Blinded by the pain

I DO NOT PROMOTE CUTTING OR BULIMIA FOR ANY REASON OR IN ANY FORM

FLAMING AND BASHING IS BAD! DON'T DO IT OR I'LL BASH YOU! BWAHA!

Official warning: Author cannot be blamed if readers get stuck in an evil grin…don't blame me! You read the story!

And when you can taste blood in your mouth while reading this…well then…you're bleeding

Um…sorry if I'm making anyone sad and disgusted…just as long as your enjoying the story that's all that matters yeah?...yeah?

And don't talk to me about pudding...I'M ON A DIET PPL! STOP TORTURING ME!

Uh…well…um…I'm not going to answer that question, they might both die...please keep the genre of the story in mind, only 2 people no how this is going to end, go bug them!

Ah yes, the black things, I was quite proud when I thought up those for her delusions. The memories Raven saw pushed her over the edge, she was always on the line with her bulimia and her delusions of evil, but the memories just made her mind break. Star's not delusional, she's just experiencing trauma from her experiences and the Robin thing I added because I wanted to end all hope of romance in this story…because I'm nice.

Well Robin came close to killing him…he's not in hell…YET! Yay for insanity! It's so cool!

It was tragic wasn't it, yes! My goal is hit! I bought sum new technology…but you still have more!

I wouldn't get your hopes up guy's hehe,

Now after reading this, you review and then you go read D-I-WaRrIa's new one-shot, My Provocative Kiss of Revenge

It's amazing, if you think vampires are cool, then you'll love it all the more, if you don't like vampires you'll love it anyway…I LOVE YOU RED X!

And in this chapter

Bold: Starfire's memories

Italic: Raven's memories

OK?

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I'm not

I'm not wasting away,

I'm simply loosing weight.

I'm not dying a little day by day,

I'm just realizing my fate.

My heart isn't weeping,

It has to concentrate on beating.

My body isn't weak,

It just doesn't want to move.

My skin isn't ripping,

It's just not smooth.

I'm not screaming,

Because I know I'm not aloud.

I'm not dreaming,

Because I've forgotten how

I'm not purging,

Because I know that it's bad.

I'm not telling the truth,

Because I didn't want to make you sad

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Raven clutched her head as pain ripped through it, she gasped as she saw memories, dribbles of thoughts, flashes of the past, hers and Starfire's had molded together in her head and she couldn't take it.

You're nothing but a portal…a portal of evil.

"You're nothing but an experiment, I could rip you to pieces and no one would care, your own sister left you, all you are is an object until we're done with you, then we'll probably get rid of you."

"Or are you just mad that your friends liked me more than they did you?"

Her eyes widened, blood had started to seep from her glove, she moved her hands to rest behind her back, she would usually jump at the chance to watch the sun set, especially with Robin.

"Or is it that deep down, you really thought I was you're friend?"

Raven's eyes shot open, various objects exploding around her, tears fell from her eyes, leaving trails. She slammed her hands to the floor, and hit them against the carpet.

"Make…it…STOP!" She screamed, as the pain still ripped through her, she was beating at her floor as if it was the one who was hurting her, her room was tearing it's self apart in flashes and orbs of black, her screams and sobs echoing around her as she kneeled in the center of it all.

"Raven please! RAVEN!" Beastboy screamed, tears falling furiously. He was banging furiously at her door, only hearing the chaos inside.

Raven screamed as she looked at herself, her leotard was crawling with the maggots and insects. She tore at her clothes, ripping them as she went.

"GET OFF OF ME! GET OUT ME…PLEASE!"

Raven scratched viciously at her skin, red marks left by her nails scared her body, her eyes were alight with madness, and her breaths were coming out in sharp gasps. She tore at her hair, dragging it out and throwing it to the floor.

"I'm dirty, I'm impure...they won't go away...THE IMPURITIES WON'T GO AWAY!"

She bent over, and forced her fingers into her mouth, retching she felt more bile rise, and litter her floor, she watched it, her mind making it look like black crawling worms, she screamed. But she then coughed, falling to her knees, she coughed hard, she saw blood land onto her floor, she felt it dribble down her chin, she smelt the stench of bile mixed with blood on her floor.

Beastboy roared in frustrating, hoping he wouldn't pay dearly for this later he transformed into a gorilla and pounded his huge fists against the door, ripping it clean off. He transformed back and froze at the sight. Raven's room was chaos, already he had to dive to the ground to dodge her possessions that were taking lives of their own. Raven was in the center of it all, her costume ripped, scratches littered her skin, and she was still scratching at it furiously, as if trying to scrub something off of her. Purple hair was around her, bald patches on her head showing where they'd came from. The worst was the rest of her though; with her costume ripped he could see every bone, as if they were trying to rip out of her pale skin, every bump of the back bone defined, her hip bones dangerously sticking out, and her arms almost as thin as Robin's bo-staff.

