Confessions of a Marauder
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On his seventeenth birthday, James Potter receives a diary from his best friend, for the sole reason that it was on sale. Soon, he finds himself pouring his thoughts and dreams into it, and beginning to realize his true feelings for Lily Evans. A funny diary, read!
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Well, that went quite horribly.
First of all, I made a HUGE mistake. I knew I was supposed to meet her at five, and I was on my way, all set to be on time and impress her with my punctuality.
When along comes Snivellus, the oily git.
He sneered, "On your way to meet your Mudblood girlfriend, Potter? Oh wait, she hates you."
Obviously, I couldn't let that pass. I mean, he called Lily a rude name, and implied that she hates me. I'll have him know that she's just in denial.
So, I take out my wand, all set to jinx him to Ireland and back, and Professor McGonagall appears out of nowhere and starts shouting at me.
"Mr. Potter! I would've thought you'd behave better than this after our chat after class!"
I responded indignantly, "He called Evans a…a you-know…"
Professor McGonagall crisply informed me, "That doesn't mean you can whip out your wand, Mr. Potter, and jinx him. Ten points from Gryffindor."
I gape at her, "From you own House?"
Snivellus smirks at me from behind McGonagall. The slimy Slytherin snake. It's all his fault.
"And as for you, Mr. Snape, twenty points from Slytherin and detention with Filch tonight. If I hear another offensive word out of your mouth, I will make sure that you will be suspended."
Snivellus looked like she had just announced that Potions was cancelled.
He scowled and stalked off, shooting me a dirty look on the way.
Then I remembered.
Lily.
Library.
Mission: Make James Un-Arrogant.
A mental image of my head rolling on the ground popped up in my thoughts.
So, I sprint to the Library, nearly breaking the neck of some scrawny first year (they should know better than to walk in the middle of the hall, honestly).
Panting, I spotted Lily and flung myself onto the chair while calling up on the Potter charm.
"Evans." I smiled charmingly.
Her face turned red and she snapped, "Why are you late?"
I ran a hand though my hair and smile, "Oh, you know…um…stuff."
Merlin, she looked like she was going to explode right there. I almost grabbed a book and held it up to shield my good-looking, handsome face.
"JAMES POTTER, YOU ARE THE MOST SELFISH, INCONSIDERATE BUGGER I HAVE EVER HAD THE UTTER MISFORTUNE TO MEET!"
As she shrieked on and on at me about my lack of feelings for her feelings, the whole library turned to look at us.
I smiled at the audience, ruffling my hair for good measure.
Madame Pince screeched, "Miss Evans! Stop that infernal noise!"
That's rich really, coming from a woman who's as scrawny as a first year, who was currently screeching in a voice similar to fingernails on a chalkboard.
She marched to us and flapped her hands in a vulture like way, "Out! Both of you! Out! Out!"
Lily glared at me and chucked her parchment and quill into her bag. I blinked at Pince, "Wait. You mean I have to get out? I just got here!"
Pince scornfully replied, "I won't have any of your antics today, Potter."
I followed Lily out and remarked, "That Pince is a real pain, huh? She makes Filch look-"
"Just shut up, Potter!" Lily cried, and thrust a heavy book at me, knocking the wind out of my lungs. I choked.
She practically killed me. What would have happened if I hadn't breathed in time, I shudder to think.
"Oof! Watch out-"
Lily hysterically cried, "Didn't you hear me? I said shut up! You always do this; make me all angry, and when I yell at you, I get in trouble!"
I frowned at this, "I don't mean to make you angry, Lily."
Scathingly, she snapped, "Oh, no, it just happens, I reckon. Anyways, you've managed to ruin everything. And you know what? I don't even care what I get on that stupid project. I just want you out of my life."
I blink at her, unsure of what to say. She had just told me that she really did hate me.
Oh, Merlin, Snivellus was right!
It's the signal for the end of the world, really. I mean, Snivellus…right?
