AN

Ok the biggest thanks to arwen1982 for reviewing chapter 7, really glad you liked it so much, hope you enjoy this one just the same. My Beta claims it is the best yet, anyway on the point thanks once again to my Beta for being the best help ever.

Ok just a few points for this chapter, i haven't actually seen the episode 'Confidance Man' which is when this chapter occurs, so it is hopefully ok, even though it is AU. And secondly this is not the end,I realise just how final this chapter seems when you read it, but this is not the last. Lastly please please review i really love to know what you guys think of this story. Anyway hope you enjoy

Disclaimer: OkI obviously don't own the TV show 'Lost' or any of the characters, quotes or plotlines you may recognize from the series.


Chapter 8

Alexa had awoken earlier to find Sawyer shaking her, it seemed that he had set off the rocket and switched on the antenna, and the only thing they could do now was make their way back to camp and wait for Sayid to return with news. Sawyer and Alexa hadn't even really tried to make conversation on their way back to the beach; they both had things on their mind, and could see that the other was not ready for conversation.

Alexa's thoughts dwelt on the man in front of her as they wordlessly trudged through the undergrowth. Nothing was ever simple with him was it? Before she had been comforted by the fact that he said he would always be there, and in a way she still was, but part of Alexa longed for more than that. Sawyer was right though, he couldn't care for her, she knew that, so why her mind constantly tortured her with thoughts of things that would never be she did not know. They were just friends. Just what she needed: another friend.

Arriving back on the beach, Alexa wondered why her heart felt so heavy. She should be happy that she and Sawyer had made up, and that she had a friend she could trust. Deep inside Alexa knew the truth, the night she admitted to herself that she felt more for Sawyer, now seemed to be only pain filled. At the time; when her death had seemed imminent, it had seemed like a good idea; that she should finally stop running. So she had; she had stopped and faced her emotions head on, but that decision was now haunting her. She no longer had the ability to lie to herself as she had before, her denial which was built up with years of practice seemed to have faded, and everything she had ignored for so long was resurfacing.

Alexa looked up to see Kate walk into the jungle, and wondered if she should ask her if Jack was ok, so she headed after her.

"Hey Kate." Kate turned and looked at Alexa

"Oh hey Alexa." Kate's voice wasn't filled with enthusiasm and Alexa wondered if it had anything to do with her argument with Sawyer, in which Alexa's name had been mentioned. Kate began to look around and Alexa realised she was collecting banana's.

"You need a hand?" Alexa asked

"Sure, if you want." Alexa just nodded and began to help Kate look around for the fruits. After a couple of minutes of general chatter in which Alexa found that Charlie had saved Jack, Alexa and Kate were back to the comfortable friendship they had had before, and Kate just laughed at Alexa who had just tripped over a tree root and was now lying on the ground.

"Oh yes hilarious." Alexa said sarcastically, before getting to her feet. Kate had stopped moving and had picked up something from the sand. It was the old copy of 'Watership Down' which Sawyer and Alexa had read together a few days ago. Alexa realised that it literally was only three days ago when that had happened, and she felt sad that they had no chance to finish it, before wondering; if the book was here, where was Sawyer?

Both Kate and Alexa seemed to have the same idea as they look over to the water to see Sawyer swimming. Alexa blushed slightly as she noticed his lack of clothing, before turning to Kate and raising an eyebrow, receiving a short laugh in return. Sawyer made his way over to them, with his trademark smirk.

"Like what you see?" he questioned, Alexa quirked an eyebrow in an 'as if' gesture trying to fight off her laughter at Sawyer's non-too-subtle flirting techniques. Kate on the other hand just frowned at him giving Alexa a slightly disapproving look before speaking.

