Blinded by the pain
I DO NOT PROMOTE CUTTING OR BULIMIA FOR ANY REASON OR IN ANY FORM.
FLAMING AND BASHING IS BAD! DON'T DO IT OR I'LL BASH YOU! BWAHA!
IF YOU'RE GOING TO READ MY WORK THEN FRICKING REVIEW! IS IT THAT HARD, OR ARE YOU ALL THAT LAZY! I DO LOOK AT MY HITS; I KNOW HOW MANY PEOPLE READ ME!
Um people one thing…I'm going to dedicate this hopefully tear jerking chapter to two amazing authors! They're both very talented, and one is a friend of mine, so I want to you all go read and review their work…and love them as much as I do…YOU TWO ROCK! So the final two chapters are to them! I hope you enjoy it girls!
D-I-WaRrIa
Audigirl
Everyone love them…LOVE THEM! I know I do!
ME! A pro? Awwww shucks! Fancoo! Te he, I'm all bashful now! Go me!
Yes the story is almost over…so get ready to cry…go grab your hankies…or your teddy bears…or your cushions, even your sponges, meh but my goal is for someone to cry…hehe
The death of one? Well…maybe 1 maybe none…maybe both…
How many times can you die? Seriously! And sorry if the ending kills anyone else, it's not intentional honest!
No chocolate for 4 weeks! Damn, my diet even includes 1 bar a week! Lol veggies are becoming ebul in my eyes…EBUL!
OH YEAH! Hehe, of course Robin loves her! I can't write a story without Star and Rob love…IT'S NOT POSSIBLE FOR ME! Sorry about the mistake
Yes…the truth hurts! Especially when it's a truth like THAT! I had my gun ready…Valentines Day didn't stand a chance
Slade is ebul, but I kind of think that's what makes him cool!
I loved the song! It was amazing, actually I love the band now lol so thanks for the recommendation! I would use it, but I don't like to use songs in my fics incase someone doesn't know the song, plus…I have the scene planned out, and the song doesn't fit, but I still loved it!
SORRY! I'm so sorry about the late update, but I just got back from my holiday in Germany last night, so hopefully this chapter should make it up to you all.
Get your tissues ready…
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Beastboy paced behind Cyborg as he typed furiously into the infirmary's main computer, statistics flew past the screen to fast for Beastboy to take in, but Cyborg didn't seem to have a problem keeping up. Beastboy paced the same route over and over. He had to keep busy. He couldn't think about it…he just couldn't. One of his best friends was in that infirmary eating away at herself, literally. And the other was taken by an insane criminal after being raped and revealing she was in fact stuck in an obsession of self-harm…he couldn't take it.
He looked at Cyborg, he was still typing and reading over complicated files, but Beastboy could easily see the tear that was running from his human eye over his metal cheek. Surviving was what the titan's did best, but they didn't seem to be doing so well. One was dying, one was hiding it all in work, one was planning to take it out on Slade, one was…well she was practically killing herself, and him? He was pacing.
"Beastboy?" Cyborg's voice was all it took for Beastboy was stop pacing; he turned to his large friend, a look of desperation in his eyes.
"What do you know?" Beastboy asked automatically, he didn't want anything to do with small talk or sympathy, for once Beastboy wanted nothing but the business.
"Beastboy…she's…she's dying, you know that right?"
"Obviously Cyborg! But can we save her?" Beastboy answered anger edging every word, even if he didn't mean for it.
"Yeah, and I've given her the medication…but she's not accepting her, she's fighting…Beastboy…Garfield, I…I don't think she wants to live."
"Of course she does Cyborg! She made a mistake becoming like this, but that doesn't mean she wants to die!" Beastboy argued, not wanting to hear this.
"Then why else Beastboy? Why would she starve herself, Beastboy my stats say she's been forcing her food back up, there's bruising in her throat, she's bulimic! She can't even take food at the moment, she stomach doesn't know how! Who would do something like that if they were happy?"
"I don't believe you!" Beastboy shouted, he couldn't…she couldn't…she couldn't do that to him.
"Don't believe then! Stay in your world full of happiness, jokes and sunshine, but this is reality, where people feel ugly so they do horrible, stupid things to themselves, in reality people are raped, in reality people die Beastboy and that is what's happening right now. Every one of those horrible truths are crashing down on your lovely little reality and you need to see that!" Cyborg snapped, his eye narrowed, his mechanical eye seemed to glow more brightly, and his body tense. Beastboy stood there, his eyes wide and his mouth slightly open, his world did come crashing down on him, he didn't want to smile anymore…there was no point. Cyborg calmed down and placed a brotherly hand on Beastboy's shoulder.
"What…what's going to happen, I'm scared for them Cyborg." Beastboy whispered, he sounded and looked defeated, his eyes glowing with tears that needed to be shed.
"Give her reason to want to carry on Beastboy, because I think you're the only one who can…give Raven a reason to live, and maybe she will."
Beastboy nodded solemnly, a determined look in his eyes now; he turned away from his friend, hoping he was right. Because right now, he needed Raven to live just as much as she probably wanted to die.
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Robin's R-cycle roared as it tore down a road in down town Jump city, he was taking in everything, his cycle was being pushed to it's limits as he revved it through small ally-ways, looking for any gangs, he pulled the bike into a skid and climbed off as a few men came into his line of sight. He approached them, but none seemed to notice him yet, so he took this as an opportunity.
He'd learnt that the best way to get information was out of fear, so he decided to scare the criminals in the way he'd been taught to by his teacher, Batman. He grappled to the roof of the building, anger had turned the world to red, he wanted these criminals to be as afraid as he was for his best friend right at that moment. He then shot his hook to a long pole that connected the two blocks of flats; he then lowered himself so he was about 10ft above the men.
