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Chapter 13: A Heartfelt Talk
EDIT: Brief lewd interaction, but nothing happens beyond some peeking. Barusu is on Wholesome Education Duty.
Natsuki Subaru was a young man facing a questionable dilemma.
While many guys his age and with his inexperience in sexual situations would consider the implications of the previous night to be the best reason to know a girl was onto them, he was having some serious doubts that this was... right. Was he upset by it? Not truly. At least, not to the point of finding this disgusting. The sight had been... hot. Sorta. It made his hotblooded inner self react to the notion that the half-elf may have done a degree of naughty things to him. Not too much, but still something. And it was quite flattering to a degree. Just a degree. For the rest he was just... uneasy.
The young woman had acted while he was asleep. Why not wake him up? Why not try to do something before he falls asleep? Sure, he knew that Emilia was usually shy and nervous to try and have interactions with him, but this was a touch too far. Not too much, just... to the point where he found himself considering an intervention of sorts. Earlier that morning the half-elf had shown herself 'glowing' around him. She was so happy, giddy- secure. There was an amount of trust she was throwing at him that was novel if not worrying in some parts. Yet, that didn't prevent the young man from setting up a conversation with her before they planned their departure to get back to Roswaal's manor.
A smile plastered on her face, the silver-haired girl was instantly sitting on the couch beside him, with the two of them being the only ones in her room at the moment. Puck had gone to check on Roswaal and Rem, mentioning that 'Subaru had reasons for them to speak alone'. Emilia didn't understand at first, but soon it became apparent when Subaru started to speak about the reason he wanted to talk to her.
"I want to know what you did last night with... my leg."
Surprisingly enough, despite the fact her smile didn't falter, the girl sported a bright blush at that topic. Eyes wide open and aimed at him with a mixture of panic and interest, the half-elf gulped nervous before responding to that.
"A-About what?"
Subaru could already tell this one was going to be a tough business for sure if she was already reacting like this.
"I know that you did something with... me. While I was sleeping."
...
"T-That's silly. Subaru, I would have never done anything strange with you- who even told you something so silly and-"
"My leg was stained earlier this morning and... I recognized what it was."
There was a lengthy pause at that, with Emilia's attempt to shove the topic away interrupted completely by this revelation. Her eyes moved around as she pondered heavily on the matter. Then, she spoke up.
"D-Did you? I mean, you know what- what that is?"
"Yes, it's-"
"Me wanting to have babies?"
His jaw dropped. "W-What?"
"I mean- that, that is the sign that a woman wants to kiss a man, have a baby and-"
"That's not how reproduction works," Subaru interrupted, eyes narrowing in confusion as he was baffled by that explanation.
Emilia did that yesterday night and... she didn't even know how babies are made. It was surreal that someone her age would be so keen to jump at this kind of interaction without knowing at least the general reason why her body reacted this way. Heck, Subaru was no expert on the matter, but he could tell what sexual interaction was all about in its primary purpose.
"...It is not?"
He shook his head. "Kisses aren't what allows couples to have babies."
"Oh? Puck told me that- that it was that way but..." The half-elf replied smartly. "R-Really?"
"Yeah... It's more of a sign that you are sexually active."
"S-Sexually active?" She asked, blinking in a mixture of intrigue and curiosity. "What does that mean?"
"It means you are... aroused around me. Which means you are physically attracted to me."
A nod. "T-That makes sense, yes."
"And yet what you did wasn't... right."
Finally, she frowned. "It was not...? I-I mean, I wasn't trying to- to do anything with you but- but I started to touch it since it itched and- and then you pulled me close, your leg brushed on- on it and- and-"
Subaru blinked, surprise flashing at that narration. Up to this point he had so rightfully expected for her to have pushed that far. But from what he could decipher from what Emilia was saying as truthfully as possible was that he may have pulled her closer and had unconsciously rubbed her groin with his own leg.
If before it was sexual harrassment, now he couldn't help but realize that he had done part of that in his sleep. He was still unconscious, yes but... Emilia mentioned he had hugged her close to him. Now, the young man wasn't as strong as his father, but he knew better than to just ignore the magnitude of his own strength, especially when he was sleeping and thus couldn't control it as usual.
It didn't help that Emilia was showing him that she didn't even know that what she was doing was something she was aware of. That doing that was wrong and merely following instincts on the spot and relative closeness. He couldn't fully pardon her since she still went along with this, but that didn't mean he couldn't see her point and try to help her somewhat.
His mother would know better on how to handle this plight, mostly because she was a woman too and could understand Emilia's current raw feelings by experience. It wouldn't be the same but... it was still a reasonable point to rely on, especially when he could look into what his mother could have done about it if she was there.