"Do your tactics work on all the girls?" Kate questioned disgustedly but she shot a meaningful glance at Alexa, who very maturely stuck her tongue out at Kate behind her back. Sawyer caught the gesture and it seemed he couldn't hold in his amusement as he laughed slightly before winking at Alexa. Kate didn't seem to find it amusing as she snatched the bananas from within Alexa's arms and stalked off back towards the jungle. Alexa watched her go, not entirely bothered by her abrupt departure, and turned back towards Sawyer who had just shrugged on a Navy shirt.

"What's eating her?" Sawyer asked, indicating the direction in which Kate had walked off

"Not sure, don't think she really approves of us." Alexa caught Sawyer's eye as she tried to sound seriously upset about it but failed miserably as they both burst out laughing. She leaned against Sawyer as tears of laughter formed, and Sawyer looked down at her. Sawyer grabbed her hand and pulled her towards the jungle, Alexa looked slightly apprehensively at the trees remembering the last time she was in there with Sawyer.

"Come on Lex." Sawyer said

"It's just…."

"Don't worry about it Lex, I'll be there, what's the worst that could happen?" Alexa didn't bother replying as she followed after Sawyer, but she couldn't help but think hadn't she said that last time? And look how that had turned out.

After a while, Alexa realised they were heading towards Sawyer's stash; the one he had shown her last time they were here, and the same time Kate had inadvertently injured Alexa. She wondered what Sawyer could want here this time, but decided it would be pointless to ask, because she knew him well enough to recognize that he wouldn't tell her. As they got nearer to the spot Alexa remembered from last time she heard some rustling, as if someone was looking for something, and then some muttered curses under their breath.

Alexa looked nervously at Sawyer trying to judge his reaction, and watched his eyes darken as Boone came into view searching through Sawyer's stuff. Alexa saw the anger in Sawyer's face and had no idea what to do. She was afraid that Sawyer wouldn't even give Boone the chance to explain himself before he beat him into a bloody pulp. Boone looked up and caught sight of Alexa and then his eyes moved to Sawyer, the disgust he had got at seeing Alexa was quickly replaced with fear at seeing Sawyer.

Alexa moved backwards and watched as Sawyer advanced on Boone, they exchanged words, but Alexa didn't catch what they were, and suddenly Sawyer had punched Boone in the face. Their fight grew more vicious and Alexa could no longer stand by, she knew Boone would hate her for coming to his defence but she was unwilling to allow Sawyer to nearly kill Boone, and allow him to become more hated. She moved closer and shouted at Sawyer.

"Sawyer, stop this! Killing Boone isn't going to get you anywhere! Just stop this!" Sawyer just sent her a quick glance but focused back on his fight as Boone's fist caught him in the jaw.

"Stay out of this Alexa." He growled. The tone in Sawyer's voice was clear, but Alexa was past caring she moved swiftly in front of Sawyer, who was just about the crash his fist into Boone's face, she caught his fist, and looked straight into his eyes, challenging him. He stopped what he was doing, but Alexa was caught off guard as a sharp pain hit the left side of her skull. Boone had hit at her from behind.

She didn't know whether he had intended to get Sawyer, or if this was some evil form of revenge for something that she had inadvertently done to Boone. Whatever it was; it was a bad move.

Sawyer watched as Alexa sank to the ground clutching her head in obvious agony. He rounded on Boone again, smashed his fist hard into Boone's face, and was about to do so again, when he felt a gentle hand touch his shoulder.

"Sawyer, please…." He looked at her incredulously, he was still angry, angry at Boone for going through his stuff, angry at Alexa for getting involved, but mostly angry at himself for letting her get hurt, and for letting his pride get in the way now, and instead of helping her he just stormed away.

Alexa watched helplessly as Sawyer stormed off into the jungle. Her head was pounding, and she reached to the left of her skull and gingerly touched the source of the pain, her hand came away to reveal blood, and as she looked down at Boone, she realised he hadn't used his fist to hit her, he had grabbed at a log. No wonder it was hurting like hell. She realised she was going to have to go see Jack, and, once again looking down towards Boone who was struggling to his feet, so was he.

