Underneath her gloves

I'm hiding behind a smile, No one can see my tears, no one knows of my fears, no one knows I have a dark past, no one see my scars, they're hidden beneath my gloves. R&R

Thanks for the reviews!

Answers:

RupertLover09: lol no feel good music in this fic! Sorry, I advice you listen to something…like the band bullet for my valentine, now they kick as! Thanks! I'll try n check out your story when I can.

ChikWithTheBackwardsBooks: I'm not exactly sure if this is going to have a good or bad ending, depends how depressed I'm feeling when I write it thanks! I'm glad it made your stomach squirm…it means I'm good!

skuller31: Done! Done! Done!

Red Vixen: She kind of wears gloves, in 'date with destiny' she pulls one off and it's a glove, I know they're more like wrist armor but underneath her gloves sound kind of cooler than underneath her wrist armor, don't you think? It's a kid's programme so I don't think it's true

Sersee Grayson: Well when I'm depressed I write depressing stuff…so ta da! This is the outcome…man I'm depressed. Yeah in push it deep she died…sori!

crazyfrog: BLESS THEM! I'm hoping for a moment if this depressing story will allow it!

Tiffany: I'm sure it would be good; you just need to write it first to see! Yeah I'm not suicidal really, just fairly depressed is all, yet I'm feeling quite bubbly today…strange huh?

Tears of Eternal Darkness: I shall keep going! Thanks!

Kristy: Thank you for the compliments!

Banana fritz: lol! Love you too!

Shadow: Thanks, I'm sorry about the long wait, but I can write this when I'm feeling depressed myself, and even though that's a lot it's hard to write this type of thing.

Kristy: Thanks I appreciate the support!

ShadowCatOfTheNight: thanks I'll try!

I said that I'd try and add poetry, and I wrote one for this chapter! Go me!

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She walks out blood washed away,

Gloves on and smile in place,

Her wrist throbs but no cry escapes her lips,

So many years of practice has led to this,

All she wants is to scream and cry,

She needs to breathe, its peace she needs to find.

Starfire walked into her bedroom and went to her mirror, she taken a shower and her hair was now wavy and damp. She took her brush and tugged it through her hair roughly, it caring about it. She placed the brush down and looked at her reflection; her eyes looked empty, full of pain and hatred for the world.

She slowly shut her eyes, and thought of what it was like to be happy, and slowly when she opened her eyes they were bright and her skin glowing with their usual radiance, now with her mask in place. She was ready to face the day.

The door slid open as she neared and shut with a snap behind her, she walked down the corridor as normal, a smile in place and body posed to fly. She entered the main room to see Cyborg and Beastboy at the game station battling it out, and Raven sitting at the kitchen table a cup of herbal tea in one hand, a book in the other (my idea of the perfect morning!) Starfire read the title. The completed works of Edgar Allen Poe. (I love that dude.)

Starfire opened the refrigerator and grabbed an apple her hand passing the mustard. She sat opposite Raven with her usual smile, even though her cheek muscles were starting to hurt. But it was all part of the routine. Smile be happy, no one knows you any other way, don't change, don't be rejected.

Raven stared at Starfire for a moment before turning her attention to her herbal tea, no emotion flickering in her eyes, but inside, Raven was worried, she felt a disturbance within her alien friend, something she was hiding, and she didn't like it. She massaged the sides of the cup with her small hands feeling the warmth radiate on her hands. She needed to talk to her girl, but what was she to say?

Starfire chewed on her apple looking content and happy, her mask was working, her eyes looked around curiously, even though she wanted nothing more than to go into her room and sleep the day away until tonight…where she'd…purge herself once more.

Robin entered the room; he looked like he'd been working out, Starfire judged, a sheet of sweat covering his forehead, his hair hanging down in his eyes without his mountain of hair gel. Starfire's gaze moved back to the table, she didn't say anything; she wasn't in the mood for talking.

"Good morning titans." He said wiping his face in the neared towel. Cyborg and Beastboy didn't answer, the two were too engrossed with their game, and Raven gave him a look that clearly said 'yeah right.' And Starfire sighed inwardly, knowing it would have to be her.

"Good morning friend Robin, I trust your workout was successful yes?" Starfire said brightly placing her apple beside her. Robin gave her a smile.

"Yeah, same old you know." Robin answered sitting next to her after grabbing some of Cyborg's cooking, Beastboy's cooking left alone. Just as Robin lifted a piece of crispy bacon to his lips the titan alarm started to echo throughout the tower, Robin stood up knocking his stool back. "Titan's GO!"

