Confessions of a Marauder

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On his seventeenth birthday, James Potter receives a diary from his best friend, for the sole reason that it was on sale. Soon, he finds himself pouring his thoughts and dreams into it, and beginning to realize his true feelings for Lily Evans. A funny diary, read!

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This is turning out to be quite difficult.

Today in the Charms class, Lily proceeded to ignore me back after setting the time of our project-work. Everyone knows you're not supposed to ignore a person who was ignoring you first. It's like the unwritten rule.

Obviously, Lily must have missed this lesson.

I was kind of envisioning this scene where Lily would fall to her knees and beg me to talk to her.

The Ideal Scene

Me: nothing (I'm ignoring her, remember?)

Lily: Oh, James! Falls to her knees and looks up at me beseechingly

Me: nothing

Lily: Oh, James! I beg you! Please talk to me! I must hear your charming and ever so deep and masculine voice or I'll die!

Me: raise an eyebrow in a suave manner

Lily: James, I love you! I was such a cow, not seeing how perfect and absolutely incredible you are!

Me: It's about time you noticed. Here's a hanky.

Lily: swooning

Then we get together and live happily ever after.

-THE END-

As you may have noticed, nothing like this happened. My dream, sadly, remained such.

Erg.

On the other hand, I'm plotting revenge against Snivelly. It has to be discreet, so Lily won't know it was me.

Sirius agrees with me. The oily git must be punished for ruining Mission: Make James Un-Arrogant.

Remus just sighed and looked up at the enchanted ceiling which looks like the sky but isn't. It's actually a cleverly placed charm to make it look like it was the sky.

I read about it in Hogwarts: A History. Yes, it is quite shocking that I read a book willingly. Actually, I read it so I could impress Lily with my newfound knowledge.

Surprisingly, she retorted, "Oh, keep your petty facts to yourself, Potter."

Oi, Prongs. I just heard Matilda Johnson saying her brother's going out with Evans. You know Daniel? That idiot bloke we messed with last year?

Silly boy. There's no way in heck that Lily would go out with Johnson after realizing he was a retard. She said so herself in the love-life conversation we had a few weeks ago.

James, that was before she realized you were the one who made him dump her.

Remus, you of all people should know Lily is just in denial and couldn't date anyone else.

God, you guys are seriously pissing me off. I'm heading to the Astronomy Tower where I can get some peace from gossiping blokes WHO WON'T STOP BUGGING ME!

There.

Incredible hell.

Either my brain is delusional or the whole world has tipped over its axis. Actually the earth is actually already tipped slightly on its axis.

This is thanks to Harold Morton the IV, a sixth century wizard whose magic was a tad bit too strong and caused a huge rock to hit Earth when he was experimenting with magnets. He managed to get rid of the huge hole, but the Earth remained off-axis.

The stupid Muggles try to explain this with some wanker idea about how Earth's poles are magnetic or something like that.

Anyways, back to me and my experience in the Tower.

So, I was looking for some peace, right? Since Remus and Sirius wouldn't stop writing in my diary that Lily and that Johnson bloke are going out.

Well, turns out they were right.

Lily, once again, had a brief moment of insanity.

I blame this on Remus. Being deprived of me, she must have gone insane.

When I got to the Tower, there was a couple snogging relentlessly in the corner.

Three guesses to who they were.

Ding ding! Right in one.

Lily and Daniel.

While my blood pressure rose to fantastic heights, I bellowed, "Bloody hell!"

The couple sprang apart and Daniel choked, "Po…Potter?"

Lily defiantly glared at me, and curtly snapped, "I'll thank you not to interrupt me and my boyfriend, Potter."

I flailed my hands, "Boyfriend? You just said he was a retard a few weeks ago!"

Scowling, Lily informed me, "That was before I realized he chucked me because of you and Black."

Daniel remained mute, while his face turned steadily green.

I cast a withering look at him.

Turning to Lily, I incredulously asked, "You'd rather go out with a tosser like him than me? Look at him! He's absolutely spineless."

Lily stamped her foot and turned red, "Don't you dare insult him! You! What you do to Snivellus is brave, I suppose? It's always you and Black against just him! You make me sick!"

I defensively shot back, "I take Snivellus on myself plenty of times! Like that time I was late for our project!"

"Oh, so that's why you were late? You were torturing him?" Lily cried.

"He called you a Mud…Mud…bad name! And I was about to hex him but McGonagall showed up and stopped me!"

Lily angrily retorted, "Stop watching out for me! I can take care of myself! You're not my boyfriend, you're not even my friend! Why would you care?"

"BECAUSE I BLOODY FANCIED YOU!" I yelled.

