Sho loved to draw.

It had been his thing for as long as he'd been alive. He didn't know what he would have done if he didn't have drawing. It was pretty much the only thing that he was good at. He didn't even have to try, really, he just put his pencil to the page and drew things. Sometimes things that he was looking at, like animals at the park or his hamsters, or stuff from his head, like hamsters fighting like people or zombie hamsters or stuff. Sometimes he drew other stuff from his head, too, stuff like…about things that weren't hamsters. Things that he probably shouldn't have been drawing in the kitchen.

He checked his phone.

It was late. Maybe he could pretend that he was tired and wanted to go to bed. Big Sis was sitting across from him at the kitchen table, this was the only place that they could hang out that wasn't their room. The living room was full of hamsters now and Dad's room had Serizawa in it. He kind of wished that they had a living room again, or another bedroom…not that he minded Serizawa, he was ok. Sho just kind of wanted privacy every once in a while…he leaned over. Big Sis was watching Frozen fan shorts. She'd be there all night.

He got up quickly, before her short was over.

"Going to bed, goodnight, see you in the morning." Said Sho as he got up and closed his sketchbook. He expected Big Sis to say goodnight, maybe happy birthday again. He didn't expect her to immediately close her iPad and look up at him.

"Sho, wait." Said Mob quickly. She had been thinking about this all day and she decided, now, that she had to talk to him about…stuff. He was the same age she had been when she had started doing stuff with Shimazaki, and even older than she'd been when she first did stuff with Teru. She didn't want to talk about this with her little brother of all people but if she didn't do it then nobody would.

The last thing she wanted was for him to end up going through the same thing that she had.

"What? It's late and I have drawing to do." Said Sho. Not a lie…not all the way…and either way she didn't need to know about that kind of stuff. What, did she want to hang out some more? That was…they used to hang out more…but he had stuff to do! Important…stuff…

She was still looking at him. She wasn't going to stop.

"Are you going to lock yourself in our room again?" asked Mob. That was…not good. She was at least already dressed in her pajamas but it would have been nice to be able to sleep in her own bed…but then again if he wanted to be alone then she could let him. She could just…no, she was just looking for an excuse to get out of talking top him about this. She didn't get to try and get out of these things. If she didn't tell him about things then…then nobody else would.

"Yeah….but don't ask me why! And if you need to sleep then sleep with Serizawa or Minegishi or…um…on the couch. Wait, no, there are hamsters there. Sleep in the yard. It's not that cold out if you build a fire." Said Sho. It wasn't that cold out. Shimazaki had told him that, once, it got so cold when he was a little kid that his pee bucket had frozen solid.

"But I don't want to build a fire. What if I build a fire and then the house burns down and then you die?" asked Mob

"Then I'd just haunt the world as a spirit." Said Sho with a wave of his hand.

"But I don't want a spirit for a little brother, I want a little brother for a little brother." Said Mob

"Then you should be really careful when you build that fire. I stole your lighter, it's in my jacket pocket. Goodnight." Said Sho. He tried to turn around but she reached out with her powers. She didn't hold him in place or make a barrier, she just sort of tugged on his shoulder.

"Wait." Said Mob. There was no getting out of this, not for either of them…even though she would have turned into a spirit and haunted the world if she could have…no, that would have been trying to get out of it. She didn't get to get out of it, not unless she wanted Sho to make the same mistakes that she had done when she had been thirteen….

And that was the last thing that she wanted.

"What?" asked Sho. He wasn't whining…not really. He didn't curse, that was good.

"Um….do you want to smoke with me?" asked Mob. She glanced at the secret kitchen drawer. She kept her things in the cooking tools drawer, Sho was never in there. Sho was…they were the same age now and he could smoke if he wanted to and…and maybe this would be an easier conversation to have if they were both really high.

"You're letting me smoke? You're not going to tell me some shit about how I have to be careful and use moderation and not smoke too much because I get sad and paranoid?" asked Sho

"No, well yes. You should stop when you get sad and paranoid but we're the same age, practically, and you can smoke if you want to…do, do you want to?" asked Mob

"Of fuc-of course I do." Said Sho. He threw himself back down into the chair. Smoking was good, smoking was great, and he did not get paranoid and sad when he smoked like Shimazaki had said. He was thirteen now and he was going to smoke as much as he wanted to. Big Sis got her weed stuff out of the drawer…oh, so that was where she had moved it. She used to keep it between her mattress and then in one of her shoe boxes, and then in her period stuff. He made sure to remember where her stuff was…wait, no, he didn't have to steal from her. Shimazaki was back and he knew how to share…and also Big Sis was going to share with him from now on.