Emilia 'winged' that effort and it led to backfiring right now due to his reaction to it. And now Subaru was going to find a solution to it that not only firmly put a foot down for any event like this to happen ever again, but to also educate the girl on how... to love. How to react to libido, to lust, to the unrestrained form of love that came more from the body and still quite from the heart.
"It's more on the fact you shouldn't have... engaged in sexual activities in me in bed without my awareness."
"...Is that so?"
He nodded. "I understand you don't see the issue with that but... think of this in reverse. You end up discovering I teased myself in my sleep. A-And you weren't awake and thus end up with a strange stain on your leg-"
"I would have been upset."
That's great-
"Because I would want to be awake."
-Even better-
"So I could have reciprocated the feeling?"
-And not what I mean but still... that could work.
"That's part of the point, yes. You would have felt upset because you had been excluded and, worst of all, used as a means to bring relief to myself."
"That's not... nice," Emilia admitted, looking at her knees. "I suppose that's why it's bad."
"Consent is always important, Emilia. I know you just are learning this just now, but this should be a point where you promise me to not do that sort of thing again."
"...Okay. I'm... I'm sorry if that hurt you."
"It hurts my trust on you when it comes to being this close to you. I put my faith in you when I accepted to share the bed with you because I thought it would have been just... you know, hugs and cuddles."
"I'm sorry," She repeated, her words even sadder now as her shoulders sagged at this realization.
"I can tell you didn't mean to hurt me but next time be a bit more cautious about it," Subaru replied kindly, grasping with his left hand at her shoulder. "Still, is this your first time feeling... aroused?"
A nod, but then she went the extra step with her response.
"I-It itches even now," Emilia mumbled nervously, unconsciously lifting her skirt and... revealing quite the mess by her underwear.
Being a young man that lacked much in terms of sexual interactions with girls as hot as Emilia, Subaru couldn't help but stare and... admire as her groin was drenched in her own juices, the see-through piece showing him the delicate and innocent slit that was just now learning of the tedious needs of being an adult. And Subaru couldn't even hide that the sight had him popping a boner too but he knew, deep down, that this was incredibly wrong.
Emilia was definitely looking for a stronger reaction and she thought she had one when he leaned closer to her. What she didn't expect was for Subaru to yank her onto her chest and lie down on the couch with her. Her violet eyes fluttered wide open at that bold move, and she expected something more to it.
And more came, just not in the way her body was urging her to. In fact, the way his hand rested on her cheek was... soothing. She felt the warmth mellow and grow different than before. It wasn't the intense inferno consuming her common sense, but rather the one that she originally felt when around Subaru.
"Do you love me, Emilia?" The question felt like the best opening to something. Her heart picked up in pace, her breathing intensified and her world broadened as a single word left her lips, drawing from endless relentlessness and ever-so intense devotion to such a subject.
"Yes."
...
"Do you want to go out with me when we get back to the manor?"
Her heart was beating so hard right now, and she nodded earnestly, her voice dampened for a moment by the emotion clogging her throat at this development.
"Y-Yes."
"I know this sounds so much, but I think you could do with me also explaining to you how... to help with your needs on your own too so you are more in control of those."
This time she nodded with greater determination, her heart was just soaring at the notion that her Subaru was finally going to be hers and... she snuggled closer to him, enjoying his closeness and feeling somewhat freed from the intense heat that had taken over her mind just mere moments ago.
As the two enjoyed some quiet quality time together, a pair of blue eyes peered over them from the window, a bored look crossing the youthful girl's face as the peeping tom huffed at the resolution she just witnessed. Her gaze was primarily aimed at Subaru, her interest centered around him more on how relevant his presence in this world was. The girl could feel it, he was something worthy of attention.
Perhaps a change of plan was much needed just to see this young man's peculiar... capacity to avoid issues in a more diplomatic way~.
AN
I thought about making the chapter longer, but then I realized that it was better to just leave this big 2k words single block in to keep the readers focused on the single topic at hand. Hopefully that dulled the issues with the previous chapter. It's not a resolution, not an immediate one at least. I am aware of that. But it opens the door for Emilia to learn and improve from this mistake born from ignorance. All big changes, especially those that are so relevant and important to people's lives, take time to fully manifest.
And next time, I will finally bring up another alteration from the previous story. After all, the cunning mastermind peeping on the young couple may or may not have a different idea on how to make Subaru face a dilemma. If originally he needed help to solve this issue with the help of others, now he is going to face something which will require him to make use of some careful planning, well-planned barding and potentially redirect a murderer against another. But, of course, things are easier said than done~.
P.S. I now have a discord server! Discord .gg/ceBMM2Zz6c