Kwest firmly slipped his arm around her shoulder and put her into the limo, Sadie trailing behind.

"What's going on?" she asked after Kwest had shut the door.

"I think it's finally sinking in that she'll never see him again."

After Sadie and Kwest entered the limo, they were escorted to the apartment and Jude retreated to her room, without talking to anyone. She changed into a blakc pair of Tommy's boxers and a white beater while she proceeded to sit down at her computer. She hadn't checked her e-mail since before they had left for Hawaii and a blinking "new mail" box instantle popped up as soon as she turned the computer on.

She filtered through hundreds of junk mail before she came across one from Tommy.

Jude,

I can't believe we're actually going to Hawaii. I wouldn't be e-mailing you but you were just complaining you never got any so I thought I'd try to make you happy. Love you girl.

Tommy

Slow tears fell down her cheeks and her eyesight blurred while she read the short note. She heard a knock on the door and looked up.

"Go away!"

"Jude?"

"Speed," she said quickly wiping her eyes.

"Hi. I uh hope you don't mind that I stopped by."

"No, it's fine. I was just working on some stuff." Speed closed the door behind him and sat on the bed. "Sorry the guys and I didn't get to talk to you at the funeral."

"I'm glad you came," Jude said, looking at the floor.

"How are you doing?"

"Honest answer?"

"Yes."

"Not so good, but hey, it's expected."

"I guess," Speed said quietly.

They sat in silence for awhile until Speed started to speak.

"Jude, I'm really sorry."

"It sucks Speed. One minute, I'm in Hawaii, having the time of my life, and the next I'm back in Toronto, and I've just been to my boyfriend's funeral. What 17-year-old do you know, that has had to do that?"

"Not many I guess."

"Exactly."

"Do you think you'll come back to the studio anytime soon?" he ventured.

"I don't know Speed."

"Everyone misses you."

"I know. I just don't know if I can do it yet."

"I should probably get going," Speed said as he awkwardly hugged Jude.

"Thanks for coming," she said in a faint whisper.

Speed nodded and left the room while Jude crawled into bed, disregarding the fact that it was only three in the afternoon.

"Jude."

"Leave me alone."

"Jude, it's me."

"Oh my god," she said, opening her eyes. She was in a white room, and the person who stood before her, shocked her.

A hand reached over and brushed her hair out of her eyes.

"But you, you're not here. Tommy..."

"Sweetie, you're dreaming."

"So you, you're still,"

He nodded and looked into her glistening sea green eyes.

"I'm sorry Tommy. I, I didn't want to do it."

"It was for the best, you know that."

"If this is a dream, I never want to wake up Tommy. I miss you."

"Don't say that. You have to go on Jude."

"I don't want to," she argued.

He put his finger against her lips. She watched him curiously through her tear-filled eyes.

"Thank you for the ring Jude," he said, taking her hand.

"Don't leave Tommy. Don't leave me again."

"Jude, I wish I didn't have to, but you know I do. I'm just a dream."

"No!"

"Jude, don't make this any harder than it already is. You know I love you and anytime you want to talk to me, you can.,"

"It's not the same."

"I know, but you have to make do with it."

"I love you."

"I'll be back Jude. I'll come back," he said, drifting out of sight.

"No!" she said. "No, no no," she repeated aloud.

"Jude, wake up," Sadie said.

"What?"

"You were sleeping and screaming. What's wrong?"

"Nothing, I just, I'm not really sure."

"Okay. Are you sure?"

"Yeah. What time is it?"

"7:30. Jude are you positive you're okay?"

"Yeah, positive," she said in a daze.

Sadie looked at her for awhile before leaving the room. Jude kept sitting on her bed, grasping at straws, trying to figure out what the dream meant. Tommy had looked so handsome. His brown hair, neatly in place, his sparkling eyes. He had this white glow around him. She pondered a few things for a moment until she went to take a shower.

By the time she had finished her shower and put a pair of pajamas on, it was 8:30 and she had decided to go to bed.

Authors Note: Last 2-3 chapters up this weekend sometime!