Alexa moved over to Boone and helped him to his feet. He pulled away from her, but then swayed dangerously on his feet and would have nearly fallen again, if it weren't for Alexa who had reached out and steadied him. He tried to pull away again but Alexa wouldn't let him. He turned and shouted at her angrily.

"I don't need your help!" he screamed

"Sure you don't." Alexa said sarcastically. In truth Alexa was tired and in pain, she really didn't want have to deal with Boone at the moment, he was being stubborn and acting like a child.

"Just leave me alone." He shouted he then added a long string of curses most of them calling Alexa a bitch and words along those lines. Alexa just gritted her teeth and dragged Boone with her in the direction of the caves. The caves were about half a mile away and Boone was leaning heavily on Alexa by this time, both their breathing was laboured. Alexa's head pounded and she was getting dizzier by the minute. Her ribs also burned as Boone weight rested heavily against her. Alexa was determined that she was going to get both Boone and herself to the caves.

They both struggled on, and a journey that would have normally taken them about fifteen minutes was reaching towards an hour. Neither one of them had talked except for the occasional mumbling of curse words on the part of Boone at which Alexa couldn't even be bothered to roll her eyes. Ten minutes later both Alexa and Boone stumbled into the caves completely exhausted. Sayid and Jack looked up from where they were talking and both quickly rushed over. Jack took Boone and led him to the water, whilst Sayid let Alexa lean against him and gently moved her over to sit next to Boone.

Jack was talking to Boone and asking what had happened, but Alexa wasn't really catching a lot of what they were saying being as most of her concentration was taken up with the pain on the left of her head. Sayid appeared at her side with a wet cloth in his hand which he gently pressed to the side of her head. She winced as the cold water touched the tender spot.

"Did Sawyer do this to you?" Sayid questioned quietly, Alexa jerked away from his hand at that statement

"What! No, of course not! Sawyer would never do something like that!" Sayid looked slightly disbelieving:

"Then who did this. You cannot have done this yourself." Sayid said

"No kidding." She said sarcastically

"Alexa who…" Alexa cut him off

"I was getting to that; my head injury is due to the Boy Wonder over there." She said indicating Boone with her hand.

"Boone did this to you" Sayid said shocked as his hand dropped from her head where he had been holding the cloth.

"That is what I just said, is it not?" She said tetchily. She grabbed the cloth out of Sayid's hands and held it to her head again; Sayid shot her a glance as he made his way over to Jack. Jack seemed to look disbelievingly at Sayid before walking over to Alexa. He didn't say anything as he removed the cloth and looked at the wound at the side of her head.

"It's not too deep luckily. I'll give you some painkillers but it's going to hurt like hell for a few days. You might want to rest a bit to stop you being dizzy aswell." Jack said. Alexa thought about what Jack said: rest. She doubted any of that would come especially with the dreams she was used to getting nowadays.

"Sayid told me that you said Boone did this to you. Are you sure you weren't just confused I'm sure that…." Alexa angrily cut Jack off

"Am I sure what? That it wasn't Sawyer who did this? No I'm sure Sawyer was stood right in front of me I just stopped him from nearly killing Boone, when Boone hit me in the back of the head." She said this to Jack but looked angrily at Boone who was sat but a few metres to her left. Jack was looking at her wound again.

"But Alexa, a wound this size can't have been made by someone's fist, especially with the amount of damage there is."

"I never said it was a fist, he hit me with a log, I was lucky it wasn't harder, it could have knocked me unconscious." She said. Sayid and Jack were shooting each other looks, and Alexa knew they still thought Sawyer was responsible.

