Gravitation
Title:
Clueless
Disclaimer: Sadly, I do not own Gravitation
A/N: I'm sorry to all of my fans but I couldn't find the papers I wrote the sequel to Makeikusa and so there will be no sequel until I find them. I'm sorry for making you all wait so long without notice. In the meanwhile, I wrote this story to keep my fans busy. Hope you like it. I want to thank all of my fans for sticking with me until the end of that story and hope you will continue to support me and give me determination. All reviews are appreciated, bad and good alike. Please continue to review! THANKYOU!

Chapter 1: Oblivious

Normal POV

"Yuki! I'm home! Sorry I'm late. I was going to hang out with Hiro tonight but I decided to come

home because I missed you!" Shuuichi said happily while bouncing up and down all around the

room. "I wish you went with Hiro. I could care less if you come home late." Yuki mumbled and

hoped Shuuichi didn't hear him otherwise he's have to sit through another one of his crying fits.

"But didn't you miss me too?" Shuuichi did here Yuki's remark. To Yuki's surprise, Shuuichi

didn't whine or complain this time. Yuki didn't answer. He really didn't have an excuse since he

didn't expect Shuuichi to hear him. If he did, Yuki thought Shuuichi would cry and then he could

kick him out if he didn't shut up. Shuuichi let it drop since he thought that it would end up in the

two of them fighting. He walked over to Yuki and stood behind him. Yuki either didn't seem to

care or forgot Shuuichi was there otherwise he would've kicked him out of his study by now. Now

that Shuuichi was standing behind Yuki, he had a perfect view of everything the writer was

writing down. Unfortunately, Yuki realized this and didn't want Shuuichi to read anything.

"Shuuichi, did you eat yet?" He made some excuse, any excuse, to get Shuuichi away from

him. "Nope. Are you hungry, Yuki? I'll make us something!" Shuuichi volunteered happily,

forgetting what he just read. "No, you'll either burn something or the food won't come out tasting

good. I'll help you." "Yuki, you don't usually help me with things. YAY!" Shuuichi danced around

the room.
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After getting through dinner, it was already late and Yuki decided to go to sleep early since he

pulled an all nighter the night before. Shuuichi stayed up all night playing video games, as usual.

When he did get tired, he was ready to fall asleep in the spot he was sitting in while playing the

games. However, he remembered those papers he saw Yuki writing before.Yuki doesn't usually

handwrite things because he types it on his laptop. That must mean it's something important if

he hand wrote it. Shuuichi snuck quietly into the study and rummaged around in all the papers

in the desk. They weren't in the draws so they had to be on the desk but it was empty. Then,

Shuuichi saw a blue spiral notebook sitting on top of the laptop. There were papers inside of it.

The ones Shuuichi saw before. He took the papers along with the notebook and sat down in the

chair to read it. Not even half way finished with half the paper, Shuuichi knew what he was

reading and didn't like it. It hurt him deeply. Shuuchi got so mad that he felt like ripping it to

pieces but didn't because he wanted to read on and find out more. Shuuichi always did want to

know more about Yuki and his life. But this was too much. After finishing reading the book and

the papers inside, he put it perfectly back on the laptop the way it was so Yuki wouldn't know.

He was about to leave when he saw a picture hidden under the laptop. He looked at it and after

what he read, it didn't surprise him. However, he stared at the picture for a long time before

snapping out of it. After reading and seeing these things that Yuki kept from him for how long,

Shuuichi was really upset. Teary eyed and heartbroken, Shuuichi walked to his room and

crawled into bed. He cried himself quietly to sleep.
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The next morning Shuuichi left to work early because he didn't want to see Yuki. Right now, he

just wanted time to think. Yuki was surprised how he wasn't woken up by his loud good morning

wake up calls but was grateful at the same time because he got to sleep in. Yuki's day was

perfect today. He didn't have to wake up early, Shuuichi didn't call him from work at all today and

neither did Tohma, and he hasn't gotten a visit from Mika pleading him to visit his parents in

Kyoto. All he had to do today was turn in his manuscript to his editor and was free the rest of

the day to do whatever he wanted.

In NG Productions, everyone was shocked at Shuuichi. He told Hiro his problem as he usually

does and all about the things he read that Yuki never told him and should have. But the reason

why everyone was shocked was because he didn't cry or whine. Instead, Shuuichi was able to

write all the lyrics for the upcoming album and sang perfectly today without any complaints. He

was doing better than what he usually did even though he was depressed. Hiro thought Shuuichi

expressed himself in his lyrics and in his singing instead of whining which was better and unlike

Shuuichi. It seemed to relieve Shuuichi and he felt good about it. Even though they finished

everything perfectly and without any problems, they still left work kind of late since Shuuichi

wanted to stay and practice, probably trying to avoid Yuki. After they left, he asked Hiro to hang

out with him a bit and later, they grabbed a bite to eat at a small not-too-fancy restaurant. Back

at Yuki's place, he wondered what took Shuuichi so long to come home. Then he thought that it

didn't matter even if he was bored, he didn't want the brat to come home and annoy him.
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A quarter to midnight, Shuuichi comes home. Yuki is in his study as usual. Usually, Shuuichi

would think that Yuki is typing his story but now knew how wrong he was and now knew what

Yuki was really writing about. "Yuki, I'm home." He said, not too loudly and not too happily

either. He sounded like he didn't want to be there and who could blame him after finding out what

he did. Yuki didn't answer him and Shuuichi wasn't expecting one. He took off his bag and

flopped lazily onto the couch. He didn't want to sleep in the bedroom, so he would go to sleep

right here. This would be the first night Shuuichi didn't eat at home or play video games before

going to sleep. He didn't care. A couple of minutes later, Yuki came out and saw Shuuichi laying

down on the couch under a blue blanket with only his pink hair on the pillow sticking out. "Are

you awake?" He asked quietly. Shuuichi shook his head 'yes' without taking off the blanket.