Finally.

They were the same age. They had been the same age before but now…now it felt different. Maybe because they were both teenagers now and people said that it was ok. She had always been so much more grown up than he was…but he could catch up. Sho was even taller than her now. That was kind of cool…maybe this growing up thing wasn't going to be so bad. He didn't know if it was good but…but it wasn't bad…

The smoking part was nice.

She let him have the joint first. She had made this one, it didn't fall apart when she picked it up. Shimazaki had said that Sho sucked really bad at rolling joints….dickhole that he was. Sho could have gotten better with practice. Practice made perfect and all of that stuff. He would be able to practice more now that Big Sis finally saw that he wasn't a little kid anymore. Maybe he hadn't been for a while. She didn't have to take care of him as much as she used to, he took baths without having to be told now and everything, and he took care of not only a whole tank of fish but a houseful of hamsters too. They loved him, too, so he knew that he was taking good care of him, at least he thought that they did. He had heard that hamsters didn't know how to love…Fukuda said that…

Fukuda said a lot of things.

He said that Big Sis was like Dad, which wasn't true, he had said that poptarts didn't need to be double frosted, which was also not true, and also he said that Mom still loved him, which wasn't true, and the most untrue thing of all was when he had said that Dad loved him. That was so stupid…like…the stupidest thing ever. Even worse than the time he and Shimazaki had put a bunch of forks in the microwave to see what would happen…fire happened. A lot of fire…but the very most untrue thing that Fukuda had ever said was that hamsters weren't smart enough to love. That was just wrong. Sho knew that his hamsters loved him. He could sense it when he petted them and held them and fed them and told them that they were the best hamsters who ever lived…he knew that they loved him. Maybe they even said it…sometimes when they squeaked he could have sworn that they were telling him that they loved him…wait, what if they were?

Whoa….

"Do you think that hamsters can understand us?" asked Sho as he passed the joint to Big Sis. She was squinting at him, he was squinting at her…there was a lot of smoke…he squinted through the smoke…he just saw more smoke. Smoke and her.

"I don't think so, because they squeak. We don't squeak. We speak a whole different language than them." said Mob as she exhaled. Sho was squinting at her…or maybe she was squinting on her own…it had been so long since they'd done this together…he looked funny…her socks were soft.

This was nice.

"But, like, dogs can understand us and they speak in barks." Said Sho as he took the joint back. She was rubbing her feet against the table leg. He did the same…too cold….but now his foot was too hot…wait, yeah, smoking time.

"That's true, but cats can't understand us and they speak in meows." Said Mob as he handed her back the joint. This was such a soft table and her socks were so soft…or maybe she was just soft. She inhaled again…this was good. Shimazaki really did love her…she just wished that he felt the same…he would have known if dogs could talk, he liked them…she liked cats…she mostly just knew about cats.

"Cats can understand us, they just don't want to listen because they're dicks." Said Sho. Big Sis practically choked. What? It wasn't like he had said that their specific cat was a dick…even though he kind of was…so what was she freaking out about over there?

"Little Brother!" gasped Mob as he took the joint from her. He could have it…or less of it…or another? Anything to make him not ever say that word again…or any of his other words. He knew a lot of bad words.

"What? Meow-Meow can't hear me, Fukuda took her back. He got lonely or something." Said Sho

"Oh….do you think that she's going to be ok?" asked Mob

"Yeah, I think so. Fukuda's the one I'm worried about. He's probably going to end up being like one of those crazy cat ladies or something." Said Sho with a laugh. Fukuda as a cat lady…no, the cats would probably have all ran away since he was such a dickhole, and that was even funnier.

"I don't think that being crazy is funny…and also I don't think that all cat ladies are crazy." Said Mob. Having a whole house full of cats sounded nice…not so much in life, though. That was why they'd had to give all of their cats back beside Meow-Meow. They shed everywhere and peed everywhere and fought with each other and scratched things up…but maybe if she got the cats all from the same litter it would have been different…it actually sounded pretty nice now that she really sat and thought about it…and it would have been soft, too….

"They have, like, a thousand cats. That's crazy, Big Sis." Said Sho. They used to have a lot of cats…and it had been crazy. There had been so much cat hair everywhere….and the cats hadn't gotten along. It had been fun, and crazy could be fun, but also sometimes crazy could be more than fun…like it went so far around that it stopped being fun altogether….or something.

