"That was fast," Tommy said as he saw her walk out of her room. He had black swim trunks on with a white beater. Jude felt seriously overdressed.

"Yeah I guess," she simmply said.

"Well let's get going. Feel like walking?"

"Sure," she said as she followed him out of the door.

It took them about ten minutes to reach the lake.

"It's beautiful," Jude said in awe.

"Yeah. I used to come up here all the time. It was my secret place. Nobody knew about it until now," he said as he took his white beater off.

Jude watched as he took his shirt off which revealed tight tanned skin, toned abs, and the sensual curves of his back muscles. Her thoughts were interrupted when he dove in and splashed her.

"Are you coming Harrison or are you just going to stand there?"

"I'm coming. You just have no patience."

She slowly slipped off her jeans and the sweatshirt. Tommy watched intently. "Wow." He had never seen her look like this. She had a bronzy skin tone, but she wasn't exactly tan. Long, slightly muscled legs were the first things he saw. She had slight curves in all the right spots. She looked gorgeous with her hair up in a simple ponytail and the bikini left nothing to the imagination.

"I know, it looks stupid. Sadie bought it for me.

"Not quite what I was going to say," he said as he cleared his throat. "It, it looks great."

"I look like a freak."

"You look perfect. Now get your little butt in here."

Jude slowly eased herself into the lake. It was a bit deeper than she had anticiapated but the water was bright blue and cooled her down.

"I really missed this place," Tommy said as he splashed Jude.

"Hey," she said as she saw towards him and jumped on his back.

"I don't think so girl," he said with a laugh as he grabbed her and brought her around to face him.

Her eyes were too intense, her stare bore right through him. The tension felt like electricity flowing between them. He couldn't take it anymore. He kissed her with such intensity, such passion.

Jude felt Tommy's gentle, experienced, lips on hers. Her first instinct was to pull away but she couldn't. She put all of herself into that kiss. All the pent up emotions, all her passion, and all the energy she could muster.

Tommy took a quick breath and went back to kissing Jude. His hand gently touched her cheek and supported her head. Finally he broke away.

"Quincy, if you tell me to forget that I will slap you," she said out of breath.

"Jude I love you."

"What?"

Tommy laughed as he looked into her eyes. "I love you Jude. I have since the moment I met you."

"Are you drunk or high or something. Did you get into my pills or what? Because if you're joking I will kill you Quincy."

"I'm not joking or lying. I want you Jude. I missed you so much when I was gone."

Jude started crying. She'd wanted to hear those words the entire time she was on tour.

"Hey, what's wrong?" Tommy asked as he gently wiped away her tears.

"I missed you too," she managed to say.

"Hey, hey don't cry Jude. I was so stupid and I'm so sorry," he said as he reached for her hand and looked down at the scars on her arm. He delicately rolled his fingers over each one. "This is my fault Jude and I'm sorry," he said as he layed his forehead against hers.

"I love you," Jude said with a smile on her face.

"I know," Tommy said.

They spent the rest of the afternoon sitting around the lake, swimming, and just talking. Jude had wanted to be with Tommy for as long as she could remember. This day seemed like a dream. She was in a state of wonderment and shock. She wanted to be happy but she wasn't. Something was still wrong and it made her feel hollow and unstable.

Tommy and Jude made their way back to the cabin towards sunset. Tommy had a protective grip on her hand the entire way.

"So," Tommy said said as they walked into the cabin.

"I should probably go take a shower," Jude said quietly.

Tommy reached for her hand but she pulled away and walked into her bedroom. She paced the floor for awhile before the grabbed the bottle of sleeping pills setting on her dresser.