Chapter two: Northern Lights…..
Norhtern lights part one
Kimi ni todo ke northern light……(please reach you, Northern Light….)
'What I want is a light….light of hope that could make my life get easier to live…..'. the tone of Hao's heart. Hao looked at the light of the candlestick next to him. 'Nor that light….I mean, the light of loves from people around you…the light of prayers for my goodness, not for my death…the celebration for my success, not for my defeat….The happiness to see me, not the curse from fellows mouths….'
'I want that light……..'
That's the voice, echoing in Hao's heart …..
'Stop dreaming, you stupid kid. Do you see any hope for that!'
Another voice in Hao's heart denied what he wanted…..
'Why don't you believe in your heart? That's where you're gonna find your way out from this darkness…..' that voice again…the voice of that hope light….the voice of very bright light…..the voice of…northern light……..?
'Don't you think that it's idiot enough to wish something impossible? Don't dream about that silly northern light now….dream about the sun light first….You can't reach it now right! Ha! You can't go to the ground to see the sunshine, but you wish for that confusing northern light! Ha!'
That voice said again. The voice of Hao's hopelessness.
'Stop it! I don't wanna think about anything anymore! I've got enough! Don't disturb me with that suck stuffs again! Just leave me alone here! Being rotten and dark and hopeless and desperate and decayed and broken and….Oh, shit! Just leave me alone! Don't wanna think anymore…don't wanna now anything more….' Sobbed Hao. He had got enough with the fight and violence he had seen….Would there any peace for him! Even the voices in his heart fought each other…..
You want that northern light….
For a short while, Hao lay sprawled on the stone ground
Yes, Hao, you really want that northern light….
Yes, I want it….
Then, why don't you try to reach that, Hao?
Can I?
Stupid fellow….Try first…You want that light, right?
Yes…so…I should try first...right?
Yes, stupid fellow….try to get that light….To get the light of your….life
I will try for that….I will try to get…that northern light…the light of my life
Yes…good…and you're gonna reach it….
Yes…I'm gonna reach it….for my life…..
From the distance, on the edge of the cave….the cave where Hao lived for collecting his power again…the dreadful cave…full of sadness' atmosphere, Spirit of Fire could see…the new hope of Hao…the hew hope of the northern light….whatever was that….but, one thing that the spirit now exactly…that northern light….had been the master's life luminosity…..
Hikisakareta futatsu no kokoro….(two souls torn apart…….)
Hao's mind brought him whatever those memories wanted….to the dark moment…This time, to the final battle with his twin brother Yoh. Hao could feel that, physically, they both were almost same….
The differences were…Yoh was expected by the entire world….Yoh…he wasn't almost murdered by our parents after his birth….I was….Yoh… his birth was….was expected by our parents…..by our same parents…..Even that I recognized surely that I was evil enough in the past….but since my birth….I have been refused by people….by the world….Is that a punishment for me?
Yukiba no nai omoi ga mune o shimetsuke…..(feelings of nowhere to go strangle my heart….)
I don't know….don't know….what should I do now? I…I'm hopeless….beside that….If I come back to the earth….it makes sense that people will try to kill me again. I want to be an ordinary boy…Like Yoh….Why could be like that! Why it wasn't Yoh that wanted to be killed by our parents? How could they differ us? We were still babies there…I don't know what to do….where to go…why I should….how can I struggle….when that hour will happen…the moment that I get my entire powers again…..then…what?
Naze kono toki deatte no ka to…..(why did we meet this day?)
'The people that I met…my followers….Yoh….Ren…Horo Horo…and their gangs…Opacho….' For a while, Hao stopped thinking about that. Remembered Opacho's loyalty, until the day Hao lost everything. Lost his powers, lost his followers, lost his existence on the world, lost Opacho….lost the views of earth….lost his mind, lost confidence….lost everything……
And it wasn't fair at all if you could see…All of them; my enemies, have friends because of loyalties and happiness together. But…but me? Absolutely dissimilar with those people I've met…
I had friends…of course not true friends…because of my power and their fears to me…..is that fair enough for me?...
Toi kakeru sube wa ( the way to ask this question………)
Saeta kage ni chiru ( vanishes into clear shadow…)
Yuragu koto nai……. ( no need to waver……….)
Tsuyosa na do naku…………. (though whitout any strength………)
Susunda saki ni…..( you can find answers that you're looking for…..)
Motomeru kotae ga aru…..(after you've moved on…..)
Spirit of Fire, looked at his master heart confusion, felt sorry for his suffer. Hao without any power, any strength, tried to fight his enemies. Not the entire world that against him so much, but the feeling of him. The feeling that could slay his hope, to reach the northern light…..Spirit of Fire came over his mystified master.
"What is it, Spirit of Fire?" muttered Hao without turning his head. 'No need to waver, Master. Though without any strength, you can find answers that you're looking for…After you moved on…..' the spirit cried a very precious quote to his fragile-hearted master.
