Authors Note: Okay guys here it is..the thing I've been workin up to. I hope you like it, and if you think my rating should go up let me know. And sorry if a few parts are a bit detailed...I tried as best as I could to get everything across without totally going into detail. I hope you like it and please REVIEW! I should get some kinda praise...three chapters in one day! Heck yes :P

Jude, Tommy, Kwest, and Sadie said goodbye to Kat, Jamie, Portia, and Shay later that evening.

"Take care of yourself Shorty,"Shay said as he hugged her.

"I will. Keep in touch okay?" Jude said.

"You got it. I have a tour coming up in three weeks, I'll call you or email you at least once a week."

"Thanks Shay."

"Bye Jude," Jamie said as he hugged her tightly.

"I'll see you later okay? Maybe Tommy and I will come back to town next week."

"Okay, I'll see you Jude.

The four drove away after a few tearful goodbyes, which left the two sisters and the two best friends.

After they ate supper Jude announced that she was going to bed. She used the crutches Tommy had found in the basement to walk over to him and share a lighthearted kiss before she made it to her bedroom.

She changed into her pajamas and heard Sadie go to bed with Tommy and Kwest following after. THat was two to three hours ago and she had long since fallen into a deep sleep.

She felt a hand on her shoulder and murmured Tommy's name.

"Guess again bitch."

Jude's eyes flashed open with terror as a hand covered her mouth. She knew those steely blue eyes and rough voice belonged to Ryan.

"Scream and I will kill you, which would screw up my plan," he said, slowly taking his hand away and moving his body on top of hers. He then pinned her to the bed.

"What do you want?" Jude said shakily, her voice filled with fear.

"You really are dense aren't you? I don't want Tom to be happy, so therefore I have to screw with you," he finished as he crushed her lips beneath his.

"Get off me!" she said as she tried to push him away.

"Oh so you want it rough?" Ryan asked with a smirk as he slapped Jude across the face and wrapped a gag around her mouth. "The little whore better be quiet, we don't want Tom to see his older brother banging his slut!" he whispered as he ripped Jude's shirt to reveal a lacy black bra.

Tears fell freely down Jude's cheeks as Ryan ripped her clothes. She closed her mind to was happening to her body. Flashed of hot pain and disgust pierced through her. Thoughts of what Tommy would think of her after this haunted her mind. She had been saving herself for him and now nothing mattered. Tommy would throw her aside. All because of some stupid family problems. Jude tried to cry out but no sound would come. She was in pain, she twisted her head away from Ryan so she wouldn't have to look at him but he forced her head back to it's normal position.

"Look at me bitch!"

Jude forced her eyes shut as a fresh batch of hot tears glistened over her cheeks.

"So I was the first one to have you," Ryan's sickening voice brought her back to reality. "That makes revenge even sweeter."

Jude glared at him. He was her worst nightmare and she couldn't do anything about it.

"Well I'll see you later, no doubt about that," he said as he zipped his pants and crawled out the window.

Jude didn't move an inch. She felt used, she felt like trash. Sleep finally came after a few hours of hearing Ryan's voice over and over, and after she stared at the ceiling.

Tommy quietly tiptoed into Jude's room. He gently bent over her peaceful, sleeping body and placed a gentle kiss upon her lips.

Her eyes shot open and she instantly pushed him away. Her breathing was ragged and her expression was filled with fear.

"Hey, I'm sorry I scared you. I didn't mean to," Tommy said tenderly.

"I...it's okay. Just a bad dream," she lied and plastered a fake smile on her face.

"Okay. Well Kwest is making pancakes for breakfast."

"Alright. I'm uh going to go take a shower."

She walked away from Tommy and quickly jumped into the shower. She let the scalding hot water run over her body. She felt dirty and no matter how much soap or how hot the water was, she would never feel clean again.