Lily stopped screaming and stared at me, as if she had never quite seen a bloke blow up and yell their affections.

Daniel covered his mouth with his hands and ran out of the room, and we heard the faint sounds of someone throwing up.

I stiffly said, "Anyways, I'm sorry I disturbed you. I'll just be going…"

Quietly, Lily called out, "Good luck with your new girlfriend."

I turned back and asked bewilderingly, "My girlfriend? I don't have one."

Her eyes widened and she flushed, "Oh…right. But…you've been ignoring me. And you said you fancied me. Not fancy. You said it in the past tense."

Girls. Must they dissect every word?

I frowned, "I meant I fancied you when I attacked Snivellus. I still do. And I was ignoring you because I thought that was what you wanted."

Miserably, Lily shrugged, "I thought that was what I wanted too."

Elatedly, I asked, "You mean you'll go out with me?"

"No. You still have to prove that you're not an arrogant prick." Lily replied, but with a ghost of a smile tugging on her lips.

"Er…right. How do I do that, again?"

She brushed past me, smiling, "You have a long time to figure that out."

So, basically, Evans said she'll go out with you after you do a Moony?

Yup.

Maybe I should start quoting Shakespeare or something.

Yeah. Sure. Anyways, I thought of the perfect prank to pull on Snivellus.

Sorry, Sirius. I'd help, but I need to find some books in the library that Shakespeare wrote. Carry it off with Peter. Moony would help, I think, but he's in the Hospital Wing.

Tonight's full moon, after all. And are you sure you and Peter will be able to handle Moony alone?

James, I know exactly what to do tonight. No worries,

Well…if you're sure. I mean, I'd join you guys (and believe me, I felt like a right tosser when I told Remus I couldn't) but Lily refuses to reschedule because of her Charms Club meetings and tutoring.

I feel horrid that I won't be there to help Moony, but he insisted he'd be fine.

James. Believe me. Everything's fine. Go, you're going to be late.

Have fun, then. I guess.

Lily looked at me in shock, "You're on time."

I glanced at the clock in the library and informed her, "Actually, I'm three minutes and fifteen seconds early."

"You're early." She echoed, looking worried. Her emerald eyes scanned my face and she held up three fingers.

Lily demanded, "How many fingers?"

"Er…three."

She frowned and furrowed her brows, "Maybe I'm dreaming. Or are you sick? No, wait! Are you experiencing some strange side effect from a hex cast on you by your friends, particularly Sirius?"

Looking at her strangely, I slowly said, "No, no, and no. I'm just…more responsible."

Sarcastically, she replied, "Now why didn't I think of that? Sit down, Potter."

I flicked through my Quidditch notes and said in a business-like manner, "I took some notes on…erm, spells we could do. But I'd like to hear what you came up with first."

Impressed, she glanced at the lengthy notes, "I'm impressed. You took notes! Can I read them?"

I shoved them out of reach, "They're really messy. Only I can read them. Even Remus can't read them, and he can read ten different languages."

"Right." She says, still looking impressed.

"So, what spells do you think we should do?"

She glanced down at her notes (of course, hers were real) and said, "Well, the Apparating one sounds pretty good." She looked up at me, obviously waiting for a comment.

"Yeah, it does. Great idea." I genuinely say.

I was actually thinking more along the lines of color-changing ones we've used in the past on Snivellus. Then I could have used him for the demonstration. But Apparating is pretty good, too.

Lily smiles, looking pleased, "Can you Apparate? I can. I just learned over the summer."

I roll my eyes at her, "Can a Potter Apparate? Please. We are like, the Apparating Gods."

She lets out a small chuckle and mocks, "Silly me, I forgot! All hail the great Apparating God!"

Going along with her, I order, "I demand more respect."

Swinging her hands up and down, she laughs, "You are worthy, we are not."

I sigh in mock disappointment, "It's so hard to find good worshippers these days."

Snickering, she reminds me, "It seems Pettigrew fits that job perfectly, actually."

"Oh…Wormtail? Yeah, he's a regular worshipper. At one point, Sirius asked if he was gay. Peter turned a terrific shade of purple."

She smiled, "But you still take care of him."

I shrug, "Well, it's not like he has any other friends. Real friends. You know, simple friends are the ones who tell you to ignore someone insulting you. Real friends jump at the person themselves."

Staring at me, she asked softly, "Like you do for me?"

"Someone who fancies you will jump the person, even if you hate them." I added quietly.

Lily flushed, and looked away. She mumbled, "Let's get back to that project."

Author's Notes

Hey guys. So, Lily is beginning to see the 'error of her ways'. And James will be deflating soon…with a major event that'll happen over the next few chapters.

Guess what the event is? JKR has mentioned it…

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Kisses,

Celina