"For god's sake guys, I'm telling the truth! Sawyer didn't do this to me. Why would I lie about it? Sawyer is my friend he would never hurt me like that." She said frustrated

"Sawyer's is nobody's friend. He just uses people." Sayid said darkly

"I know you and Sawyer have a problem with each other, but that doesn't mean he has a problem with me. I trust Sawyer, and I saw with my own eyes that he didn't do this. It was Boone." Alexa was just plain tired by now, she didn't want to argue anymore, but she couldn't stand the thought of them believing that Sawyer would do this. Why couldn't they believe it was Boone; it was obvious he hated her. The least Boone could have done was come up with a better lie; something like it was an accident, not something that she was going to so obviously contest. She looked over at Boone and caught his hateful glare at her and then Sayid and Jack's cautious glances in her direction, and she realised. Boone had done this knowing that they would believe him over her, knowing that it would destroy any credibility she had left.

Alexa laid her head on the hard ground trying to listen to Jack's advice about getting rest, but she was so angry at Boone. What had she done to deserve his hatred? Sure there had been the thing with Shannon, but Shannon had forgiven her, why couldn't he. There had to be something more than this. Alexa just couldn't for the life of her work out what. In truth at the moment her anger was clouding her normally better perception skills and part of her wished she had just let Sawyer punch the living day lights out of Boone. Thinking of Sawyer was hard too. She hadn't been scared of him today which surprised her, as she knew Boone had. Maybe it was because she trusted him and trusted that he would never physically hurt her. Emotionally, well that was different entirely. He had already done that, and was continuing to do so. Even at the moment the fact that he had not stayed was tormenting her, as she wondered if he would have stayed for Kate. She tried to shake the thoughts as she drifted into a once again troubled sleep.

The room around her was dark and cold, and the candle which her eyes instinctively looked for was not on the sill where she expected, instead her eyes scanned the room searching to pinpoint where the candlelight was coming from. In the corner of the room it hung as if suspended, it was only after Alexa's eyes grew more accustomed to the light did she realise someone was holding it, and that it was that someone who had moved the candle from its proper place. The light was not strong enough to allow Alexa to see the figure holding it, to see the figure that lurked in the shadows, and the figure that she knew was always waiting somewhere in her mind. This time no wind whistled through the windows, and instead Alexa saw the figure lean forward and blow the candle out, once again leaving Alexa in the darkness, and the sound of sinister laughter echoed slightly around the room and Alexa shivered as terror crept up her spine.

FLASH

The scene was this time the cemetery, but something was wrong, something was very wrong. This time there was no figure, and there were no flowers, there was no rain and the clouds were just grey and dull. The whole cemetery seemed to be bathed in a strange sadness, a ghostly sadness, no wind moved her hair, there was no noise, and Alexa realised just how haunting the scene before her was. She made her way over to the grave in the hopes of finally seeing what written, finally gaining closure, but as she grew nearer she watched as the letters peeled off and disappeared as if they had never been there to begin with. Alexa felt despair and true terror, she did not truly know what she was afraid of, but just being here was wrong. Suddenly Alexa watched shocked as writing began to appear on the headstone as if an invisible hand were etching into the stone and Alexa read the words.

'Trust me when I say it is all going to be ok.'

Alexa started at the words and smiled, and at the point rain began to fall around her thunder roared in the distance and a black figure dissolved into view and laid roses by the headstone, and Alexa turned ready to finally read what was written …..

Alexa jerked awake as a hand shook her shoulder, she blinked her eyes to try and focus the face above her, only to see Jack with Kate stood behind him worriedly.

"What….Jack…what do you want?" She tried to mutter coherently hoping that they understood.

"Alexa come on quick we'll explain on the way." Alexa took Jack's outstretched arm and he pulled her to her feet. She swayed slightly, but caught her balance, and followed after Jack and Kate who were stood waiting outside. They set a quick pace into the jungle and Alexa struggled to keep up as she tried to work things out through her sleep-addled mind.

"Guys….guys do you mind telling me what's going on." Kate looked at Jack before replying.

"It's Shannon; she has asthma and doesn't have her inhalers. Boone says that Sawyer has them which is why he was going through his stuff this morning." Kate explained rapidly.