"You have twenty hamsters…or more, they move too much for me to count them." said Mob

"That's different. Hamsters are little and they love you, cats are big and act like dicks…and anyway when was the last time they made a show about a crazy hamster lady?" asked Sho. She passed him the joint…it was getting too small to smoke, he had to hold it with his powers.

"I don't know, I don't really watch TV that much." Said Mob as she got another joint from her cigarette case. That one was way too small…and maybe they should have stopped…but it was Sho's birthday. If he wanted to stop then they would stop. He was thirteen now, old enough to decide for himself. He was old enough for a lot of things.

"You watch TV, I've seen you." said Sho

"I don't think that YouTube counts as TV." Said Mob

"If you can watch it on TV then it counts as TV." Said Sho

"But then does that mean that those movies Mukai keeps making count as TV?" asked Mob. Mukai kept on making movies where she threw things, chased the cat, or something it was just random stuff like the microwave or her turning the lights on and off. Sometimes it was just blurs and noises.

"I think that count as art movies or something. The complicated kind, not the kind where people don't have any clothes on." Said Sho with a laugh. Those movies were funny and stuff…wait, no, she was his sister….she didn't think that it was funny but then she gasped and a bunch of smoke came out of her nose…which was even funnier!

"Little Brother! You-you can't know about those movies! Who told you about those movies?" asked Mob as she gasped and smoke came out of her nose. It was even worse, somehow, than when milk came out of your nose. How could he have…how could he had seen or said or…or…he was too little! He was way too little and…and they were the same age but…but he was still too little!

"Netflix." Said Sho. What? They had that stuff on Netflix so it was ok. It was art and stuff and art was ok, like all of those naked pictures that they had in museums. The stuff that they glared at you if you laughed at and shushed you and shit…even though it was kind of funny.

"Oh…well that doesn't sound right. I'll have to ask Hatori if he can take those movies off…that's not right at all." Said Mob shaking her head. How could they do that? Kids watched Netflix, sometimes with their siblings or their friends or their parents…she didn't even like to watch the kissing parts in movies with Dad.

"It's art, like in museums when they have pictures of naked people." Said Sho

"….I don't think that it would have been so much effort to paint some clothes onto those people." Said Mob

"You're so weird." Said Sho with a cough. He handed Big Sis back the joint.

"People have been saying that about me for my whole life." said Mob

"It's true. It's like…you've done it and you're all weirded out by people being naked in art." Said Sho

"There's a difference between…stuff…and seeing stuff. Living it and…it's just different." Said Mob

"That doesn't make any sense. I mean, yeah, its stuff that you can reach out and feel but it's not different in like…a different way." Said Sho

"It is, though, because you're there and there's a lot of feelings…that's actually what I wanted to talk to you about." Said Mob. There. Now she could warn him and then he wouldn't make the same mistake she had done and he could be happy for the rest of his life and then when she died and became a spirit she could have been happy because she had taken good care of her little brother.

"Doing it?" asked Sho with a laugh. He kept on laughing…until Big Sis nodded her head.

"Yes." Said Mob. She had said it as simply and as calmly as possible…and then Sho had decided to scream as loudly as possible…she hoped that Serizawa was still sleeping. The last thing she wanted was for him to wake up and freak out…even if it would have gotten her out of talking about this with Sho.

"Gross! I don't want to talk to my sister about that!" shouted Sho. He didn't care if he woke up the whole country, he wasn't talking about THAT with his sister, it was just…wrong…and also she was a girl and he wasn't a girl so, of course, he didn't need to talk about this with her or…or with anyone at all! He had a book!

"I don't want to talk to you about that stuff either but I think that somebody has to. Dad and you don't get along-" said Mob

"We're mortal enemies." Said Sho

"And Fukuda is…kind of a jerk. Shibata acts like we're three, not thirteen, and nobody else knows…well Shimazaki does…but that would be weird for me." said Mob

"And this isn't?" asked Sho

"No, it's very weird, but I think that somebody should tell you about this stuff. When I was your age nobody told me anything and then I…did a lot of stuff that I shouldn't have done. I don't want you to end up like me." said Mob. Having your heart broken was the worst…or maybe breaking someone else's heart was the worst…or maybe love just hurt no matter what you did.

"I'm not going to do it with Shimazaki, if that's what you're worried about. I don't like him like that anymore and, also, I have a boyfriend." Said Sho

"I know you aren't going to do that with Shimazaki, he doesn't like you like that. I just meant that when you do start doing stuff like that, like with your boyfriend, I don't want you to make the same mistakes I made and I want to warn you about the stuff that I wish someone had warned me about." Said Mob

"You don't have to warn me about stuff, Minegishi already gave me a book." Said Sho

"There's only so much that you can learn from a book, there's some stuff that you have to live through." Said Mob

"Like what?" asked Sho. What could there possibly have been to 'live through'? You loved someone and then you did it with them and then you loved them more. It was simple…simple but also scary and complicated but…but also simple.

