Disclaimer: I don't own Law and Order SVU or any of its characters, they belong to dick wolf, I do however own any characters that I make up, and also the song 'Fix You' belongs to coldplay.
By the end of the day Alex and Olivia left the mall each with giant shopping bags and empty pockets.
"I'm so glad you're back Alex."
"Yeah-yeah me too…it's nice to see everyone again, I missed you all so much." Alex said trying to sound natural as if nothing was wrong, as if she weren't lying to her best friend. When she had been in the changing room Alex had noticed some of her old blonde hair was starting to grow back, though it wasn't noticeable yet. She wondered, could she one day just walk back into her old life? Without lying to her friends?
"You're really quiet, you okay?" Olivia asked after they had been walking in silence for fifteen minutes.
"No-no I'm a horrible person."
"What? No you're not…"
Alex was silent for a few moments she knew that now was the time to tell Olivia the truth, now was the time to see the look of hurt and anger on her best friends face, "Listen 'Liv…I'm so sorry for everything…all I wanted was to say goodbye, I hope you forgive me."
"Forgive you for what?"
"For lying to you…for deceiving you…you my best friend."
"Alex what are you talking about?"
"Please forgive me… I'm not Alex I'm Emily Jones and I wasn't let out of witness protection-actually I'm here talking to you illegally."
Olivia stopped walking; her face was blank showing no emotion as usual, "But why?"
"I missed you all so much-please understand that I did this to simply see my friends again-please one day if this mess is ever over please forgive me. Good bye." She said tears falling freely from her face. She dropped her shopping bags on the ground and ran, leaving Olivia alone to face the stares of the passers by.
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"Listen mister why don't you tell Velez we're your nieces?"
"I could but that could lead to you getting hurt and that's not something I want to feel guilty for."
"Please… Listen t'morrows my birth day, I'll be thirteen, lets just count this as an early birth day present?"
"God I have no idea why I'm doing this…" The guy muttered to himself, "Fine get on now and hide. And remember if you're found I'm not gonna protect you."
"Thanks." Bethany said happy that everything was going well so far.
"Well that was…easy." Tabitha said after they had gotten inside.
"See, you should always trust my plans."
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The next day at the precinct:
"Hey 'Liv what's the matter? You don't look so well…" Elliot said in a concerned voice.
"Nothing-I'm just tired."
Casey walked in carrying a few cups of coffee, "Here, take some coffee before Munch notices you aren't drinking the coffee he made. I saw him at the coffee machine and went straight to starbucks."
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The previous night on the cruise ship:
"Quickly lets hide."
"Great idea lets hide now so we can be stuck underneath a coffee table for the next hour, sounds like fun."
"Oh quit it wit' the sarcasm Tab'" Bethany said wishing she hadn't brought Tabitha along with her, why is she here anyways? She thought glaring at Tabitha, she has nothing to do with Alex.
"Fine-fine. So you wanna hide under the green or the blue table?"
Bethany sighed and looked around the room, she knew she'd need a good hiding place that she could easily get out of to search for evidence. Everything looked clean and polished; there wasn't a spec of dust on the hard wood floor, nor a smudge on the windows.
"So by the way if we do find any evidence then how do explain being on the cruise ship-I mean we are kind of trespassing."
"Easy, we don't-we just tell that undercover cop guy."
"O yeah…good plan."
"Ok lets hide in that closet."
"What if someone goes in the closet?"
"Then we're screwed."
"Ah Bethy, you're still twelve but sounding more and more like a teenager every day-just think tomorrow you'll be thirteen."
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She had left Olivia alone and hurt but she had done what she'd come to do-she had said good-bye. It was as if a weight had been lifted off her chest and she was free. She was back at Bethany's cottage, Bethany's mother; May was nowhere to be seen.
Alex decided to turn on the radio; she needed some music to clear her mind. Fix you by coldplay started to play:
When
you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want
but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your
face
When you lose something you can't replace
And you love
someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights
will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to
fix you
And high up above or down below
When you're too in
love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just
what you're worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite
your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tears
streaming, down your face
When you lose something you cannot
replace
Tears streaming down your face
And I..
Tears
streaming, down your face
I promise you I will learn from my
mistakes
Tears streaming down your face
And I..
Lights
will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to
fix you.
"Those lights in my dreams…let them guide me home…I wanna go home so badly." The former ADA muttered to herself, tears streaming down her face, "God I love this song."
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"Oww stop touching me!"
"It's kinda hard when you're cramped in a closet." Tabitha complained.
"Whatever, shut up, I here somebody."
Even though they couldn't see anything the two friends could tell there were people coming onto the cruise ship. "Well I'm having fun what about you?" Tabitha asked sarcastically.
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(Once again this part takes place a day after the parts with beth and alex.)
Olivia hated how Casey always had the worst timing, right when she was mourning over the lose of her best friend the ADA who had replaced Alex had to come in offering coffee.
"You sure you're okay 'Liv?" Elliot asked taking a sip of his coffee.
"No."
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"Hello there Alex dear, are you okay?" May asked upon returning to the cottage.
"I've been better."
"Listen dear would you care to chat with an old woman?"
"Sure, I'll talk." Alex said hopping to get her mind off the pain.
"I'm forty-seven."
"You're not that old really…" Alex remarked.
"Me being a mother what I'm about to say will sound horrible but… I don't love Bethany. I mean she was a mistake."
"She's a lovely little girl."
"She's the daughter of a man whom I hated who's dead."
"Please just give her a chance May."
"She hates me too, I can feel it when she looks at me. She's her father, not one cell of her is me. I've tried to love her but I can't."
"May, where is this going?"
"I want you to be her legal guardian, she cares about you, that way she could stay with you… Listen I know it's a lot to ask but…"
"I cant… a few years ago I would have been able to but under certain circumstances I cant…I'm sorry."
"Oh…it's okay dear, I was getting ahead of myself, now tell me why you were crying when I came in."
"I miss my old life…I can't tell you much… but I suppose you could say that I'm on the run from somebody."
"The police?"
"No… a murderer…"
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Authors note: Okay tell me what you think, I won't update unless I get at least four more reviews, I'm doing this because I'm worried that no ones reading this fanfic anymore. But uh anyways you know the usual constructive criticism is welcome and stuff.
