Blinded by the pain

I DO NOT PROMOTE CUTTING OR BULIMIA FOR ANY REASON OR IN ANY FORM.

FLAMING AND BASHING IS BAD! DON'T DO IT OR I'LL BASH YOU! BWAHA!

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I'm sorry if I make anyone feel sick O.O I don't mean to! Okay…I do a teeny weenie bit! It's fun!

You find out who the bad guy is in this chapter YAHOO! And also this is one of the last few chapters…bless!

I got 14 reviews…Meh it'll do, but please next time REVIEW! Or I'll be forced to have chocolate instead; n then it's all your faults if I don't become skinny!

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She killed the alien dude (see chapter 3) it's someone else, I thought it would be obvious…Meh

Le sigh, I didn't get my wanted number, but it was close! Hmm…I think I have some more technology now…but you still have most of it! Yes you've been publicized! Did it work?

I'm going regret telling you where I live aren't I :S

Yes…they're all dying…but will they die! Hehe. And with all the dying I don't think any fluff is possible…check out my other story for romance though! I need pudding:'(

Yes I do enjoy my cliffhangers! BWAHA!

Star's still alive after all this, because Raven keeps healing her, shee! Plus you can stop the bleeding if you put enough pressure on the cuts.

I don't know the song sorry! How ever I did listen to the spill canvas, during writing this!

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Starfire's eyes shot open and she span around, her hair hitting her in the face, irritating her many cuts, she held the sheet around her like a shield, and it was protecting the all she had left of her dignity. Her eyes widened as her eyes fell onto the site before her.

The aura of arrogance hung around him as always, his hands clasped behind his back…

And that single eyes peering out of that mask.

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An uncomfortable silence was hanging in the ruin of Raven's bedroom; Beastboy was looking around at anything, trying to find reassurance anywhere. She had to be okay, she was one of his best friends, and he couldn't loose her.

"We should move her to the infirmary." Cyborg's voice broke the silence. Robin nodded simply and walked out the door without a word. Cyborg gathered the girl up in his arms…his heart dropped, remembering the other titan he had to carry to the infirmary, there was something going on with the female titans at the moment, and he didn't know the cause, this scared him.

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"My…somehow your condition has grown worse since our last meeting my dear…last time it was scars littering your arms…and now look, what happened…fall in some glass?" Slade sneered, his aura of arrogance was suffocating Starfire, she scrambled back, her eyes widening further.

"Y…You!" He whispered, her breathing quickened, it hurt her throat but she ignored it. Slade chuckled once more.

"Yes me, I made it my mission to break the heart of the titans, the happy one." Starfire winced, only Slade could make that an insult. "And I only knew one way how to break a girl such as you." She could sense a smirk behind that mask, or maybe an insane grin, as tears formed in her eyes. "I sent the gang and told them to draw the titans…somehow, and it worked perfectly." He finished his voice almost in a purr.

Starfire's hands curled into fist, her breath turning into forced sobs, trying to push all her feelings into anger, her eyes glowed slightly, the sheet still wrapped securely around her, and she gave a cruel laugh.

"I should have known!" She choked out, her voice strained. "Only you would do something so horrid, or despicable!" Tears streamed down her cheeks. Slade laughed at her anger.

"You think I'm leaving it at this." He took a step towards her. "I'm only just getting started."

He was right in front of her before she had time to cry out, he grabbed the hand grasping the sheet around her and pulled it towards him, she flew with it, she crashed into his body, her body still aching, she cried out now, he forced her around so she had her back to him, he placed a hand on her collarbone and ran a finger along it, she whimpered quietly. He reached up and moved her hair from her face and moved them around so they were facing the door. He placed a gloved hand on her back, causing her to flinch as he cut into the cuts the glass caused. He applied pressure, his other hand keeping her from moving.

He moved to whisper in her ear, "now…let Robin know I'm here."

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Robin, Beastboy and Cyborg who was still carrying Raven made their way up to the infirmary, all were still silent, Beastboy walked a short way ahead of Robin, walking at a fast pace.

"Can't you hurry up?" He snapped, turning to face them.

"Beastboy, we'll get there when we get there, cool it." Cyborg replied quietly, Robin still remained silent.

"Well the things eating Raven aren't going to wait are they!" Beastboy snarled. Cyborg's eyes narrowed dangerously.

"Beastboy, I really suggest you don't say another word until we get Raven into the infirmary." Cyborg growled. Beastboy frowned and turned to walk at a faster pace. Cyborg's gaze slipped to Robin, who was walking, his head tilting downwards, he'd never seen the boy so…down.

Suddenly Robin's head snapped up and then a second later a scream echoed throughout the tower, Robin knew that scream to well, he was gone before Beastboy could ask what that was. Cyborg saw the bottom of Robin's cape disappear around a corner and he and Beastboy were after him without a beat.

Robin's eyes were bulging behind his mask, he couldn't let anything else happen to her, he promised her…he promised. But what Robin saw as he burst through the infirmary doors nearly made his heart stop. Anything to do with Starfire always pushed his emotions over the edge…but if you throw in Slade in that mix…things get a whole lot worse.

