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Summary: I miss one big thing about him… he is dancing with her… he is in love with her. Raven finds it very difficult to handle her feelings for her long-time friend Richard. Who would help her? Raven x Flash, some RobStar and eventually RobRaeFlash .
Chapter 6: Please Make her Happy :in Kori's P.O.V.:
I am worried about my friends.
Richard and Raven… they are very cold towards each other. It saddens me… makes me feel dangerously ill. Raven does not eat lunch with us anymore. She mostly spends her time with Wally and his friends, has she found better friends in them? Has she already forgotten us? I don't want her to be mad at us… I love Raven dearly and I miss her already. I wish the coldness doesn't last… it's already the finals and after these we only have two more months to be with each other and then we'll be off to college… in our separate ways.
I want to savor my time with them, I really do.
Sometimes, I cannot help but feel disappointed in Richard. He is the first one to ignore Raven. It may seem unfair to him, but sometimes I think that if he wasn't rude these past few days to Raven, then she may still be hanging out with us.
"I miss Raven," I sigh the words for the nth time, "I want her to eat lunch with us…"
Victor and Garfield look at me sadly. I know they miss her too.
… Unlike Richard.
"If she would rather hang-out with them than with us, then let her be," Richard says from behind the book he is reading.
"Do you not care, Richard?" I frown in distaste, "I think that you, being one of her oldest friends, should care the most about this…"
"Kori, Raven is her own person… if she doesn't want to be with us anymore, then let her…"
I watch Richard go back to reading with saddened eyes.
Raven will not just leave me alone…
Flashback
"Is this why?" Raven asked angrily.
"Is what why?" Richard's toes twitched, itching him to run away. He took one shaky breath, forcing himself to look at Raven; he asked the question again, "Is what why, Raven?"
"You know about my feelings for you," it was a statement, "Is that why you're avoiding me?"
Silence…
"I'm sorry if it's bothering you…" Raven said in a quiet voice, "but you can't just treat me like this."
"Why not, Raven?" he answered, his voice quivering, "Don't you know how uncomfortable it makes me?"
"I'm sorry about that… it's my entire fault that I have feelings for you. I didn't try to stop it… I couldn't control it… I am such a b-tch," she answered in a calm voice, dripping in sarcasm.
"Raven," he shook his head in disbelief, "You have to understand, it confuses me…"
Raven immediately dropped all of her anger and self-pity to make room for understanding Richard. She listened to him, all the while thinking of ways to compromise.
"Richard, as I said… I'm sorry; you're not the only one who feels bad about it. Can you at least consider my feelings for once?"
Silence… he stopped himself from running.
"I find it hard to do… Raven, it feels like you lied to me for all these years…" Richard said. In reality, he didn't want to say the things he was saying… he knew they were hurtful. But if he had to prove his love for Kori… he had no choice but to close himself to Raven, he couldn't afford to hurt Kori…
What he didn't know was that he didn't need to be cruel to the other girl.
"How did I lie to you, Richard? Are you going to disregard me again?" Raven asked, her patience slipping.
Richard stayed silent for a while, "It just seems selfish to me… Raven, I don't want to hurt Kori! I don't want you to hurt Kori…"
Bad move…
"What!" Raven's voice boomed. "Richard, neither you nor me wants to hurt Kori. Who do you think I am? Why did I suddenly gain the image of the evil and selfish antagonist!"
"No Raven… it's just that your feelings… I see them as a big obstacle for us-"
"I hadfeelings for you long before you even started to talk to Kori! My feelings NEVER interfered with your love story… It never stopped you two from being happy! My feelings never wanted to take you away from Kori! Richard… I can't and will never be able to hurt Kori… and it's cruel of you to think of me in such a way…"
Richard looked at the stiff girl in front of her, guilt panged in his heart.
"Raven… I can only give you my friendship; I can't give you what you are asking for…"
"This is exactly why I never wanted to tell you anything… Richard, I have never asked you for anything…"
Silence…
"It's just plain uncomfortable… I can't deal with it…"
Now, this was not how Raven pictured how Richard would react with her true feelings. Of course she expected rejection… but never, not even in her nightmares, did she picture his total withdrawal.
Deciding to fight, Raven withdrew first, "You don't have to, Richard. I won't be acquainting myself with you for some time… it'll help you adjust…"
…
She was sick of the pain anyway…
…
"Don't worry about me, I have other friends. Friends who are certainly better and more appreciating than you…"
She whispered the last part as she walked away.
Unfortunately, he still heard it…
End Flashback
"Hey Raven!" I see my dear friend smile at a charming African American, who is calling her.
"Hi Karen," Raven answers, "Can I do anything for you?"
"Yes! Yeah… yeah… Err… Can you help me with my art requirement after the exams?" this Karen asks her, "I can really use some help, I suck at art…"
I can see that Raven is surprised, but she answers the other girl, "Sure Karen, what do you have to do?"
"I proposed a charcoal sketch… now it's bothering me as I have no idea on how to do it… I want to sketch a tragic scene though…"
You expect Raven to help you? Raven doesn't just help anyone…
"Oh… sure I'll help you… when?"