His eyes narrowed considerably as one of the men laughed at something the other one had said. He then flexed his hands to make sure he was ready. Then he shot down on the line, grabbing one of the men, he couldn't even make a sound before Robin knocked him out…quite painfully. The other was still laughing stupidly, before he realized his friend was gone.
"…Fred…?" The man grunted in confusion. Robin chose this moment to jump down dramatically, giving the man a frightening glare.
"Fred's not here right now…but I was hoping for a word." Robin growled, the man's eyes widened before he scrambled back, and then turning to run. Most thugs were stupid enough to run into ally-ways, where they could be easily followed, and this one was no different.
The man ran as fast as his legs could carry him, he hadn't committed any crimes today, so why Robin was after him he didn't know! He looked behind him and slowed down as he saw an empty ally-way behind him. He sighed in relief; he then turned around, only to fall back onto his fairly round ass. Robin loomed over him, a scowl on his mask, for a teenager he could look very…dangerous.
"Don't move or you might find a bird-a-rang in a place I'm sure you appreciate." Robin growled menacingly, holding a small red weapon in his right hand. The man nodded feverishly in reply. Robin didn't move or put away his weapon, he just stared down the man.
"What do you know about Slade?" The hero began.
"Nothing." He man said hurriedly. A smirk flashed across the teen's features and he saw a flash of red, he look down to see a sharp bird shaped object wedged in the ground between the man's legs, very near to his manhood.
"Opps," Robin sneered, a small smile on his lips, it looked quite insane with his scowl. "I missed." The man's face contorted in fear. "I'll ask again, what do you know about Slade?"
The man gulped. "O…only that he practically owns the criminals in Jump."
"Anything else, because a police officer could even figure that out. Where is his base of operations?" Robin replied becoming impatient.
"Uh…I think I heard about an old club basement…" Robin pulled out another weapon and the man screwed his eyes shut in dread. "Wilson's I think it was called."
When the pain never came he slowly opened his eyes, the weapon between his legs was gone, a small hole in the ground told him it had been there, Robin was also gone, a roar of motorcycle wheels echoed around the area and the man knew Robin wouldn't be coming back to arrest him.
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Beastboy walked through the doorway and paused as he saw her lying there, she looked so small and fragile, as he approached her bed he was afraid he'd break her if he touched her pale hands. He drew up a chair and settled into her. It took him a moment to draw the courage up to take her hand, but he did, it was small compared to his own and it was cold…so cold.
"Beast…boy?" Her voice made him wince, it sounded so small, like a lost child who had just found their parent and was unsure whether it was real or not.
"Yeah Rae?" Beastboy whispered, his tears threatening to fall, he hated to see her like this, she was supposed to be the untouchable Raven…so strong, but now it seemed a simple squeeze on her hand would shatter it.
"Are…you really…there?" Raven whispered. "I…thought that…I was…alone." Beastboy felt a tear escape its prison.
"You're never alone Raven, you…you can't get rid of me that easily." He said lamely. Raven tried to give him a weak smile.
"I'm…I'm so tired." She whispered.
"Raven…please don't…you know, fight us, we need you to stay with us."
"Us?"
"Me and Cyborg, we're trying to help you, but you have to let us."
"…something…is telling me to…let go Beastboy, different memories, some aren't even mine…but they all say the same thing, give…up." Raven said weakly, her eyes half shut, Beastboy gave a gentle squeeze on her hand causing her to stay with him.
"Raven…please." Beastboy whispered.
"I'm…not good enough…I'm impure, the…the evil, it is…always there, making me…ugly…I thought…maybe that…I…I…could expel it…but…it didn't…work, I…I knew about it all, Starfire, I healed…and healed…but…but I couldn't…even heal…myself."
"Let me heal you Raven, I'll always be beside you, just pull through this."
"I…just…wanted to be…beautiful." She whispered, tears fell from both their eyes.
"And you can be…just let me help you."
"Beastboy...am...am I...beau...beautiful now?" Raven asked weakly, her hand hanging in his.
Beastboy gulped before whispering. "You always were"
"But…it's…it's still there…the voices…they hurt…me."
"Please Raven, I need you to pull through this...I need you"
Raven tried to give a weak smile. "I...I wish I could be who
You want Beastboy...but I'm not, I need to start again...I...I need...to be pure."
"No…Raven…" He was lost in his tears; he put his head next to hers on her pillow. "No…"
"Thank you…you…you were the…best friend…I…ever…had…"
"No…no…no…"
She gently closed her eyes, giving in to her tiredness, she felt her pain slip away, the voices drifted away like leaves on the river, she felt her fly away from her body. She saw Beastboy next to her, crying, almost howling in misery. She would miss him more than anyone. But she needed to move on. And as she drifted away from her life as Raven…only then did she realize…she was always pure.
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Starfire opened her eyes slowly, she got up to kneel on the hard cold floor; her breathing came out in front of her in condensed air. Her sheet wrapped around her and little else, shadows surrounded her, her eyes flew from one nothing to another, scared out of her mind.
"Poor little alien."
Starfire's eyes widened, but she remained silent wishing she could disappear.
"Poor little alien, scars litter her arms, to caught up in her own world, causing herself harm. Poor little alien innocence torn away…poor little alien." His voice grew to a whisper, and she was aware of his presence right behind her. "Who wishes any day was her last day."
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sniff sniff I thought it was sad…how about you? Bye bye Raven…:'(
Valda
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