And now for the rest of chapter one.
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After Harper and Hhone's deaths everything changed, I changed. My people, after experiencing a traumatic experience, make a change to become accustomed to the changed environment around us. Slowly I grew up. I became a warrior. I was was taught skills that would help me protect my crew-no my family, when the time came. Along with the mental changes came the physical change. Slowly my purple skin tone lightened and transformed into my now golden color and my once bouncy blonde hair changed to a crimson red. Once long enough I put them into braids so that, when fighting they would not interfere.

My change wasn't taken too well by the crew, Beka especially. Beka, who still held against me Harper's death, thought of my change as a way for me to bail on her. No longer did she have her good luck charm, her best friend to help her though Harper's death, instead she was given the now hardened warrior pixie, who's heart was almost as frozen as the nearest ice planet. Beka felt truly alone now.

I thought I'd be ready for the next obstacle but then came the Tunnelers. They ruined everything. Once again because of a mistake I made, Beka didn't set the bomb off at the right time and slowly I watched the Andromeda fail and my family die. Beka and I were the only ones who survived the battle. As we left in the Maru, we watched the Andromeda self destruct closing the tunnel and killing all hopes for my perfect possible future...or so I thought.

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When I grew up my foresight increased. It took nearly seven years to figured out how to fix what I had messed up. Throughout those years, Beka became reckless and slowly lost more and more of herself, literally. I even had to reattach her head once. I still shudder at the memory of that experience and the damage I was unable to repair.

After Harper's death and then the death of the crew, Beka felt that she had no more to live for. After Dylan's death the Common Wealth fell apart once more, never to be re-established. The universe went back into an age of darkness, with Beka feeling responsible for every death, every raid, every innocent life destroyed. Beka nearly became a lifeless re-animated shell. It was then I knew, no matter the costs, I had to fix things, but I couldn't do it without help. I had to tell Beka everything, everything my people are supposed to conceal. I told her of my people, my planet and our tampering with other's destinies. Her reaction was not as I would have hoped.

"So, what were we to you?! Nothing but your playthings, your puppets! You could have saved them!" I could see the tears welling up in her last human eye as she realized what I had known for the past seven years.

"You killed Harper! You let him die! You could have saved him but you killed him! You shot him dead when all along you could have saved him from his pain. You could have saved him way before his death but you let him die! Why?"

I was crying by now, "I-I don't know why! I couldn't think of a way to save him. I tried Beka, I tried so hard! Do you think that I would have let him die if I could have stopped it, do you!? I loved him Beka. I loved Harper more than I've loved any other human being and I didn't want him to die. I would have died a thousand times over if it would have meant Harper could live. I couldn't find a way to save him in the present, but I can in the past!"

Beka glared at me with a look of hurt and confusion. "Trance stop playing games with me. Harper's dead there's no way of bringing him back!"

I step forward until I was eye to eye with Beka and sternly said, "Yes! There! Is!"

Beka shook her head, "Trance you are making absolutely no sense. You can't raise the dead no matter how powerful you are! It's impossible! You should have saved Harper when you had your chance! You must not have loved him as much as you claim because you let him die the death you knew he feared most!! He should have never loved a heartless thing like you!"

My jaw dropped. That hit harder than any comment she had made to me in the past seven years. I stood there as she pushed past me and went to her quarters. I stood there silently crying. I had loved, no still loved Harper and I was going to get him back.

I gave her an hour but it was time for her to listen. I walked right into her quarters and locked her door. She was taken aback by my forcefulness.
She tried to take a stand in protest but I wouldn't let her. "No you will listen to me now," I said as I extended my hand out, holding her in place.

"Trance, I can't move...what have you done?"

"Nothing you won't thank me for later. Now, you are going to listen to me Beka because what I want to do I can't do without you and I am on a time limit as is! Now I'll let you go if you will listen to me. Promise." Beka nodded and I let my hand fall.

Beka sighed and ran a finger through her spiked red hair and said, "Trance before you start I want to apologize. I crossed the line. I know that if you had been able to you would have saved Harper. You did love him and he you, so I had no right to use that against you. We are all each other has and I'm sorry for what I said but you can't blame me. Harper's been gone seven years and you expect me to believe that you can just bring him back,"

She looked around and continued, "Do you seriously want to bring him back to this? Everything he knew is gone. Yeah we may still be here, but we aren't the people we were seven years ago," she raised her cybornetic arm, "I mean hell, I'm more of a rust bucket then the Maru. It would be wrong to bring him here."

I gave a sympathetic smile and said, "Yes, it would be wrong and you are right things are too different, too wrong here. I've made far too many mistakes. This time is too difficult to fix, but not the time of seven years ago."

Beka stood, "Trance you're channeling your old self here. What are ya talking about because you've lost me."

"Beka, I don't mean to bring Harper back into this world. I mean to fix the mistake I made seven years ago. Harper's death was the beginning of the chain reaction that caused the universe we live in today."

Beka looked at me with a look of amazement, "Trance, how can you do this?"

I smiled and said, "In a week will be the anniversary of Harper's death and I have a theory that if we make our own tesseract machine and turn it on at the exact moment Harper did, the tesseracting waves from the past and other alternate universes may collide with ours and create a portal. Through this portal we may very well be able to go back to the day that I made my mistake."

Beka's expression changed, "Trance that's a nearly impossible plan."

"Yes Beka, nearly impossible, but not completely. I still have Harper's plans for the machine."

"Wait how did you get those?" Beka questioned.