The site of her made his tears fall more furiously, his friend was tearing herself apart. She looked up at him, her eyes narrowed to mere pupils; she looked insane, beyond reason. She crawled back slightly, hiding her body.

"Get out of my ROOM!" She screeched, throwing out one hand, he was pushed back by her powers slightly. But he was still alive so that was good. He took a step towards her.

"Raven! Please, you're one of my best friends, listen to me, you need to calm down, you're going to wreak the tower!"

"I don't have friends." She whispered. "I don't deserve them…I'm unclean…I am evil."

"No you're not! We proved that when you defeated Trigon! Please Raven snap out of it! You need help now."

"I don't need help! I'm getting rid of the impurities."

"You're wasting away!" Beastboy shouted.

"I'M NOT!"

"Raven…forgive me." Beastboy muttered. He then transformed into a wolf and pounced at the insane girl, he landed on her, pushing her back into to floor, she screamed in protest, her room's possessions flying more furiously. He carried on pinning her down, he then transformed back into himself. "Raven snap out of it!"

The man grunted as he moved forcefully, demanding all that she could offer. Her salt water crystals fell like waterfalls as he continued to pummel into her.

"GET OFF ME!"

Beastboy was thrown back by a huge blast of energy, he was thrown into her empty book case, (all its books were flying around the room) it fell on top of him before he even had a chance to scream.

Cyborg came running to the scene, his eyes widened at the sight of Raven, and he then spotted Beastboy's green hand from under the bookcase.

"BB!" He shouted, he took out his sonic cannon and shot the bookcase into pieces, Beastboy rolled over, groaning.

"Rae…Raven." He muttered, his eyes barely open. Cyborg turned to the insane girl as she clutched her head, her teeth bared and her eyes squeezed shut as if in pain. Cyborg turned his canon on her, turning down the frequency.

"Sorry Rae."

A burst of blue light hit Raven's stomach, she shot back onto her back, unconscious, all the objects dropped to the floor, but Cyborg didn't breath easy. He called up Robin on his arm phone, calling to the other side of the tower.

"Robin it's urgent."

"I can't leave Starfire." Robin replied.

"She'll be fine, she's not going anywhere, but I got problems, Raven went insane, I mean insane Robin, and BB got hit by her bookcase in the crossfire, I need you here now!"

Robin sighed. "Fine." He then hung up.

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The bleeding had stopped after awhile, her sheets had red stains all over them, but since when did she ever care for them. She looked down at her freshly opened scars and breathed deeply, she felt terrible, she saw the look of sadness that Robin had worn as he left her…and it hurt her even more than her scars.

Starfire didn't hear Robin's retreating footsteps, because really, she felt as though someone's presence was there. Little did she know…

There was.

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Robin looked at the scene, Raven's room was a wreck, and Beastboy was sitting on what was left of Raven's bed, Raven lying unconscious beside him. Cyborg was checking Beastboy for injuries. Robin was over whelmed by what Raven had done to herself; Cyborg had now covered her body, not wanting to see it. Neither knew what had caused her insanity, but it had now been at least an hour and Raven would not wake up.

"Why won't she wake up?" Beastboy asked worriedly. Cyborg sighed as he scanned her.

"Well…her brain shows fatal damage, I was right about the insanity…the anorexia might've caused that."

"She kept saying she was unclean and evil." Beastboy interrupted.

"That's probably what her insanity was based around." Robin said his arms crossed.

"How can you seem so calm Robin, Starfire was raped and Raven's gone insane! Do you have no heart?" Beastboy snarled at the masked boy. Robin's eyes flashed behind his mask.

"Don't ever say that again, just because I'm not freaking out all over the place doesn't mean I don't have a heart Beastboy. This is fucking ripping me apart, so shut up for once in your life Beastboy!"

Beastboy looked at the ground, his eyes filled up with tears again. What was happening to the titans?

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Starfire looked around her, her eyes wide, she was terrified. Someone was there but she couldn't see them, and what she couldn't see could hurt her…or worse.

"Who…who is there?"

She felt eyes on her back and she spun around to see nothing. Tears started to fall from her eyes, she whimpered.

"Please…leave me alone…" Someone chuckled darkly and Starfire drew back from the shadows that surrounded her, sobbing quietly.

"I always thought your deepest fear was to be alone Princess."

The chuckling grew louder and grew so it was all around her, boring down on her frail body, she sobbed, she knew that voice, and she knew he would come sooner or later.

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