"All of your feelings. I mean the feelings that you'll have before you do stuff, while you're doing stuff, and then after you're done doing stuff." Said Mob quickly. She had gotten it out…she had to slow down. She could do this, she had to be the one to do this. It wasn't like they had anyone else…it was her. It was always her…but that was ok. If you wanted something done right then you got really high and you did it yourself.

"Doesn't it feel good? Like 'hell yeah, I'm going to do it' and then 'hell yeah, I'm doing it' and then 'hell yeah, I did it' or something?" asked Sho as he exhaled. There was no way he could talk about this unless he wasn't high…he kind of wanted to run away…but also he knew that if he ran away then she would have been sad and then he would have been a complete and total dickhole.

"It's more like 'oh my God, it's going to happen' and then 'oh my God, it's happening' but in a good way and then 'oh my God, what have I done'. I mean for me, anyway." Said Mob

"Why 'what have I done'? That's, like, what you say in a movie when you made a Frankenstein or something." Said Sho

"Because…ok. It feels good, it's the best thing in the world…when you're with someone who knows what they're doing. Sometimes you get caught up in how you feel that you don't think to ask if you should be doing this. Then afterwards it's done and….and you realize that you made a mistake…but then it keeps on going on and on like that." Said Mob

"If it feels good then how could you feel like shit afterwards?" asked Sho

"Because sometimes your feelings don't match up to the person that you're with and…and it can be one way or the other. I mean you can love him but he doesn't love you and he can love you but you don't love him. It's not just for love and…and sometimes you can only think of yourself and not anyone else and…and sometimes you can make mistakes." Said Mob

"That's never going to happen for me. I love my boyfriend and he loves me and also neither of us has another boyfriend and we never will." Said Sho

"I know you love him and I hope that he loves you. I'm actually kind of…jealous a little, that you have someone who loves you like that and you love him back." Said Mob

"You're actually jealous of me?" asked Sho. That was…weird. It was like the world had gone to opposites or something. He had spent so much of his life jealous of her…it shouldn't have been a good feeling, knowing that she was jealous of him, but it was…he sucked, didn't he?

"…a little. I just…I really want what you have, that's all…I mean that's what being jealous is. I just wish that I could have that in my life…but I don't think that I will. I don't want another boyfriend." Said Mob

"Why not? Someone would probably love you. You're really nice and stuff." Said Sho

"Because if I fall in love with someone then they might not love me back but he would still want to do stuff with me and…and that's something that I have to warn you about. Always make sure that the person you're doing stuff with feels the same about you, ok? Really talk about how you feel." Said Mob

"We already know we love…really like, each other…and anyway we're not even doing stuff like that yet. He's still twelve and I…I don't know. I think about him a lot but when we're together I'm scared to do more than kiss him and…and you're my sister, you can't know about this stuff." Said Sho

"It's weird for me too but I love you enough that I can ignore it…and it's ok to not want to do things, either. Nobody can make you do anything that you don't want to do." Said Mob

"He wouldn't make me…he never even asked me." said Sho. Was that something that he was supposed to worry about? Ritsu not wanting to do it with him. It wasn't like he wanted to but…but it would have been nice to be asked. Just to know that someone he loved wanted to do stuff with him.

"Maybe he's just as scared as you are." Said Mob. She knew how scary it could be when you hadn't done anything before…how nervous you could be. That nervousness went away pretty fast…but she wasn't sure if she should have told Sho that.

"Maybe…but what do you know? I'm a boy and you're a girl." Said Sho

"We both like boys, though, so I think it's the same…mostly the same. I mean the stuff is different…but I don't want to talk to you about the…the details about the stuff, anyway." Said Mob

"Gross! No way! I don't want details either! You're my sister, if you give me details then I have to find another family to adopt me." said Sho

"No! I mean, yes, you're very adoptable but….but no, I won't give you any details. Just…just about feelings, ok? And how you have to be careful of them and how just because something feels really good that doesn't mean that you have to do it…well you never HAVE to do things but…but sometimes something seems like a good idea but it's really not. Do you know what I mean?" asked Mob

"Like that time we went to Disney and we tried to eat all those churros at once but then we threw up on the teacups?" asked Sho

"You threw up, I was fine." Said Mob, shaking her head.