"You're not going to eat or play your games?" Yuki asked surprised. Again, Shuuichi shook his

head, this time 'no'. Yuki sat next to Shuuichi and looked at him. "You leave work early and you

come home late. You tell me your home very quietly and don't even come into the study. Now

you don't want to eat and you're not playing games. Something's wrong. What is it?" Yuki

asked, hoping he didn't sound to concerned. Shuuichi poked his head out of the blanket and

stared at Yuki. "Nothing." He said as he looked away and lay back down. "Shuuichi-" "Yuki, do

you love me?" Yuki was taken back by this question. Shuuichi sounded serious this time. Yuki

didn't answer him though. "I thought so. Your silence says enough." Shuuichi buried his head

back under the blanket. "What's that suppose to mean-" "Don't lie to me anymore, Yuki. I know

everything. I don't want to hear anymore lies and excuses! I saw the papers last night. I read all

of it. The book too." Shuuichi cut him off and tightened his hold on the blanket as if it would

protect him.

Yuki was pissed off now. He couldn't believe Shuuichi snuck into his study. Not only that, but he

also went snooping around in his things and saw what he didn't want Shuuichi to see. "You

know you're not allowed in there. And who gave you permission to go through my things?" Yuki

sounded angrier then he usually gets. This time, it was serious. "No one. But it doesn't matter

now. I know the truth. Why didn't you tell me? I thought you cared for me!" Shuuichi said quickly

jumping out from under the blanket and sat facing Yuki, tears threatening to fall. "I kind of

thought you new from the way I acted towards you. But you never seem to get the picture." Yuki

was only being sarcastic but Shuuichi was so upset hat he didn't catch the sarcasm in his voice

and took it seriously. The tears that stung the edge of his eyes finally rolled down his cheek and

off his chin. Yuki reached out a hand to wipe Shuuichi's tears but he smacked Yuki's hand

away, allowing his tears to fall freely. He wanted to make Yuki feel guilty and regret what he did.

"Don't touch me!" Shuuichi was serious.

He didn't cry and complain his usual way because he knew that all the things Yuki said were

now all true. Yuki narrowed his eyes and stared at Shuuichi. "How much do you know?" "All of

it! I know that you still care for-" He paused. "...Kitazawa Yuki. That you're still in love with

that dead guy who harasses you. That you hate me and wish you never met me! You wish

Kitazawa was still alive so you wouldn't have to be with me... And you never... Once cared

for me. You never think of me. If you do... They're thoughts like, "Shuuichi's annoying," "Why

don't he just disappear from my life and leave me the hell alone," and one thought you wished

I... Died. Sniff You want to rid of me and be with him. Personally... I think I'm better than

Kitazawa. I healed you and cared for you and stayed by your side when others... Didn't. I even

know the reason why Tohma was always so cold to me. Because... You told him to since he

would do anything for you, Eiri. You like everyone... Except me! Why? Why don't you care for

m- Why am I not loved?" Shuuichi finally broke down into tears and buried his face in his hands.

He cried uncontrollably, unable to speak further. He wanted to say more but- "Is that what you

really believe? You're no better than he was. If you were, you would have left me alone from the

beginning. Instead, you stayed and made me suffer not heal. If anything, you made my life

worse." Yuki's word cut deep. "I only wanted to make you happy. I never meant to hurt you!"

Now Shuuichi was yelling too much that he could taste blood in his throat. "Make me happy?

Well you never once made me happy. Why do you think I kick you out all the time or yell at you

or that I'm happy when you're not around."

Shuuichi brought his head up from his hands long enough to glare at Yuki as if that look alone

could kill him. He hated Yuki so much right now and wanted him out of his sight. "Leave me

alone. I hate you, Yuki!" "That's a new one. You promised you'd always love me, didn't you?"

Yuki said, coldly. "I take it back! Maybe you belong with someone like Kitazawa after all. You

sure as hell don't deserve me! It would've been better if he were still alive so that the bastard

could suffer living with you in my place!" "Shut the hell up! You damn annoying spoiled little

brat!" Yuki yelled and Shuuichi flinched at his sudden outburst. Yuki got up and Shuuichi hid

under the blanket like it were a shield since he thought Yuki was going to hit him. Instead, Yuki

walked by him without another word and went to the room and slammed the door shut. Shuuichi

was hurt and upset beyond recover. He still cried uncontrollably. He lay back down, his body

under the blanket and his head under the pillow. "I hate you, Yuki." was the last thing he

murmured. Once again, he cried himself quietly to sleep, tear soaking the pillow and couch.
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Around one thirty in the morning, a little while after their fight, Yuki comes out of his room and

into the living room. He looked down at Shuuichi was just barely sleeping. He was restlessly

sleeping. Shuuichi was still crying in his sleep. The blanket wasn't fully on him, so Yuki covered

him and Shuuichi mumbled, "Yuki, why don't you love me when I... Care for you so much?"

and turned over to the other side facing Yuki but still asleep. Yuki gently wiped the tears from

Shuuichi's face and brushed a lock of pink hair from his eyes. He gave Shuuichi a kiss on the

cheek and whispered in his ear, "That's the last kiss you'll get from me. Farewell, Shuuichi."

And with that, Yuki walked out the door, never to be seen by Shuuichi or anyone he knew here

again.