"Ok, but where do I come into this?" Alexa asked. Kate looked at Jack as if unwilling to reply to Alexa's question.

"Sawyer won't tell us where the inhalers are. So Sayid…." Jack didn't finish his sentence and Alexa felt the first fluttering of fear in her heart, what had happened

"Jack what happened? What did Sayid do?" Kate obviously caught the distress in Alexa's voice as she shot an angry glance at Jack who wasn't answering.

"Sayid and Jack tied Sawyer to a tree, and Sayid used some interrogation method that he learnt in Iraq, but Sawyer wouldn't talk. Then Sayid threatened Sawyer with a knife, Sawyer said he would talk; but only to you." Kate finished. Alexa tried to take in everything Kate had said, Sayid had 'interrogated', Sawyer, and Alexa knew enough to work out what this meant.

They arrived at the beach and Alexa was in whirl of emotions. She didn't know what to think. She had trusted Sayid completely; until this morning when he disregarded her in favour of Boone, and to now hear that he had done this to someone… She didn't know what to think anymore, she didn't want to lose Sayid's friendship, but she wasn't sure if she could trust him anymore. And without trust Alexa didn't want to keep up pretence of friendship.

The other part of her mind was occupied with thoughts of Sawyer: Was he alright? Why wasn't he giving them Shannon's medicine? Why had he left her when she was hurt? Part of Alexa rejoiced that he had asked for her, and not for Kate; but another part wondered why. Once again Alexa didn't know what to think, she was worried for Sawyer, but part of her was afraid to trust him as well.

As Kate and Jack led her further down the beach she couldn't help but stop and stare at the scene on front of her. Sawyer was tied to a tree and his face showed momentary flashes of pain every now and then. In front of him stood Sayid knife in hand holding it hazardously close to Sawyer's arm. Alexa realised whatever else when she thought of Sayid after this point, part of her would remember the scene directly in front of her, that part of her would question him. Alexa was saddened by this, because she doubted that she and Sayid would ever be what they once were. She involuntarily shivered slightly as she looked on and Kate shot her a questioning glance:

"This is too scarily similar to before." She whispered loud enough for Jack and Kate to hear; Kate just looked confused but it seemed Jack had realised what she said and he shot her an apologetic glance.

Alexa walked over to Sawyer and Sayid, Jack behind her.

"Untie him Sayid, Alexa is here." Sayid looked towards Alexa, and she deliberately met his gaze, whatever he saw in her eyes made him look away and quickly.

"He can stay right where he is" Sayid said stubbornly, Alexa didn't say anything she just moved closer to Sawyer leaving Kate, Jack and Sayid to argue.

"Hey" She whispered as she moved in closer

"Hey Lex." He said quietly back

"I'd ask you how you were doing but under the circumstances I'm guessing it's not appropriate" She jokingly whispered back "What's this about Sawyer? Why don't you just give them the inhalers?" She asked serious again. Sawyer lifted an eyebrow at her before replying:

"You know me Lex; I don't do anything for free." He said.

"I would assume that your freedom would be payment enough." She replied. Sawyer just looked at her and that's when Alexa realised, and couldn't believe no one else had. He didn't have the damn inhalers to begin with. She wanted to shout at him for being so stupid, but nobody would believe her unless it came from Sawyer himself. So instead she just leaned nearer.

"I know Sawyer." She whispered in his ear.

"I know you do Lex. Why do you think I asked for you?" Alexa felt her heart sink slightly, she had hoped there were other reasons other than the fact that she could read people, but he continued "I knew you were only one who understood me enough to figure it out." He whispered again

"What did you ask in exchange for the information with Kate?" she whispered once again, even in the situation Alexa's close proximity to Sawyer was making her heart race, and she was pretty sure if it started beating any louder that the whole beach was going to hear it. Sawyer didn't question how she knew about Kate he just replied his voice growing slightly deeper:

"A kiss." He whispered as the lips grew closer

"Is one from me good enough?" Alexa whispered

"Better." Sawyer said just before his lips pressed to Alexa's.

