Shawna: Dude, this title just came to me like a gift. So I'm happy. Again, there's a flashback, doesn't that seem like all I do? Lol

Chapter 38: My Only Mistake

After watching Rogir, his brothers, and their father leave the room Admir slammed her fork on the table and crossed her arms.

"What did he mean about being embarrassed?" Estel asked. "So it is because of Rogir that they are going home?"

"NO! Not only is it his fault, it is mine too! But it does not matter whose fault it is because who knows if I will ever see him again!" screamed Admir jumping to her feet angrily.

"Admir, please sit down." Warned Elrond quietly.

"No! I am sick of it all! I am a mistake! I always have been! And the one time I am happy, the one thing I enjoy is being taken from me! And you expect me to sit here as if nothing is going on?"

"Admir sit down, now." Commanded Elrond.

"Make me." She hissed, oddly sounding exactly as Rogir had and swept angrily from the room.

The Lord of Imaldris sighed. Admir was beginning to take after Rogir. And from Rogir's recent behavior, it wasn't a good sign. Admir was a good sister to Estel, and a delight to have as a foster daughter, but yet some how he knew what she meant by her being 'a mistake'.

A mistake…that is all I am… thought Admir. The only thing to disrupt Lord Elrond's family…I miss Nana…and Ada…mine and Es-Aragorn and real Ada…

There was a loud thud against the wall beside her bed, and she frowned. What is he doing now, trying to get in more trouble? Was it a fault to think Rogir was my friend, when he's really just a jerk? Sure, he saved me from Thelion, but that was so he could beat me up.

She sighed and flopped down on her bed staring at the ceiling which was an ugly shade of white, and not much to look at. As there was another thud against her wall, and in attempt to block the annoying sound out she began to sing:

Nin pennir
i guil nîn sui râd dîr
dan nauthon
tolen na tharbad.

Nin pennir,
min meleth mi guil
dan mathon
guren han ú-bêd.

Nin pennir
'aphado i râd dîr!'
dan nauthon
i râd hen faeg enni.
Nin pennir
ú-'wedhir edhil nan firib
dan mathon
sui Lúthien im aen.

Nin pennir
'aphado i râd dîr!'
dan ú-iston
man râd bedithon aen?

When she was done she noticed everything was silent. Well that shut him up…but why? Do I sound that bad? She wondered. She also wondered why her father hadn't come in and yelled at her yet. Was it because he believed what she said? That she was a mistake?

You are not a mistake.Answered a voice in her thoughts. The young peredhil span around looking for someone but didn't see anything out of the ordinary.

Everything has a reason for its existence, right? What would your brother do without you?

Admir rolled onto her side, staring at the wall which led to Rogir's room, which he had been put in after the poison incident so that the twins weren't there to disturb him. Not only that, they would be there on the receiving end of the older elf's temper, which was beginning to become as bad as his father's.

Admir wondered if anyone thought she had a bad temper. Earlier the twins had told her that she was a lot like Rogir, and she certainly didn't want to have a bad temper. Besides, why should she want to be like him? Rogir wasn't always a troublemaker, so why had he changed?

-Flashback-

Elrond was sitting in a chair in his study, and seated on the floor in front of him were his three children and two foster children.

"The Royal Family of Mirkwood is coming to visit, so you all must be on your best behavior."

Elladan and Elrohir smiled innocently then turned away snickering together remembering the last time they had come to visit, 2 years before Estel and Admir had come. The twins had liked the King's middle son, whom was only a year older than them, and knew a lot of pranks they had never thought of.

Arwen faked a smile. She wasn't thrilled with the Mirkwood family. All three of the children of Mirkwood were boys, and boys always played rough. The youngest, Legolas, was the same age as her, but often told her that he found her to be an 'annoying girl'. The middle son, Rogir, was far too much like her brothers, and another Elladan and Elrohir? Now THAT was chaos! If she had to choose one she would probably chose the oldest, Aradwyn. He was more mature than his brothers, and didn't treat her differently even though she was a girl.

Estel smiled and clapped his hands eagerly. The adan was only 3 in human years, and it seemed that only Admir seemed to understand him most of the time.

Admir on the other hand looked puzzled. She had never met the royal family of Mirkwood. She and her stepbrother had only come to live with Elrond a year earlier, and the last time the family had visited, according to Elladan, was two years ago. She wondered what they were like. She knew that there were three sons, and they were princes, so she would have to be polite since she was a normal peredhil.

There was a knock on the door, and a guard, Randomir entered. "Hîr-nín? Pardon my interrupting, but the guests are here."

The Lord of Imaldris nodded and followed the guard out of the study. The twins and Arwen followed their father. Admir shrugged, picked up the small adan and followed them.

While Elrond and the King and Queen of Mirkwood shook hands and began to discuss how things were the three princes approached their three friends and their foster siblings.

"Suilaid mellyn nîn." Said the oldest politely, then nudged the other two brothers.

"Suliad." Muttered the other two brothers quietly.

