Jude awoke two days later, not remembering much of the previous day's events. Tommy was gone, gone forever, and there was nothing she could do about it.

She woke up in Kwest and Sadie's apartment and lay in bed for awhile until she slowly dragged herself up and walked towards Tommy's room. She half expected him to open the door and pull her into a hug. She walked over to his bed, the sweet smell of his cologne wafting around the room, and sat down.

"Hey," Kwest said, leaning in the doorway.

"Hi."

"Miss him?"

"So much, that sometimes if I think about it too much, I wonder why I'm not dead."

Kwest wasn't sure what to respond with to her statement. It was full of pain and hurt, and anguish. "It's uh, nice to see you awake."

"Yeah, I uh, I think it would have been better if I stayed sleeping though. Dreams are better than reality."

"I have to agree with you on that one."

"Reality isn't fair."

"Nothing's fair Jude."

"Have they decided on a day for the funeral?"

"Day after tomorrow."

She twirled the ring on her finger that Tommy had given her on her birthday. So many promises, so many hopes and dreams that would never happen. "Counting the minutes," she said dryly.

"What's that?" Kwest asked, noticing the ring.

"It's just something Tommy gave me for my birthday Kwest."

"Let me see it."

Jude reluctantly took the ring off and handed it to Kwest.

"Jude, this is an engagement ring!"

"No it's not. It's a…it's a promise ring."

"Jude…" he trailed off.

"Don't Kwest," she said as she took the ring back and placed it on her finger.

"But," he was cut off.

"No!"

"Okay I'll stop. The press wants to attend the funeral."

"No! Not a chance. I will not let them turn Tommy's funeral into a media frenzy."

"I know and I promise to try my best to keep everyone out, but I'm not sure we can," Kwest said, looking up at Jude's crying eyes. "Look, Jude I didn't mean to make you cry, I just," Kwest paused.

"I miss him Kwest, so much. I don't know how I can do this."

"Jude," Kwest said, pulling her into a hug. "I'm not saying this will be easy, but you can get through it."

"No I can't, I loved him too much Kwest."

"You can never love someone too much Jude."

"We, Tommy said that we could get married once I was older, and now, now that will never happen all because of his brother's stupidity."

She cried on Kwest's shoulder for a few minutes until Sadie came into the room.

"I have some dinner made Jude."

"I'm not very hungry," she said quietly.

Kwest stood up, took hold of Sadie's hand and led her out of the room.

"She has to eat something Kwest."

"She will, just give her some time babe," Kwest said, brushing a stray hair away.

"Is it wrong to be mad at Tommy?"

"Maybe a little."

"He left Jude all by herself. He was it, he was her life Kwest."

"I know he was, but he didn't ask Ryan to shoot him."

"I know, I know, it's just that it's not fair. Tommy dies, and Ryan is out there running around."

"I know he is, but people are looking for him."

"Well apparently they're not looking hard enough!"

"Hey, what's wrong?"

"Nothing! I'm just mad at everything I guess."

"Are you sure?"

"I'm positive."

"Okay," Kwest wrapped her hand around her waist and they walked into the dining room.

The next day Kwest went to work and Sadie waited for Jude to wake up. Finally, at noon, Sadie walked into her room and dragged Jude out of bed.

"Sadie, what the hell!" she moaned.

"You need to get out of bed!"

"Why?" she sat up and glared at her older sister.

"Because I said so Jude!"

"You're not my mom!"

"Well Mom's not here right now is she? So someone has to take up her slack."

"I would really like to go back to sleep Sadie."

"Your point is?"

"Leave me alone!"

"Whatever Jude. You really think Tommy wants you to lay around and bitch to everyone? If you do, you're living in some alternate reality."

"Well Tommy's not here either is he!"

"Jude," Sadie started but was interrupted.

"No! Out of my room, now!"

Sadie stalked out of the room, with a defeated expression on her face. No matter what anyone said to Jude, nothing was going to change and Sadie knew that, but she thought she could at least try. She'd never seen her sister like this, not even when her parents divorced. She had gotten a phone call the day before that said Victoria had had a baby girl, but Sadie didn't tell anyone. Jude didn't need the burden of a new half-sister on top of her boyfriend dying.

Authors Note: Thanks for all the reviews everyone! And I'm sorry to say that Tommy has left the building. He will not be reappearing, unless I put him in one of Jude's dreams. It's a possibility but I'm not really sure yet. I have to say, writing Tommy's death was really hard and I'm not sure I captured it really well, but I tried. Well, this fanfic is coming to an end...only about 3 more longish chapters...I hope lol. Sequel is pending at this moment :P