Chapter 4

After I woke up the next moring, I saw Mamimi laying next to me in her pajamas. Her Radiohead CD was on repeat on the song Creep. the song was saying. 'But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo, what the hell am I doing here, I don't belong here.' I felt the same way, that was the reason why she was playing it probaly. The moring dew was on the gorund when I walked out on my balcony. I noticed that Haruko was gone, I figured that she want to get us some food. As I put on my cloths on, I was amazed on how nice Mamimi looked when the moring sun came and hit her. I wanted to go for a walk, it was 5:30am. I decided not to awake Mamimi as she had a hard night and she needed some sleep. I leaft the house and saw the semi-empty street and how it was this early. This wasn't the first time that I was up this early, but it was different to be alone.

I wanted to go to the bridge and get some things really for when we move. As I got to the bridge, I saw Haruko standing there drinking some juice and leaning on the railing looking at the sunrise.

"Hey Takun, what's up? What are you doing out here so early?"
She didn't seem to be sexually active, so I fugured that it would be ok if I talked to her.

"Nothing, and I just wanted to go for a walk. How about you?"
I walked over to her and leaned aginst the railing right next to her. She moved alittle and kept on looking at the sunrise, like she expected something to come out of it.

Then we walked down to hte bottom of the bridge and we both laid down on the moist ground.

"Hey Naota, how come you love Mamimi and not me?"
"Well Haruko, she makes me feel special when I'm around her and you just want forceful sex.''

''And like she doesn't?"

"No, we did it once and that was it.''

She just looked around, the bank, the bridge. For awhile she seemed to be normal, I always did love her, but I could never come to falling in love with her.

"Naota, why don't you love me? What's wrong with me? What does she have that I don't?"
"Haruko, I love you too but Mamimi comes first in my life. then you. Don't get me wrong or anything I would do anything for you and I mean that."

Then I leaned over to her and kissed her on the lips. She wasn't being forceful with it. It was very passionate, like she meant it.

"And that's my promise too you."
She just smiled and said happier.

"And I'll keep you too that."
"I use to love this girl named Lafiel Abriel. She never liked me back, but in a way she was in love with me she never showed it, but I could tell that she did love me."
"What happened to her Naota?"
"She ran away one day saying that she had to get her life in order. That was seven months ago...I haven't seen her since. And there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about her.''

"Well what happened to your love for her?"
"Well I don't know, I guess it is still there and it would be hard to choose between you, Mamimi, and Lafiel."
"Well who do you love more?"
"I don't know, it's hard to say." Then she just looked over at the passing car. I wondered how she was like before she grow up and moved to Mabase.

Then out of the cornor of my eye, I saw her. Her beautiful long black hair, her hazel eyes. She seemed to be more beautiful then I remembered of her. She had her white long sleeve shirt on and ontop of that, she had on a black crow shirt. The long olive cargos were warn near the knees alittle.

As I walked up the bridge steps and walked over to her, she seemed to be alittle shy, she looked away then glanced at me. Just like when I first met her.

"Hey Lafiel, what's up? How has life been treating you?"
She just looked down at her feet and said softly.

"Very nice. Naota, I'm sorry for running away like that. But I was scared and didn't know what to do."

Then I walked over to her, and held her in my arms. Thinking of how happy I was that I got her back.

"Lafiel, I'm so happy that I have you back. I misssed you so much."
Then she looked up at me, because she was only 5'6 feet tall, and she smiled alittle bit and said.

"I'm happy to have you back too."
Then she leaned up to me. I could feel her breathing get more uneven as we kissed. It was the first time that we both did it, and I knew that there was years of hidden secrets and of forbidden love was coming out then. When we stoped kissing. I said to her."
"Where did you stay at this whole time?"
"At my sisters house in, Osaka."

"Who is that girl down there Naota?"
She looked at Haruko and gave her a mean glance, and Haruko waved at her.

"Who? Haruko, oh she is just the house keeper lady. She is kind of cool."
"Does she rape you? She loves you, doesn't she."
Damn why does everybody think that she does. Even though it's ture.

"No she doesn't."
Then I looked over at Haruko and said.

"Hey Haruko, it's getting late, mabye you should go to Mamimi when she wakes up, so she doesn't go insane ok?"
"Sure, I will leave now."
"Thanks Haruko."
Then with that she got up and walked towards the house.

Lafieil told me what had happened to her, and how she got so far from her home town.

"Naota, I talked to Mamimi before I leaft for Osaka, I told her what we were doing and she didn't know about it. We were almost going out, besides I didn't tell her much about us because she loves you. I see her hanging on you all of the time."