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A Forbidden Love
Chapter 6
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WARNING: Please take note this chapter contains language. You have been warned D
Here's chapter 6 hope you enjoy -SAKURA'S P.O.V
I stared down at the unbelievable staggering height.
Soon…
Soon all my problems would be gone.
Everything that happened would be forgotten. Lost in time. Hidden forever.
I was losing blood at an astounding rate. My vision began to blur. Thoughts began to flee from my mind. I stood there, unconscious of my actions.
Syaoran…
This yearning I have words simply can't describe but now you're here.
A few simple steps. Just a few steps away. I can reach you.
You danced away. Why?
"Syaoran!" I whispered desperately my voice faltering.
I reached out and tried to grab him with my bloodied hands. My fingers grasped your hand but it faded away just as quickly.
"NO!" I yelled out, "don't go! Please…"
My heart. It hurt so much. The times we were together seemed like a dream. Like something that never happened.
There were chains around me. Around my heart, tugging. Squeezing. Cutting and drawing blood.
Pain. They won't go away.
My throat tightens as tears spill uncontrollably out of my eyes.
I never meant to hurt you. Only do what was necessary to save a friend. That was the plan. But you don't seem to think so.
Everything was so wrong. That was why this love was meant to be forbidden. Wherever you are now these memories will always be locked away somewhere deep in my heart, never to be looked upon again because…they were never meant to be.
Would you care Syaoran if I died and left you here? Would you think of me and of our happy memories? Would you care and visit my grave and prove to me that you still care? Even after all I did would you still remember me as a person you once loved?
END OF P.O.V
TOMOYO'S P.O.V
What did I do? What did I do wrong? Why is he doing this?
I want to cry. I want to know why. I want you to hold me in your arms again.
FLASHBACK
"Ohayo Eriol-kun," I smiled at him.
You walked away.
I frowned but jogged to keep up with you.
I touched your arm.
You flinched away.
END OF FLASHBACK
It hurts. It hurts you know. I didn't even know why! Why were you avoiding me? Why do you move away? Why don't you comfort me anymore? I want you here. I want you here with me.
The tears were falling from my eyes. They dripped onto the ground like rain.
Where did you go? When did this start? When did I realize I fell in love with you?
All I ever wanted was to be with Syaoran. You helped me through my period of heartbreak. You were there to comfort me. You lent me your shoulder to cry on. You let me pour my heart out but where are you now? Where have you gone?
FLASHBACK
I saw you.
"Eriol-kun!" I called out.
You didn't turn. You didn't wait. You walked away.
I ran. Through the crowd. Weaving through the student body. Smiling. Looking at you. Admiring you.
I was going to tell you. I finally realized it. I loved you—not Syaoran. I loved you.
I was there next to you. I tapped your shoulder.
You glared at me.
I was stunned.
I stood there watching. You were there glaring at me as though you hated me.
You walked off. Leaving me.
END OF FLASHBACK
Do you hate me? Do you?
But why?
Did I do something? What did I do?
I want to know. I know I'm selfish. I know I did something wrong. I know… but why? Why are you doing this? Why can't you forgive? Why can't you turn back time and stay the way you were?
There you were again. Staring at the sakura blossoms. Its petals danced around you, swirling.
I had to find out. I had to know.
Why? Why are you hurting me?
I ran. Towards you. In search of answers.
You're here watching the pattern dance of the cherry blossom petals waiting ever so patiently for them to land onto your outstretched hand.
I reached you.
"Why?" I whispered. My voice was hoarse, "Why are you staying away? Why…WHY ARE YOU HURTING ME?"
You pulled out of my reach. I grabbed onto you with both hands pushing you against the tree.
"Answer me!" I yelled tersely.
Your stare unnervingly landed on me. A slight look of disbelief flitted across your face. I squirmed beneath your gaze and backed away slightly but your calloused hands gripped onto my shoulders.
"Tomoyo," your voice was gruff, "why did you do it?"
"Why'd you spread the rumors?" you demanded, "You knew they weren't true but you still spread them. You saw that they were the perfect couple."
"She deserved it." My voice was merely a whisper.
You glared. I shrank away but your next words hurt me so much.
"You. Cheated. On. Syaoran. Who are you to say she deserved it?"
Harsh words. I never forgot them. They had stung. The pain far beyond my comprehension.
"I was drunk!" I cried out exasperatedly, "He was leading me on."
"Tomoyo that's just an excuse and you know it."
He stalked off but I ran. I ran after him and hugged him from behind.
"I know," I murmured into his ear, "but what can I do now? What's done is done. I can't change the past."
You stopped.
I felt tears running down my face.
"Well. At least apologize to Syaoran and make up with them."
ERIOL'S P.O.V
I sighed. It was hard to stay mad for long at Tomoyo.
END OF P.O.V
TOMOYO'S P.O.V
"Hai!" I chirped at him, "Oh! And one more thing…"
I gave him a peck on the lips.
"I love you."
I turn and fled leaving him in shock while a fiery blush adorned my facial features.
(!WARNING: The following scene contains language. You have been warned.)
SOME TIME LATER
Syaoran. Where is he?
I scanned around for that brown haired arrogant jerk.