She saw my hurt expression and added a bit gently, "I'm going to the Prefects' meeting. Good night. And take McGonagall's advice. Grow up, James."
She walked off, leaving me staring at the wall.
I don't get it. I followed all the rules and everything. I took notes, was hexing Snivellus in private (until McGonagall poofed out of nowhere), I didn't flirt-
Oh, god!
That's it!
It's Tracey! Lily was jealous and she just said all that stuff to make herself feel better.
It's all very clear to me now.
Prongs, did you reckon it's because you were late?
Oh, right. But I was only fifteen minutes late, tops. What kind of controlling, dominating person cares if someone's a bit late?
Apparently, Lily did care.
Hey, Padfoot! You sound smart! Almost like Moony.
Have you been taking lessons from him? Is he giving lessons on being smarter? Because Lily could use some.
And Peter. I just saw him drooling over Hannah Lane, and everyone knows she doesn't go out with anyone, even me.
And he thinks he has a chance?
I'm not being mean, really. It's just that he'll end up with a broken heart from rejection. Like me.
Moony just came back from the meeting.
He read over what I wrote and reckons I should back off from Lily for a while.
I told him I'd die of Lily-deprivation, but he insists that distance brings people closer.
And said this weird thing (he called it a proverb) that if you really love someone, you have to let them go. If they love you in return, then they'll come back.
So, I'm going to back-off.
No matter how much it hurts.
Because I think I really do love Lily.
I'm not sure why.
I think it's because she's the only girl I've ever met who's honest with me, and doesn't suck up to me because I'm a handsome Quidditch star.
I think it might have something to do with the way her hair swishes when she moves, and how her green eyes get brighter when she's angry, and how she smiles.
Not that she's ever smiled at me.
And how she laughs (ditto) and how she's the smartest witch in the school and how she helps first-years find their way even though they're rude little imps.
And how she's utterly perfect, yet has flaws. Like she lies to teachers, and eavesdrops, and screams at me even though I didn't do anything wrong.
Oh, Merlin. I sound like a sap!
Sirius must NEVER read this page.
Or my reputation will be shatter beyond repair! I'll be called a poof!
I better go hide this book.
Remember. No talking to Lily unless absolutely necessary. And if I have to, I need to talk in a polite voice, in a aloof manner.
She's just another girl. A stunningly beautiful girl who I love.
Aw, bugger. She just entered the Charms classroom.
She sat down in her seat next to me. Ignoring her, I continue writing in my diary.
Hah. I just chanced a glance at her and she looks confused. Probably wondering why my adorable voice isn't greeting her.
If you ask me, she's going to be the first one to crack.
"Potter, are you ignoring me?" Lily asked huffily.
She's a smart girl.
Smiling breezily at her, I flippantly answer, "Course not. I just have something to do." I gesture towards the textbook in front of me and pretend to take notes.
Frowning, she skeptically returns, "Since when is something more important than me? I mean…bothering me is usually your first priority."
She sounds a bit hurt.
Hah. It's working. I must thank Moony.
I sigh wearily, "I never wanted to bother you, Lily. And I've decided to give up on you. You obviously hate me. It's a lost cause."
She snapped, "Well, good. I'm glad you won't bother me anymore."
I ignore this comment and restrain myself from repeating that I never meant to bother her. Obviously, she has trouble getting this in her head.
You're doing great, mate. Evans looks like a wand got shoved up her nose.
Moony was right. I must remember to thank him.
I continue pretending to take notes, and remaining silent. Flitwick entered the class and beamed, "We're learning Disappearing charms today. The incantation is Disaparto. To perform this charm on someone, you must rap them sharply on the head. The charm is a non-verbal one, which makes it difficult to master."
Lily informed me haughtily, "I already know this spell. You may practice if you like, but on yourself."
"Oh, no, I know the spell already."
She nodded curtly, "Then we'll discuss our project. Meet me in the library at five. Try to be on time, but I won't get my hopes up."
