Blinded by the pain
I DO NOT PROMOTE CUTTING OR BULIMIA FOR ANY REASON OR IN ANY FORM
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This chapter is graphic in ways a lot of people would be offended, so be cautious! Very cautious
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Robin attacked the thugs viciously and without mercy, if there was one thing he didn't have any mercy for it was sick people like this. He punched one wielding a glass bottle in the nose, and Robin heard a sickening crack as the nose broke, blood spurted from the criminals nose as he cried in pain, Robin kicked him away and he fell in a load of trash.
Robin looked around him to his teammates; Cyborg and Beastboy were double teaming a group of the thugs. While Raven looked dangerous as she threw the thugs easily, without a ripple of her cloak, only her glowing eyes showing she was doing anything at all. Robin then noticed something…Starfire was no where to be found. As the other titans finished their load and turned to Robin for further instruction.
"What now?" Cyborg asked after he and Beastboy gave each other high fives.
"Team, find Starfire, she's missing. And considering where we are, I don't like it." Robin ordered, a frown gracing his mask.
"Don't worry Rob, we'll find her, besides, she kicks butt!" Beastboy said saluting the boy wonder. As the titans split up Raven stayed where she was…she did not like this one bit.
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Everyone, I had help from D-I-WaRrIa's help on this bit, she's an amazing author and friend, and I advise you read her work. I wasn't too comfortable with this scene, so she wrote a lot of it for me and I added a load and changed a few tiny things. Everyone applaud and love her!
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Starfire whimpered into her captor's mouth as he grasped her top and ripped it away forcefully. She felt so violated, even more so than before. Before she didn't fully comprehend what was going on, but now she knew what his intentions were; now she knew the pain that would come. Now she knew reality.
The thugs grasped her hips and pulled her to bang against him, she flinched as she felt his manhood against her skirt, he bit hard on her lip and she her breath hitched in pain. Hands moved around her body, it was as if he was taking in everything, knowing this was some great privilege, he was taking a titan. She one of his hands grasp her breast and explore it, she couldn't even comprehend the disgust she felt right now. She wanted to kick him away, but she couldn't, she was too weak to stop him and she was too weak to fight.
Her breathing pace quicken as her muscles tensed in fear. The vulgar taste of alcohol still lingering in her mouth, too weak to scream out for help, wallowing in her own self-pity. Though she promised Raven she wouldn't do it again...She couldn't help but be knocked back into her mental alter ego of darkness and mystery...that included old habits...old habits...die hard.
She could have died just now. This perverts disgusting, unclean hands roaming all over her body in a plight for gratification. Occasionally his chapped lips would wonder around her ample breast, sometimes lower than should be put forth. And yet, the worst wasn't over. Hearing him sneer all over her, her auditory senses clouded with the persistent voice in her ear to fight, she almost missed the call of her name...'Robin' she thought down-heartedly.
She tried to croak a response, but her assailant wouldn't have any of it... Impatiently, he threw her to the ground, making a few glass bottles shatter and spray onto her bare back. She felt shards of glass cut into her skin painfully, but she'd been through all this pain before. She tried to crawl away but he crushed her body with his own, the glass cut in worse than before, she saw his leering face before his lips flattened against her bruised ones. She heard the faint unzipping on his trousers, he then grunted and she screamed against him as she felt him enter her forcefully. Sweat and blood mingled as he pulled in and out. She cried hard, pain ripping through her.
Mentally, she pictured her future...her funeral was all she could see. A flash of unwanted colors flooded into her train of thought as she felt the brunt of this stranger's manhood probing at her limits. Her mouth dried rapidly. Her lack of lubrication in her genital area proved to be her down fall, making the process for her more unbearable than necessary...the man grunted as he moved forcefully, demanding all that she could offer. Her salt water crystals fell like waterfalls as he continued to pummel into her.
Before he could make another thrust, he had been ripped away from her shamefully slender body, leaving her open to her unforgiving night air. A velvet-to-the-touch titanium material nestled its way over her figure with two pairs of strong arms hauling her up. Though she may be as far away from her attacker as possible...there was no way in reality that she was away from him in the confides of her mind.
