Authors Note: Okay, you may get lots of chapters this weekend, especially considering that a new sneak peak preview of instant star has been airing tonight! I am so excited for the premiere! Tommy looks sexier than ever, and Jamie doesn't look bad either. Anyways, I hope this chapter doesn't totally bite like most of the past few have...you may not think so but I do lolz. Review please!

The next morning she awoke in a cold sweat. It had been like this every night since IT had happened. She had been dreaming about Ryan again. She quickly calmed herself down and went to take a shower and get ready, despite the fact that it was 5:00 A.M.

She took her time getting dressed, and then walked toward the kitchen to pour herself a glass of orange juice.

"Hey, your up early."

"I couldn't sleep Sadie," Jude said.

"Me neither."

"Kwest still sleeping?"

"Yeah. I checked on him before I came out here."

"I can never sleep lately."

"Why don't you just go to the doctor Jude?"

"What's the point Sadie? They can't take everything away and make it all better. It doesn't work that way."

"What if you have an STD or what if you're pregnant?"

"Sadie, chill okay. I'm fine."

"You don't know that Jude."

"Sades just leave me alone. I have a new album to finish, I don't need to worry about this."

"But you should be worrying about it."

"I don't want to!" Jude yelled as she felt the vibration of her cell phone against her hip.

"Hello," she said roughly.

"Hey, what's wrong?" Tommy's soothing voice asked.

"Nothing really," she said as Sadie retreated from the room.

"Somehow I don't believe you."

"Sadie wants me to go to the doctor and I don't want to. They can't change any of it," she said, pulling herself onto the counter.

"Oh. How was work yesterday?" Tommy quickly changed the subject.

"Alright I guess. Darius wants a new album, Kwest and Say are trying to help but they just end up disagreeing, and it's frustrating."

"I'm sorry Jude. I'll try to make a day trip and stop by to help."

"You don't know how much that would rock. Thanks for the e-mail by the way."

"I told you I'd send one."

"It was sweet," she smiled.

"I'm glad you liked it. How are you?"

"Fine," Jude shortly answered.

"Really""

"Yes Tommy. I'm perfectly fine. Kwest and Sadie watch me like a hawk. I could hurt myself even if I wanted to."

Tommy let out a short sigh of relief. "You don't know how glad I am to here you say that."

"What about you? No drinking right?"

"No. Porita's been calling every day to ask me."

Jude felt a pang of jealousy shoot through her. She knew what Porita and Tommy had was long since over but it still hur to know that they had been romantic and married.

"Jude?"

"Yeah, I'm still here. Sorry, just kind of spaced out for a bit."

"Don't worry about it. Do you have to go to work today?"

"Yeah," Jude said as she saw Kwest giving the tell-tale let's go signal to her. "I have to go right now matter-of-fact. I'll talk to you later okay."

"Okay. Love you."

"Love you, bye."

Jude followed Kwest out the door and started yet another day in her "normal" life.