Sekowari: I'm back! This time, the fanfic is written in Hakkai's POV. But, yes but, I really think that this one isn't as good as the other stories I wrote. Seriously, I kinda rushed this. I mean, all the pasts of the Saiyuki guys are similar right? Pain, loss, sorrow. So, hope there won't be a lot of flames, but suggestions and advice are definitely welcome! R/R!
If We Could Start Over
Others had always opposed the fact that Kanan and I loved each other. They didn't realize that we were more than just brother and sister.
Our feelings for each other had no limits.
I often told Kanan to be strong in life, for this cold world is full of deception and lies.
Reflecting back on the past, I remember that one night when we sat together in a field and talked to each other.
I made a promise to protect Kanan, always………..
However, not long after that evening, youkai came and kidnapped Kanan. I went after them. Yet, when I finally saw her again, she had the child of that disgusting monster.
Killing a thousand youkai, and becoming one myself. None of that could have been worse than what happened to her.
Still, I was willing to give the two of us another chance. I was willing to start over. Kanan's heart would always belong to me. Isn't that so?
I tried to tell her that everything would be all right, but Kanan didn't seem to hear.
The look on her face was of pure pain and terror.
She took a dagger and pointed it at herself.
Realization stunned me so much that I just stood there, rigid with fear and shock.
So many things were going through my head. I wanted to scream, but my throat was closed up.
I knew then that the promise I had made to Kanan was already broken. I couldn't save her, couldn't reach her.
Tears flowed down her cheeks as she said to me:
"Gonou, I'm so sorry."
And then, blood splattered onto my face. Her blood.
Kanan, my beautiful Kanan, was dead.
I told her to be strong before. But in the end, it was I who didn't do so – I couldn't do anything to help her.
Tell me, how could things have turned out to be this way?
Now, I hide all this with a pleasant, simple smile. Every minute, in every day of my life.
But even so, I'm still Cho Gonou inside.
As long as I live, the scars of the past will always stay with me.
Owari
Sekowari: That's it! I know, really short, like all of my fanfics. Hope it wasn't TOO, too bad. Please leave reviews! Arigatou! Ja ne!