Cyborg gathered the girl in his arms, her breathing came out in sharp gasps, as sweat and tears mixed together on her body, she was covered in a mix of sweat, tears and blood. He felt tears prick at his eyes as she whimpered, her eyes shut tight in a red raw pain that was ripping her lower body to pieces.
He looked to the others, Raven stood there thunderstruck, her eyes showing emotion for the first time in along time. Beastboy had run off, to disgusted and upset, he left greener than usual, no doubt he was coughing up his tofu. As for Robin…the bastard who hurt Star was receiving a world of pain, and none of the titans tried to stop him as he beat the thug senseless, but Robin wouldn't let the bastard loose consciousness, he kept hitting his chest, arms and legs, bruising every time.
Robin was beyond reason; he didn't even hear the advancing police, all he could hear were the cries of pain coming for the rapist, as he beat the life out of him. He only came to his senses when several police officers were wrenching him off him. Robin struggled, shouting and cursing at the bloodied bastard on the ground. Robin had never wanted to kill as much as he did now.
He raped Starfire…RAPED…she was innocence, and this fucking bastard ripped it away from her! I'll kill him…I'LL KILL HIM!
Robin tore from the officers and lunged at the thug, he saw the thug's eyes widen.
"DON'T YOU DARE SCREAM FOR MERCY YOU BASTARD! YOU RAPED HER! YOU PRATICALLY TORE HER TO SHREDS AND NOW I WANT TO RETURN THE FUCKING FAVOUR!"
The officers leapt forward to restrain him; Robin yelled out and kicked the thug in the head, knocking him unconscious. Robin then let himself be led away from the scene. Never, had anyone seen Robin loose it like that. Raven approached Starfire and Cyborg.
"We need to get her away from here now." Raven instructed. Cyborg nodded in response. Raven walked ahead of them, trying to hide the tears that were crawling down her face.
"She's not going to be the same is she?" Cyborg asked.
Raven waited a moment before answering.
"No."
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Raven shed her cloak once she was safe in her room once more. She tried to wipe away the tears, but more replaced them. She paced her room wildly. Starfire had been taken to the infirmary, Raven had to clean her up, obviously, but she told the boys she needed a minute alone.
All the titans were shaken up over this. Robin was seething; he only just escaped arrest himself. Beastboy was not used to seeing this type of thing, and she couldn't blame him for being sickened, she was beyond sickened at this point. Cyborg was pretending to be strong, but Raven could see the pain and tears prick at his eyes as he laid the fragile girl into bed lined with white sheets.
Starfire was awake, the titans knew that, she just wouldn't open her eyes, she couldn't being herself to look at the world, she couldn't being herself to look her friends in the faces, she couldn't live knowing she was more tainted than before. Raven knew what Starfire would want to do, but there was no way she'd let her cut herself up.
But first, Raven's eyes clouded over, she needed to purge.
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Cyborg, Beastboy and Robin stood just outside the infirmary, waiting for Raven, Robin paced, still feeling mad with anger. His eyes were narrowed into slits. Beastboy was pale and looked upset, while Cyborg wore no emotion at all, unable to in fear of crying over his friend. The swishing of the door alerted them of Raven's presence, she was completely hidden within her cloak.
"Err…Raven?" Beastboy said hesitantly. She looked at him, her eyes shadowed. "Did you get a…um…a bigger cloak?"
Raven didn't answer, she turned from the boys and walked silently to the infirmary door, placing her small hand on the pad, there was a beeping sound as the door admitted her entrance, she stepped forward, letting shit with a resounding snap. The boys exchanged looks.
Beastboy scratched his head. "Was it something I said?"
Raven sighed deeply after knowing the door was closed, she approached the shaking huddle of sheets that was presumably Starfire. Raven didn't know what to do or say. She cleared her throat, but Starfire seemed to ignore her completely.
"Starfire?" Raven whispered. A gasp escaped the pile of sheets, letting Raven know Starfire was there. "Starfire?" She repeated. "Please say something."
There was another shuddering gasp.
"It hurts to talk Raven." She whispered, voice sounding defeated, dead. "It…hurts."
Raven walked up to her, sitting on the edge of the bed, obviously this was a bad move, for Starfire shot up, in a blind panic, her eyes huge and fearful. Raven leapt from the bed, trying to keep her cloak in place at all times. Starfire was filthy, he looked almost crazy, and she clutched the blankets like a shield, her hair in disarray, her body covered in different substances.
