A Forbidden Love
Chapter 4
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters in CCS though I wish I did.
AN: THANK YOU for all your reviews and keep on reviewing.- Um…ok I got a bit bored of my beginnings so um… I decided to change it a bit…oh yea…the…bits in this chapter…are not very good due to the fact that I have absolutely NO experience in that area. ;; Enjoy.
THE PRESENT(um…and by that I mean it does NOT continue from the flashback from the last chapter)
SAKURA P.O.V(AN: um just thought you should know Sakura is looking out of this window)
Sakura looked with distant eyes at the scene unfolding before her eyes. The snow had brought back so much unwanted memories. Vivid memories of hatred, betrayal and overwhelming grief.
It's snowing you know? So white. So beautiful. Gentle and soft like a feather. The white blanket covering everything. Everything is so pure, so untainted it's almost sinful to look upon with such corrupted eyes.
I remembered that scene ever so clearly. It was unlike everything I have ever seen. So different from the magazines on hot, exotic beaches with girls sashaying around. It was the complete opposite of it all. Everything was different. Peaceful and serene.
The events all happened too fast. Everything was wrong. Nothing was meant to happen. Tomoyo was meant to have the love of her life. it was her one and only not mine. The trip to the snows destroyed everything we ever had.
FLASHBACK
We flung our bodies back onto the snow and looked up at the starry sky. We were exhausted. My cheeks were flushed pink. I never had so much fun before. I did things I didn't even know I could do.
"Arigato gozaimasu Syaoran. Really thank you so much."
He looked at me curiously "for what?"
"For everything" I breathed out
He looked at me closely. Studying me for a moment.
Then without another word he pressed his lips against mine.
My eyes opened in shock before closing and relaxing.
His tongue ran across my lips as if asking for permission and I gave it to him. His tongue coxed My tongue in an everlasting dance.
The sensation was completely different from what I always imagined it.
Everything seems to click in that moment. Everything was right. This was my destiny. My soul mate. My one and only. Not just anyone's but mine.
We broke apart.
I felt a rising blush creep onto my face as a cute adorable smile adorned my face. My eyes wide with innocence.
One moment passed. Two moments passed. Then the guilt came crashing down. What am I doing? He is Tomoyo's boyfriend. How could I do this to her?
A look of fear flashed through my eyes.
"W-wh-why," I stuttered out," why did you do that?"
He leaned back. His eyes closed. Savouring the moment.
"I guess I couldn't resist," he replied after a while.
My face immediately turned several shades of red.
END OF FLASHBACK
Those times were so innocent. I would give anything to turn back the sands of time and change the events. That kiss was so uncalled for. One thing always leads to another and soon we were caught in the unforgivable web of love. Nothing could bail you out once you are caught. Even at the price of blood it could only take away so much pain for a temporary time. I thought I could last. I thought our love would surpass everything. One could say I was anything but right.
FLASHBACK
We lay back down onto the snow once again and my curiosity kicked in.
"Ne Syaoran?" I asked," what's your dream?"
He stared at me. It was unnerving. I fiddled around a bit.
"My dream?" he asked and rose one eyebrow at me.
I sighed out of frustration and nervousness.
"Yes your dream," I said hastily.
"Hmmm my dream would be the next successful leader of the Li clan," he told me casually.
"Sugoi! Syaoran-kun," I breathed out," all I ever dreamed about was-"
I stopped short and blushed. What am I doing? He would so laugh at me if he ever found out.
Syaoran glanced at her from below lowered eyelashes. He had been curious of what her dream was since she stopped short just as she was going to tell him.
"Go on," he urged.
I blushed harder. I couldn't tell him but…
"You only ever dreamed about…?" he probed further.
"About…about…" my voice was softer with every passing second and the blush on my face grew incredibly red.
His eyes gleam with wickedness. A smirk adorning he features.
"…about…flying." My voice was barely above a whisper.
His eyes widened before squeezing them shut tightly. His shoulders shook uncontrollably until he finally couldn't hold it in anymore. He laughed. Hysterically.
I glared at him.
"It's not that funny!" I told him, a vein popping onto my forehead. (AN: um…incase u don't know what I mean it's that little plus or cross on their heads ;;;)
He glanced at me and burst out laughing once again.
I pouted.
"Mou don't be so mean!" I scolded at him.