Alexa couldn't believe what she was doing, she tried to concentrate, they were just friends right? But the kiss grew deeper and Alexa thoughts grew muddled as the only thing she could concentrate on was the feel of Sawyer's lips on hers. He made her forget her sadness, her despair, her anger, the only thing she could think of was that she didn't want the kiss to end; she didn't want Sawyer's lips to leave hers, she didn't want this feeling deep within her to leave. They pulled away both breathless and Alexa stared at Sawyer and she felt hope, some part within her truly did believe that maybe it would all be ok.

"You were right Alexa, I don't have the inhalers, the copy of 'Watership Down' we were reading washed up on the shore." She just nodded at Sawyer and gave him a small smile which he returned before heading over to Sayid, Kate and Jack.

"Well…." Kate said impatiently

"He doesn't have them. He never did. The book washed up on the shore, Boone just jumped to conclusions." Jack looked shocked but Kate and Sayid only looked angry.

"I don't believe you. He's lying."

Sayid pushed Alexa out of the way as he made his way over to Sawyer, knife in hand still furious. Alexa quickly moved over to way Sawyer had been before; it looked as if Sawyer had worked his way free of his ropes. Alexa looked on in horror as Sayid charged at Sawyer wielding his knife at him.

"No!" She screamed, but it was too late, Sayid's knife had already reached its target. She rushed to Sawyer's side and looked at the knife in his shoulder; she then stared at Sayid eyes wide in disbelief. Jack had rushed over just after Alexa, he looked at the wound and realised just how much blood Sawyer was losing. Alexa stared as the blood fell freely from Sawyer's wounds and realised that Sayid had hit a main artery; Sawyer could die if Jack couldn't stop the blood flow. She felt tears come to her eyes, and she took Sawyer's hand and looked at him.

"Hey don't cry Lex. I promised I'd always be there right?" he said but his voice steadily got weaker and he fell into unconsciousness. Tears streamed down her cheeks as she looked at the pale form of Sawyer

"Don't make promises you can't keep." She whispered, virtually to herself as she knew that them man lying before her could not hear.

"Sayid, Alexa quickly run to camp I need medical supplies." Sayid looked like he was about to object "Now." Jack said with authority as he set about pinching the artery to stop Sawyer bleeding to death

Sayid and Alexa quickly began to run towards the caves, Sayid in front as Alexa had trouble running, as it made her head pound slightly and her ribs still carried their constant ache. Alexa didn't say anything to Sayid because there was too much she needed to say, and at the moment Sawyer's life was too important. Sayid reached the cave seconds before Alexa, they both rushed in and Sayid grabbed one of the bags whilst Alexa swung the other onto her shoulder. They began to head back again, and Alexa was beginning to feel the strain of the speed at which they were running. She didn't stop, and she kept the thought of Sawyer in her mind, to keep her going.

They arrived back on the beach and passed Jack the medical supplies:

"Go" he said to them both. Alexa hesitated looking at Sawyer "I'll fetch you once I'm done." He said to her. Alexa followed Sayid away from Jack and Sawyer reluctantly.

They both moved further down the beach and stopped after a few metres. Alexa didn't look at Sayid nor did she speak, she really had no idea what to say.

"Alexa please, look at me." Sayid said pleadingly. Alexa turned her eyes to Sayid trying to display what she couldn't say with her emotions.

"I'm sorry." He said quietly. Alexa let a hollow laugh before finally speaking.

"You're sorry…." She scoffed "Sorry for what Sayid? Not believing me when I told you the truth? Sorry for torturing Sawyer? Sorry for nearly killing him? Sorry for losing the trust I had in you?" she asked, he just looked slightly angry now.

