited.
Syaoran stood there like a winter snowball. I couldn't help but giggle. He was most certainly dressed enough for the snows. He was almost as round as a snowball only bigger.
I glanced at him and giggled again. I could not hold it any longer. I burst out laughing.
He looked at me incredulously and blurted out, "you're warm enough in that?"
I frowned and glanced down at what I'm wearing.
"What's wrong with it?" I asked him.
He stared.
I frowned.
"That skimpy thing is going to keep you warm throughout the trip?" he demanded.
I sighed and then said mischievously, "things are not always what they seem like."
He sighed and picked up my luggage.
"Always the gentleman aren't you." I said to him cheekily.
He puffed out his chest and replied," Well…to be a successful playboy, such as I, one must learn these skills to impress parents."
I giggled again at his playful imitation of a playboy at his very best.
We hopped in the car and drove off. For all I know we sat in the car for AGES. I was totally bored out of my mind and his choice of music was OUTRAGEOUS. I think it might be music from the sixties and anyway I did NOT understand ANY of the word they were saying. It was probably in foreign languages.
I nagged at him for breaks nearly every fifteen minutes.
"Syaoran," I begged him," can we please stop?"
"Sakura," he cried out exasperatedly," we just stop fifteen minutes ago!"
"But Syaoran," I argued," I need the bathroom. It's urgent"
I pouted. It always worked.
He sighed and pulled over at the café over near the corner.
"Hurry up then. At this rate we'll never get there."
"Ok ok chill I'll be quick I promise."
"Oh and Sakura this is the last stop we'll be making for the entire trip."
He smirked, looking victorious.
"NANI?"I cried out," this is the last break for the entire journey!"
"Yep. I want to get there before sunrise."
I ran to the bathroom and fixed up my make up. I noticed, in the cars rear mirror, that my mascara was a little bit smudged therefore I felt the need for this toilet break. It really wasn't going 2 be long but now since he announced that this was the last trip it was going to take…I little longer…
He waited for me near the car while I dashed from the toilet and into the café. He had called after me but I ignored him.
"Sakura! What are you doing this is toilets break?"
If this is the last break we need supplies. I got myself a packet of donuts and a large espresso coffee. I paid at the counter and dashed back to the car.
"Syaoran if this is the last break we are going to need a serious supply of food and seeing as you didn't bring any I had to buy this packet of donuts. Frankly I believe that my stomach is more important than making it to the snows before sunrise."
He glared at me for a while but then he sighed, got in the car and drove off without another word.
After a few minutes of silence in the car I opened my packet of donuts and began munching on it.
A grunt. He grunted at me.
"hmm…?"
he sighed.
"Well give me some." He said quite annoyed.
"but Syaoran," I whined," I'm hungry!"
The car slowed and he looked at me accusingly
"Sakura I'm hungry too, so pass it."
He made a grab for it but I dodged it quickly and smirked at him.
But then the inevitable thing happened. He pouted at me. POUTED at me. I couldn't resist it. I just…couldn't. He was so CUTE when he's like that.
"Ok ok I'll give you some. Just…don't give me that look." I shivered involuntarily.
He smirked at me triumphantly and pluck the packet out of my grasp.
"Hey! Give that back!"
I snatched it back and ate as fast as I could.
"Sakura!"
Syaoran sounded alarmed, "save some for me!"
"No." I told him stubbornly.
He looked at me pleadingly and once again I gave in. It was too irresistible.
I threw him a chocolate iced donut and he caught in midair while the car jerked to a stop.
"SYAORAN!" I screamed.
"What?" he said casually.
I glared at him," You would've killed us were the road not clear and all that for just one measly donut?"
"Well we are all safe and sound now anyway, so just chill out," he told me.
I stared at him and suddenly shivered. I had just noticed the change in temperature. We must be getting close.
"Well. We're here." Syaoran announced.
"Really!"
"Yep and just in time to see the sunrise."
My breath was caught in my throat as I watched the sun rise above the white snow.
Beautiful. The only word that could describe the scene. The sky was golden and streaked with orange, pinks and purples while the flaming red sun melted into the whiteness of the snow. It was truly beautiful, so breathtakingly beautiful.
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