Hao was dazed for a moment, that looked at his spirit. What a wise spirit. No wonder, they called him the grand spirit. But I've made him been like this. Just same like me. He hasn't been rotten at all. And I mustn't make him rotten, like me…Now, he is known well by all and sundry as a spirit of Hao, the loser. A spirit of pathetic fellow. I'm so cruel if I still cage him with this busted soul….Hao felt so sad to say it, but…..
"Spirit of Fire…" His head was bent over as hi called his spirit.
'Yes, my lord?' replied Spirit of Fire….
"I have to tell this to you. It's so evil to cage you in this cave with me….I understand if you wanna see the outside world….I understand if you want to…want to liberate your self….from me….I do understand if you….don't wanna be my spirit anymore….Now I'm a weak master, can't do anything….I'll let you go if you want it…." Said Hao.
Meanwhile saying that, his heart was completely torn by his own words….the truth was….he didn't want to let Spirit of Fire to go….He wanted his loyal spirit to be with him everlastingly, to get along with him until his power gets enough to come out from that cave…But, in order to against his egoism, and thought that his Spirit had proved enough loyalty to him, with hard-hearted, Hao would listen to what his spirit wanted…
If it's freedom, the only thing he could give….he would say yes to the request….
'You're an totally thick-headed boy, Master…."' Snapped Spirit of Fire.
Hao…for a split second was agape with surprise of his spirit response.
"I didn't get it well, Spirit of Fire….Can you tell me once more…with the clearer way?" asked Hao. His spirit made a nice expression. Understanding expression. Hao glanced at his spirit deeply. 'What I mean is…like my announcement before….Kept bearing in minds those words in your heart every time you're gonna do something…' answered that spirit.
The night had touched the day….Hao, prepared to sleep. And suddenly, he remembered the words of his Spirit…..
'No need to waver, though without any strength, you can find answers that you're looking for, after you've moved on……'
'Will I find that answer? The answer that I'm looking for… even without any strength, after I've moved on…..? Will I find the northern light….The light of my life? The confession of people around me? The love that I never ever could smell it….Will I find that very bright light…..the light of hope….the northern light?'
Suddenly, he felt so weak……
Weak and powerless….
Weak and powerless and useless……
Weak and powerless and useless and unwanted….and those kinds of shit feelings….
And he started to sob…. He didn't want to…He knew that sobbing makes someone getting weaker…..And, between his sobs, he could see that a flaming red shadow came over him. The spirit of Fire….
'Don't worry, Master ….at the time, you'll understand…' he murmured understandingly. "Understand of what?" asked Hao. He didn't want to show his weakness point, his cry to his loyal spirit. He didn't want to increase the spirit's problem. 'Of the northern light…..' hummed the spirit. In that time, Hao really realized that…..that he loved his spirit very much, and never gonna stop loving the Spirit of Fire….
Hao glimpsed at his faithful spirit. "You're really loyal, Spirit of Fire…" spoke Hao slowly. He swept tears from his face. The Spirit of Fire gazed at him. "Why? I'm sure you know well that now, I'm in the worst be worse than this again…..I've fallen to the deep destiny cliff, but why are you still very faithful to me?" asked Hao. The Spirit of Fire stared at him again and carried on his words…..
'Because I believe in you…and that won't be changed….You're my beloved master…..once it happened, it will always be like that…..' he responded firmly.
'And I'm gonna help you find that northern light, whatever it is, the light of your life…I'm gonna help you find that thing…..Master…Because of that, don't give up…You said you've fallen to the deep destiny cliff, until you're in the worst condition, and it can't be worse than this anymore….Then…it's your time to get up….time to climb this cliff…time to find your northern light…'
Hao was touched by his spirit's statement….That time, Hao had found the meaning of true friendship….the true friendship between his spirit and him. "Spirit of Fire….you are the best spirit I ever have…." That's the only thing Hao could say in that time. The spirit was still quiet, waited for his master's next reaction.
Hao nodded. "Let's climb this fucking shit cliff….Let's reach the northern light…. You're gonna help me, right?" asked Hao…
The Spirit of Fire could feel the new feeling of Hao. He showed happy expression. 'Of course….' He answered…."Then...we have to be hurry, we have to start it now…." uttered hao again. This time, not with tears, but with a honest smile. A sweet smile….'Yes, let's begin it' replied the spirit….
Chapter two ended……..
GrowPulter says
Hi everybody…..First, I wanna say thanks for reading this chapter. I'm still new here and need much guidance to make an enjoyable story. If you don't mind, you could give the guidance by reviewing….About the northern lights, I haven't finished yet. It would be too long if I use the whole song lyric. So, I didn't used all the words now….I wish I could continue using this song in the next chapter in order to finish the sort of story I've started too…Okay, once again, thanks for reading….
GrowPulter