"Why do you care so much Alexa? I doubt he returns your feelings."

"My feelings are none of your business Sayid." She retorted sharply.

"I didn't mean that Alexa, it's just…" Sayid began,

"Just what Sayid? You don't trust him I get that, but I do Sayid. He has never given me reason not to. You lost the right to comment on my relationships." She said crying slightly now "I trusted you Sayid." She said quietly

"You know why I did it Alexa? I thought he was endangering Shannon's life."

"It doesn't matter Sayid, you may have had the best intentions, but nothing, nothing justifies what you did. I don't know what you did in the Republican Guard, or what you went through, but that was in the past. People shouldn't judge you like they do, but that doesn't make what you did right. I never thought of you like that, but you know what Sayid? You've become everything they accused you of being. I would have trusted you with my life Sayid, but now I don't know anymore. I don't want to lose your friendship, but at the moment I'm finding it hard to forgive."

Sayid looked directly into Alexa's eyes as she spoke and they both knew things would never be the same. If they wanted to be friends again they would have to start from the beginning, gaining Alexa's trust was never easy, but have to earn it back, maybe it wasn't possible.

"Alexa" A voice shouted from behind them, they both turned and looked realising that Jack must be done, Alexa set off she stopped and looked over her shoulder at Sayid, and sent him a sad smile, hoping that maybe be she would be able to forgive. She walked over to Jack who smiled at her, and Alexa was instantly relieved knowing that Sawyer was going to be ok. He was awake when she moved over and sat next to him, but by the looks of things he wouldn't be for long.

"Told you I would be fine" he said as he pulled her down so she was lying next to him. She placed her head on his chest and he wrapped his arm around her waist and Alexa realised that he was asleep again. She looked up at him and smiled slightly before closing her eyes, hoping that maybe she would not be haunted by dreams, at least for a little while.

Alexa awoke, for once fully rested, her head was still on Sawyer's chest and she realised he still had an arm around her waist. He was looking at someone to Alexa's left. Alexa twisted her head to see Kate sat reading a piece of paper. She just listened as Kate and Sawyer spoke, and listened as Kate read the letter, Kate was speaking as if Alexa wasn't even there, Alexa wondered if she even noticed that she was awake. Sawyer made it clear that he knew she was there, when Kate read the letter he took her hand gratefully, and she watched as his eyes seemed to remember the past. She listened as Sawyer talked about being 'a confidence man' and understood for once what he had meant when he said 'he wasn't meant to care'.

She knew this was who Sawyer was, but it was not the man she saw or knew, for the man she knew did care no matter how much he wished he didn't. She could only hope that he wouldn't hurt her if he decided that this was the man he actually was, because Alexa didn't want to face the sorrow. She was happy with him there, but part of her was afraid, afraid of what tomorrow would bring, afraid that she would once again be pushed aside when Sawyer decided she really wasn't worth his time, afraid to be hurt again.

As Alexa lay on the beach with Sawyer, the world moved on around them. Sayid told Kate he had to leave, that he couldn't deal with the guilt, and Kate watched Sawyer and Alexa and hoped Alexa knew what she was letting herself in for.

Alexa watched as Sawyer stared at the letter in front of him, the letter he had written to his parents murderer, and part of her wondered why he had become the man he had hated for so long, but another part understood, just as part of her always seemed to when it was Sawyer. He flicked his lighter, as if moving to burn it, but Alexa watched as he flicked it closed again and then folded the letter back up.

"You ok?" she asked quietly. Sawyer seemed touched by her genuine concern as he pulled her close.

"Yer Lex, I'm fine." He replied.

For once Alexa stopped being afraid of what tomorrow would bring, and instead she appreciated the blessing that today had brought. She looked out to the ocean and whispered into the wind knowing that the intended recipient where ever they were would hear her words.

"Guess you were right…..maybe it's going to be ok after all….."


Please leave a review i would appreciate it so much.