Gravitation
Title: Clueless
Disclaimer: Sadly, I do not own
Gravitation
A/N: I'm sorry to all of my fans but I couldn't
find the papers I wrote the sequel to Makeikusa and so there will be
no sequel until I find them. I'm sorry for making you all wait so
long without notice. In the meanwhile, I wrote this story to keep my
fans busy. Hope you like it. I want to thank all of my fans for
sticking with me until the end of that story and hope you will
continue to support me and give me determination. All reviews are
appreciated, bad and good alike. Please continue to review! THANKYOU!
Chapter 1: Oblivious
Normal POV
"Yuki! I'm home! Sorry I'm late. I was going to hang out with Hiro tonight but I decided to come
home because I missed you!" Shuuichi said happily while bouncing up and down all around the
room. "I wish you went with Hiro. I could care less if you come home late." Yuki mumbled and
hoped Shuuichi didn't hear him otherwise he's have to sit through another one of his crying fits.
"But didn't you miss me too?" Shuuichi did here Yuki's remark. To Yuki's surprise, Shuuichi
didn't whine or complain this time. Yuki didn't answer. He really didn't have an excuse since he
didn't expect Shuuichi to hear him. If he did, Yuki thought Shuuichi would cry and then he could
kick him out if he didn't shut up. Shuuichi let it drop since he thought that it would end up in the
two of them fighting. He walked over to Yuki and stood behind him. Yuki either didn't seem to
care or forgot Shuuichi was there otherwise he would've kicked him out of his study by now. Now
that Shuuichi was standing behind Yuki, he had a perfect view of everything the writer was
writing down. Unfortunately, Yuki realized this and didn't want Shuuichi to read anything.
"Shuuichi, did you eat yet?" He made some excuse, any excuse, to get Shuuichi away from
him. "Nope. Are you hungry, Yuki? I'll make us something!" Shuuichi volunteered happily,
forgetting what he just read. "No, you'll either burn something or the food won't come out tasting
good. I'll help you." "Yuki, you don't usually help me with things. YAY!" Shuuichi danced around
the
room.
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After getting through dinner, it was already late and Yuki decided to go to sleep early since he
pulled an all nighter the night before. Shuuichi stayed up all night playing video games, as usual.
When he did get tired, he was ready to fall asleep in the spot he was sitting in while playing the
games. However, he remembered those papers he saw Yuki writing before.Yuki doesn't usually
handwrite things because he types it on his laptop. That must mean it's something important if
he hand wrote it. Shuuichi snuck quietly into the study and rummaged around in all the papers
in the desk. They weren't in the draws so they had to be on the desk but it was empty. Then,
Shuuichi saw a blue spiral notebook sitting on top of the laptop. There were papers inside of it.
The ones Shuuichi saw before. He took the papers along with the notebook and sat down in the
chair to read it. Not even half way finished with half the paper, Shuuichi knew what he was
reading and didn't like it. It hurt him deeply. Shuuchi got so mad that he felt like ripping it to
pieces but didn't because he wanted to read on and find out more. Shuuichi always did want to
know more about Yuki and his life. But this was too much. After finishing reading the book and
the papers inside, he put it perfectly back on the laptop the way it was so Yuki wouldn't know.
He was about to leave when he saw a picture hidden under the laptop. He looked at it and after
what he read, it didn't surprise him. However, he stared at the picture for a long time before
snapping out of it. After reading and seeing these things that Yuki kept from him for how long,
Shuuichi was really upset. Teary eyed and heartbroken, Shuuichi walked to his room and
crawled
into bed. He cried himself quietly to sleep.
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The next morning Shuuichi left to work early because he didn't want to see Yuki. Right now, he
just wanted time to think. Yuki was surprised how he wasn't woken up by his loud good morning
wake up calls but was grateful at the same time because he got to sleep in. Yuki's day was
perfect today. He didn't have to wake up early, Shuuichi didn't call him from work at all today and
neither did Tohma, and he hasn't gotten a visit from Mika pleading him to visit his parents in
Kyoto. All he had to do today was turn in his manuscript to his editor and was free the rest of
the day to do whatever he wanted.
In NG Productions, everyone was shocked at Shuuichi. He told Hiro his problem as he usually
does and all about the things he read that Yuki never told him and should have. But the reason
why everyone was shocked was because he didn't cry or whine. Instead, Shuuichi was able to
write all the lyrics for the upcoming album and sang perfectly today without any complaints. He
was doing better than what he usually did even though he was depressed. Hiro thought Shuuichi
expressed himself in his lyrics and in his singing instead of whining which was better and unlike
Shuuichi. It seemed to relieve Shuuichi and he felt good about it. Even though they finished
everything perfectly and without any problems, they still left work kind of late since Shuuichi
wanted to stay and practice, probably trying to avoid Yuki. After they left, he asked Hiro to hang
out with him a bit and later, they grabbed a bite to eat at a small not-too-fancy restaurant. Back
at Yuki's place, he wondered what took Shuuichi so long to come home. Then he thought that it
didn't
matter even if he was bored, he didn't want the brat to come home and
annoy him.
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A quarter to midnight, Shuuichi comes home. Yuki is in his study as usual. Usually, Shuuichi
would think that Yuki is typing his story but now knew how wrong he was and now knew what
Yuki was really writing about. "Yuki, I'm home." He said, not too loudly and not too happily
either. He sounded like he didn't want to be there and who could blame him after finding out what
he did. Yuki didn't answer him and Shuuichi wasn't expecting one. He took off his bag and
flopped lazily onto the couch. He didn't want to sleep in the bedroom, so he would go to sleep
right here. This would be the first night Shuuichi didn't eat at home or play video games before
going to sleep. He didn't care. A couple of minutes later, Yuki came out and saw Shuuichi laying
down on the couch under a blue blanket with only his pink hair on the pillow sticking out. "Are
you awake?" He asked quietly. Shuuichi shook his head 'yes' without taking off the blanket.
