My Heartbreak
Summary- Flays thoughts about Kira as she watches him from heaven.
Disclaimer- I don't own Gundam Seed or anything to do with Gundam Seed.
I wish things were different. As a watch you from above, I can see the pain in your eyes. I know that you feel guilty for my death. You believe that you weren't strong enough to save me, but you couldn't be more wrong.
I have finally found peace. I was half expecting do be condemned to hell for all my sins. I was spared though. In my last days alive I guess I redeemed myself by wanting to apologize to you.
I watch you as you ponder your thoughts. I can see the hurt in your eyes. I know that it is not all guilt of not being able to save me; no you are guilty for falling in love again.
At first my heart though it has no beat ached in my chest. I didn't want you to fall in love again; I didn't want you to forget me.
Then I realized that it was for the best, no matter how much it hurt me to see you in the arms of another. I wish it was be, but I can't compete. I am dead after all.
Ironic isn't it?
I wanted you to die so badly while I was alive, and in the end it was me who ended up dead and wishing to be with you alive.
Lacus, she is a kind person, something I wasn't. She's beautiful, caring, loving, and strong. I was none of those things. True I wasn't ugly, but I didn't have inner beauty like she does.
She is better than me, I admit that. She puts others before herself, unlike me who only thinks of herself.
She'll take care of you Kira. I know she will. She loves you. Almost as much as I love you. If given the chance I would return to earth, not to take you away though. No I would never do that, not now anyways. She is perfect for you.
I miss you so much, and it pains me to see you cry.
Please don't cry anymore. You have shed enough tears for others.
Now it is my turn to cry. I'll take away your pain even if it's just for a moment.
I want you to love again; I want you to move on.
I have learned from my sins, and I a wait the day when we'll meet again.
I want you to remember me, and in my memory love again. I know you'll make her happy. Just like you made me in the little time we spent together.
As the rain falls remember it's my tears washing away your pain.
The only way I can.
A/N Ok lame, yes I know. My friend is obsessed with Flay and asked me to write a story about her. I don't really care for her, so flaming me on this wont really bother me. I apologize for any mistakes. I can't write to save my life. PLEASE REVIEW! I know it's a lot to ask, but please any comment will be great! Well let me know if I should continue to write. I figured that if I wrote I could understand authors better, and I think I do. I don't know how all of you do it?
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