Haru sat by his window. His thoughts rolling thought is head again. He hated it when thoughts came in. He would turn black and try to win the item that he seeks. He smiled when he looked up at the ceiling. He knows that Isuzu is safe. But he wasn't sure about Yoake. He stood up , grabbed his coat then walked out of his messy room.
Yoake sat outside as usual. She couldn't go inside since Shigure still doesn't know that she is here. If he did know, Akito would be notified immediately. And that wouldn't be a good thing. She sat down by a tree watching the sky roll by. A raven flew by her landing on her shoulder delicately. She remembers the last time the last time she visited Akito.
Slowly, she risen up to her feet then walked around the forest exploring the once whereabouts that she knew when she was young. Pleasant memories raised through her like the wind. She smiled at the memory of her alone finding a wounded hawk, she was about 9 when that happened. Nursing it back to health was one thing she loved the most about taking care of the wounded hawk. She remembered the day when she set it free.
She felt it's wings sweep through her hands. Watching it fly away, something she wished she could do for so many years. She knows that she can never do that. If she could, God would have given her wings. Walking further into the woods taking deeper breathes, absorbing every sample of fresh air she could get. When she felt like she couldn't walk anymore. She paused and sat down leaning up beside a tree. A smile crept across her face once again. Twigs near by her snapped she leaned in closer to the tree, inching around the tree (Since it was fat) and hide from the sound.
Yoake turned her head then smiled cunningly.
" What? Are you here to seduce me again? " Yoake asked.
Haru came into view then smiled pleasantly. He shrugged his head casually like it was not a crime.
" I could sexually harass you too if you wish. " He told Yoake with a hopeful smile.
Yoake arched her eyebrow.
" Are you always like this with Isuzu? " She asked confused. Haru smiled again. Sitting down next to her, closely.
" Sometimes, she's not the type to kid around with. " He smiled again. Yoake smiled too just to get the 'happiness-comes-around' feeling.
" How have you been? It has been 4 or 5 days since the last time I saw you right? " Haru fiddled with his wristband then took it off and letted Yoake fiddle with it.
Yoake took it then played with it and putted it on her wrist.
" Doin' good. Been the same since day one when I came here. I don't feel ashamed anymore. " She told Haru truthfully.
Haru turned and faced her face-to-face.
" Okay. You just said that you are the same since day one… but then you said that you don't feel ashamed anymore.. so does that mean that you felt ashamed on day one? " Haru asked concerned.
Yoake turned to face him eyes shocked in what he just said.
" I guess so. If you put it that way….. " Yoake laid her head on her arms. She took a deep breath. She hated it when she becomes a problem for other people. She hated it when Haru becomes concerned about her.
She didn't guess that he gets concern about her, he expresses it.
Haru noticed the pathetic look in Yoake's eyes. He stopped talking then stared at her with sympathy in his eyes.
She glanced at him the chuckled with a grin on her face.
" What? " She laughed.
Haru smiled, closing his eyes this time. Yoake found something inside of him that made him stand out from everyone else.
" That reminds me. Does Shigure know you're here? " Haru asked out of the blue.
Yoake was hit back into reality hard.
Haru stopped and realized what he just did. He smiled again then faced the sky.
" Y'know….. I have to block out thoughts of you so I won't loose my head…. " He muttered to Yoake. The look in his eyes made her want to die. She wanted to cry for making him feel like this. Kyo and Him both.
" Why do you and Kyo wait for me? " She letted the words slip out.
She covered her head with her hands. Feeling stupid for coming back was hitting her again.
" I have to kick shadows on the street for every mistake I made. " She trembled letting her green eyes slip out a painful expression. Haru sat next to her, holding on a painful smile that he wanted to let go of.
Haru snatched Yoake tightly then gripped her into a tight hug. He didn't want to let go, he didn't feel like it was his place to let go.
" Something is making me to carry on…. It's difficult to understand…" Yoake muttered to herself. Haru heard her, he felt her tears drop on his arms.
" And I…wonder why I try…I wonder why I bother…I wonder why…I cry…I wonder why I go through all of this trouble…" She spoke more. Half of the time, the words stuttered making it hard to understand. But Haru made sense of it. Every word.