Robin was caught, he didn't know whether to call out to Starfire, or growl Slade's name like a curse, so he decided to stare in astonishment. And then talk.

"No…" His voice sounded fearful, and that wasn't good.

"Robin, I told you I was back Robin…what did you think I'd leave your friends alone?"

"Let Starfire go…NOW!" Robin snarled. Robin's eyes were fixed on Slade's mask, Starfire's face was frozen in fear, she was stuck in between two powerful men, and her fragile mind was going into overdrive. Her heart was telling her that Robin would save her, and he'd never hurt her, but Slade's hold on her was making her brain scream in alarm.

"Tut tut Robin, where are the manners in teenagers these days." Slade sneered. Robin practically shook in rage. Cyborg and Beastboy ran through the door, Raven still unconscious, both gasped and made their own exclamations of amazement and anger.

"Slade…leave her out of this, she's been through enough." Robin said, a fearful look flashed through his face for an instant. Slade chuckled.

"Oh…I know all about that."

"What are you saying Slade?" Robin demanded. Slade laughed harder at the titan's anger. The expression in his eyes said it all.

"You sick bastard!" Beastboy spat angrily.

"Ro…Robin?" Starfire whispered. "He…he's hurting me."

Robin's heart stung as those words hit him harder than Slade ever could. Robin's hands clenched dangerously, he was ready to fight Slade, in fact he was eager, but he couldn't risk Slade hurting her, or her panicking if she showed violence. She was too fragile.

"Starfire, I won't let him hurt you." Robin tried to reassure her, as if they were alone, her eyes shone in her own misery, she didn't believe him, he knew that. But it was either scare her…or let Slade have her. He pulled into a fighting stance. "Let her go." He growled at Slade. "I won't let you harm her."

"Robin…I won't be hurting her." Slade purred, his hold on Starfire tightened and he drew her into her, causing her face contort in fear. "She'll be hurting herself…as always."

Robin's face looked puzzled, and Starfire couldn't bring herself to look at him, he didn't understand, he couldn't, and she knew Slade wouldn't say anything else, he'd let Robin drive himself crazy in wanting to know. One of Slade's hands moved towards his belt and Starfire knew she'd be leaving her friends, her gaze moved to Raven, Raven had been found out…she couldn't let Slade tell her friends, she had to.

"Anything to say to you're friends my dear?" Slade whispered to her friends, he released one of her arms, the other applying more pressure.

"I…I am sorry my friends." Starfire whispered, her eyes met each of her friends individually. "I have not been innocent for along time." Another tear fell and she wondered how she still had any left to cry. She clenched her eyes shut. "I am sorry." She whispered. She pulled out one of her arms slowly from the sheet; they watched her with confusion and worry. She opened her eyes as she turned her bloody wrists towards them and their individual reactions hit her.

Mixes of shock, anger, confusion, worry, sadness filled the room, it was almost unbearable. She felt Slade grip her wrist and she cried out as she hit against his chest again. She looked at Robin, not being able to see his eyes she only saw him stare in astonishment. Like time had slowed down she didn't hear Slade speak again as she looked at him, apologies were written in her eyes. Then almost as if someone had pressed the play button, Robin started to run towards her, she saw his mouth move, but no sound reached her ear, as everything…turned to black.

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Robin hit the infirmary floor where Slade and Starfire once stood, he hit the tiles, almost denting them, she roared out in anger. He hit the ground again and again, the fabric of his gloves rubbing against the forming bruises. His forehead hit the floor softly and he breathed in and out, sobs then rattled his frame. Cyborg laid Raven on a bed, then walking over to Robin; he placed a hand on his back.

"Rob…" He began, but Robin cut him off. Beastboy watched them, eyes huge in terror.

"How did we not know…?" He cried. "How Cyborg?"

"She was…always so happy." Cyborg said quietly. "How were we to notice?"

"She was cutting herself Cyborg, ripping herself apart every time the razor, or knife or whatever cut through her skin…HOW COULD WE NOT NOTICE!"

"I don't know Robin ok! This is a shock to all of us, not just you." Cyborg replied, anger edging his voice.

"You don't understand Cyborg! I…I loved her." A tear escaped Robin's mask. "I loved her." He whispered. Cyborg and Beastboy shared a look. Robin beat his hands upon the ground one final time before climbing to his feet.

"Where're you going?" Beastboy asked. Robin didn't turn to him on his way out.

"To find her," Was his only answer before he disappeared out the door.

"Should…we follow?" Cyborg asked, for once feeling lost.

"I…I mean we…Raven needs us." Beastboy whispered, tears leaking from his emerald eyes. Cyborg nodded, he turned to a computer behind him and started to type furiously. And he prayed to god that Starfire would be found before…he could hurt herself.

Keep praying Cyborg…that's the only way you can help either of them right now

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Hehe…don't blame me for my evilness…it's a good ending to the chapter! Now…REVIEW! DON'T BE SO LAZY!

Luvz ya

Valda

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