I stifle a gasp, Raven helped… Raven agreed to help her.
"Saturday afternoon okay? I'll bring Wally to make us feel more comfortable."
"Sure," Raven smiles as this Karen pats her shoulder.
I feel tears sting my eyes. I don't blame myself… not only am I very emotional, but also quite sensitive towards the actions of my friends. I am quite jealous. WHY is Raven being more open to them? Does she like them better than us? What do they have that we don't have? Are they better friends? Well then, I am sure that we can surpass them!
Oh Raven… if I only know what's going on.
I look at her again only to see her sitting alone. But unlike before, she looks more comfortable alone. I am happy that my friend is improving… but I don't like the idea that her new friends are the ones making her smile openly, be more social, and actually be true to herself. What did we miss?
I want to be the one to make Raven happy…
I don't lose hope though. I know Raven still loves us the most, and she will soon open up to us… I wonder what she is hiding though, is it that serious that she can't say it to us? No matter what it is, I will never have any ill feelings for my bestfriend.
"Kori?" Raven sees me watching her, she smiles.
Never have I seen her smile that easily.
Courage rises up in me as she smiles and soon, I walk right up to her with a longing smile, "Raven…"
"Kori…" she smiles a little, "is there anything wrong?"
I nod, but then shake it quickly, "No… Well I just wanted to tell you how much we miss you…" I touch her hand.
She flinches, "We?" she snorts, "I suppose by we, you mean you and…"
Her words startle me, 'All of us! Victor, Gar, Richard… all of us!"
She turns rigid, "Sure… I believe you." There is some hint of sarcasm in her voice, but I am not sure… so, I ignore it.
"I… I miss you the most, Raven," I sigh as I sit beside her, "Raven, are you mad at me?" My stomach drops as I nervously wait for an answer.
"No… Kori, never," her eyes soften, "I can never be mad at you…"
I stay silent, absorbing her words… I still feel ill, "Then… why are you like this? Why do you stay away from us?"
She opens her mouth and thinks in obvious discomfort, "I-I don't know… I just… I just don't belong with the gang anymore…" she whispers and I bow my head in pain.
"Oh," I cannot even pretend to smile, "Well… you are still my bestfriend-"
'I still love you dearly, Kori," she interrupts as she takes my hand. She wipes the tears that I have been unknowingly letting out, "You know that, right?"
I nod as the pain starts to disperse, "Yes… I do now."
She smiles gently and tightens the hold of her hand, "Great…"
"We have the same class this period, Raven."
"Yeah… I knew that."
"Do you want to sit together?"
She nods and stands up, "Yes… I'd love to."
I'd love to too, Raven.
I smile widely as stand up, grabbing Raven's arm as we walk side by side. Richard will sure be happy as he gets to know that Raven isn't mad at me.
"GO TO HELL, GRAYSON!"
What?
Raven and I stop on our track as we see an enraged Wally stomp his way out of the cafeteria. Nervous, I look at Raven, who appears to be baffled, sweat trickling down her forehead. I wonder what Wally's problem is now… Richard has always told me how rude he is these past few days…
"YOU GO TO HELL, WEST!" I almost scream as I prepare to run by Richard's side. Raven stops me.
"AS LONG AS YOU'RE NOT THERE, I'D BE GLAD TO!" I have never seen Wally in such a great disposition.
"Why don't you just admit it, West? It's your entire fault!" Richard spits his words out venomously… it is so uncharacteristic, it frightens me.
Wally, still furious, drops his notebook and glares herder at Richard, "Cut the crap, Grayson… why not just settle it here?" he challenges as he closes his fists and stances himself.
Richard does the same, "If that's what you want, West…"
"STOP!" Raven finally snaps and my heartbeat goes faster, "What's happening here?"
At the sound of her voice, Wally stops and stands up straight, "You should watch your boyfriend… He's very rude when you're not around," he looks at me.
I stay silent as I realize that I am trembling.
"I was only telling the truth," Richard straightens up as well, "You completely overreacted!"
Wally glared at him, "Not only did you insult my being, you also insulted my friends! Insulting is different from telling the truth!"
"Again, you are overreacting!"
Wally looks exasperated, he turns to me, "What do you see in this asshole?"
Richard's face reddens in anger, "That's enough… you have no right to say that…"
Wally snorts, "Right… but you have the right to call my friends worthless and deceitful… what a dandy world this is!" He picks up his stuff from the ground and leaves.
That's when I realize that I am terrified, almost crying. I look at Richard, ignoring the crowd surrounding us. I stare at him silently. Never had he done this before.
"Fist fights? Insults? What are you Richard, eight?" Raven breaks the silence.
Richard glares at her, "Why not just follow rebound boy over there?"
"Rebound boy?" Raven and I say at the same time.
"You know that he is… You're using him to replace me- … us, right?"
Raven shakes in anger, but she holds it in with a deep breath, "Now I know whose side I'm on," she says in a calm voice and leaves.
I stare at Richard. Bastard. I love him and I know that I'll never mean any hurtful words that I'll say to him. But I am angry, I just lost Raven again.
"Good luck with the guidance counselor, Richard…"
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