"I took them the day he died. It was a part of Harper and I wasn't going to let it go. At the time I had no idea that I'd be able to do this, but I now know that I can. Beka, we can. Please this is our only hope of getting Harper-and possibly our family-back and fixing all these wrongs."

I could sense Beka's hesitation but finally she said, "Alright, Trance. Let's do this. Let's get them back."

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We worked everyday to get that machine ready, even finding the spot the tesseracting waves would be strongest. Finally the machine was ready and it was time to go. "OK, Beka, it's now or never. If this works, all this will be gone and we will have the others back, we'll have Harper back."

Beka looked up at me and said, "No, Trance, you will have Harper back. Look at me, I can't just go there. I'll go with you and make sure you make it there but I won't stay."

"But Beka-"

"No Trance. This is your mission, mine ended a long time ago. You'll go back and fix everything, I'll just be here missing you."

It was time for me to tell her the last part of my plan, "No, Beka, you won't. I'll always be here. To make sure I stay I must switch places with my younger self and make sure the tesseract machine stays and completes it's task. So, in a way I'll always be here." I gave her a hug as this would be my last encounter with my Beka. "Well, it's time." I said as I flipped the switch.

At first nothing happened but I was not about to let my guard down knowing that I could end up anywhere on the Andromeda during any part of the tesseract disturbances. Suddenly a blue wave washed over us and we were separated. As I realized that I was alone I said to Beka, where ever she may have been, "Good-bye, my friend." But now wasn't a time for tears, but instead for redemption. Harper would live this time.

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I met up with the old Beka and tried to think of something to say to her but in the end I told her what I hadn't been able to tell her counterpart in over five years....that she was beautiful. My younger self easily enough agreed to go and once the change was made, my plan was set into action. Beka was very hesitant to trust me, but I didn't let this faze me...I had to find Harper, and quickly. To my surprise, he just fell into us. I just stared at him. Here was the man I loved alive once again. I had not seen his angelic face or his crystal blue eyes in seven long years.

I wanted to hug him, to kiss him, but that all changed when he got his first glimpse of me, the new me. He was actually afraid of me. I had no time to be hurt because suddenly Harper doubled over in pain and the real reason I was there came back into play. More hurtful than Beka not trusting me was when I realized that Harper didn't either, but finally I got him to come with me to the Machine Shop and I watched as the same scene from seven years ago started again, the only thing different were the crew's looks at me. Most hurtful of all was Harper's, for the first time since the day we met, there was fear in his eyes when he looked at me. I couldn't let that stop me, I knew he only had minutes to live. We were all in the machine shop watching Harper as he tried to make the decision I had helped him make all those years ago, to destroy the machine, but I wasn't about to let him do that.

This time when Rekeeb pointed his blaster at the machine I took my stand in front of the it. I'd be damned if I let him destroy this machine or at least try like he had in my reality. Then the Magog came and I saw the utter fear in Harper's eyes as he almost relived the nightmare that had brought him here. As the crew's attention was on the magog, I saw my chance.

Once everyone's attention was drawn back to the manic Rekeeb and his blaster, I slipped back to the controls. I looked into Harper's eyes and saw that he had made his decision, the wrong decision. Right when Harper was about to destroy the machine, I turned it on, saving his life but in return condemning Hhone. My only reply was a somber, "There, that's better." The crew questioned my actions, although I had done right, all they could see was that I had just condemned both Hhone and their Trance. As they questioned, my only reply was, "I saved Harper's life."

I couldn't show it but I was ecstatic when I saw those murdering monsters inside Harper removed and destroyed! Later, once the crew knew that Harper was ok, Dylan had asked me how saving Harper and loosing Hhone helped the future and I told him what I was telling myself. I honestly had no clue if what I had done was right. I hadn't saved Harper's life to save the future, I could have just made things worse, but I saved Harper because Harper is my friend and Hhone was a stranger. In a way that was true but deep down I knew that saving Harper was more about redemption and love, than saving the future.

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Once everything had calmed down and I knew that Dylan was not going to shove me in the brig or out the closest air lock, I went to see Harper. Earlier, when he had been taken to med bay in an unconscious state, I was told not to follow. The crew was afraid of what I might do or what my actions had done to Harper, but after my talk to Dylan and Rommie had made sure Harper was alright, I was given permission to see him.

Rommie had given him a pain killing sedative to ease his aches so when I entered Med bay he was sleeping. I knew he'd be out for a few hours at the most so I could be with him without him freaking out over my appearance and possibly hurting already aching muscles. I walked over to him and asked Rommie for privacy mode to be engaged. She at first refused but when I asked again, telling her that, although I no longer looked like her, I was her Trance, she gave in and agreed.

I pulled up a chair beside Harper's sleeping form and just stared at him. Tears came to my eyes as the memory of his death came back to me as vividly as if it had just happened. I could still see the crimson blood dripping off the med table, still see the little dead magog...I'll never forgot the horrible smell that lingered in Med Bay for days. I pushed away those awful memories and smiled because I knew that this memory would no longer be real. I just sat there watching him sleep.

I was afraid that if I closed my eyes, even for a second, that I'd find myself back in my reality, where Harper was gone. Then Harper began to whimper as a nightmare began. I had forgotten that after the World Ship, Harper's nightmares had returned full force. I stood up and got close to him, whiping the hair off of his forehead. Once my fingers touched his skin, I knew that this wasn't a dream and I had succeeded.

I ran my fingers softly through his hair as I began to hum the chant that I'd renamed, "Harper's chant." Within seconds Harper's whimpers died and he was at peace again. I gently kissed his lips and left. I had Harper back, but how was I to know that after all I had done, I could still lose him as easily as before.


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