Once you love someone, a part of them always stays in your heart even when they are gone. Meredith wanted to tell off the world. She wanted to tell off Derek and whom ever crossed her way. It would have been so easy to just hate him and walk away with no regrets. She hated the fact that he would not be with her when the time for their little one was to enter the world.

Christina promised Meredith that she'd be there for her when the big day arrived. Afterall, she did agree to be the baby's godmother. One week flew by quickly and she found herself back at Seattle Grace. As she exited out of a patient's room, Christina stopped as she heard a so familiar voice call out to her.

"Dr. Yang." It was McDreamy. Christina looked at her boss and had done a double take on him. She could not for the life of her see what the hell did those two women, Addison and Meredith, see in him.

"Dr. Shepherd," she replied in her monotone voice and looked at him with her I don't give a damn about you, make it snappy kind of look.

"Welcome back. Did you enjoy your vacation? Burke had mentioned you were out of town." He tried to make polite conversation.

"Yup," was her only reply. Christina uses sarcasm to hide her true feelings. She builds a wall around her as so not to let certain people in. Only she alone could knock it down. And her wall finally tumbled down.

He shuffled his feet and waited for her to somewhat continue on the conversation, but she didn't.

"Well, I'd better leave, I'm late for my rounds, Dr. Yang."

Christina could not hold in what she felt for him that she finally exploded.

"You do that," she blurted out scarcastically.

"Excuse me?" Dr. Shepherd turned back slowly as he heard her tone of voice. "Have I offended you in any way, Dr. Yang?"

"Look, just for this moment, I am not, I repeat, I am not Dr. Yang. I'm Christina," she raised her voice, then continued. "And you're just Derek, okay?"

He was her attending doctor. Her boss. No one ever spoke to him in that manner, until Christina came along. Other interns have looked up to him, respected him. So he thought. If only he knew what was said behind his back.

"You hurt her, you broke her heart! What gives you the right to have treated her the way you did? All the while you were screwing her, you had a wife! Were you ever going to tell her? Oh, excuse me, I guess not! She had to find out from Addison, face to face! You're the reason she left!"

Quickly he grabbed Christina's arm. "You've seen her? Where is she?" He asked almost tearfully.

She jerked her arm away from him. "Like hell I'd tell you! Go home to your wife, Derek." Her voice calmed down. "That is, if she hasn't wised up as of yet and left you."

The petite dark-haired doctor stepped away from him.

"Christina, tell me where she is," his voice trembled.

"It's Dr. Yang. Good day, Dr. Shepherd." Christina hurried down the corridor, exhaled a sigh of relief, proud of herself for her outburst which she felt he definitely deserved.

After a long day at the hospital, Addison stepped out of the shower, wiped herself dry, slipped into her emerald green silk robe and toweled dried her hair. As the mist had begun to clear from the mirror, Derek startled her as he stood leaned against the wall as he watched her. His eyes twinkled and approached his wife.

"Let me do that for you," he spoke softly as he took the towel out of her hands and gently finished what she had begun to do. He ran his hands through her red hair.

"That's what attracted me when I first saw you, your beautiful luscious hair, flowing down onto your milky soft shoulders. The first word which came to my mind of you was "elegance."

He traced his fingers on her neck and down onto her shoulders. His hands fumbled with the knot to her sash. After a couple of minutes of struggle, he got a full view of what was hidden underneath. He stood mesmerize by her beauty. Derek pulled off his tee-shirt, unbuckled his belt, zipped down his jeans, pushed it unto the floor and stepped out of them, all the while his eyes locked with hers, not once did he glance away.

Derek led her into their bedroom, slipped her robe off and lifted Addison onto the bed. Until now, in the years they've been together, he had never experienced a night of tenderness and fiery passion all rolled up in one.

As he got off of her, he whispered, "I love you, Addison,"

It was six o'clock in the morning when he had awaken. Addison had her arm on his chest, her leg between his. Derek gently squeezed her softly, laid a kiss on the top of her head and quietly got out of bed. He stood under the water sprays in the shower to awaken and loosen his body from the vigorous workout they had the previous night.

Suddenly, as if someone had jolted electricity through his brain, thoughts of Meredith entered his mind. He cussed to himself. How the hell could he be in love with two women.

TBC - Chapter 5