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Starfire flew behind the others, Robin in front on his motorcycle, Beastboy just behind him in the form of a hawk, Cyborg sped behind in his car and Raven flew above him, Starfire trailed behind, hiding it hard to find the happy thoughts to power her flight. She they finally stopped, Starfire gratefully touched down on the ground and looked around her; they were in an empty loading dock, chains with large hooks on the end swayed dangerously in the wind, creaking wood echoed around the area, it looked deserted.

"What are we looking for?" Raven asked after looking around herself.

"Not sure." Robin answered going to stand near Raven. "It just said there was a disturbance."

Starfire stared at them together, something bubbling in her stomach. She'd felt it every time Robin and Raven were together, for some reason she was jealous even though Raven had told her about her desires of Beastboy it still hurt. She looked around the site once more, finding nothing she hugged her self as a gust of wind whipped around her.

"Please, may we go home now…I do not like this place?" Starfire said her teeth tattering slightly.

"Sorry Star. We need to have a better look around first." Robin said turning towards her, he then looked at the others. "Titans' split up."

Each titan went in a different direction. Starfire walked towards the hulking ship at lay abandoned. Starfire flew up onto its deck; the place was starting to scare her but as a titan she had to be brave. She carried on up the ship until she reached the driving station, buttons and levers looked stiff and rusted, the floor just the same. Then from behind she heard something move, she span around igniting a starbolt, there was nothing there.

She walked back down the deck with caution, her eyes examining everything the wind blew. Then suddenly she felt something hit her back, she hit the floor hard, she turned her head to see Slade standing above her, her eyes widened. She scrambled to her feet.

"What are you doing here Slade?" Starfire inquired starbolts ready incase he tried anything.

"I merely want to catch up with my old enemies." He purred placing his hands on his hips, his eye gleaming. Starfire turned, intending to alert her friends, but before she could call out she felt hands grab her. Slade pulled her towards him, a hand around her waist, the other over her mouth, she was facing away from him, so her blasts were useless, and her strength abandoned her, or he was too strong. He chuckled in her ear and she visibly flinched.

Aware her feet weren't touching the ground she struggled, but his arms squeezed her waist and she gave a cry of pain. "Don't move." He whispered in her ear, she felt his hot breath and she shuddered. He then moved towards the edge of the ship. Starfire didn't see her friends. But Slade would soon change that.

There was an explosion from one of the warehouses and each titan came running from where they had been, Robin swinging down last in front of them pulling back his grappling hook.

"Over here titans." Slade called to them. They all turned and Starfire struggled again so he gave her another squeeze, tears welled up in her eyes at his strength.

"Starfire!" Robin shouted a mix of anger and fear in his voice.

"Leave her alone!" Beastboy growled. Slade laughed again, louder so the titans could hear, fire blazed from the explosion but the titans merely stared at their friend and then their enemy.

"What do you want Slade." Robin snarled stepping forward.

Slade's laughter died down. "Just to show you I'm back titans, I haven't got anything planned for today."

"Then let Starfire go!" Raven said darkly. Starfire then kicked Slade in the leg, he let out a cry of surprise and titans leapt forward, Slade soon recovered and grabbed Starfire's wrists hard. Starfire cried out as he squeezed her scars painfully. Tears poured from her eyes, Starfire's back was the titans, they froze at her cry of pain, all worried that he'd hurt her if they moved.

"What's this?" Slade whispered, the others couldn't hear him but Starfire's eyes widened. He reached for her gloves and she struggled again but another painful squeeze stopped her. He pulled up the end of her wrists guards and for a moment surprise leapt into his eyes as he saw her ugly scars, crossing over each other and bleeding from the pressure he was applying. He let her glove fall back to place then again and stared at her.

"It's always the one you least expect." He whispered. He then threw Starfire from the ship, the titan's attention was grabbed by this and Slade made his getaway. Robin caught her and placed her on her feet, she rubbed her wrists, also wiping away the stray blood that seeped through her gloves.

"Star are you ok?" Robin asked masked eyes full of concern.

"I'm fine." She whispered.

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I'm so ashamed! It's so short! And it took so long…and it's probably bad too! You see I need to be feeling depressed and in the mood to write to update this and sadly I've been feeling pretty gd lately! I'll try to update faster and better, there wasn't any…cutting in this chapter either.

Oh I'll be putting this in every chapter, like a disclaimer:
I DO NOT PROMOTE CUTTING IN ANY WAY