Disclaimer: I don't own SVU or any of its characters… I only wish I did but they belong to Dick Wolf (The genius… sigh) . But I do own the characters I make up so yeah…
Velez…could it really have been him? The former ADA wondered has she and Olivia walked in silence.
"Hey Alex, you all right? You're being well pretty quiet."
"Y-yeah-yeah just you know thinking…"
"Okay… and are you gonna tell me what about?"
"No…no…but it really isn't too important…"
"Hmm okay… um yeah okay…"
They continued to walk in a awkward silence, of course it was important, Alex thought, seeing the man who was once out to kill you cant exactly be considered a good omen.
Eventually the two old friends reached the mall Olivia had been talking about. "This is it." Olivia said gesturing with her hand at the building. The mall was quite large; Alex smiled knowing that this would be a good way to end her visit to New York City.
"Great lets start shopping then shall we?" Alex asked.
"Yeah, race you to the doors." Olivia said with a wild smile.
Alex sighed, "You really don't do this much do you?" she asked, but raced Olivia anyways like she would race her friends has a small child.
Olivia easily beat her and by the time Alex did get to the doors she was wheezing, "I…. really should…g-get in shape…" she muttered.
"C'mon lets go, I want to be broke by the end of the day!" Olivia said still with the same wild grin on her face.
"You keep on surprising me detective. This is so… uncharacteristic of you…"
Olivia smiled then walked inside, Alex sighed then followed her. Olivia ran through shops like a small child, Alex followed her around feeling like her babysitter.
"C'mon Alex." Olivia said after a while, "This is still your first week of freedom, it won't do you any harm to have some fun and be a kid again now will it?"
"But…"
Olivia sighed, "No buts, c'mon I've already bought a jacket and you have barely looked at anything…"
But I'm not free, Alex thought, how can you be so blind to my lie? It was hurting Alex so much to lie to Olivia, but she promised herself that by the end of the day she'd tell Olivia the truth.
"C'mon they even have a roller costar in this mall, how about we have a ride?"
Alex smiled slightly, "Sure sounds…fun." She said. Truth be told she was usually too afraid to go on roller costars but, it was in a mall so how big could it be right? But when they got to the roller costar Alex realized just how wrong she was. The roller costar was huge; it seemed to stretch around the whole mall. Alex felt sick just looking at it. "This is your whole reason for coming to this mall isn't it?"
"No well for choosing this mall maybe, but I do want to go shopping…" Olivia said, but Alex could tell that something in her eyes appeared to be thinking if something else. They still remained unreadable of course; Alex would only be able to find out what Olivia was thinking about if she asked, but she wouldn't something told her now wasn't the time anyways.
"Right, well let's get in line then…" Alex said with a slight hint of dread in her voice.
Olivia smiled, "You're scared aren't you? C'mon I wont be so bad." Olivia said in a comforting voice.
"I'm scared…but I wont be okay…" Alex said but she wasn't thinking of the roller costar she was thinking of seeing Velez.
Olivia was silent; Alex could tell that she was still thinking about something. But she didn't even have time to ask Olivia what that something was because they had already reached the front of the line.
They both paid a small fee to get on, and then Olivia insisted that they sit in the front of the costar.
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Meanwhile:
Bethany and Tabitha were at Tabitha's computer trying to find out who would be on Velez's cruise today but they had no luck.
"Well I don't think it will make a difference who's on the cruise thingy tonight so why don't we stop wasting time here and get going?" Tabitha asked.
"Okay-okay you're right lets go."
Tabitha quickly ran up to her mom to tell her that she and Bethany would be out for a while. They then proceeded to grab their coats and put their shoes on.
"BYE MOM!" Tabitha yelled as they walked out the door and into the cool air. Bethany shivered slightly, she wasn't cold but she was a little frightened. "Common we'll be fine." Tabitha said to her.
"Yeah-yeah I know…"
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Alex put the seat belt tight around her then an inspector came to make sure that everyone was safely sitting on the roller costar.
The roller costar began to move up hill, until they were has high as can be then it shot straight down. Behind her Alex could here the screams of delight coming from the other passengers. Olivia wasn't smiling her face seemed almost relaxed, she appeared to be the same old Olivia, Alex was somewhat relived it had surprised her to see the detective smiling earlier and se had thought that her last day in New York wouldn't really be with Olivia.
To the people down below the roller costar appeared to be nothing but a red streak, but Alex remained calm. Her mind thought about Velez, her heart wanted nothing to do with Velez, it wanted to forget about him, but her mind knew that she was in grave danger.
She turned slightly to look at Olivia, please forgive me for lying to you, Alex thought. It was then that something inside the former ADA that had been buried when she was shot resurfaced. Velez ruined my life, she thought, he took everything and everyone away from me, I wont let him do that again, this time she was going to put him in jail for good or die trying. Her confidence returned and once more she Alexandra Cabot no longer Emily Jones.
Alexandra Cabot allowed herself to let in a dream, part of her mind thought it was impossible to dream well she was awake but she quickly cast away that thought. Then the dream came.
She was at the same beach again, sitting on a cliff with a field that seemed to stretch forever behind her. She began to walk into the water this time she wasn't alone, there was a giant cruise ship headed towards the lights in the distance, she could see Bethany on the deck, with someone else both watching the lights in the distance. Alex could also see dark figures and shadows inside the ship through the many windows.
She began to swim the water was cold against her, but she didn't mind something told her that she had to reach the lights before the cruise ship did.
Eventually she found herself beside her body yet again, the same blue eyes stared lifelessly at the sky, the head occasionally bobbing underwater, but this time the hair was brown.
"Emily…no yes I mean because I am Alexandra Cabot." She whispered, "But I'm not going to leave anything behind this time…you are a part of me now." She grabbed 'Emily's' hand and began to try and swim again to the lights; the ship was too far ahead of her now…it was too late.
Then when her hopes of getting to the lights before the ship were gone, Alex saw the ship didn't appear to be moving and soon she found herself side by side with the ship. Why had it stopped, she thought. Then she saw on the deck Bethany and another faceless figure were there, Bethany appeared to be smiling, but she didn't stop she knew she had to keep going.
Suddenly Alex recalled she was still on the roller costar, Olivia was talking to her, "Uh hey you in there? C'mon the rides over…."
"Oh uh yeah sorry." She said then a slight smile spread across her face, "Come on lets go shopping."
"Oh you're finally ready for some fun then?" Olivia asked in a somewhat mocking voice, "Hey don't worry I wont scare you by smiling again."
"You didn't scare me… you should smile more…" Alex said to her best friend, "Anyways come on lets go celebrate my freedom."
Authors note: Okay well you know the usual R&R oh and I was at and I found out that the actress who plays Olivia: Mariska Hargitay is pregnant. Okay this may not come has something new to you but I only just found out… so yeah! But I wonder since she's pregnant will she still be able to act on SVU or will she like stop for… a while. And um i'm gonna make the rating T just for safety.
