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Alex called a taxi to come pick her up and bring her to the restaurant. As she was waiting she took one final look in the mirror. It wasn't supposed to be a formal diner, just a nice get-together. She wore her brown hair down, she wondered if Huang and Cragen would recognize her with out her blonde hair, but then again Elliot had when they were in the bar, she reasoned with herself.

Bethany and her mother both sat alone in separate rooms, they never really talked and Alex wondered how good their relationship was. Bethany was careful about letting it known that she disliked her mother, she only gave subtle hints like calling her mother, mother instead of mom or mommy.

Suddenly Alex heard a car horn and looking outside she saw the taxi had arrived.

"Where to miss?" the cab driver questioned.

Alex told him the name of the restaurant and the street it was on, and then they were on they're way.

Alex disliked taxis, and she couldn't help but notice this one had a strange smell. The seats were black and the one beside her had a tare in it.

Alex stared out her window at New York City, memories around every corner, but soon she'd have to say good-bye again. Would it be worth it if witness protection found out about her trip to New York City? She'd definitely be moved again, but she feared that wouldn't be the worst part.

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When Alex arrived everyone was already seated around a table, it was simple with a white cloth, cutlery, plates and menus.

"Alex." Cragen said, "Elliot told me witness protection had let you go, why wasn't I the first to know?" he said jokingly.

The way he spoke it was as if he didn't realize the truth, then again maybe he didn't. Huang was seated between Casey and Olivia, his eyes narrowed slightly for a moment looking at Alex. Alex knew he had figured it out already, even so for the sake of all her friends she tried to act natural, as if nothing was wrong. Her attention shifted to Casey who was looking uncomfortable.

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Casey looked nervously at Alex, she tried to look professional but she was too nervous. This was the woman she had replaced, although she had grown to be friends with her colleagues, she knew that they still loved Alex and missed her.

Tonight she came face to face with Alex, it was silly but she felt somewhat jealous of Alex who seemed to have everyone's attention.

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After they had gotten their food, Munch was discussing his newest conspiracy theory but Alex wasn't really listening though, because her mind lay somewhere else. If witness protection caught her she knew it would be worth it.

Everyone seemed to be talking except for Alex and Casey. Alex tried to think of something to spark some conversation between them, but nothing came to mind that wouldn't be awkward.

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By the end of the night everyone except for Huang, Alex and Casey seemed to be drunk. Fin and Munch were arguing over something but nobody knew exactly what that something was.

Casey left first out of anyone, not giving much of an explanation, just saying something about a busy day tomorrow. She almost started crying on the way home, feeling as if she wasn't as important to Alex.

Alex and Huang were the last ones there. "Alex why are you here?" Huang questioned.

"What do you mean?"

"You know perfectly well what I mean, I can tell that you're lying about witness protection letting you go. Did you honestly think I wouldn't be able to figure it out? If I didn't then I'd be pretty bad at what I do."

It was all over now, Huang had figured it out, now witness protection would find out and who knows what would happen to her then. "You-you don't understand what it's like, my whole life was taken away from me, Alex is legally dead, I am nothing but a shadow of the past." Alex spoke a little shakily.

Huang couldn't help but pity Alex, but what could he do, he'd have to tell witness protection about her, but she was still his friend, even after all these years.

"Listen Alex lets just say that I haven't figured it out yet, I-I this isn't professional of me but I'm not going to tell witness protection about you. They'll eventually figure it out by themselves anyways. However I have a good friend who's a psychiatrist, I want you to go a session with her, do you think you can do that?"

Alex had no idea what to say, this was totally unlike the Huang she had known. She held back a smile thinking of the way he had said 'good friend' he hide it well but Alex suspected this psychiatrist was a little more than just a good friend. "Ok I'll go to a session with her." Alex said after a moment of silence.

"Here I'll give you her business card, but I'll call her first to arrange everything." he said. "But untell then I have one simple request."

Alex was rather annoyed, because it was like Huang was talking to her like alittle girl. "Ok."

"Please stop talking about yourself like Alex is another person, it's not healthy,you're still Alex and although you may have a new name, you stillaren'tdead."

No shes dead,Alex died a long time ago. Alex thought.

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Later that night:

"Detective Olivia Benson, New York City special victims unit speaking."

"Hi Olivia it's Alex."

"Oh hi Alex."

"I was wondering if you have any free time this week, for an old friend."

"Well we haven't had many serious crimes in awhile and I haven't used any of my days off yet so yeah I think I could spare some time for an old friend."

"Of course you haven't used any of your days of, you're such a workaholic." Alex said jokingly.

You used to be that way too, before you were put into witness protection, Olivia thought but decided against saying anything about witness protection. "It's getting late but um maybe tomorrow we should meet up."

"Yeah um wanna go uh…"

"Hey I have an idea why don't we go shopping?"

"Olivia wants to go shopping?" Alex replied jokingly.

"Yeah well I could use I new wardrobe."

Authors note: OK I know not that many exciting things happened in this chapter but please Review. Critasism is welcome as long has it's constructive critacism. Next chapter should be more exciting than this one.