Tommy held Jude's hand as tears spilled from his steely blue eyes. The last time he had cried was when his Mom and his sister had died.
"Jude, I know you can hear me. I'm sorry Jude. I left so you could be happy. I never thought you would do this. If I could I would take everything back," he said as he started to sing.
Your eyes are holding up the sky,
Your eyes make me weak I don't know why.
Your eyes make me scared to tell the truth
I thought my heart was bullet-proof
And everybody knows I'm into you.
"Please Jude. Don't leave me. I can't lose you too. Let me see those eyes again."
Jude still lay lifeless on the bed.
"Hey," a voice came from the doorway.
"Shay," Tommy said as he looked up.
"The one and only. How is she?"
"Not so good," Tommy said in monotone. He didn't have the energy or desire to insult and yell at Shay.
"She promised me she'd stop," Shay said absentmindedly.
"You knew?"
"I found her last night in her room. She told me she would stop."
"You knew and you didn't tell anyone?"
"Why tell someone and ruin things for her if she promised to stop?" Shay said, raising his voice.
"You don't believe promises like that! She needed help!"
"What was I supposed to do? It's not as if you were helping her. You weren't even around."
"You two need to knock it off and act like adults," Sadie ordered as she handed coffee to the two of them. "I don't need this and neither does Jude!"
Tommy and Shay's faces turned grim and they looked like they had the fear of God put into them.
Each day was an exact repeat of the last for Tommy. Each morning Shay, Sadie, and himself would grab some breakfast from the cafeteriaand he would go and sit with Jude while he held her hand. Around noon Sadie or Shay would usually bring in lunch and then towards evening they would go to the hotel while Tommy stayed in Jude's room. He would grab a blanket from the nurses and then fall asleep in a chair by Jude's bed.
Tabloid titles were mostly about Jude. "Instant Star Mentally Unstable?", "Jude Harrison Clings to Life after Suicide Attempt.", and "The Life of A Rock Star Not So Glamorous," were a few of the more common ones.
EJ had tried her best to keep Jude out of the news but it was no use. Every day there would be a new story with new lies. There was nothing EJ could do about it.
Jude was in stable condition but still hadn't woken up. Tommy was tense with worry and emotions ran high in the room. Mr. Harrison had refused to come see Jude and it was like Mrs. Harrison had dropped off the face of the planet. She wasn't answering her cell or her home phone.
"Do you think she'll ever wake up?" Sadie asked one night, exactly a week after Jude was hospitalized.
"I don't know Saide. I hope so," he said as he gently squeezed Jude's hand.
Sadie and Shay were across the street at the hotel as usual that night and Tommy had been holding her hand when he had fallen asleep. A raspy voice quickly woke him up.
"Tommy."
"Jude, you, you're awake."
"Your back," she said.
"I've been back for two weeks. You were just too busy playing Sleeping Beauty to notice," he said with a smile.
"Sorry," she said.
"Dont be. Jude, this was my fault. I should have never left."
"You're right, you shouldn't have. Are you the only one that's been here?
"No, Shay and Sadie have been here too, but they're both sleeping at the hotel right now.
"Shay's been here?"
"Yeah, we all sit around the hospital all day."
"What about my parents?" Jude asked.
Tommy was dreading this question but he knew he had to tell her the truth. "Your Dad, he uh, when he found out what you had done, he refused to come. We can't find your Mom."
"What? You can't find her?"
"Jude just calm down, I'm sure it's nothing."
"Fine," Jude said as she leaned back in bed.
"You're awake," Sadie said excitedly, breaking the tension as she hugged Hude.
"Sades, I can't breathe."
"Oh sorry. But, I mean we weren't sure if you were going to wake up."
Tommy slipped out of the room so the two sisters could talk in private. He walked towards the nurses station and saw Jude's regular nurse come towards him.