"Hurt Me" is completely copyright Orin Drake 2006, as is
the dialog. The characters and the whole of FFVII belong
to Square-Enix and shall never be mine, as much as I try.
Background: It
started off so simply (check out the original Hurt Me at
(wx3)(dot)reignofangels(dot)com/writing/hurtme(dot)html)... so of
course I had to fill it in. I realized I'd never written a
Sephiroth/Cloud situation before, so that had to be remedied!
This has absolutely nothing to do with the Sins universe, by the way
(since the poor boys never got to opportunity to play with each
other, there)--totally AU in so many ways... but still yummy.
WARNINGS:
Violence, language, blood, dark subject matter, bondage, not entirely
consensual behavior... plenty of evil. Heh heh. This
is... brutal. It's been a while, you see. (Sorry, Cloud.)
Hurt Me - Not Just a Memory
by Orin Drake
It would have been too
dark to see anything, had he been a normal human. Damn Mako...
If only he'd thought to close his eyes sooner...
He was gasping. Sweating. Then his eyes were closed,
tightly--tight against the world. But, more... they were closed
against the onslaught of memory made real. Those hands... those
eyes... that fucking memory--
"Ssshh." The voice purred, poured on like warm
honey, hot velvet dressed in soft black leather. "Cum for
me."
The blond
hissed through gritted teeth as the third finger found entrance into
his unwilling body. He thrashed again, raging against the
leather belts that bound his arms and his wrists to the makeshift
hook on the ceiling--the Masamune's hilt. The rest was buried
in wood and leaking pipes... not that the dripping water cooled his
body. He'd been whipped with his own belt, blue-black running
under streams of living red from his neck to just below his waist...
but only on his back. His chest had been favored for drawing
patterns with the knife that had been under his pillow; the one he'd
instinctually reached for when he'd first opened his eyes in the
darkness to find those too-familiar green orbs staring back.
After all that time... all he'd been through... and Cloud Strife, the
world's hero... was reduced to begging with the fourth finger.
Only the blood running down his back eased the way. "Not
this way... please, not this... not like this..."
A low chuckle from behind him--right before teeth found the other
side of his neck and came together. Sephiroth waited for his
cry and heavy breathing to die down before he spoke against the
already-bitten earlobe, allowing the blood to remain painting his
lips in some distinct act of feral pleasure. "Why the
fear?" A smirk was felt as much as heard in his elegant
voice. "After so long, why be afraid of it?"
Frustration... so much fucking frustration! He'd tried... he'd
tried everything and he couldn't get away. His
legs ached, only the balls of his feet able to touch the floor from
where he was hanging--and that was only when he could manage to
ignore the agony in his arms for long enough to force them to relax.
It hurt... it hurt so much... The hand teasing at the juncture
between thigh and hip only served to remind him how much.
"Please..."
The long, adept fingers were slid slowly out of and away from his
victim as he turned, grabbing the torn remnants of what used to be
the blond's shirt to clean his hand. "Such lies."
He reached out to run a delicate finger over one of the many
criss-crossing marks he'd left in the flesh of that once-perfect
back. He noted the tremble--but more, he noticed the twitch of
a painfully obvious arousal. "You want me to hurt you,
don't you?"
Cloud
was utterly determined not to answer, hanging there in a horrifying
pain of too many kinds. He managed to remain silent right up
until something else managed to force its way inside.
"No! S-stop!"
Another dark chuckle against his ear--the one where there was no
longer an earring. Only the head of his impressive length was
buried in the boy... but already he could feel the throbbing, the
heat... the unwelcome welcoming of the body and the soul at his
mercy. "Pain as it mixes with pleasure... as it turns
to pleasure..." He thrust, then--a hateful motion,
both hands leaving bruises on his victim's hips in the process of
delivering the agony.
At first, there was screaming. Thoughtless, awful, screaming...
the turn coming only when those teeth poised to do more harm at his
neck suddenly pulled back--only lips. The faint mime of a kiss
against where the neck met the jaw. A long, low cry bled into a
moan. Undeniable, now.