"Anann chen ú-gennin" said Arwen, and the twins nodded.

Estel smiled and waved happily.

"Glassen na chen govaded." Said Admir quietly.

Aradwyn nodded politely, Legolas smiled, but Rogir just eyed her as though he had never seen anything like her. "Who is she?"

"Rogir!" hissed Aradwyn quietly. "That is not polite!"

Admir backed away shyly, but she knew that wasn't going to get her anywhere, so she approached the elf. "I am Admir." She said giving him her hand to shake.

Rogir looked at it but didn't take it. "I am Rogir." He replied.

The Queen of Mirkwood knelt beside her 3 sons, observing the two new additions to Elrond's family a smiled. "So these are Admir and Estel?" she asked. "She does look like her mother, doesn't she, meleth-nin?" she turned to her husband who hadn't been paying much attention to the children. He got enough of taking care of the three at home!

"Yes, I suppose she does." Thranduil replied then went back to his conversation with Elrond.

"Nana?" asked Legolas. "What is wrong with his ears?" He pointed to Estel.

"His ears?" asked Findalin. When she realized what he meant she laughed. "Ion-nin, Estel is not an elf, he is an adan."

"He is human?" he asked now clinging to his mother's arm, which oddly seemed to be disturbing the dark haired elf beside him.

"Yes gwador, he is human. Or to put it simply, he is not an elf." Said Rogir matter-of-factly.

"Rogir, he was only asking a question. You do not need to respond that way." Said Findalin.

"Goheno nin, Nana." Replied the dark haired elf.

"It is alright, Ion-nin." She replied. "How about if you play with Admir? She only a few years younger than you."

Rogir nodded. "Alright, Nana. Come on, Admir." He said taking the younger elf's hand and running off.

-End Flashback-

Admir sat bolt-upright. Of course! Why didn't she see it before? Rogir had shown signs of changing right after his mother's death! But that didn't explain the explosion at dinner. Or the fact that he was horrid to his younger brother. She have solved part of it, but there was still lots she needed to learn.

The young prince dried his eyes with the back of his hand. Although he still didn't trust his brother completely for hitting Rogir, it was the only means of comfort he had at the moment.

"Aradwyn, how can I face him again? I do not want him to hit me."

Aradwyn held the younger elf tighter. "He is not going to. Not as long as I am around."

As soon as he said that there was a knock on the door. "Aradwyn?"

The Crown Prince scowled. "Go away, Arwen."

"I will be happy to as soon as you listen to me." Came the sharp reply.

"Alright, what?" he sighed, annoyed.

Arwen opened the door slightly and looked in. "Your father is sorry, and he assumes you do not wish to speak to him, so he sent me instead."

"That wasn't very grown up of him." Muttered Legolas.

"He says that he was just frusterated with Rogir's outburst, he did not honestly mean to get mad."

"If he did not mean it he would speak to us himself!" snapped Aradwyn glaring at her.

"As I said, he assumed you were too angry to speak with him. If you have a problem take it up with him, I am only doing as he asked me to." She replied swiftly.

"Fine, thank you." said Legolas sarcastically. "Now please leave us alone."

"Good night." Replied Arwen closing the door and going back to her bedroom.

The next morning Admir stayed in her bedroom deciding she didn't want to watch her friends leave. It was too sad.

All three princes took their things and waited for their father.

"I still do not want to leave…" sighed Legolas.

"Neither do I." Agreed Aradwyn. "But we do not have a choice."

"Oh shut up, both of you." growled Rogir crossing him arms annoyed. By now he didn't care what happened, as long as he was able to be left alone.

Arwen, the twins and Estel ran outside to see their friends off.

"I hope we see you again!" said Arwen smiling. Obviously she had been mainly saying that to Aradwyn.

"Keep training so that I am not better than you!" teased Estel smirking.

"You never have been, nor will you be." Replied Legolas.

"And watch out for big purple caterpillars!" the twins said to Rogir, laughing.

Rogir raised an eyebrow at them. "Excuse me? What is that supposed to mean?"

The twins just laughed harder. "If only you knew…"

Elrond and Thranduil appeared beside them not much later.

"It was nice to see you all again, even if it was for a short time." Said Elrond.

"Indeed." Replied Thranduil. "Thank you for everything, and hopefully our next visit shall be more…erm…disciplined." He turned to his sons. "Have you said goodbye to all your friends?"

They all nodded.

"Legolas, you ride with Aradwyn. Rogir, you can ride by yourself."

The dark haired prince rolled his eyes. "Whatever."

They got on their horses and rode off. As soon as they were gone, the Lord of Imaldris looked at his children and noticed something, where was Admir?

When they stopped to take a break, Rogir jumped off his horse angrily and kicked a nearby tree. He just realized the mistake he had made, and that forgetting to say goodbye to Admir. That didn't bode well.

TRANSLATIONS
Suliad mellyn nîn- Hello my friends

Suliad- hello

Anann chen ú-gennin- I have not seen you in a long time

Glassen na chen govaded- It is my pleasure to meet you