"You threw up to, I remember." Said Sho

"No I didn't, I remember because I only had to buy a new shirt for you." said Mob. She could remember that day very clearly. They had decided to eat all the churros they could and then there weren't a lot of people in line for the teacups and then Sho had gotten sick because he always spun the teacups where too fast.

"Yeah, ok, I believe you…but only because I was really little and I don't remember so good, ok?" asked Sho

"Ok…but I'm not that much older than you…I think that you might have been born early, maybe. I don't know. I never asked Mom or Dad but I know that it's a thing that can happen…lots of things can happen when you're trying to have a baby." Said Mob

"I don't need to know about those because I'm never going to have a baby. We're going to adopt one, probably, or just take care of yours." Said Sho

"I would like that. You and your boyfriend could live in the house with me and then we can all raise my babies together…if I ever have them." said Mob

"You probably will, guys like you, and it's not like you need to marry one or anything. Babies don't really need a Dad, I think, since dads kind of suck…or maybe ours just does." Said Sho. When he became a dad he was going to do better….if he could. What if he messed up and his kids hated him…or he turned into Dad…a cold feeling.

"I'm not sure about the Dad thing either. I don't even know if I want to get married. I just know that I want to have Shoko or Shigeo and then…and then we can take care of it together. You and me and your boyfriend and our friends. The baby won't need a dad because it has a lot of uncles and stuff." Said Mob

"That sounds awesome…but I have to tell you something." Said Sho. He was trying not to laugh…he couldn't help it….he just couldn't.

"What?" asked Mob, leaning forward. Whatever he wanted to tell her, whatever he had to ask her, she was there for him.

"You need better names, I'm sorry but you do. Those are just you if you were a guy and me if I was a girl." Said Sho

"I like those names, I plan to use all of our friends' names when I have babies…but maybe not our parents. I mean Dad…he used to be so nice…and Mom was nice until she ran away from home." Said Mob

"I like…I don't know what I like…so I guess you can keep those. They're your kids and stuff, I mean they will be, just don't change your mind about naming them after Mom and Dad. Mom is a…Mom left us and Dad's a dickhole's, asshole's, dickhole. You're a lot better than he is….you'd be a better Mom and Dad than Mom and Dad put together." Said Sho

"You too…you'd be a really good dad. Better than our Dad and Mom put together….and their parents, too, since their parents made them…do you think that people are just…like do you think that we're going to turn out like Mom and Dad?" asked Mob

"Fuck no. I'm nothing like Dad and neither are you. You're better than him. You're a better parent and friend and President, too. You could run Claw if you wanted to, take it from him." Said Sho

"But that would be mean." Said Mob. Take Claw from Dad? No. He had worked so hard for all of this…even if he was mean ruling the world was his dream and she couldn't just destroy his dreams like that.

"He was mean first. If we have to take over the world then isn't it better to do that with friendship and love and not hurting people? And…and you care about people and stuff. You care a lot more than Dad ever did and…and you'd be a better President. Of the whole world or Claw or…or just the house. I mean." Said Sho

"I…I don't know if I would. I'm not Dad and it's his dream but…but you're right, he's a…a f-wording jerk…and…and maybe you're right? I don't know…I shouldn't think about this and stuff." Said Mob

"You would be. You're nice and smart and you let me smoke with you." said Sho as he reached for the joint. She held it up with her powers and frowned.

"Do you want another joint? Or I can make a blunt since it's your birthday." Said Mob. She needed that much. She knew her limits and Sho knew his and…and they were the same age now so…so ok.

"The blunt is bigger, right?" asked Sho

"Yes. A lot bigger." Said Mob

"Make that then, make it as big as you can." Said Sho. This was a good birthday…and ok birthday. A birthday…he didn't think that he needed to know what she had told him but he wasn't going to say anything. If he said something then she was going to talk to him some more about this…and that would have been terrible. He knew that she loved him and she didn't want him to get his heart broken or whatever but he knew that Ritsu would never do that and he knew that he loved Ritsu. He loved…he liked Ritsu a lot and…and he didn't want to worry about this!

He wanted to draw.

He also wanted poptarts and soda. Also he wanted to go outside and lay down in the grass. Also he wanted to be inside where it was warm. Also he wanted to be here…he wanted a lot of things…but he was here and he loved Big Sis and so long as they didn't talk about any more stuff then they were fine. He didn't love those kinds of conversations and but he did love Big Sis.

Even though she had kind of ruined drawing for a while.