"Tell me." He demanded breathily, pulling out almost
too slowly to be able to stand, himself. "Beg me."
All the way outside, he poised himself for another hellish thrust.
Panic. Pure and
absolute, it clutched at him in desperation. Everything hurt,
all was pain--but there was nothing left in him to struggle.
His throat was raw. There was no hope left. "No...
please... d-don't..."
"Plead." Sephiroth demanded, moving only his
hands--up and down the blond's sides. Up, and down.
Slowly. Using the slickness of the sweat and the dripping,
broken pipes above, every tiny twitch of muscle was felt. Every
shift. Every held-back sob.
Gasping... gasping... He was in so much pain and terror he
couldn't think...
A growl came from behind him, but not of impatience. Arousal...
waiting... letting the moment play out as slowly and deliciously as
it dared. He would not rush this moment to break the
only being in all the universe that had ever tried to break him.
"Beg for it and I shall give it to you."
He told himself those weren't tears. They were trickles of
water from above... and that was all they'd ever be. Empty.
Void. Aching, but... not his... "I... p-please..."
Not enough. Not
even close to enough. He managed the constraint of not pushing
forward in the slightest... but rested his hands lightly on the
already bruised hips. Preparing. His voice fell to a
rough whisper. "Don't force me to leave you like this."
He shook...
trembled... eyes squeezed shut, fists too weak to clench...
Over... he wanted it over... "...H-hurt..."
The smirk turned into a satisfied expression. "Yes?"
The ache was shifting
to the very point of his own denial. It throbbed... it bounced
with every heartbeat... "Hurt me..."
And Sephiroth was not willing to let him deny it any longer. He
reached around and pressed a fingertip to the leaking slit--gaining a
violent shiver and a choking gasp. "What is it you want?"
He wanted to scream.
Just scream and scream and never stop, not stop until he was dead of
blood loss and dehydration... He rocked into the touch by
accident, too exhausted to do anything more than shake pathetically.
"I want... I..."
"Tell me what you want." The man ordered, going as
far as to ghost a finger along the underside of the pulsing length.
"Tell me."
A
moan tore from his throat, impeded only by the blood of a bitten
tongue. To taste it... smell it... feel it... the fingertip
resting against the true center of his pain... and the weapon at his
back, seeking entrance. "I want... to be hurt..."
Seeking no
longer--another thrust in violence, buried entirely in one motion.
The body around him clenched as another sweet scream managed to make
its way from the tortured throat. "More." He
demanded.
He could
hardly breathe, trying to swallow the air around him. There was
no more... left... Only slow thrusts and bleeding...
hurting... "I want... I want you to... hurt me..."
"Again."
The speed increased, all things undeniable. "Louder.
Yell it."
He
didn't think he'd be able to manage the full sentence... but if
anyone caused him to surprise himself, it was the man making him
bleed. "I want you to hurt me."
"Louder!" The motion became erratic--and if
either of them were capable of thinking then, they'd have wondered
just which one was doing all the begging.
With all of the carelessness that had seemed to saturate
Sephiroth's motions... those last several thrusts passed over that
small but all-important nerve center within him--a hand finally
wrapping securely around him. It was all too much. "I
want you to hurt me!"
Upon finish of the last word, the tormentor surprised them both by
grasping the blond locks tightly, forcing his head to turn--and
meeting his lips with the blood-covered kiss of a true claim.
Cloud came so hard that he thought... just maybe... he wouldn't have
to care about kissing back.
There was blackness. A darker kind of darkness. It was
peace--for a moment, nothingness was the most wonderful thing that
ever existed.
Until
the hand on his cheek brought him back. "Good."
Cooed softly, gently...
A long, motionless silence was spotted with gasps. "I wish
you'd have killed me."
"I will. Some day I will." The man promised
with something... that was so close to kindness... almost
understanding of compassion. "For now, however..."
I've done a VERY BAD THING. And I loved every minute of it.
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