" You shouldn't have to cry. This time, you have to stay here…Need to make this place feel like home. " Haru whispered into her ear quietly.
She clutched on Haru's arm tightly. She didn't know what she was supposed to feel. Pathetic? Sad? Angry? Suicidal? Useless?
She didn't care, she just wanted her friends here. Kyo, Haru and Isuzu.
She wanted no one else. Out of the whole damn world, those are the only people that she only wanted.
" Did you see Isuzu yet? " Yoake asked Haru in a faint whisper.
" No…I should see her though… if she wants me in her presence. " Haru smirked at the temper that Isuzu puts off of him when he comes unnoticed.
" She really likes you ya know. You two are a really beautiful couple. " Yoake looked up at Haru solemnly. He looked down at her shocked to hear what she just said. She smiled knowing that was one thing he least expected from her.
" And you think I don't speak my mind. Well, Hatsuharu, your theory of me has been demolished! " Yoake raised her hand in the air in a tight fist, then released it, exposing the palm of the hand.
Haru laughed at the expression Yoake used. He could never get over her humor and sarcasm.
After awhile, Yoake made herself (finally) comfortable. Then a split seconded hit her knowing what she was doing. She shot out of Haru's arms, standing up. Her eyes wide in fear. Haru looked up at her alarmed. He looked around checking if she saw anything that made her freak out like that.
"What's the matter? " Haru asked her cautiously.
" What we are doing. You're dating Rin for god's sake! You're cheating on her with me! I don't want this to happen between you two! " Yoake muttered loudly. Haru watched her talk steadily. He didn't move or blink. He kept the isolated look in his eyes.
Yoake stopped her sentence. She noticed something in Haru she always hated him for. Black Haru. She winced at the idea of plunging forward and walking past him. If she did do that, he'll grab her wrist and seduce her even more.
Haru took a step forward. He didn't breath, he didn't take her eyes off of Yoake. Not even to blink. Yoake stepped backwards. She then smiled and recognized this game in a split seconded.
The lustful man puts the helpless girl in the hot spot. The corner, no where to go, or in a locked room. The man forces the girl and… You know how the rest goes.
Yoake's smile grew bigger and bigger at the thought of switching the game on Haru. She loves it when the tables turn. Especially in movies.
She took a step forward. Haru took a step forward.
No more then 3 steps we're they face to face.
Cunning smile on Yoake's face.
Wanting smile on Haru's face.
" Y'know. I'm really starting to hate the fact that you and Kyo are sooo much fucken taller then me. " Yoake grumbled under neither her breath.
" But… Isuzu and I aren't really dating. How can I put this? We're separated. She's over at Kazuma's. Doing what ever the hell she wants like any other single woman in the fucken world. And here I am. Infront of you. "
Haru exposed a sheepishly grin. Yoake grinned in dispose of herself.
Haru placed a hand on Yoake's chin. He traced her three scars underneath her left eye. His eyes lost contact of Black Haru and came back to White Haru.
" Akito…." He muttered under his breath.
" Yeah…" Yoake remarked awkwardly.
He was about to seduce me and now this? She thought in her head as she adjusted to the out-of-the-blue Haru.
" I remember that night." Haru's face warped into a angry look.
" Kyo. Attacked by Akito. I couldn't handle it…Yeah…" Yoake stuffed her hands into her pockets. She looked away from Haru not really in the mood for eye contact.
Haru understood this look. He pouted then apologized for his Black Haru behavior.
" I couldn't help myself…It has been a long time since I got to seduce some one. " Haru groaned eagerly. Yoake faced him with a smirk.
" You can seduce Kagura. " Yoake's smile was broad and hoping.
" NO! She would be the last one I would seduce in Black form. " Haru looked away in fear.
" Riiight. " Yoake laughed.
Haru smiled then wrapped an arm around Yoake's shoulders like buddies do.
They both looked down the slope of trees. They didn't talk for 10 minutes.
Until, Yoake made the first move to start walking.
" Where are you going? " Haru asked kinda surprised that she was moving at a fast pace.
" Something is wrong. I can taste it. "