It was hard to believe how much he changed after Sakura broke up with him or rather how much he reverted back to his old self.
My eyes soon caught the messy mass of chocolate brown hair surrounded with half the population of females at our school fawning over him.
I almost wished I hadn't done this. Almost.
You had me so confused. I thought you loved me. I really thought you did. All that charm. The smiles. The kisses. I know they weren't empty. We felt something. We had something but now it's over. You found Sakura and I found Eriol.
But…
Look at you now. Why did you change? Why change back? Of all the things to choose from why back to how you were before?
I made my way through the sea of hyperventilating females. They parted and backed away slightly as I walked past and stared uncertainly at me. They knew what could happen if they dared cross me. They saw what happened to Sakura.
Only two girls left there on each of his sides clinging onto him like he was their life.
I glared at them and they immediately loosen their grip but didn't let go completely.
"Tomoyo! What are you doing over here? Come to join the party eh?" he said and winked at me.
I glared.
"Syaoran get a grip on yourself. Why are you like this? It's all because of Sak-" I was cut off.
"This has nothing to do with that slut." He growled out.
I look away. It was so obvious he didn't want to talk about her. A sudden guilt was felt. I couldn't even meet his eyes so I whispered slowly, "If this is about Sakura breaking up with you…it was my fault…I told her to do it…"
"Oh. So it was you. I should've known. It doesn't matter now anyways I was beginning to get bored of her-"
"SCREW IT SYAORAN!" I yelled, "I know what I did was wrong but you, you shouldn't be here letting it go, fucking girls just to let out you misery. I've seen how she was after the break up. She never had another thought about anyone or anything except for you. I've seen the ways she looks at you and regret. She tried to say sorry to you but you shunned her. You pushed her away. You did nothing to hold her back. You just let go."
I was crying. I felt the tears pouring out.
At that moment I felt like I was her friend again. We never had this fight. We were still the best of friends whom no one could get between. I still cared for her as she did for me. We were still together.
Why can't you see, Syaoran? Why? She never moved on but you're just hiding. I know you still love her.
Yuki. (AN: Yuki means snow for those who don't know)
Snow was falling ever so gently. I fell down to my knees. All this was just too much. That guilt. She was my best friend and I turned on her…but she never hated me once for it…she did everything I asked for…
Syaoran. He suddenly stood up. I gazed at him.
SYAORAN'S P.O.V
Snow was falling.
I stretched out a hand to catch the falling snow.
It was so white. So pure. Untainted.
FLASHBACK
"Hmmm my dream would be the next successful leader of the Li clan!" I told her casually.
"Sugoi! Syaoran-kun," she breathed out, "all I ever dreamed about was-"
She stopped short and blushed.
I glanced at her from lowered eyelashes. She could tell I had been curious of what her dream was since she stopped short just as she was going to tell me.
"Go on," I urged.
She blushed harder.
"You only ever dreamed about…?" I probed further.
"About…about…" her voice was softer with every passing second and the blush on her face grew incredibly red.
My eyes gleam with wickedness. A smirk adorning my features.
"…about…flying." Her voice was barely above a whisper.
END OF FLASHBACK
Fly…
My eyes widened as I stood up abruptly realizing the entire truth staring at me in the face.
I was about to make a run for it but the violet hair caught my eyes.
Tomoyo…
She gazed up at me.
"Sakura. She's going to suicide." was my short curt reply.
She gasped. I ran.
Sakura…hold on…don't die…wait for me…
END OF P.O.V
TOMOYO'S P.O.V
I gasped.
Suicide? How did he know? I stared at his determined eyes.
Oh my gosh it's true isn't it? Saku's going to suicide.
The shock and terror that ran through me didn't even make me realize that Eriol was by my side until he shook me slightly.
"Hime! (AN: Hime for those who don't know means princess) Hime! What's wrong?" he asked me urgently.
"It's-it's Sakura!" I choked out.
When I caught my breath I said to him, "Sakura. She's going to suicide!"
END OF P.O.V
ERIOL'S P.O.V
My eyes widened.
Suicide?
We don't have much time.
"Hime—come on! We need to get to her! Fast!"
I ushered her away from the crowd and into my car.
I settled into the car seat and turned on the engine.
I backed out and drove after Syaoran's retreating form.
I scrolled down the window and yelled to him, "SYAORAN! GET IN THE CAR! YOU'LL NEVER GET THERE IN TIME ON FOOT!"
I stopped the car beside him as he hurriedly scrambled into the back seat and then took off again.
END OF P.O.V
SYAORAN'S P.O.V
"Thanks Eriol," I huffed out, "I owe you."
Sakura. I'm so sorry. I wasn't there to hear you cry or to dry your tears.
END OF P.O.V
SAKURA'S P.O.V
Sayonara Syaoran, Tomoyo, Eriol-san, Riku-chan, Chiharu-chan, Naoko-chan, sayonara.
Sayonara minna. Sayonara.
Tears. I was crying again. My last tears, falling from my face. I stared at the snow falling from the sky.
Gomen-nasai(AN: Gomen-nasai means sorry) Syaoran, for not being there with you…demo(AN: demo means but)…you'll be happier this way. With Tomoyo…
I jumped.