Heya,

I need to keep this short because I have an essay due in two days and a freakin' scary amount of psychology reading to catch up on.

I just found out that Zanisha-san's birthday is today (The 7th, in case clock is sketchy. It's midnight here) and I realized that I needed to post her a story. This one isn't anything extremely awe-inspiring (I whipped it up quickly for posting sake) and I plan on writing something better for Zanisha-san once school backs off a little.

This is a special story for Zanisha-san that applies only to her. There is one character that I know she keeps in her dwelling (by means of a Teddy Bear...I think?) Anyways, the speaker is Riku and he's talking to Zanisha-san herself and mentioning that specific character throughout. I know almost everyone reading this will think he's talking to Kairi, about Sora, which is what I hoped the unaware will mistake. Those of you who know me should know that I HATE RikuxKairi, and therefore, this is not that.

Dedication: Zanisha. I thought this up this morning and finished writing it down when I got home. Riku is speaking to you, reflecting on the one person he knows has a stronger place in your heart. I hope you know who I'm talking about. If anyone else does, good for them.

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He hated it. He hated that there was something he couldn't have… something that he couldn't have a say in. He gave up everything; He lost their home, hoping to show her everything books couldn't; drunk in the darkness to gain anything…But the one thing he wanted most…was in love with the golden sands


Grains of Sand


I always knew it would come to this
I didn't want to believe it
Accept it or reject it
But I doubt I could have stopped you
It just would never come to be

I always knew you liked him better
That much was plain to see
I knew you saw me…saw us both
Hidden in the shadows
I guess his eyes were brighter

I always knew he was more interesting
Within your alchemistic cinnamon eyes
He filled your heart
With more inspiring words
I wish I could have done the same

I always knew I would lose this fight
His grin was just stronger
Along with his alluring past
Your eyes always looked to him
His stories more attracting to tell

I always knew I couldn't have you
Only to myself as a friend
His strength and abilities
Bested my hopes and imagination
I just didn't have his inner "demons"

The ones that conquered us both…

I always knew I would lose you
To him and his powerful hand
It captured your heart and took you away
It wasn't threads that held you
But rather the golden, twilit sand

I always knew I'd never have you
That much is plain to see
I'm glad you still look over your shoulder
Once and while, and think of me

But…

I wanted us to be…