"Keep away!" She shrieked, tears threatening to fall once again. "Do not touch me…LEAVE ME ALONE!"
Raven then noticed, Starfire wasn't looking at her at all, her eyes were glazed over, she was staring past her. Raven approached the shaking girl with caution. A voice sounded from the door.
"Do you need some help Raven?" It was Beastboy.
"Let me in!" That was Robin.
"I don't think she can handle us at the moment Robin, leave her alone."
"I don't care!"
"Robin!" Raven's voice rose dangerously, Starfire fell forward, hiding in the sheets at the sound of her angry voice. "If you care for Starfire at all, you will not enter."
There was a silence. Raven took this as her cue. She approached Starfire, trying not to alert her of her presence. Suddenly Starfire shot up again, she screamed. She screamed so hard, Raven flinched, Raven felt her ears ring at the sound, Starfire was obviously lost in a memory, a painful memory, and Raven guessed she was reliving the events of tonight. Raven felt tears prick at her eyes.
Why Starfire?
Raven then moved fast, she reached forward and touched Starfire's forehead, the girl's eyes shot open in shock, suddenly her eyes rolled back into her head and she fell back completely unconscious. Raven slumped to the floor beside the bed, breathing deeply. Visions flashed through her mind, just snippets.
She switched hands and ran the knife over her other wrist, she bit her lip as she opened an old scar, she shut her eyes in determination not to cry out as she cut into an artery, she let out a shudder as heard the sound of skin breaking and blood vessels quietly bursting.
FLASH
"What's this?" Slade whispered, the others couldn't hear him but Starfire's eyes widened. He reached for her gloves and she struggled again but another painful squeeze stopped her. He pulled up the end of her wrists guards and for a moment surprise leapt into his eyes as he saw her ugly scars, crossing over each other and bleeding from the pressure he was applying. He let her glove fall back to place then again and stared at her.
"It's always the one you least expect."
FLASH
"Yeah…it's a razor."
"Why is that good? Razors can harm you." Starfire whispered.
"That's the point, it's the perfect weapon." They chuckled softly to themselves. "You only need one." They then started to laugh again, only louder and more hysterical, feeling slightly scared she scooted away from the wall, curled up in a ball again and laid her head on the floor.
The doors of her cell swished open and her eyes flew open as she smelt the familiar scent of him, she curled up tighter, hugging her knees desperately, she wanted to disappear, she needed to fade.
"Hey little alien." He hissed
FLASH
Her mouth dried rapidly. Her lack of lubrication in her genital area proved to be her down fall, making the process for her more unbearable than necessary...the man grunted as he moved forcefully, demanding all that she could offer.
FLASH
Raven's eyes shot open, her hood falling down, showing her bony face, her eyes popping in alarm and she did the only thing she could…
She screamed
She then felt herself being shaken roughly by the shoulders; she snapped back to herself, she took a shuddering breath. She'd felt it all, she felt as though the thug had been pummeling into her, she'd felt the blood pour, she'd felt Slade's hands wrapped around her wrists. Her eyes slowly focused, she looked into Beastboy's worried eyes. His eyes were wide as he looked at her face, taking every bone that her skin stuck to, having no meat or fat to cushion it anymore.
"Raven…"
Robin wrapped Starfire's form in more blankets, she hadn't been cleaned up, even in unconsciousness she looked like she was in pain, she looked terrible, and he felt every bit of guilt fall onto his shoulders. She was part of his team and he'd failed her, he didn't protect her.
"Starfire, I'm so sorry."
Somehow, Starfire heard those words, and they only pained her more, they brought words into her head, dark words.
I feel myself slip into slumber,
Don't wake me up.
Slumber of darkness, of nightmares,
Don't wake me up.
For to long life hasn't been fair.
So don't wake me up.
Leave me shivering on the cold floor,
Don't wake me up.
I don't want a blanket to chase away the cold,
Don't wake me up.
I want the nothingness of sleep to unfold,
So don't wake me up.
Let my skin slowly pale,
Don't wake me up.
Let my mind slowly slip away,
Don't wake me up,
I never want to see the light of day,
So don't wake me up.
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