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Alex ran a hand through her brown hair. What she was doing was dangerous and stupid, it was bad enough that she had come to new York city, now she was going to have dinner with Cragen, Huang, her friends and the woman who had replaced her. Huang would definitely figure out the truth and Cragen would follow his lead.
Her thoughts shifted to Munch, she knew he had figured it out, after all he always seemed to pick up this things, only he wouldn't tell. She couldn't say the same for the Huang and Cragen though.
Alex glanced at Bethany's mother, May who was looking dreamily out the window. Alex wondered what was going on in May's head; she had a sad look in her gray eyes and has always was silent. May was very different from her daughter. Bethany was a very intelligent and strong willed girl, with piercing dark green eyes and long flowing brown hair. She was skinny and small for her age, but Alex figured she made up for it with her intelligence, and personality and after all she had time to grow.
May on the other hand a skinny and fragile woman, her gray eyes seemed to echo a certain sadness that was inside of her and her short blonde hair appeared messy. She was quiet and didn't walk with the same self assured walk has her daughter.
Bethany entered the room has she walked by her mother Alex noticed her eyes momentarily flash with hatred. She noticed Alex and gave a small smile before continuing on her way. Alex noticed how much Bethany seemed to resemble her father Derek whom she had dated for many years. Derek had those same perfect and symmetrical green eyes as his daughter, and his brown long brown hair had also been the same color as Bethany's.
Derek had always been careful to hide his hatred, "It's best not to get anyone hating you back, I've found over the years that having people have this funny way of screwing over those they hate." He laughed after he finished. Alex remembered what Derek had said and thinking about the hatred in Bethany's eyes has she passed her mother and how well she concealed it Alex wondered weather she had learned to do so from her father.
Derek…I loved him, Alex thought, she had always wondered what had become of him I
She still found it odd to think he was dead.
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Munch and Fin were doing paperwork, at they're desk.
"So what do you think of Alex coming back from witness protection?" Munch asked Fin, wondering weather or not Fin shared the same suspicions as him.
"I dunno, it all seems a little fishy to me."
"I have a feeling Alex isn't telling us the truth."
"You think she's still under witness protection then?"
"Yeah I think she somehow must have manage to come here for a visit, but I don't know how she tricked witness protection." Munch said.
"Alex the ADA didn't strike me as a liar, but anyways I heard that Alex is coming to diner with us and tha others t'night." Fin commented.
"Yeah I see where you're going, Huang and Cragen will definitely be able to tell if she lying or not."
"Exactly, meaning soon enough well learn the truth."
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Alex paced around the guest room nervously anticipating the dinner. How could she have been so stupid? Huang would figure her out, and soon witness protection would have her moved again, they probably wouldn't let her have any human contact after this.
"Hello" came a voice interrupting Alex's train of thought.
"Oh hi Bethany."
"Are you ok you look kind of ill."
"Yes I'm fine just nervous for tonight."
Bethany smiled, "Oh yeah…"
"It's strange, before my shooting, I would have never done anything this stupid, if witness protection finds out about this than I'm in trouble and…if my friends find out I was lying I…" Alex trailed off, thinking of Olivia, what would she say if after thinking Alex had returned then finding out it was a lie? Alex knew Olivia would find out sooner or later but she didn't want to be around when she did.
"It will be fine and if you're worried about you're friends feelin' hurt then don't be, you're friends will miss you when you're gone, they wont really have time to be mad or anything."
"I hope you're right."
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Olivia smiled thinking of the diner, it would be nice be have the entire precinct with her. Her colleagues were like family to her, and although Alex had left long ago, she was still part of that family and it wouldn't be the same without her.
But Alex was also her best friend and she missed her so much, it made her really happy that she had returned, and for good, she didn't know if she could handle loosing her again.
In all her happiness for seeing Alex again it had never occurred to Olivia that Alex could be lying, never would Alex the ADA and her best friend lie to her.
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Alex decided she need to catch some sleep so she set her alarm to wake her up in an hour.
Dream:
Alex hovered over Olivia who along with a crowd of her other close friends were watching something intently.
Alex squeezed past Olivia to try and get a better look; she was terrified at what she saw. She Alexandra Cabot was being lowered in a casket into the ground. Her blue eyes stared blankly up towards the heavens, why wasn't her casket closed?
"What's going on, who is she, Olivia, Olivia?" Alex asked trying to shake Olivia, but she wouldn't budge, it was as if she didn't even realize that Alex was right there. Olivia's eyes remained focused on the body being lowered into the ground.
Alex gave up and turned her attention back to the body being lowered into the ground, I'm a ghost she thought, I'm dead that really is me.
Ants were crawling out of her body's nose and mouth, and slowly before her eyes her body began to decay until there was nothing left but bones.
Olivia turned and looked in the direction of Alex, only she seemed to be looking right through Alex.
"This time Alex really is dead." Olivia said softly.
Alex awoke with a start to the sound of her alarm clock bipping, her body was drenched with sweat. Olivia's last words in her dream and the image of ants crawling out of her nose and mouth has her body decay still lingered in her mind.
Tears spilled from her eyes, she tried to stop herself from crying but she couldn't.
Bethany walked into the room upon hearing Alex's sobs. "Alex what's wrong?" She sat down beside Alex and rapped her arms around her, "It's ok, it's ok." She said trying to sound comforting.
Alex found it oddly reassuring to have the little girl there comforting her, "I'm s-sorry I d-don't mean to cry in front of you."
"It's ok, sometimes you just can't hold back the river."
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