CHAPTER 2

WITHOUT YOU

Hey you guys sorry it has been so long. Here is your long overdue update!

Martins P.O.V:

Great another day! I know I should be happy but I'm not. I love my kid and I love Sandy but I will never love her the way I love Ruthie.

"Hey baby," Sandy said as she leaned over and gave me a kiss on the cheek with baby Aaron in her arms.

"Good morning," I replied faking a smile.

"Well I have to go and get to work," I told her quickly making a quick exit.

" Ok bye sweetie see ya tonight," Sandy asked as more of a question than a statement.

"Yea," I replied non enthusiastically while walking out the door.

I know she has to know that I'm just not feeling the same about us anymore, but I can't find the heart to tell her that I'm not happy. But I have responsibilities and I should have never been that careless. Quickly I got into my Element and opened the glove department where I found what I had been looking for. God! She looked so happy. Her brown curls and those eyes, God I miss her. If only I could see her again. I don't know what to do with her, but this is my life now.

Finally I turned on the radio to try and let go of this and just focus on the day ahead, but just my luck Ne-Yo with So Sick came out of the speakers. Finally I stopped fighting it and just listened to the song and think about what used to be and what never can be.

Ruthies P.O.V:

"Ruthie time to get up," mom said as she peered into my room.

Slowly I got out of bed and took a shower. I curled my hair and put on a pair of jeans and a brown and blue short sleeve shirt with my sperry's and walked out to my car. I guess I figure if I still put all of my energy into looking good and acting the same infront of everyone than no one will notice that I still can't get over him. I just don't think I can stand to be without him forever!

"There it is," I said as I clutched onto the one thing that meant the most to me. It was a picture of us. We had taken back in the spring around the flowers on the park bench. I sat on his lap and let my curls fall in my face, but that was then this is now. Looking at it now somehow makes me sad that I know it will never be that good again.

Either in the next chapter or the one after the tragedy will be coming. And be patient there is Ruthin sure to come. And sorry this chapter sucked and sorry about not updating my aunt and uncle have been in the hospital and we have nine week exams this week.

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Much Love,

Em