I wisely commented, "Getting your hopes up does lead to disappointment most of the time."
She gave me a funny look and agreed quietly, "It does."
Maybe I have something on my face.
Author's Notes
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Tracey: I really need a description of you (looks, House, etc.) that you'd like me to write you as. I'm planning on casting you as Lily's best friend.
Danu 3: Thanks for sticking with me! I really appreciate it! And I am planning for Lily and Sirius to meet up soon and become friends. ONLY friends. I won't do a Define Perfection thing with this story.
LJ Fan: Nah, James wouldn't hit Lily. He loves her too much. And I got the McGonagall thing from the fifth book where Remus confides that he had been made Prefect so he could control James and Sirius somewhat.
Serenity Rose: James is a bit…thick…And I'm glad I'm not the only one who thinks the HBP was a bit rushed and weird. And all moms, sweet or not, hate swearing, I imagine.
Kraftdiner1256: Thanks for the review!
Jersey Princess: I'm sorry if I offended you!
Starburstsweetie: Thank you for the compliment, I simply ADORE Meg Cabot. And I agree that the PD movies are totally whack.
Animerocksjapanrocks: Thanks for the review!
Inubecka: Lol, I love the dialogue about James. Totally him.
JeevesandWooster: Thanks for sticking with me!
Ophelia: Thanks for the review and compliments!
BrownEyes90: Awesome, I love your name. And Celina, sadly, isn't my real name.
Ronniekinzluvr: Lily's not mean, she just tends to be a bit biased about people. And I hate the 'killer' in the sixth as well…
MissCheviousHP: OMG, you are like, my favoritest reviewer ever! And I totally think that poor Sirius did have to face a lot of prejudices when he was in Hogwarts, on account of his being a Black and related to people like Malfoy, Bellatrix, etc. I'm guessing you meant Harry was a bit confuddled in the sixth book? I read it the day it came out. BTW, thanks for adding me to your C2. And you totally flatter me, THANK YOU! And I agree, Peter is so NOT a Marauder. And the sixth did have a lot of info, but it was all about Voldemort. I would have liked to see a bit about L/J and the Marauders.
Angelic Chocolate Fairy: I plan on two updates per week: Wednesdays and Sundays. Hopefully, the story will be finished by October. Except I won't be able to make next week's updates, until Sunday, since I'm going on vacation. And I totally agree that the sixth book felt like a filler, and I was disappointed when JKR didn't reveal anything about L/J.
RussianLeague: Thanks, and I'm curious to what other fic of mine you find a classic.
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Reina de la Noche: Thanks for the review! And I agree that my previous Confessions were, sadly, all alike.
Psychopenguin16: Each one to his own. Personally, I like the fifth book the best, and the fourth second.
Amber Tinted: I love that comment as well. I remember hearing it somewhere and decided it was just too James-y to pass up.
FontGirl: Buying a diary on sale sounds like something Sirius would do…
Writersblock777: Absolutely. I adored the fifth, it was very gripping the way Harry was acting like a typical teenager, but JKR made it work. And the H/G thing did happen out of nowhere. One book, he barely knows her and the next, he's snogging her?
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Amanda: Thanks for the review! James is going to get less arrogant. And the adding people in, that's only Tracey so far. She's been a great reviewer, and has reviewed most of my chapters in most of my works. Adding her in is my way of showing appreciation.
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DevinJamie Pickrell: James is thick, there's no escaping it. Unfortunately, he can't realize his mistakes on his own, but he will soon. And thanks for the compliments!
Beth: You are tooooooo sweet!
Le Noir De Adhara: I love that line too…and I hate Snape too.
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K8e Bell: Phantom Princess? You've been talking to Riya! She told me about you and how you're a totally awesome person. And forget it, you were NOT rude. What dog thing were you referring to?
Prongsie-Jamesie: Thanks for the review! And James DID screw it up, surprise, surprise.