This is a little fic I came up with while I was reading a book and listening to my MP3 player. Yeah, it's Brother Bear, so sue me. Told from Sirius' s point of view, from I really don't know, but it's after Lily and James die. Most likely set right after he falls through the veil.
Everywhere I turn I hurt someone
They are all hurt, aching, dead because of me.
But there's nothing I can say to change the things I've done
It wasn't my decision. It's all fate. The past will haunt me for the rest of my life. Lily and James . . . . . what I did to Remus . . . . Caroline . . . . Emily . . . . . The suffering I caused Harry or will cause Harry.
I'd do anything within my power
I'd give everything I've got
I would do absolutely anything to change the past, tell Dumbledore to be the Potter's secret-keeper. Not change from me to Peter, the dirty backstabbing traitor. I would have died back then if only Lily and James had lived. Then, maybe, things would be different. Remus would have a family, I would have a family, Harry would have parents that loved him. Possibly even younger brothers and sisters.
But the path I seek is hidden from me now
I'm thinking nonsense. This can't ever happen. What's done is done. I can't change it, however, I can dwell on it.
Brother Bear, I let you down.
Lily, James, Harry, Caroline, Remus, Emily, Dumbledore, McGonagall, Moody, Frank, Alice, Nymph, Dung, Marlene, Dorcas, Gideon & Fabian, I'm terribly sorry. This all happened because of me.
You trusted me, believed in me and I let you down
Your trust was placed with me, and I'm sorry that I abused it. You all will never know how much I actually cherished it.
Of all the things I hid from you I cannot hide the shame
I ashamed of my foolish actions when I was barely into my twenties. I admit that I was high on life, drunk on the future. I hid so much, held so many secrets that it all eventually toppled over, and brought on so much unneeded pain and suffering to the ones that I love.
And I pray someone, something will come and take away the pain
All that I can say is that I hope you forgive me for my actions. I pray by day and wish by night that the pain that I caused will go away soon. With time, I am sure that it will.
There's no way out of this dark place
No, no future
I know I can't be free
But I can't see another way
Oh, and I can't face another day.
If anyone has any questions, please state them in your review and I will kindly get back to you.
TTFN TA TA FOR NOW!
Gemm