He chuckle and said to me," you know Sakura you'll never be able to do that."
A smile crossed my face as I relaxed back.
"You never know Syaoran. You never know."
He studied me closely before turning away and getting up.
"Come on we better get back inside before we catch a cold or something," he advised.
He held out his hand and I took it.
A familiar blush adorned my features at the contact.
END OF FLASHBACK
A dream that I never knew could be fulfilled is going to happen. Something I always wanted was it not? Why? Why don't I get the satisfaction I want?
The tears were falling. I could feel them against my cold pale skin. How long was it since I was like this. This helpless, hopeful mode. We were over. We never had a beginning. There was no end…or so I hoped. She found out…the worst way possible.
Things got out of hand. From casual kisses to a full out relation. It wasn't hard. You just followed your heart's desire, not stopping it, not hesitating. It'll be like a drug. You take one dose of it, liked it and you take another not realizing what it's doing. Eventually you become addicted. You can't stop. You won't stop. But then after a while you feel that death grip holding you, eating you away from the inside, that gruesome feeling, that guilt.
FLASHBACK
We ditched class. Again.
He was nuzzling his head into my shoulder placing feather-light kisses on my neck.
"Syaoran…we really shouldn't…"I began but I never finished. His lips captured mine in a fiery kiss.
He released me at last and I pouted.
"Mou Syaoran! That wasn't fair."
He shrugged and grinned at me," but you enjoyed it right?"
I blushed and hit him playfully.
"Syao-" the lights went out.
"Sy-syao-syaoran? What happened?" I stuttered out.
I snuggled deep into in chest.
"Looks like there's a blackout," he said casually.
I sighed and retreated from his chest and wandered around for a bit.
"So what do yo-?"
I didn't notice the unsuspecting shadow creeping up upon me. His arms encircled my waist and he whispered in my ear seductively," Sakura come on there's no-one here and I doubt they are going to fix it soon so we have plenty of time…"
His voice trailed off.
I giggled and backed up against the locker as he came closer.
Our bodies locked together as was our lips. His hands trailed down to my hips and began un tucking my blouse. His fingers grazed my sides as his tongue danced in my mouth exploring the sweet cavern of my month. I let out a moan.
"Syaoran…"
TOMOYO P.O.V
I saw them pass my classroom door. Again. I tend to see them more often now. Always together. I bet they are keeping something from me.
I smiled to myself.
I should follow them. It's probably going to be a surprise for me anyway.
I snuck out and was just walking down one of the corridors when the lights went out.
I was shocked at first but then I calmed down and continue down the hallway until I heard voices.
"Syaoran…we really shouldn't…"My hopes soared. It's them. Sakura and Syaoran.
"Mou Syaoran! That wasn't fair."
" but you enjoyed it right?"
"Syao-"I faltered. They…couldn't be…
Lie…lie I can't think like that. They'll never do something like that.
"Sy-syao-syaoran? What happened?"
"Looks like there's a blackout," "So what do yo-?"," Sakura come on there's no-one here and I doubt they are going to fix it soon so we have plenty of time…"
Syaoran…you can't…
I broke off into a run. My heart beating faster and faster.
I slowed to a stop in front of one of the doors and reached out for the handle hesitantly.
Maybe I shouldn't…no. what am I thinking? If they are keeping something from me I want to know what it is.
SAKURA'S P.O.V
The door slid open.
My eyes snapped open.
Emerald met amethyst.
I pushed Syaoran away slightly.
"Ne Sakura…something wrong?" Syaoran asked.
A gasp was heard.
His head snapped around.
"Tomoyo I can explain!" he started.
"Why?" she whispered.
Her voice echoed all around me.
"Why?" she asked.
She looked at me.
Her vulnerable amethyst orbs tearing up.
In a flash the vulnerability was gone replaced by anger and hatred.
"Moyo…" I began.
"How could you Sakura?" she bit out.
The words stabbed at my heart like white hot knives.
She turned and fled.
"TOMOYO!" Syaoran shouted and ran after her.
I sank to my knees.
"How…? How could I have done this to her? This ultimate act of betrayal."
The tears welled up in my eyes and overflowed.
The chains around my heart tightened unbearably. They cut deep and drew blood. Those scars never forgotten. Wounded and cannot be healed.