"You're not going to eat or play your games?" Yuki asked surprised. Again, Shuuichi shook his
head, this time 'no'. Yuki sat next to Shuuichi and looked at him. "You leave work early and you
come home late. You tell me your home very quietly and don't even come into the study. Now
you don't want to eat and you're not playing games. Something's wrong. What is it?" Yuki
asked, hoping he didn't sound to concerned. Shuuichi poked his head out of the blanket and
stared at Yuki. "Nothing." He said as he looked away and lay back down. "Shuuichi-" "Yuki, do
you love me?" Yuki was taken back by this question. Shuuichi sounded serious this time. Yuki
didn't answer him though. "I thought so. Your silence says enough." Shuuichi buried his head
back under the blanket. "What's that suppose to mean-" "Don't lie to me anymore, Yuki. I know
everything. I don't want to hear anymore lies and excuses! I saw the papers last night. I read all
of it. The book too." Shuuichi cut him off and tightened his hold on the blanket as if it would
protect him.
Yuki was pissed off now. He couldn't believe Shuuichi snuck into his study. Not only that, but he
also went snooping around in his things and saw what he didn't want Shuuichi to see. "You
know you're not allowed in there. And who gave you permission to go through my things?" Yuki
sounded angrier then he usually gets. This time, it was serious. "No one. But it doesn't matter
now. I know the truth. Why didn't you tell me? I thought you cared for me!" Shuuichi said quickly
jumping out from under the blanket and sat facing Yuki, tears threatening to fall. "I kind of
thought you new from the way I acted towards you. But you never seem to get the picture." Yuki
was only being sarcastic but Shuuichi was so upset hat he didn't catch the sarcasm in his voice
and took it seriously. The tears that stung the edge of his eyes finally rolled down his cheek and
off his chin. Yuki reached out a hand to wipe Shuuichi's tears but he smacked Yuki's hand
away, allowing his tears to fall freely. He wanted to make Yuki feel guilty and regret what he did.
"Don't touch me!" Shuuichi was serious.
He didn't cry and complain his usual way because he knew that all the things Yuki said were
now all true. Yuki narrowed his eyes and stared at Shuuichi. "How much do you know?" "All of
it! I know that you still care for-" He paused. "...Kitazawa Yuki. That you're still in love with
that dead guy who harasses you. That you hate me and wish you never met me! You wish
Kitazawa was still alive so you wouldn't have to be with me... And you never... Once cared
for me. You never think of me. If you do... They're thoughts like, "Shuuichi's annoying," "Why
don't he just disappear from my life and leave me the hell alone," and one thought you wished
I... Died. Sniff You want to rid of me and be with him. Personally... I think I'm better than
Kitazawa. I healed you and cared for you and stayed by your side when others... Didn't. I even
know the reason why Tohma was always so cold to me. Because... You told him to since he
would do anything for you, Eiri. You like everyone... Except me! Why? Why don't you care for
m- Why am I not loved?" Shuuichi finally broke down into tears and buried his face in his hands.
He cried uncontrollably, unable to speak further. He wanted to say more but- "Is that what you
really believe? You're no better than he was. If you were, you would have left me alone from the
beginning. Instead, you stayed and made me suffer not heal. If anything, you made my life
worse." Yuki's word cut deep. "I only wanted to make you happy. I never meant to hurt you!"
Now Shuuichi was yelling too much that he could taste blood in his throat. "Make me happy?
Well you never once made me happy. Why do you think I kick you out all the time or yell at you
or that I'm happy when you're not around."
Shuuichi brought his head up from his hands long enough to glare at Yuki as if that look alone
could kill him. He hated Yuki so much right now and wanted him out of his sight. "Leave me
alone. I hate you, Yuki!" "That's a new one. You promised you'd always love me, didn't you?"
Yuki said, coldly. "I take it back! Maybe you belong with someone like Kitazawa after all. You
sure as hell don't deserve me! It would've been better if he were still alive so that the bastard
could suffer living with you in my place!" "Shut the hell up! You damn annoying spoiled little
brat!" Yuki yelled and Shuuichi flinched at his sudden outburst. Yuki got up and Shuuichi hid
under the blanket like it were a shield since he thought Yuki was going to hit him. Instead, Yuki
walked by him without another word and went to the room and slammed the door shut. Shuuichi
was hurt and upset beyond recover. He still cried uncontrollably. He lay back down, his body
under the blanket and his head under the pillow. "I hate you, Yuki." was the last thing he
murmured.
Once again, he cried himself quietly to sleep, tear soaking the
pillow and couch.
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Around one thirty in the morning, a little while after their fight, Yuki comes out of his room and
into the living room. He looked down at Shuuichi was just barely sleeping. He was restlessly
sleeping. Shuuichi was still crying in his sleep. The blanket wasn't fully on him, so Yuki covered
him and Shuuichi mumbled, "Yuki, why don't you love me when I... Care for you so much?"
and turned over to the other side facing Yuki but still asleep. Yuki gently wiped the tears from
Shuuichi's face and brushed a lock of pink hair from his eyes. He gave Shuuichi a kiss on the
cheek and whispered in his ear, "That's the last kiss you'll get from me. Farewell, Shuuichi."
And with that, Yuki walked out the door, never to be seen by Shuuichi or anyone he knew here
again.
