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Dislaimer: Yes it's true, I don't own law and order SVU or any of its characters they belong to Dick Wolf. I do however own this story line and any characters that I make up.

"Al-Alex!" Bethany cried in desperation. She put one hand to Alex's heart and the other to her shoulder, trying to hold back all the blood, "Please-hang on-please." She muttered.

"The-the ambulance is on the way…" Tabitha said gasping for breath.

"Please help me hold back the blood 'Tab…please."

Tabitha fell to her knees and crawled over to Bethany feeling uncomfortable and unsure of herself but never the less took of her jacket and rapped it around Alex's arm-soaking her hands in the crimson liquid.

Tabitha felt numb and unable to react-was this really happening? Was a woman really dying before her eyes? No, she thought, this is just a game-save the woman and you get the prize? Right?

Bethany on the other hand had tears falling from her eyes blending in with Alex's blood; she knew Alex had little chance of surviving. A small nagging voice at the back of her mind reminded her of Velez's diary-should the worst happen and Alex dies, she thought, at least I can use the diary to put Velez in jail and get some revenge for Alex and no doubt the other victims that Velez must have. "Don't die." She whispered to Alex hopping that Alex could hear her.

"Ah well-well what do we have here?" A male voice said, expecting to see a police officer or a group of people with a stretcher to bring Alex to the ambulance Tabitha turned. Only she realized by the bloody knife in the man's hand that he was Alex's attacker.

"BETH!" She yelled much more loudly than she intended. No, Bethany thought, no wait if we can hold fort until the ambulance gets here we'll be okay. "Bethy…please…he…"

"Hello?" A new voice called. The ambulance and police had arrived.

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"Elliot. Enough, if I knew anything I'd tell you. Besides I read that article-you're a detective Elliot you should know that the police would be keeping this hush-hush! Their just not telling us everything-whoever that brunette was she's probably at the hospital right now…"

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"POLICE! PUT YOU'RE HANDS UP NOW!" Two officers yelled in unison upon seeing the seen-two small girls hunched over a woman's body trying to hold back the blood.

Bethany sighed knowing she was about to be saved-hopefully. Suddenly there were sharp pains shooting up her left arm-had she been shot? Her vision blurred and suddenly she could sense no more.

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"Doctor. Lirro, the kid's awake." A female voice said, Bethany could hear it but it seemed distant and faded, she opened her eyes and for a moment she thought she'd gone blind then her vision focused and she realized that she was looking up at the ceiling.

"Try moving honey." The same female voice said gently. Bethany turned her neck to the side to see who she was looking at. It was a young female nurse-Bethany narrowed her eyes to read the nametag the nurse was warring, "You're named…Nelly?" The nurse was young-very young maybe only 25 or so. She had her red hair tide back in a tight bun-she was pretty with stunning green eyes.

"Yes. Honey. Dear do you understand what happened to you?"

"Was I shot?"

"No." the nurse said after a brief pose, "Honey you had…a…heart attack-it's incredibly rare in someone your age and size but giving the circumstances…with your mother dying and that woman being shot and stabbed it understandable for you to be under a certain amount of stress-but it's still odd." The nurse said everything a little quickly as if hopping Bethany would somehow find it easier to hear that way.

Bethany stared not understanding, "What was that you said about my mother?" she asked slowly.

The nurse opened her mouth like she was about to speak then closed it and after a moment she said, "Uh you don't know…I mean never mind. Pretend you didn't talk to me okay honey? You had a heart attack you-you have rest."

The nurse leaves before Bethany can say anything to stop her. She lay down helplessly in her hospital bed looking at the ceiling desperately longing for human contact. Eventually the doctor came to see her followed by another man who appeared to be a police officer.

"Bethany Mr. Roberto is a police officer he'd like to have a word with you." The doctor said.

"Okay." She responded weakly.

Officer. Roberto sat down at a chair beside her bed, "Bethany-I'd like to talk with you about the older brunette woman who was shot-do think you can do that?"

"Is she okay?"

"I don't know-she's alive but barely from what I've heard it was lucky you got there when you did, I want you to tell me all you know about the man who shot her."

Bethany thought back to the diary-she couldn't tell the police officer that she had it. "He was erm carrying something-a diary he dropped it and I tried to take it-so did my friend Tabitha…but that was before I saw her-the lady you want to talk to me about on the floor then I forgot about the diary and went to help her-Tabitha called 911 and I guess you know the rest of the story…did you catch the guy?"

"Yes-he's been arrested-we also found that diary that you were talking about-did you somehow read it-flip through the pages, you and your friend?" He asked as he narrowed his eyes slightly.

Bethany knew they must have found her and Tabitha's prints on the inside of the pages but she decided to lie, "No."

"Okay well that's fine. Now once you get out of the hospital your friend Tabitha's mother has decided to take care of you for the time being." He wouldn't tell anyone that he knew the girls had stolen the diary-he couldn't risk Velez going free.

"What about my mother?"

"She…I'm not supposed to tell you this…not me." He took a deep intake of breath, "She committed suicide."

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Oceans, faces, humans, people, nature, everything. Everything seems to blend together and now it's as if I'm looking down at my self. Suddenly I realize I'm sleeping and open my eyes.

Alexandra Cabot lat numbly on her hospital bed, suddenly she had an urge to move to go for a run. She attempted to move her fingers but couldn't, all she could do was move her eyes. Where am I? She asked herself, then she realized that she was at the hospital at least that's what she figured because there were many machines and what looked like a heart monitor around her.

Her body wouldn't move no matter what she tried, suddenly she could feel fuzziness all over her body and once again a wave of black swept through her mind.

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Author's note: Okay tell me what you think, the story isn't over and it wont be for a while I don't think because I've got a few more ideas up my sleeve. Hmm should Alex die? I'm not sure if she will or not yet…ah well. Anyways review please and thanks.